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[lesbianforleela]

that autistic CAMHS feel when you're told that your overwhelming anxiety that's stopping you from doing basic shit like going to school isn't important because you're autistic and it's all down to that.

#seriously fuck camhs #actuallyautistic #actuallyanxious #actuallymentallyill #camhs

[lesbianforleela]

I don't want to shit on services because I know it's related to funding but like?? the people I'm working with are also dreadful?? I know you might not get the right amount of money but if you say you're going to do something fucking do it?? if you're going to see a person with a disability please for the love of god tell them that you know nothing about it?? and then either do something about your lack of understanding or just don't interact?? p l e a s e ? ? I am sick of getting piss poor service because no one understands or accepts that I'm autistic and therefore don't function the same as their allistic patients?? you don't treat someone with a physical disability like it doesn't exist so why are you doing it to me??

#camhs #mental illness #actuallymentallyill #actuallyautistic

[lesbianforleela]

My Hospital Experience.

Back in July I was admitted to hospital after I'd self harmed and then started hurting myself more because I had done that resulting in a complete break down and then being in hospital.

We got there at about 11 and weren't taken to a bed until gone 12. The waiting room had screaming babies and since I was only 15 I couldn't go to the adult ward. I was having a sensory overload the entire time which was less than pleasant.

We saw a nurse and went to a room that was freezing cold and were given no pillows or cushions, blankets or duvets. I had my weighted blanket with me luckily but my dad had to sleep sat up laying his head on the bed.

At 5am we were moved to the actual children's ward where I slept until 9. I was told that I'd see a CAMHS worker soon and go straight home after that. I didn't. I saw the worker at about 12 and weren't discharged for another 2 and a half hours.

Neither of us knew how long we would end up being there so neither of us had chargers so all our phones ran out so I couldn't drown out the young children on the ward or contact my mum when we were leaving.

Nothing came from that CAMHS worker so either her report was rubbish, she didn't submit it or CAMHS don't care. All are highly plausible and that's not great to be honest.

Anyway moral of the story is that I'm never going back to the hospital even if it's life threatening.

#i left in more pain than i went in with #thanks to their beds #and shitty pillows #actuallyautistic #actuallymentallyill #actuallyanxious #tw: self harm #tw: self harm mention

[lesbianforleela]

Introduction

I'm Emmi, I'm 17, I have High Functioning Autism (I hate functioning labels but there you go), Pathological Demand Avoidance (PDA), and Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD). I currently attend a specialist school.

I have been dealing with services surrounding my behavior since I was about 7 and during those appointments my parents were told that I could not be autistic meaning my diagnosis didn't end up happening until 2016. I believe this happened in part because of a lack of understanding of female autism.

My aspiration is to inspire change in the way people view autism and ensure that autistic children in the future live with services that understand them and can positively effect their lives.

[lesbianforleela]

First Post

Hey I'm Emmi.

I'm not sure what to say so sorry if this isn't coherent.

Basically my aim for this blog is to collect stories of people living in the UK and their struggles with CAMHS and their autism and how those two interlink.

If you want to submit your story it would be great if it included your age as well as the diagnosis you have and the length of time you have been with with CAMHS and related services. If you want to include a name that's fine and if you do but don't want it to be on the post just tell me.

Sorry if this comes off weird I just want to create a space where young mentally ill autistic people can vent.

#actuallyautistic #actuallymentallyill #camhs #autism