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Daily Bread with Breakfast

It is so important for me to daily get into the Word of God. Some days I fail at this. But I try my best to be consistent at getting into the Word. I am currently reading through Psalms and Exodus.

#Christian #Bible #bible study #bible journaling #Jesus follower

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There's a genuine terror for a certain percentage of us with Tourettes that we may be actually KILLED OR ASSAULTED for ticcing in the wrong time and in the wrong place to the wrong person.

People think we're drunk or on drugs or we mean what we say and somehow that gives them the right to abuse us.

What I say as a tic is ALWAYS out of my control, but your reaction is 1000% in YOUR control.

Do better for those of us with neurological illnesses.

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Gee I wonder why I relate so much to Vanellope from wreck it Ralph.

1. Her glitches reminds me of my tics and how she is separated from the others reminds me of I feel separated from everyone, even my own mother, with my tics

2. Gets super excited easily like me over small things like friendship. Also values it deeply and will be hurt by betrayal

Huh, weird. She’s like me fr fr

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"Never jump into a pile of leaves with a wet sucker." IT’S THE GREAT PUMPKIN, CHARLIE BROWN (1966), dir. Bill Melendez.

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There's a genuine terror for a certain percentage of us with Tourettes that we may be actually KILLED OR ASSAULTED for ticcing in the wrong time and in the wrong place to the wrong person.

People think we're drunk or on drugs or we mean what we say and somehow that gives them the right to abuse us.

What I say as a tic is ALWAYS out of my control, but your reaction is 1000% in YOUR control.

Do better for those of us with neurological illnesses.

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Shout out to adults with Tourette's. Shout out to 40 year olds whose tics are just as severe as when they were 14. Shout out to everyone who was told they would grow out of it and never did.

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One thing about being autistic is so many things are either Very Texture (MMMMM...) or Very Texture (AAAGGGGHHH!)

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How Childhood Trauma Can Show Up In Adulthood

Childhood trauma can have a deep and lasting impact on your development, some scenarios we would not even consider to be " trauma" but it comes down to how you as a child perceived the situation. To add to that, you could have had a great childhood factually, or by your understanding, because it is all you knew. I’ll give you an example, do you find yourself putting everyone else before you? Maybe when you were little you had an experience with a parent where they put someone else before you in a situation that was significant to you at the time, and that feeling got registered in your subconscious. Maybe you got rewarded for the experience or reprimanded. It could have been very harmless. You may not even remember unless you start to think about it. None the less the root of a lot of our triggers, habits and insecurities boil down to our childhood experiences, that stay buried in our subconscious and often manifesting in various ways during adulthood.

You have a have a hard time controlling your feelings. You might get super angry or not feel anything at all.

You are scared to fail.

You blame yourself for your mistakes and bad choices from your past and have a hard time forgiving yourself.

You worry about what other people think about you or in general and may feel scared a lot.

You are too clingy or too distant and cant find a balance.

You don't trust yourself to make decisions and need constant validation or someone else to make decisions for you.

You feel really sad and down most of the time.

You suffer from negative self talk, are very hard on yourself and really believe those things to be true.

You constantly criticize others.

You need external validation to feel accepted.

You are always anxious.

You are hypersensitive to criticism.

You are terrified of change.

You find it hard to take compliments and truly believe you are not worthy.

You find it hard to keep good relationships because you're scared of getting hurt and feel like you cant get close to others.

You try to be perfect and want to do everything perfectly because you think it will help avoid bad things from happening.

You might eat too much or too little because you are feeling bad or want to control things.

You can't stop thinking about bad stuff that happened before and might have nightmares or feel like they're living it again.

You may feel like they're not really in their body or like things around them aren't real because of what happened in the past.

You avoid things because they remind you of bad stuff that happened.

Sometimes people stay away from things that remind them of bad stuff that happened.

You might have more health problems like headaches or stomachaches.

You do things that hurt you or others, and you don't even realize it because you learned it from when you were young.

You might work extra hard to be successful because you want others to like you or because you don't feel good about yourself.

You rather be alone because you feel embarrassed or worried about what others think.

You try really hard to control everything in your life.

You water yourself down and put everyone else before you.

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a cozy place

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can’t wait to decorate again 🎃🍂☕️

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My favorite is when you do a self injurious tic and they’re like “STOP DOING THAT”. Like thanks I can totally stop it just by politely asking my brain to stop

Ticcers: *self injurious tic*

Non ticcers: “dOeS tHaT hUrT?”

I understand you’re uneducated but umm… yeah?! Just because we have a tic where we hurt ourselves doesn’t mean we suddenly developed a superpower of not feeling pain 💀

I just find it funny when people ask that question

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i literally fucking hate when people use my disorder as a fucking joke. Uncontrollable movements and sounds is just soooo fucking funny huh? must be nice when faking for clout you don't have to deal with actual day to day problems because you don't actually have it- i suffer every fucking day because of how people with tic disorders and tourettes in general are treated. I feel the need to suppression tics to make you comfortable and you treat me shitty-

STOP FAKING TOURETTES AND/OR TIC DISORDERS!!

im not your entertainment, im not your toy.

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Helping yourself includes letting others help you <3

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It’s really frustrating when you go to a dr you don’t normally see, in this case a medcheck, and they belittle you for the reason you’re there. Then don’t expect your answer about questions because they know nothing about your disability besides what the media says.

I went in for a Tourette’s related injury. The dr asked me what I could do to make it stop. THERE’S LITERALLY NOTHING. He didn’t like that answer

#tourette's awareness #actually tourettic #tourettes #tourette syndrome #tics #disability