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when I was around twelve I used to sit at the family computer and send hatemail to a white french dude named Jacques who was a self proclaimed communist on Tumblr. This was back in the day when you didn't need a blog to send anon hate. I had no real beef with him but I just didn't like his tone. used to send him "SHUT UP Jacques" periodically. and he'd answer every single one of my asks like "who is this?? show your face or I'll fucking kill you" and I'd be like "now now, that doesn't make sense, jacques" all haughty and he'd get so fucking mad at me. One time he posted a selfie and I sent him an ask claiming I was a psychologist and that his hair parting suggested that he wasn't a communist at all. and he took it deliriously serious and went off on a 2,000 word rant. I can remember going to stay at my grandparents over that weekend, so I didn't even respond to the rant until I came back. I could've chosen to end it there, but when I returned, I sent him another ask which was like "psychologist here again: if you were a communist your hair parting would be in the middle. evenly distributed. All behavioural signs point to someone who doesn't take their own values seriously." and he went ballistic. really swearing at me. all caps type beat. he never turned the asks off, btw. which always made me wonder if he didn't know how to, or if he didn't want to cause he was convinced he was fighting a war, and this action would ensure he lost it. anyway this went on for weeks until one day I completely forgot about him like he was some kind of childhood imaginary friend I'd conjured up in my loneliness. but yesterday I happened to recall the whole scenario, because my buddy was like "remember when you were twelve and I came over to your house, and you showed me on the computer how you'd been terrorizing this random French guy for days on end. And you were laughing like fucking crazy. and I said it wasn't funny because he probably had problems, and you were like 'oh.' and you looked a bit guilty for a second, but then you went and got a grapefruit from the kitchen and threw it out of the second story window at my kid brother, who was playing in the street, and then you started laughing again?" Well. when she put it like that, needless to say I felt bad. so Jacques if you're out there I'm sorry I was such a little shit. you had totally normal hair, and you only wanted people to share stuff. If it's any consolation I know every day of my life that I'm probably going to hell for the sick things I have done

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Old news by now but they did the junoverse so dirty with that ending last season omg

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you all are seeing this too right

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"Do you ever dream of land?" The whale asks the tuna.

"No." Says the tuna, "Do you?"

"I have never seen it." Says the whale, "but deep in my body, I remember it."

"Why do you care," says the tuna, "if you will never see it."

"There are bones in my body built to walk through the forests and the mountains." Says the whale.

"They will disappear." Says the tuna, "one day, your body will forget the forests and the mountains."

"Maybe I don't want to forget," Says the whale, "The forests were once my home."

"I have seen the forests." Whispers the salmon, almost to itself.

"Tell me what you have seen," says the whale.

"The forests spawned me." Says the salmon. "They sent me to the ocean to grow. When I am fat with the bounty of the ocean, I will bring it home."

"Why would the forests seek the bounty of the oceans?" Asks the whale. "They have bounty of their own."

"You forget," says the salmon, "That the oceans were once their home."

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I’m aware of how I sound when I go off about why supernatural is the way that it is but nothing gives me that intense “oh I can’t stop THINKING” juice like the meta episodes and the metanarrative in general. I love narratives I love stories I love figuring out what makes them tick I love looking at authorial intent as something external but relevant to the story itself and the tension between what was meant and what actually gets told I love that all of this came together the way that it did. it makes perfect sense to me now why spn has such a huge cult following like it’s bad but it is also the single most fertile playground for fan interaction and fanworks that I have EVER seen. and it would not be that way if the way it came about was in any way normal. it’s an enticing mess in like fifteen different ways and all of them light my brain on fire. accidents don’t just happen accidentally

#spn #im having a Moment rn thinking abt spn and the absolite drag of it all

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supernatural could have kept the fourth wall up after the cracks in ghostfacers. they didn’t need to keep breaking it down. but they did and this fun way to joke about the show has so many wild implications. the characters not swearing would have just been an unquestioned in universe thing like it is on any other show constrained by ratings but instead the one time we see them through a different lens in ghostfacers they’re bleeped out and suddenly the camera isn’t a neutral conduit anymore it’s a filter. and then they double down in monster at the end of this book and the character of the show is changed for good. there’s things chuck didn’t write into the books. what didn’t they write into the show? over and over again they point directly at the fourth wall but it’s not just a tongue in cheek joke, the characters themselves literally physically smash through the fourth wall. they interact with it. and so instead of reminding you it isn’t real it’s like. or is it? is the show a fiction or is it a biography with limited perspective? or if it’s a fiction, are the characters in it alive? god is a hack writer and when he dies the show is over. don’t read into this it’s just fun ideas for our cw horror sitcom. we can’t fit any more men behind this curtain they’re spilling out. who gives a story meaning? is it the writer? or you?

#spn

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love from the other side

#spn

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He's had a rough day.

#hi gongeos #im literally obssessed #tma

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thinking abt dean picking up crafting - knitting, crochet, maybe jewellery of some kind, woodworking? - as a way to destress after a hunt bc he saw claire doing it last time he dropped by jody's and actually getting pretty good at it so he starts gifting his little creations to his family (when claire gets her first scarf she tells him to get his own therapy tool and stop stealing hers but she wears it all the time and next time they see each other she gives him one she made) and someone (sam) says he could probably sell them online somewhere so he says fuck it yeah let's give it a shot and he sets up an etsy shop and at first it's just a little thing, like a side-gig to pool hustling and card games, but it starts to snowball and pretty soon it's become a real viable thing for him, and it's no longer a way to expell his extra energy and adrenaline or to distract his mind after a hunt but the thing he's coming home to, and then business starts to really pick up and he only goes on every other hunt sam finds, and then one day he looks up from his needles to thank cas for bringing him a fresh cup of coffee after he let the last one go cold and he's like. holy shit am i retired? and cas holds the wool for him and tells him he's dropped a stitch and he swears and goes back to fix it and he can feel cas smiling at him and he cant remember the last time either of them were bloody and bruised and he's like. are we retired?

#spn

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i love that skepticalfrog post where dean realizes cas is just Some Guy to literally everyone else and then he has to chew on some leather [ID in alt]

#spn #Obsessed!!!

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Credit to: @sodiumfreak @breha @stepdaddean @sundryvillains @autisticandroids @omniscientoranges

Metanatural part eight of ?

#getting dragged back on folks #spn

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Director W: "You think you're some great hero for this don't you?"

Juno: "No, I think I did what I could and it was better than nothing."

Gotta say, this is THE Juno Steel quote. I think it perfectly encapsulates the lady himself. All of his decisions, his actions, his personal philosophy. Juno has never thought of himself as a hero. He knows he has flaws, he makes mistakes, but he's always trying. Trying to save someone or something, trying to make a difference somewhere. Even if it doesn't work out exactly how he wanted it to, at least he's doing something, right?

#im love him #tpp

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#HI HI YEAH ME TOO #tpp

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Someone please please please make an animatic for mag200 with Star Witness by Neko Case I am begging u

#i Need it pleeeease #tma

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I want Juno to explode. I want him to fall apart. I want him to tear down every inch of progress he made.

#juno steel #man i just like watching characters fall apart #i want to watch him implodddde #tpp

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Ghosts haunt people, not houses.

#tpp

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“separated by the sea, think about you every day” 💫

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#accidentally falling in love with this podcast againnnnn #tpp