maniac-man1

[maniac-man1]

The most disrespectful thing to do is be on a date and then compare your dates body to others 💀 like bro I do that enough on my own 🤪

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough #tw thinspi

[maniac-man1]

Fuck yeahhhhh

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough #tw thinspi

[maniac-man1]

The fuck am i supposed to say when my roommate says she wants to force me into getting help. Fuck no bitch I don't look like you yet. 💀

I swear she's delusional and thinks I'm gonna die right away. Like no I'm fine lmao. It's just fasting like, it's not a big deal. 💀

Someone knock some sense into her

Anyway! Here's some nice th1nsp0 I found

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Masc and fem

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough #tw thinspi

[maniac-man1]

Is it bad that every day I check my weight and then have a breakdown? Yes? Well imma keep doing it

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough #tw thinspi

[maniac-man1]

The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

[maniac-man1]

People are fucking awful

[maniac-man1]

TW:// VENT

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I had my first therapy appointment today with my new therapist and she opened up so much shit about me. Like how I'm over weight because food was mine and my sisters only escape as kids from our parents fighting and it felt like our weight was the only thing we could control. And that I binged as a kid to gain so I wasn't flattering to the creepy family anymore. And it's all true. She also said that the reason I use sh as an escape isn't to necessarily kms but to feel like there's some release without drugs again. And she's completely right! It feels so good to have some sort of reasoning behind everything. She understands now wanting to starve myself so that I'm finally flattering again and she wants to put me on a diet instead of starving to lose the weight naturally but I don't want to. I'm too deep into the ed that I don't thunk I can stop. I binged hard after the appointment today and I feel awful. She said I need to confront my mother about my eating habits as she's the cause of them. And I'm honestly terrified to do so. Because my mom can get a little narcissistic sometimes when I try to get her to hold accountability for things she's done to me. But I'll be able to have some closure with that if I can.

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough

[maniac-man1]

[maniac-man1]

The great thing about being extremely sick is you can only drink broth and water and tea. Super low cal days here I am!😤

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #disordered eating thoughts #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #not thin enough

[maniac-man1]

Nah cause like I want someone to just buy me zero calories drinks all the time 🥺

[maniac-man1]

I'll never be thin enough

#ed bllog #ed di3t #ed #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating mention #ana trigger #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #tw ana shit

[maniac-man1]

Been on an art binge all day (ik I suck at drawing heads)

#ed bllog #ed di3t #ed #not thin enough #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #disordered eating mention #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues

[maniac-man1]

[maniac-man1]

Feeling like a breakdown is coming hard

#ed bllog #ed di3t #tw ed diet #ed #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating mention

[maniac-man1]

I need to shut up and starve cause what the actual fuck are my legs.

[maniac-man1]

I need a hug but I’m too disgusting to touch

[maniac-man1]

Please don't get mad at me if you follow me and are under 18 and I don't follow back. I'm just not comfortable with it <3

#self mutalition #s3lf mutilation #tw self h4rm #s3lf harn #tw s3lf harm #s3lfharmm #beansblr #self mutilator #ed #shtwitter #ed di3t #ed bllog