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[mermaidenisaacs]

Hey okay so I'm sending this ask cause I read all of the stuff you posted about su*cide and d*pression and God it just hurt me so much. It made me really glad though to see that you called up a suicide hotline and a nutritionist. i cannot even explain in words how happy and proud that made me....like you! are! so! fucking! strong!

Secondly, I am going to be completely honest and say that I do not know how you are feeling because i have never actually been in your position. All I do know is that I love you, many people love you, you deserve to live, and that things will get better. i understand that it seems like they won't but they will!! I know you know this but so many people have been in the same place as you, and things have gotten better for them JUST like they will for you. You are a beautiful person (I just know it), even if you don't meet the "societal beauty standards" (which I feel like most people don't?), your beauty honestly shines through your posts and your writing in a way that's amazing. You seem like such a real and down to earth person and God the world would lose so much if you decided to end your life.

Also omg, the fact that you decided to call a nutritionist/suicide hotline just tells my how strong you are lovely! Getting help isn't a sign of weakness AT ALL, all it shows to me is sm strength.

Obviously you deserve to live for yourself firstly, but i know it helps to know that there would be people who'd be so devastated if you kill*d yourself and trust me i KNOW there are people in your life who love you and would be so depressed if you went. One person is your father most likely? i don't know much about him but i do know he brought you a cake on your birthday....i don't even have the words to type out how he'd feel if you left him...or your brother, or any other family members, even work colleagues. Trust me, you play a bigger role in people's lives than you think. Every person who's read your stories (like me), has a connection to you, a connection so so much deeper than you think.

I also think you have so much to give to and take from this world. You deserve to travel, have a family (if you want), find someone (or a pet) you really really love, and do so many other things. I know you said it feels like you'll never get these things, but I'm gonna be 100% honest and say that don't get ahead of yourself. Our minds love to manipulate us, and i just know yours is lying to you when it says that you won't get the things you desire. The future is SO unpredictable and I know things will get better for you, permanently better. With the strength you have that is so so so possible.

I was reading your posts last night and I actually started tearing up (keep in mind I am not the most emotionally expressive person?), and i knew that that just shows how much of an awesome person you are. If you believe in signs (or even if you don't), I just spent thirty minutes writing this whole thing (I am so sleep deprived boo I genuinely stayed up to write this because i want you to live that fucking much) with hope that maybe, just maybe, it would help in pushing you to want to be alive a bit more (or a lot more). I don't know you at all, I don't even know your name, but I can tell (someone probably living half way across the world from you), that you deserve to live. if that isn't a sign then I don't know what is. You seem like such a lovely person, who is so fucking talented, and so strong, and the worst thing would be if you decided to deprive yourself of the chance of things getting better.

p.s im sorry if I said anything insensitive in this since i don't know 100% how you feel, thanks for reading till here if you did. obviously you can answer this privately if you don't wanna put it on ur page aha (or not answer at all if you didn't wanna, but ig i would appreciate if you did, just so i knew you read it, thanks so much)

i love you <33

thank you so much for taking the time to write this to me. your kind words mean so much to me. i am happy to report that i am doing better these days! i'm on the right meds, i'm back in therapy, i'm moving away from a toxic roommate situation, and yeah overall just moving on from an unpleasant season of life i think.

you're right. the future is completely unpredictable and our minds are so good at lying to us. i read every word of this and i will try to remember your kind words in my dark moments and cherish the fact that a total stranger connected with me to tell me so many beautiful and uplifting things. just from that fact alone, i know you're a deeply caring person and you deserve every bit of the good you put out into the world :) <3

#anon #asks

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Teen Wolf S2E8 Raving

#i miss scisaac

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hii

i'm back in existential crisis mode but how are you

#personal

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Interpol - “Gran Hotel” (Official Music Video)

#wow hes pretty #open collar shirt huh? snake ring too? just gimme one chance

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#his boobs boobed boobily

#ok funky lil dancer with the statement necklaces!!

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why do people have little checks by their names. and how can i avoid getting them and stay rogue hehe

#i was gone for a bit and tumblr got very official eh? #2 factor auth and verified checks lollllll

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im rewatching tw and i forgot how cunty isaac was in s2 after he first got the bite

#a chaotic little binch. an absolute menace to society #don't blame him tho #also taking the pain away from that sick puppy being the pivotal moment that makes him want to be a good person? WHOLESOME

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bruv. i just got laser hair removal done

#i never thought i'd be able to afford this in a million years #what goes on #personal

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the guy i have a crush on dind't text me back and it made me very sad. i am now on my second glass of wine lmao. the fragility my GOD

#we spent the whole day at work yesterday talking #and then he just ignored my text #but last week he liked one of my old insta pics at 2 am #the mixed signals i can't handle :( #personal

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isaac: I don’t think we can manipulate, mansplain, or malewife our way out of this one guys

stiles: (holding up a bat) alright, manslaughter it is then

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#im so fond of these dummies

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i am so grateful i woke up this morning in a cozy bed and a stable mind. if this is the best my life gets, it will be more than enough

#i've been taking my newfound mental stability for granted lmao #personal

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i hope yall are doing well. i miss you

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SCOTT MCCALL & ISAAC LAHEY

TEEN WOLF (2011—2017 )   Raving

#the way isaac just kept looking at him #:') #scisaac

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#scisaac has my heart tbh

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i'm officially living and working in austin. my parents are thousands of miles away and my brother got married yesterday and i couldn't be at the wedding. these days i'm so busy i haven't even spoken to him to congratulate him. yesterday i worked for 9 hours straight, skipped right through lunch. i have so many meetings that keep piling up on my calendar that i don't even have time to do actual work. i come home and i eat dinner at 6 pm and then i go to the park and i sit by the lake and watch the sun disappear behind the horizon. one time i went at 6 am to watch the sun rise.

three days ago i met up with a girl i first met in fourth grade and we split two different things off the menu and drank fruity cocktails. everything is expensive in austin and i regretted spending the money afterwards, but not really, because i got to spend five hours with a friend i hadn't seen since march when i danced with her at her wedding.

i guess i'm really a grown up now. i have a friend who's married and get excited about the standing desk in my cubicle and i live alone but not really because i have 2 roommates since no one can afford rent in the newest trendy city. i'm too busy to think and i'm actively trying to make myself go to bed at 10 pm. i rewatch shows i used to watch when i was a kid because it's comforting.

a month ago i was living in the small town i grew up in with my parents, working at a job that was so easy and slow that i could watch tiktok videos for hours and go grocery shopping in the middle of my day and it didn't matter. how could so many things have changed in a month? how could everything have changed in a month?

#if i've learned anything #its that you truly never know what will happen in life #personal