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In case anyone thinks this type of sanism doesn't happen on Tumblr

#rebagel #text #god yeah #my actual real life friends constantly think I'm being funny when I'm showing signs of being psychotic #schizoposting has ruined so much and also its fuckin embarrassing that one subreddit they had especially #like some shit actually triggered delusions for me but most of it was like. generic scary image

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when you're sick you're either a prince moder or a dog moder. prince moding is when you demand many little treats, drinks etc. i personally prefer to drag myself off to a secluded corner to either die or recover, aka dog moding

#rebagel #text #ACCURATE? #for me it depends on the illness #general feeling tired and sickly? prince mode #nausea. headaches. sore throat. bad cough? DOG MODE. let me.die in the corner my time has come

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do you ever read a take so bad you can't even be mad about it you're just like... ohhhhhh they must be stupid </3 so sad for them

#rebagel #every time I venture out into terf Tumblr tbh idk how people get mad about them I just feel such a sense of pity like damn bitch you live #like this? also younger teenagers on tumblr but that's a work in progress you can't really judge 15 year olds on their stance in idk. #shipping discourse or syscourse or some shit it's vital for kids to be passionate about some stupid take so that they experience shame #over their visceral defense of it years down the line. it's good for them. happened to me it did me good and taught me #to pick my hills to die on carefully and keep an open mind. yeag

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#rebagel #image #this makes me remember cesar:( (main character of my webnovel) #I NEED to keep writing idszs i feel bad for my readers #but yeah he's a deeply disturbed individual with blonde hair something very wrong with him

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#rebagel #image

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found new thing to hang on my wall

#mik talks #kinda wanna stick something over this guys face hes kinda ugly sorry #also i found it outside i would never spend money on this

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#rebagel #image

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not to be not like other girls but u ever sit in a lecture and the professor makes a general statement about "all of you" and it just doesn't apply to you at all.

recently mine was like "i know all of you uncritically consume influencer content on instagram without considering how staged most of it is, and don't even lie and say you don't" HELLO?

#mik talks

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next life, i want to be born into a world where suffering is equal to success

#mik talks

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what the fuck would i do without her

in my bedroom, absolutely suffering, listening to my mcr cd, googling terms like "anguish" and "agony" and such

#mik talks #ignore my ugly ass unfinished poster wall

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#rebagel #image #GENUINELY HOW IT IS

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funny my mom is legitimately begging me to go to therapy atp for the whole "i have no hope or motivation whatsoever and also regularly believe everyone around me is not a human/i am not a human, depending on the day". MY mom. who hates the psych industry and did everything to keep me out of therapy when i was 13 until my teachers intervened. maybe i am so messed up

#mik talks #I NEED HEEEEELPPPP #problem is and i told her this that i don't think any therapist would understand the shit wrong with me #my last 2 didn't get it so like why am I supposed to think the next one will #also I just have no motivation to regularly go to appointments #and I dont want to talk to more strangers Abt wants wrong with me #NOT U TUMBLR MUTUALS ILY<3

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how does anyone romanticize psychosis and eating disorders i want to rip my skin off and lay in a grave

#mik talks #this is so horrible #followers feel free to leave #tw ed #I've been keeping up this stupid diary of the foods I eat the last two weeks and it's quite horrifying looking at it #like the past 5 days I've been under 40 calories a day? #most of them under 20 #anything is better than this I want my bulimia back but even that scares me now #but it is much better to have eaten and thrown up than never eaten at all #Sorry that was cheesy #My friend is coming over in 7 hours I'm so fucked #idk what I'd do when they sleep.over and I just can't sleep

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in my bedroom, absolutely suffering, listening to my mcr cd, googling terms like "anguish" and "agony" and such

#mik talks #i feel like im going insane #I swallowed two sleeping pills already #it's 6am #Last night I only slept 4 hours #This night none at all #I know this is probably a mixed episode but god make it stop #I'm just waiting for 7 when the stores open and I can get something to drink because my delusions got bad again and Im too scared to #drink the tap water even though it's literally clean. so i haven't really drank anything in 3 days #I cried to my mom on the phone for an hour about death again #km so sorry followers that came here for saw and hannibal

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The sexual tension between a girl and not feeling real every time her birthday comes around

#rebagel #text #uhhh how did u know my birthday is in a week

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hey… don’t cry… look… two seals kissing

#rebagel #video

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#rebagel #image #hannibal