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all i want for christmas is...!

✧˚ · . xiao wasn't going to work this christmas! make sure of that!

- character/s: xiao x reader

- notes: modern au, fluff, 1552 words

- message: @perpetualcynicism!! howdy! its an honor to be your secret santa! ive read some of your work and the way you portray xiao had me so intimidated huhu, your writing is wonderful! even if i wrote him in a different way from you see him, i hope i don't disappoint you! take care of yourself!

Even as the world bustles about with colorful lights, Xiao stays unmoving.

Last year, the year before that, and the year before the year before, he'd spend Christmas huddled in his office, doing all the work that no one wanted to do on the 'special day.'

Unfortunately, as the sun set on Christmas Eve, Xiao wasn't doing his work for the week. Though he was in his office as usual, his computer and the countless files he had to look over sat untouched. His hand was itching to get it done, to run away from the warmth of the candles because frankly he didn't deserve it.

What did he do to deserve the happiness that flickered in his heart? The softest of touches that held him? The sound of your voice and the jingle of bells? He hated it. He hated it because he was happy, he enjoyed this when he did little to deserve it.

Just earlier, at the end of the work day, everyone filed out to go spend Christmas Eve with their families. With a cup of coffee, he went to his office to spend the night working before you came in.

"Merry Christmas! Put your work away, we're having Christmas dinner!"

A blanket was put on the ground, artificial candles littering the floor along with a picnic basket. You had listened to none of his requests to let him work in peace, insisting that he should relax.

"You always work overtime, even Mr. Zhongli thinks you should take it easy. I'll help you with your work, don't worry– But just enjoy the night!"

What did he do to deserve everyone worrying over him?

You stood on his office chair, trying to hang a mistletoe on his ceiling, and Xiao stood and panicked from the ground, doing his best to keep the chair steady so you wouldn't fall.

"This is unnecessary," Xiao frowned. "Go spend the night with your loved ones, I'll be alright."

"Hm?" You said. "But you are one of my loved ones, aren't you?"

Xiao felt a rush of happiness at that.

As he helped you set up the picnic you set up in his office, he took a moment to focus his attention on you and you alone.

What was it... Right. Like two ends of a magnet, perhaps. Two people who were opposites, yet fit together and stuck next to each other. As one end of the magnet, Xiao had promised himself he would never detach himself from you. Even if it pained him with doubts, insecurities, he would let you in his heart.

He didn't deserve it, he didn't deserve you.

Despite that fact, you held out the spoonful of tofu and brought it to his lips, treating him like some sort of princess. Xiao thought that it was incredibly far from the truth. If anything, you were royalty to him. Just a word directed from you to him felt like the greatest honor of all.

"Hey," you said hesitantly, "If you don't mind me asking... Why don't you celebrate Christmas? Or at least take the day off..."

Xiao took a moment to think. Should he really burden you with his meaningless worries? He's been living life mostly alone for years, it wasn't like his problems were too important, it was just some thoughts–

"... I feel like I'm in debt," Xiao muttered, pushing his tofu on the plate. "Everyone doing all these nice things... I feel like no matter how much I give, I can't pay them back."

He sighed, looking out the window. It felt like a privilege, he was incredibly grateful to even see the bright lights and the pure snow falling onto the ground. Not to mention what you did for him– Keeping him company for as long as you've known him and celebrating like this? He'd dedicate his life to you at this point.

Xiao looked down, running a hand through his hair. "Like now... I don't know how to pay you back. I could pay you, if you tell me the cost for everything–"

You smiled, gently pushing his arm. You looked so unbothered, it was obvious that this matter didn't bother you as much as it bothered him. He couldn't imagine it. How could you not care at all? Wouldn't be easier if everything could be transactional?

"You don't have to pay me back," you responded. "Your company is enough, don't worry."

His company? Could his company pay back all the time you took to make him happy?

'Then I'll spend my life with you,' Xiao wanted to say. 'You can have my company for as long as you want, until you grow tired of me.'

The meal was soon over, and the two of you ended up laying down on the fluffy carpet, under the mistletoe and right in front of the large window behind his desk. Snow fell slowly, and he could hear the occasional firework in the distance. It felt something of a painting, perhaps. A quiet scene that contradicted the usual business of his mind.

"You know what happens under a mistletoe?" You asked– he could hear the smile in your voice.

"... Do you want me to kiss you?" He asked, looking over to you.

"Do you want to?"

Xiao stayed silent, and undoubtedly having a pink color on his cheeks. He held your hand instead, running a thumb over the back of it. He couldn't tell if you were kidding or not, so he kept to himself, hoping that his touch could tell you everything.

His thanks, his love, his happiness.

Like anyone, he dreamed of a day where he could be happy and free, where he could exist without worry. Ever since he first dreamed of it, he only fell into another spiral of problems. Was something wrong with him? If he could dream of such as carefree life, surely he could live it out.

It was best not to think of it, so he buried himself in work.

When he first befriended you, it felt like one of his dreams.

Though the two of you met at work, your relationship with him didn't feel like the work he did. If you did something good for him, you didn't expect anything back. He could mess up, and you'd still smile at him. You could still dream with him.

He could so easily take everything he'd ever dreamed of from you, but you trusted him.

It felt just like a dream.

What did he do to deserve it?

But Xiao was happy, undoubtedly.

He hoped you were as happy as him.

"Oh! I have gift for you!" You said, digging in your bag. Pulling out a wooden box, you placed it in front of him, an expectant look in your eyes. It looked like a music box, quite well crafted and a little detailing on the sides. (Though, even if it was falling apart, Xiao would love it all the same.)

He opened it slowly, seeing a little figurine pop up. When he hovered his hand over the handle, you nodded your head a bit, and he cranked in the handle.

The little figurine spun, and the song played. Xiao couldn't help but stare, entranced in it. It sounded so familiar, something from a distant memory, but...

"Ah," he whispered. "Venti's song..."

"I had a little help making it," you said. "I hope you like it..."

"I do," Xiao said immediately, looking up at you. This wasn't fair now, was it? You even had a gift for him, and all he did was stay in the same room as you and help you decorate his office. Now he had to think of something really nice to give you. "... I do, I really do. Thank you."

You smiled, giving his hand a small squeeze. "Merry Christmas, Xiao."

You stayed together for a little bit more, enjoying each other's presence. Expressing feelings, taking slow and soft breaths, enjoying the warmth from each other's bodies, enjoying the Christmas Eve. Even if Xiao's past Christmas Eves were filled with the sound of typing and the smell of coffee, he didn't mind having the chance to change.

Especially if it was with you.

Since you didn't particularly want to sleep in the cramped space of Xiao's office, you decided to leave for the night with a promise to spend Christmas day together.

Xiao shifted his weight, looking over towards the box of decorations you were cleaning up. The mistletoe lay just on top of them all. He did have something he could give you, to express his thanks.

"I want to give you everything I have," he mumbled, not quite looking into your eyes. His hand tugged gently at your clothing, as if he didn't wish to startle you in any way. "I love you... I want you to take anything you want from me. All of my being is yours."

Awkwardly holding the mistletoe beside your heads, he sighed softly, hoping to whatever was out there that you didn't want to push him away.

"I'll give you whatever you want, just ask for it," he said. "But... For now, if... If you wish me to, I can give you a kiss. Under the mistletoe."

And so, that gift was the first of many more to come.

#ren tried :') #gixrsecretsanta2023 #genshin x reader #xiao x reader #xiao x you #mm merry christmas !!

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VOD 05 - follow for follow???

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

Though the call started off with awkward greetings and simple questions, you couldn't deny how comfortable it got. Just like with an old friend, the silence was peaceful. Just you and him for a moment.

It was Scaramouche's suggestion to ease the tension, so you both created a Spotify playlist and added songs onto there. You'd like to think he was enjoying the music without any distractions, just as you were.

With some orchestral music that Scaramouche chose playing– You were both silent.

At a time like this, it was nice to stop thinking. A welcome distraction. There was a time you did this before... Sat in silence and let the minutes pass by.

"Hey," Scaramouche teased after a couple moments. "Don't tell me you're sleeping on me now."

"I'm not!" You insisted. "Just... Thinking."

"Oh?" He said. "About me?"

"... Mayhaps."

He let out a soft chuckle, and you could hear him lean back in his chair. The song switched into one of the Miku songs you chose, thankfully more lighthearted to fit the mood.

"Mm. That's good." He said. "It would be a shame if you were thinking of someone else. I thought we were having a moment."

"I mean- It's just..." You said quietly. "You're so nice to me, but you're so rude online. It's a bit off-putting."

He was silent, perhaps not expecting the statement.

"It's my image." He said, though it sounded like there was more to it. "Most streamers have one. For me, I'm a mysterious jerk and people eat it up, you know?"

"... Huh." You said. "I think your real self is a lot more appealing though."

"Having your real self online for millions to see..." He murmured. "In my experience, you'll only hurt and be hurt."

You stayed silent. If you show people who you really were– didn't that mean you would get the true, genuine love of your fans? Wouldn't it hurt more to live under a lie, knowing you'd have to protect it to keep your heart safe? Living to please, you'd be nothing more than a slave then.

To make people happy... Is living a lie something that they wanted?

"Nevermind that, you're a small streamer so you don't have to worry about it." He sighed, speaking normally. "Now, where's that one song for Miku abuses her boyfriend?"

"World is Mine?"

"Yeah, hold on, lemme play it."

You got another call from Scaramouche when an hour after you sent the tweet. It was nerve-wracking for sure, knowing that you would show your face to (a couple) people, but you have the power of friendship on your side!

Pretty much invincible then!

"I hope you don't mind what I did." Scaramouche said with a sigh. "I'll delete it, if you would like."

"Oh! Well... It certainly increases the pressure..." You chuckle nervously. "But I'm ready!"

"I'll be sure to watch." Scaramouche said gently. "Don't be too scared, it'll go great."

After a silence he spoke again, "... I'll be rooting for you. As always."

first time chatter...?

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✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys!!! bold means I can’t tag you!) 1/2 - @sakiimeo @beriiov @idontevenknow129 @meigalaxy @mellowberrie @chiyoso @featuredtofu @yumiaur @karma-gisa @magica-ren @maxineshearts @raewrz @grrrhutao @haunts-gh0st @itzblazekun @seternic @imdyeing @siasseltzers @lylovw @boxdisappeared @klanxii @moon4nge1 @layla240 @cante-lope @hibiscy @saturnsapothecary @pyrotechnics84 @dazaisboner

author's note - love you all, thank you for everything! your support gives me motivation to go on! ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

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VOD 05 - follow for follow???

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

Though the call started off with awkward greetings and simple questions, you couldn't deny how comfortable it got. Just like with an old friend, the silence was peaceful. Just you and him for a moment.

It was Scaramouche's suggestion to ease the tension, so you both created a Spotify playlist and added songs onto there. You'd like to think he was enjoying the music without any distractions, just as you were.

With some orchestral music that Scaramouche chose playing– You were both silent.

At a time like this, it was nice to stop thinking. A welcome distraction. There was a time you did this before... Sat in silence and let the minutes pass by.

"Hey," Scaramouche teased after a couple moments. "Don't tell me you're sleeping on me now."

"I'm not!" You insisted. "Just... Thinking."

"Oh?" He said. "About me?"

"... Mayhaps."

He let out a soft chuckle, and you could hear him lean back in his chair. The song switched into one of the Miku songs you chose, thankfully more lighthearted to fit the mood.

"Mm. That's good." He said. "It would be a shame if you were thinking of someone else. I thought we were having a moment."

"I mean- It's just..." You said quietly. "You're so nice to me, but you're so rude online. It's a bit off-putting."

He was silent, perhaps not expecting the statement.

"It's my image." He said, though it sounded like there was more to it. "Most streamers have one. For me, I'm a mysterious jerk and people eat it up, you know?"

"... Huh." You said. "I think your real self is a lot more appealing though."

"Having your real self online for millions to see..." He murmured. "In my experience, you'll only hurt and be hurt."

You stayed silent. If you show people who you really were– didn't that mean you would get the true, genuine love of your fans? Wouldn't it hurt more to live under a lie, knowing you'd have to protect it to keep your heart safe? Living to please, you'd be nothing more than a slave then.

To make people happy... Is living a lie something that they wanted?

"Nevermind that, you're a small streamer so you don't have to worry about it." He sighed, speaking normally. "Now, where's that one song for Miku abuses her boyfriend?"

"World is Mine?"

"Yeah, hold on, lemme play it."

You got another call from Scaramouche when an hour after you sent the tweet. It was nerve-wracking for sure, knowing that you would show your face to (a couple) people, but you have the power of friendship on your side!

Pretty much invincible then!

"I hope you don't mind what I did." Scaramouche said with a sigh. "I'll delete it, if you would like."

"Oh! Well... It certainly increases the pressure..." You chuckle nervously. "But I'm ready!"

"I'll be sure to watch." Scaramouche said gently. "Don't be too scared, it'll go great."

After a silence he spoke again, "... I'll be rooting for you. As always."

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys!!! bold means I can’t tag you!) 1/2 - @sakiimeo @beriiov @idontevenknow129 @meigalaxy @mellowberrie @chiyoso @featuredtofu @yumiaur @karma-gisa @magica-ren @maxineshearts @raewrz @grrrhutao @haunts-gh0st @itzblazekun @seternic @imdyeing @siasseltzers @lylovw @boxdisappeared @klanxii @moon4nge1 @layla240 @cante-lope @hibiscy @saturnsapothecary @pyrotechnics84 @dazaisboner

author's note - love you all, thank you for everything! your support gives me motivation to go on! ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

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SCARA. IS. MY POOKIE WOOKIE BEAR AGGGHHHH whys HE SO SO

ANWAY! you SMAU is so good! I’m sure it’s gonna go viral! <33

IKR HE’S ACTUALLY SO CUTE I CANNOT

LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN WHAT HE SAYS AFTER YOU WIN HIS TCG MATCH he’s so cute oh my gosh i just wanna akhsfeveb

thank you for your support!! hope the universe is nice to you!

#ren answered :')

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yooooo!! I LOVE this scara-mochi smau!!

I love it soooo much 🫂<333

I think I'll have to draw him, I'm crying lol

Btw keep it upppp!!!

(Like idk how the hell I didn't find this smau before, I've just founded it cuz of @wanderstarr's reblog! BUT i do mot regret it!!)

ANYWAYS; love yaaa!<33 byeeee :DD

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aaa scaramochi! i love that omg

if you do draw him, please tag me! i’d love to see him, i’m sure he’ll look amazing <3

thank you for being so nice!! hope you have a good day!

#ren answered :')

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taglist 2/2 !! thank you guys!!

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VOD 04 - shoutout pls

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

For the viewers, the promised stream has been on the starting soon screen for ten minutes and twenty-seven seconds.

For the streamer, the moon was bright, the crickets were chirping, and Kunikuzushi's notifications were being blown up by a his favorite streamer. He didn't mind the distraction. In fact he welcomed it; at least he had more time to watch the viewer numbers rise.

But if he took too long, everyone would start leaving...

What a dilemma.

Role model.... That was certainly a title.

Kunikuzushi put on his headphones and opened OBS. If it were up to him, he'd take this day off. Maybe eat out with Kazuha and Heizou, or have tea with Albedo. But streaming to his loyal fans was a piece of him now, something was missing whenever he skipped a day.

Especially since someone who looked up to him would watch too...

If he was given this opportunity, he had to use it to the fullest. Everyone was looking at him.

So he took the 'starting soon' screen off, and smiled at the camera, giving some quick rebuttal to the viewers who asked why he was nearly half an hour late.

"So you couldn't do anything else but wait for me? Really shows where you are in life."

"... But I appreciate your patience. Sorry I'm late."

He couldn't help but smile– just a tiny bit at the reassuring comments from his viewers. It was always like this. Like a formula, be a little softer to everyone and they'd eat it up for their next clip compilation.

Oh, how could he forget? The anomaly in this formula had to be them.

Kunikuzushi could only hope this familiar, nostalgic happiness would last forever.

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys!!! bold means I can’t tag you!) 1/2 - @lovingveliona @sujellyr @valentinasgirly @xtobefreex @scaramiaooo @mine-lu @sayakamaizonowrites @ixromzi @aeongiies @kleej @featuredtofu @ainnofinway @angel-antidote @baby-bread-in @hiraethhv @fangygf @useless-potatho @versaiiles @mamafly @xiaosoneandonly @haunts-gh0st @sn1perz @cerisearan @phoenix-eclipses @morganadorodo @zomzomb1e

author's note - i promise to never give you up, let you down, run around and desert you. hope you get a good night's sleep today...! take some time off if you can afford it!

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VOD 04 - shoutout pls

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

For the viewers, the promised stream has been on the starting soon screen for ten minutes and twenty-seven seconds.

For the streamer, the moon was bright, the crickets were chirping, and Kunikuzushi's notifications were being blown up by a his favorite streamer. He didn't mind the distraction. In fact he welcomed it; at least he had more time to watch the viewer numbers rise.

But if he took too long, everyone would start leaving...

What a dilemma.

Role model.... That was certainly a title.

Kunikuzushi put on his headphones and opened OBS. If it were up to him, he'd take this day off. Maybe eat out with Kazuha and Heizou, or have tea with Albedo. But streaming to his loyal fans was a piece of him now, something was missing whenever he skipped a day.

Especially since someone who looked up to him would watch too...

If he was given this opportunity, he had to use it to the fullest. Everyone was looking at him.

So he took the 'starting soon' screen off, and smiled at the camera, giving some quick rebuttal to the viewers who asked why he was nearly half an hour late.

"So you couldn't do anything else but wait for me? Really shows where you are in life."

"... But I appreciate your patience. Sorry I'm late."

He couldn't help but smile– just a tiny bit at the reassuring comments from his viewers. It was always like this. Like a formula, be a little softer to everyone and they'd eat it up for their next clip compilation.

Oh, how could he forget? The anomaly in this formula had to be them.

Kunikuzushi could only hope this familiar, nostalgic happiness would last forever.

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys!!! bold means I can’t tag you!) 1/2 - @lovingveliona @sujellyr @valentinasgirly @xtobefreex @scaramiaooo @mine-lu @sayakamaizonowrites @ixromzi @aeongiies @kleej @featuredtofu @ainnofinway @angel-antidote @baby-bread-in @hiraethhv @fangygf @useless-potatho @versaiiles @mamafly @xiaosoneandonly @haunts-gh0st @sn1perz @cerisearan @phoenix-eclipses @morganadorodo @zomzomb1e

author's note - i promise to never give you up, let you down, run around and desert you. hope you get a good night's sleep today...! take some time off if you can afford it!

#scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau #ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡

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VOD 03 - discomfort streamer...?

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

Grandpa Xiao aside, whatever part of your mind agreed to letting that chatter send you a friend request, you'd like to have a word with it.

It just felt like... That stupid winking profile picture was mocking you every time he sent you a message. You didn't hate him, of course, but he was just so annoying...

It just felt like... That stupid winking profile picture was mocking you every time he sent you a message. You didn't hate him, of course, but he was just so annoying...

On good days, he'd send you cat memes and joke 'they remind me of you.' While on other days, he'd send you one a clip of you dying (usually in a rather sad way) and adding a comment of either 'lol' or 'skill issue.' That, or something completely random just to see your reaction.

What a... Character.

Though...! As much as you wanted to give him a taste of his own medicine, it did make days a little less lonely. If you were ever stuck in soul-draining classes, your phone would buzz with a notification whenever you felt like collapsing on your desk. Maybe in came to the point where Ayaka would warn you for texting in class, but who truly lived without breaking the rules a bit?

Since he was waiting for every stream (and constantly asking when the next one is so he can set an alarm), he has to appreciate you to some degree!

That's a reason to keep going when things get hard then! Your friends, and even this random stranger chatter-friend...

Just keep going, to make your story the best you can!

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys!!! bold means I can’t tag you!) - @sakiimeo @beriiov @idontevenknow129 @meigalaxy @mellowberrie @hiraethsdesires @yyyyiijhth @featuredtofu @drmyday @karma-gisa @magica-ren @maxineshearts @raewrz @grrrhutao @haunts-gh0st @itsblazekun @seternic @imdyeing @siasseltzers @iylovw @boxdisappeared @klanxii @moon4nge1 @layla240 @cante-lope @sketcheeee @hibiscy @saturnsapothecary @pyrotechnics84 @eleutheriaah (meow) @dazaisboner @brfrtbrt @yuminako @asimpforpeople @ixromzi @wonderful-worlds @chluuvr @danhenglovebot @zomzomb1e @morganadorodo @phoenix-eclipses @cerisearan @sn1perz @mamafly @versaiiles @mine-lu @fangygf @hiraethhv @baby-bread-in @angel-antidote @kqbukimono @useless-potatho @ainnofinway

author's note - sorry im late exams are so fun hahahaha but its finished so its okay! nabagsak ata ako sa filipino ayoko na po aaaa have a great day!!! you can survive today, i believe in you!! (＠＾◡＾)

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

[neruro]

EEEKKK FLIRTY SCARA’S FUELING MY OBSESSION AGrshsgahahjshs ANHHH HES SOO AHAHAGA anyway I luvvvv your smau :))

thank you!!! (b ᵔ▽ᵔ)b

writing scararizz (wanderizz?) is my favorite thing ever hehe

hope you have a good day! ☆

#ren cried :')

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VOD 02 - at least give me pity donos!

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

He felt something strange at the sight.

Kazuha and Heizou playing with their (namely, Albedo and Kunikuzushi's) Switch on the floor, Albedo at the edge of the couch working on whatever illustration, and Kunikuzushi himself.

'Being next to someone again... I don't mind it.'

Kunikuzushi wasn't going to pretend he was familiar with any type of companionship. It was by sheer luck that he and Kazuha were paired up for a project together, and it was another dose of luck that he met long term friends because of it, (though Heizou and Kazuha agrees its from 'their intuition' and 'fate' respectively.)

Even as Albedo scolded Heizou for yelling at Kazuha about a blue shell, he burned the image in his memory. His companions... Or friends, some would say, they would be fleeting. Nothing lasts forever, after all. Eventually their paths would diverge.

To treasure the time before they abandon him.

Isn't that what his mother taught him?

Yes, if only he listened sooner... Then he wouldn't have been so distraught when he lost 'them.' And perhaps they never would have had to leave.

'I don't blame them,' he thought. 'The best I can do is hope I've grown enough.'

'So when that day comes... I can finally face them with my truest self.'

With a sigh and a last look at his friends, he went on his phone to open Twitch. Tartaglia and Barbatos were streaming, a couple thousand new followers (which were unfortunately, less than usual), but nothing he was particularly interested in.

Though he had a half a mind to...

He heard your voice almost immediately after, still as lively and sweet as last time. You started off with your usual greeting, wishing him a good day and starting off with informing him of what he missed.

"We just found the desert temple!" You said. "I'm glad you're here, actually– Me and Alatus found a mineshaft, and I could use you as a good luck charm!"

Right before he could hear your reaction or see if you got yourself killed again (dummyx5), Heizou punched his shoulder lightly, looking over at his phone. Somehow, they got Albedo away from his work to play with Kazuha, and they were both playing in silence.

"Kuni, partner!" Heizou said, leaning against his shoulder. "Why don't you join us? We got Albedo away from his tablet, that deserves some recognition, don't you think?"

"Doing something else," Kunikuzushi hummed, waving Heizou away. "You guys have fun."

"You're on Twitch," Heizou pointed out. "My guy, you're already living on Twitch every day."

"My streamer is streaming," He responded. "So shoo for a moment."

"I'm offended!" Heizou said, putting a hand to his heart in mock-hurt. "But alright, alright, just know you won't be choosing the game we play next time. Kazuha wants to play animal crossing with me so you'll take my place, partner!"

As Heizou walked back to the others, Kunikuzushi focused his attention back to his phone. Where 'his' streamer was now on the death screen again, from... Trying to swim in lava!

As you went on with how you were going to do better and not die next time (all while preciously trying to defend your honor) he couldn't help but let out a smile.

'It's always the smaller streamers...' He thought. 'Cute.'

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! . .. eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys, bold means I can’t tag you!) - @maxineshearts @magica-ren @drmyday @haunts-gh0st @featuredtofu @yyyyiijhth @hiraethsdesires @mellowberrie @meigalaxy @idontevenknow129 @beriiov @sakiimeo @karma-gisa @raewrz @grrrhutao @itzblazekun @seternic @imdyeing @siasseltzers @lylovw @boxdisappeared @klanxii @moon4nge1 @layla240 @cante-lope @sketcheeee @hibiscy @saturnsapothecary @1l-ynn @pyrotechnics84 @eleutheriaah

author's note - chanel you are a carrot <3 thank you for reading!! be nice to yourself and others~

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

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I loved the first chapter of first time chatter smau! Keep up the good work? Perhaps I can request to be on the taglist?? Thank you :))

thank you for your kind words!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ

mhm of course! i'll be sure to add you when i post the next part!

please take care of yourself <3

#ren cried :')

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VOD 01 - one viewer, and that's me on a different device!

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

Minecraft launched, alerts on, your phone beside you.

You would be okay! Thinking back at your friends’ words... You would continue to do your best! Even if no one comes, all you had to do was gain confidence and keep going until someone does!

After a moment of hesitation, you pressed the button, tabbing over to the game.

"Welcome to the stream, everyone!" You said. "I'm Catatouille, and I hope my stream will make you all happy today!"

Glancing over to your phone, you saw the symbol for one viewer, fueling on your hope. Someone was watching! Then... You had to do your best to make them smile–

Oh.

Right, it was from your phone.

'That's okay,' you thought to yourself as you started to collect wood. 'I'm a new streamer... So I'll just have fun!'

There was no mistaking how excited you were to start this journey of yours. But grandpa Xiao would definitely tell you that growth would be slow... So patience would be key!

Yes, patience...

Haha...

You turned your attention to the game in front of you. You would have fun! It was all in good fun, right?

But then!

The world slowed down. First, you felt the dread as you hear the sound of footsteps. Then the horror as you see it emerge from the shadows, running from the unlit part of the cave. You would begin to think. Regret. Contemplate why you didn’t craft a shield before this expedition. You frantically tried to defend yourself, hitting just shy outside of the hitbox. And then you hear the sound of getting hit, your character falling, being thrown into lava behind you. Then, to the sound of your character burning, the story of how you got all your stuff flashing before your eyes. When you discovered the amethyst cave, how you found the vein of five diamonds, the music disc you found from a dungeon, you see your hearts go down, and so does the time, your hope for the future playthrough of this game. And when you’re on the death screen, it finally sinks in. Your stuff is gone, your levels are reset. You are alone—

Catatouille tried to swim in lava to escape Baby Zombie.

Out of the corner of your eye, you see something move in the chat box.

You couldn't respond for a moment at the whiplash of feelings. Yes, you wanted to cry, curse the world for bringing you a baby zombie of all things, and the annoying words from chat didn't help at all... but also...!

A chatter! A real one! And not the random bots you saw in the viewers tab!

"Welcome to the stream, Scaramouche!" You said, forgetting your previous annoyances for just a moment. "Hope your day is going well!"

“Yep!” You said, giddy with the thought of having your first fan. “Will do!”

"I'm not rage quitting!" You insist, exiting your survival world and quitting to the main menu. "Not because of something so trivial! I'm going to keep on persevering until I beat the Ender Dragon, mind you!"

You took a deep breath, collecting yourself. At least this stream has been going well! A chatter that stuck with you... Luck was in your favor! Except the fact that your friends never showed up... But they'd probably embarass you in some way... Hm.

"Anyway... Thanks for showing up, Scaramouche... And any other lurkers watching," you said with a smile, even though you didn't have a webcam on. "I’m going to keep on trying to be a steamer you can be proud of, don't worry! And my next stream is tomorrow, so try to watch it if you can!"

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys, bold means I can’t tag you!) - @maxineshearts @magica-ren @drmyday @haunts-gh0st @featuredtofu @yyyyiijhth @hiraethsdesires @mellowberrie @meigalaxy @idontevenknow129 @beriiov @sakiimeo @karma-gisa

author's note - unrelated but kafka. i have her. did her companion mission. she is my mother now. thank you for supporting me~ get a whole lot of rest!

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

[neruro]

🗝️ kuni's circle

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

scara's little family!

scaramouche - real name kunikuzushi, he's a dedicated streamer who did a face reveal recently at 1mil followers! only streams with his 'friends' because he doesn't want to accidentally hurt someone's feelings with his blunt (and sometimes rude) words. contrary to popular belief, he's never malicious on purpose! all the degrading on his twitter are only directed to fans who explicitly asked for it! his fans know nothing about his personal life other than he has a cat (scarameow)

albedo - scara's closest confidant because of their similarities! he doesn't have social media other than twitter, but is a manga author to his current series 'tales of winter chalk' which often goes on hiatus because of how busy he is. when he's on hiatus, it's often during exam season when he opens his tutoring offers for struggling students. also has a sister that not many know about, but she means the world to him.

kazuha - you cannot tell me that he is on anywhere else but tumblr. but! he travels all the time during school breaks and posts all his pictures and haikus on his account. he's very popular in school, and most of his followers on tumblr are from students who managed to stalk his social media. annnnd most of his popularity comes from the heart-stealing love poems he often posts on such social media. he doesn't mind though :)

heizou - kazuha's roommate! has a true crime/conspiracy podcast on youtube and spotify and often goes on wild tangents about how he could solve something completely random. flirts with everyone. and like everyone. especially whenever he gets invited to some niche podcast about a topic no one knows about. definitely messes up his and kazuha's room with all the stuff from his evidence board he uses for his podcast.

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ ·summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys) - @sakiimeo @beriiov @idontevenknow129 @meigalaxy @mellowberrie @hiraethsdesires @yyyyiijhth @featuredtofu

author's note - thank you for being here :] but uhm childe isnt here because i dislike him a large amount hehe... oh! I said this earlier but so sorry if i did something wrong with the tag list!!

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

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⪩⪨ y/n's supporters!

first time chatter...? | scara x reader smau

y/n - the myth! the legend! you! the face behind catatouille! a new but very wholesome streamer who spreads good vibes all around. you're very passionate about what you do, and have the best intentions while doing it! your whole theme is cat-oriented but i promise you're not a furry. cat memes are cool.

lumine - she's not a twitch streamer, but she has a channel on youtube! she travelled a lot before college with her brother, and she used to upload her travel vlogs onto her channel. if she's not arguing with her brother, she's arguing on twitter. will defend her friends' name to her last breath on there. also has a hamster named paimon.

xiao - the grandpa of the friend group, very considerate and patient with everyone. most notably does fencing, but he has a twitch channel too! he only streams once every couple months, though. his viewers think it's because he's hot and emo and mysterious but it's really because he doesn't know how to set up the stream without you or lumine around. ah, in fact, he doesn't really know much about technology in the first place. he's doing his best though!

ayaka - rich friend whose family intimidates the life out of everyone. the student council president, does fencing with xiao, one of the heirs to her family's business, and acts as everyone's manager... she's way too tired to have much social media presence of her own. but she's not entirely a cinnamon roll! in fact, you can find her reading not-so-innocent romance books in her free time...

first time chatter...?

masterlist || prev || next

✧˚ · summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

taglist is open (thank you guys) - @sakiimeo @beriiov @idontevenknow129 @meigalaxy @mellowberrie @hiraethsdesires @yyyyiijhth @featuredtofu

author's note - ALSO um im so so sorry if im not supposed to tag if im not posting the actual smau i dont know how this works :'') but thank you for everyone who's showed interest~ remember to drink water!

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau

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🗝️ ﹒⪩⪨﹒first time chatter...?

scaramouche x reader smau

✧˚ · summary - tada! a new streamer (aka: you!) entered the scene! and what's this? your first regular chatter accompanying you to fame? great! and you're both becoming friends? even better! ... eh? what... what do you mean he has over a million followers? and what does he mean by 'do you remember me!?'

✧˚ · notes - streamer au, childhood friends to lovers, i will attempt to be deep and meaningful, swearing, reader is a weeb lol, may contain themes of "disappearing", toxic relationships, bullying, and neglect

✧˚ · status - undergoing rewrite!!

✧˚ · taglist - open! will close after vod #6 though :D

⪩⪨ y/n's supporters! | 🗝️ kuni's circle

chapter 01 - world is mine

vod #1 - one viewer, and that's me on a different device!

vod #2 - at least give me pity donos!

vod #3 - discomfort streamer...?

vod #4 - shoutout pls

vod #5 - follow for follow??? 

vod #6 - ... have you considered friendship?

chapter 02 - just be friends

tba

chapter 03 - unknown mother goose

tba

chapter 04 - solitary hide and seek

tba

chapter 05 - summertime record

tba

#ren tried :') #first time chatter ♡ #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #scaramouche smau #wanderer x reader #wanderer x you #genshin x reader #genshin smau #dont know if ill go through with this! #but ill try!!

[neruro]

WRITING A SCARA SMAU THAT ILL PROBABLY POST THE INFO TO TOMORROW BUT ITS COME TO ME THAT IM NOT FUNNY HAHA HOW DO I DO THIS

#ren cried :')

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my dear streamer,

✧˚ · . all our eyes are on you!

- character/s: scaramouche x reader

- notes: 1.3k words, streamer au, angst(?), reverse comfort

Trending on Twitter, always on the front page of Twitch, article after article being posted about how he was the year’s most beloved streamer.

Any sliver of his face being shown to the public was obsessed on by his fans. Any girl he was rumored to be friendly with was the target of jealous fangirls. A missed stream had his fans taking to Twitter, and the cycle would start all over again.

Until it all stopped.

For a few hours on a Sunday, it felt like the world stilled. No stream schedule like usual, no tweet degrading a desperate fan, no one in his circle tagging him in tweets... His fans lived a few hours of their life without him.

Until they realized something was wrong, of course.

Suddenly Twitter was blowing up with his hashtag asking where he was. The streamer’s notifications were getting more noticeable each hour of no contact with his adoring, devoted, obsessive fans. ‘Where are you?’ turned into assumptions, rumors, only getting worse and more maddening as the minutes ticked on the clock.

They weren’t doing anything wrong, of course! Just wondering where their dear streamer has gone! Their dear streamer has left them without a word, they deserve an explanation! He should be thankful he has so many supporters who care for him.

And yet the streamer sat curled up on his bed, indigo eyes blurred and unfocused, dark hair messy and unbrushed, pale, slender fingers trembling as he looked for a familiar face in his contacts. His breathy voice was shaky and unstable as he murmured under his breath, hugging his knees closer to his chest in a futile effort to soothe himself in any way.

“Please, please, please pick up...” He begged, hearing the phone ring.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Eventually he heard your voice. So precious and calming through the horrid noise that clouded his mind. Ah, right. You were probably tired, weren’t you? You deserved all the rest in the world, not having him call you and disturb your much needed slumber.

“... Scara?” Your voice said, rusty from sleep. “You okay? It’s really late.”

He stayed silent for a moment. Why he needed you in particular, he didn't really know. Childe slept in the room beside his, and Albedo was online around this time, preoccupied with art. It would be easier to talk to them, he would feel like less of a burden if he just sucked it up, no one would have to worry if he went online and continued on as usual. But he just couldn’t help but rant, beg, plead for you. How selfish of him.

“... Please.” Scaramouche choked out. "Please, please, please. Can you come over? I- I really can't... I need you."

After a brief moment of hesitation that allowed his thoughts to haunt him, he heard you respond.

"... I'll be right there." You said softly, without question. "Don't do anything stupid, okay? Stay in your room."

He felt sick to his stomach. You were leaving your cozy bedroom that he loved so much to go to him. He didn't deserve this for breaking down about the job he was so privileged to have in the first place. Shouldn't he be happy...?

All the commotion was his fault, naturally.

When he finally dipped his toes in the water to try and become a streamer, he didn't care about the hate. The harsh words, the eyes on his every move, the fact that the only thing separating his dual lives was the face reveal that he had teased relentlessly. In fact, he relished in it. He loved seeing the numbers of his viewers on every stream go up to the thousands, he loved seeing hate accounts who's entire life revolved around him, the attention felt like it was exactly what he needed.

To them, he was a god, and they were his mortal followers. He was the object of all their adoration, and he happily played the part. He was needed by so many people, he could make them upset or happy whenever he wanted to. It was positively exhilarating.

He wanted their love, he wanted all of their attention. But it wasn't enough. No, it was never enough. At the end of the day, they didn't know who he was. They can't care for him past the surface. At the end of the day, he didn't have anything to fill the void in his chest, to cure his heart from all of its rotting.

But he didn't deserve it! He was the one at the mercy of his fans! He owed them everything! Everything they asked, everything they demanded, it was his job to give it! He's the puppet, and this is their show, pulling the strings as he flailed about.

These thoughts replayed in his mind.

Over,

and over,

and over again.

They were loud, they were ringing in his ears. It was too much, yet not enough. He needed it to stop, but he needed more.

His thoughts led to you. Among everyone's love, he wanted yours the most. The sweetest dessert that he would happily eat. He wanted to be selfish. He wanted to take all your love until he had none left. Surely then... His heart would stop aching, right? Would you be the one to finally save him after he begged for a cure for so long?

Even if you deemed him a failure, he would beg for you to act out all your love, even if it was fake. You could hate him, you could hurt him, but never take your eyes off him.

"Can this really be love?" He wanted to ask as you sat on his bed beside him, offering him the bitter tea he liked. To know that you brewed this tea for him, by your own hand... He was in debt to someone else today.

"You don't have to do this, Scara." You whispered, putting the cup on his nightstand after he was done with it. "... Streaming, I mean– I've seen the commotion... And what it seems it's done to you..."

You trailed off, waiting patiently for him to respond. He wondered if you understood how he felt. Did the dark, ugly thoughts plague your mind too? You were human too, a beautiful one... Were you stronger than him too?

Whatever the answer was, please tell him he's not alone, then you wouldn't be alone either. To him, it's okay to lie. This is all based off lies anyway.

"... It wouldn't be enough." He shook his head. "I... I can't stop. I need this. I want everyone to keep looking at me, to keep on feeding me all this no matter the cost."

He looked up at you, unshed tears in his eyes. His trembling hands found purchase on your shirt and a shaky breath left his lips. "Can I... Rely on you to do this too?" He asked. "I need you the most."

He didn't know why he needed you, but the words you spoke, the way you touched him– He thought he could make a decent guess.

"Scara..." You sighed again, a hand stroking his hair. "I don't want you to cry anymore. So... Take a break. Go on hiatus. I'll be here to take care of you, okay?"

You were silent for a moment. "I'll give you my everything the day you reconcile with yourself. I promise." You told him. "But... If all my love is what you need to help you, you already have it."

It wasn't enough.

But it came pretty close. Once a promise was spoken, there would be no more lies. No betrayal. If you would make a promise, then he would too.

'... Even after I pay off my debt to you... I'll give you my all. This puppet show is dedicated to you.'

#ren tried :') #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x you #wanderer x reader #genshin x reader #genshin impact #i refuse to call twitter x fight me