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Napadaan kami kahapon sa nagbebenta ng condo at napaisip talaga ako. Maganda e, naeenvision ko na ang masayang pamumuhay kung dun ako titira. Alam ko naman 'yung area kasi saka marami ngang potential for development sa paligid. Kaso naman, 20M 'yung 2BR, 13M 'yung 1BR, at 8M 'yung studio. Kung 15,000 lang babayaran ko kada buwan for 40 years okay lang e, kaso asa pa ako.

Hindi ko alam anong trabaho ng mga nakakaafford nyan, or matiyaga lang ba talaga sila magbayad ng utang. Pwede naman magpagawa ng bahay sa probinsya, bumili ng lupa elsewhere, pero siguro pag magreretire na lang ako niyan. Wala naman akong probinsya dahil sa Metro Manila naman ako lumaki at tumira ever since, nandito rin ang work at mga kakilala.

#gusto ko na lang din magbenta ng condo

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A video "recommended" to me by youtube was entitled, "I quit my job." I was on youtube to look for Berlitz-related tips, but I spent my time watching the I quit my job video instead. She quit her job at Spotify because of burnout and the feeling that she was stuck, career-wise. There's more to it, and it made me reflect for a while.

My new coping mechanism is actually to not think. Thinking is exhausting. In many cases, it doesn't lead me anywhere. I am grateful to my friends who are patient with my musings, though. I used to think, thinking aloud helps me a lot, but now, I don't want to bother people anymore with my thoughts. They also have things to think about.

Anyway, the person's reasons for quitting (in the video) made sense to me, but I am not that adventurous or courageous to quit without another job lined up. I guess I am not really at the point where I think about contentment and growth. For example, "I want to be a world-class leader who can impact lives"—well, no. I am just collecting "experiences" everyday.

When things get difficult, I try to reframe the situation as: I am getting paid to learn, so I should keep "learning" things at the job. When things get repetitive or boring, I try to distract myself by making plans. Being tired will affect how you think, and sometimes all we need are reassurance, warmth, and rest. These days, even camping alone sounds like a great idea to me.

When I left my second job in December because I've gotten so anxious thinking about it and I don't even really want to go to work anymore, I felt so weak, as if I were a person who couldn't withstand challenging times. And I felt that it would be hard for me to have another job like that, which was somewhat aligned with my course and paid a decent amount of money (for the amount of work), but reality is different. There are even better opportunities out there.

As for that job, the responsibilities are okay, but to me, it was just being really poorly managed, and I don't think there's a need for me to force myself to tolerate the "manager" or her antics. What I experienced was probably really just a good redirection towards something more worthwhile.

In summary, I've let go of the shame and self-blame for my decisions and I've started to even think that I'm doing pretty well for wherever I am right now.

#i am not my work #i can do what i want #huwag masyado seryosohin ang buhay #matulog palagi

[nice2meetyouu]

Berlitz

A few weeks ago, I applied randomly to a medical something position I saw on a job board.

While sweeping the floor after eating lunch, I got a call from an unknown number and thought it was related to a credit card promo. However, it turned out to be a phone interview.

One thing led to another, and I ended up receiving an invitation to take a written test. There was another link for a speaking test. When I opened the link, there was the word "Berlitz".

In my mind, Berlitz, SVAR, and Versant were things related to call center companies. Don't they always include in the requirements, "excellent written and spoken English" or something to that effect, anyway? I didn't think that they screened their applicants so thoroughly (or is this just how it is, nowadays?). I found it amusing, but I was nervous, too.

I submitted the written test too early, because I thought there would be other questions. There was just one for the entire 30 minutes though.

The speaking test, on the other hand, felt chaotic to me. I was asked to tell the facilitator something about myself, and some questions were related to my response. I am unsure if it's because it's difficult to ask follow-up questions based on my [conversation-ender] responses, but the topic keeps changing.

We talked about food, culture, career, hobbies, politics, travelling, and what I would do if I won the lotto and had so much money I'm set for life.

Even so, I prefer my experience compared to the videos I saw online, where there were situations provided and you have to role play. At least in my experience, it was conversational.

I wonder what the actual job is like.

#job hunting

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'Yung unang dalawang picture, sa EVIA. The rest, sa Maginhawa. Sa Salta talaga ako nagyayaya pero bukod sa hindi namin mahanap kahit nag-Google Maps, pagkarating doon saka ko nakita na not accepting walk-ins daw until 2pm.

Sa Steak to One na lang, sabi ko, tapos may pa-meryenda rin ako sa Pad Thai Express. May nakita pala akong coffee shop doon, dati ni-research ko na saan masarap kaso nakalimutan ko na. Sabi ko pupuntahan ko one of these days pero pag nag-umpisa mag-work, halos sunset na pag tatayo. Napaka-sedentary tapos nakafocus lang sa screen, ang sakit tuloy sa mata.

Ngayon ko lang na-try mag-work with Hubstaff, so far everyday nya akong ini-email na you abandoned your shift kahit lampas 8 hours pa nga ang naka-log. Haha.

#economic power #kain #mango sticky rice #enjoy life #samut saring kwento

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Ready na ako sa year-end party (kalokohan)

Nakalimutan ko bakit, pero bigla kong naisip 'yung mga ireregalo ko sa December. At ito, planado ko na kung ano ang gagawin. Sa totoo lang gusto ko nang i-check out at baka magkaubusan pa or magbago ang price ng raw materials later on. Last year, ilan lang kami na hindi nagbigay ng kahit ano, obvious na obvious tuloy. Pero sa dami ng nagbigay, marami nanamang bagong kalat sa bahay dahil 'yung iba, hindi naman masyadong magamit. Hindi ko na pala alam saan ko nalagay 'yung ibang regalo, nawala na lang sa kwarto kong organized at malinis.

Anyway, hindi naman masyadong unique 'yung idea ko, kaya sinearch ko magkano pag ipapagawa ko na lang sa iba. Honestly, maganda 'yung gawa nila, para sa akin justified 'yung pricing nila na nasa 100-200 per piece, kaso marami akong pagbibigyan. Eh pag ako ang gumawa, nasa 11 pesos lang magagastos ko per piece plus labor fee ng kamay ko, personalized pa. Pwede ring umabot sa 60-70 pesos.

Masarap talagang mag-isip, lalo pag kontrolado mo ang decision-making at pag-execute, tapos nasa range na affordable. Pero with 7-8 months left, abangan natin kung magiging realidad o hanggang idea lang siya.

#excited #tapusin ang 2024 #hello 2025 #regalo #it's the thought that counts

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Malayo pa pero malayo na moments

Probably, nagbobolahan lang kami.

Pero today I had an interview for an online role and it seemed to be going well. After the interview, sabi nga nya it was great daw. Haha.

I remember my client interview din sa main job where one of the comments was "I enjoyed this interview, thank you." Entertainer yarn? Pero nakakaaliw kasi 'yung parang nag-uusap lang kayo versus 'yung usual na rigid questioning. Sana nagsulat na lang ako sa papel kung gano'n.

Baka pang customer service pala talaga ako pag nasa mood? Char. Contemplating na nga magresidency pero andami kong igigive up pag pumasok ako sa ospital. Goodbye life, goodbye balance, hello work.

Anyway, I love my doctor job. I just have an absurd financial goal kaya ako may 2-3 other jobs all the time even to the point of burnout.

In 2016, I had my first phone interview sa isang online English tutorial service sa mga hapon. And I was rejected kasi hindi raw ako fluent. Hindi ko makuha 'yung timing ng pagsagot.

Pero ngayon, I guess I'm better at articulating my thoughts na. To be fair, marami pa ring fail moments and rejections (even for doctor jobs lol). I guess, today's a sunny day for me.

#endless #job hunt

[nice2meetyouu]

1. Hindi, 'yung recruiter 'yun, please lang, nagtatrabaho lang 'yung tao.

2. Wrong.

3. Huh, hindi.

4. Hindi.

5. Hindi.

6. Pera, sahod, matanggap sa mga kakaibang opportunity, matuto (finally) ng mga inaaral ko (umuusad pero mabagal eh).

7. Hapunan lang.

8. Wala akong pakialam, buhay nila 'yan.

9. Kung may ibubuga. Kung confidence lang tapos façade lang o hindi reliable o wala namang skills or basta walang laman, huwag na.

10. Tubig.

Nakakatamad na. Hahaha. Good night.

92. Hindi na siguro. Tatanggapin ko na.

MAKE ME ADMIT STUFF

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 3. Have you taken someones virginity? 4. Is trust a big issue for you? 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? 6. What are you excited for? 7. What happened tonight? 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? 9. Is confidence cute? 10. What is the last beverage you had? 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 14. What are you going to spend money on next? 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 18. The last time you felt broken? 19. Have you had sex today? 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 21. Are you in a good mood? 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 24. What do you want right this second? 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 34. Listening to? 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? 38. Who did you last call? 39. Who was the last person you danced with? 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 44. Do you tan in the nude? 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 47. Who was the last person to call you? 48. Do you sing in the shower? 49. Do you dance in the car? 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 53. Is Christmas stressful? 54. Ever eat a pierogi? 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 57. Do you believe in ghosts? 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 59. Take a vitamin daily? 60. Wear slippers? 61. Wear a bath robe? 62. What do you wear to bed? 63. First concert? 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 65. Nike or Adidas? 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? 69. Ever take dance lessons? 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 71. Can you curl your tongue? 72. Ever won a spelling bee? 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 74. What is your favorite book? 75. Do you study better with or without music? 76. Regularly burn incense? 77. Ever been in love? 78. Who would you like to see in concert? 79. What was the last concert you saw? 80. Hot tea or cold tea? 81. Tea or coffee? 82. Favorite type of cookie? 83. Can you swim well? 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 85. Are you patient? 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 87. Ever won a contest? 88. Ever have plastic surgery? 89. Which are better black or green olives? 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? 91. Best room for a fireplace? 92. Do you want to get married

#tanong #pag wala mapag usapan

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Let's have a cup of coffee?

#sobrang daming tao #umuwi na lang kami #alam naman natin lasa ng CP #yes hindi natry #bumisita lang #kabahan ka na lala cafe

[nice2meetyouu]

Masaya ka girl?!

#drink coffee #be happy

[nice2meetyouu]

After ko malungkot nang malungkot, napagod na ako. So wala na. Wala na akong ilulungkot. Hahahaha.

Medyo mas compassionate na ako sa sarili. And recently gumagala-gala na rin with other friend groups. Nagtatanong-tanong about certain opportunities, nag-aaral ng mga bagay-bagay. Nabawasan na rin ang burnout.

Sabi nga ng iba, life is what you make out of it. Maraming mistakes, pero marami rin kasi akong tinatry na kung anu-ano. Alam ko ba ang future? Success lang ba ang posibleng outcome sa mga ginagawa sa buhay? Pero hindi rin naman smart i-try lahat at mag-fail nang mag-fail.

So basta, huwag nang masyadong indahin ang sinasabi ng iba and just keep going.

#life update yarn

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cloe

#cute

[nice2meetyouu]

Sa UPD ka ba grumaduate?

Bakit muna

#chareng

[nice2meetyouu]

Usapang work.

Bigla akong naofferan ng lateral transfer. Nagulat ako. Next week na raw kami mag-uusap, heads up lang 'yung kanina.

Hindi ko alam kung good move ba siya at hindi ko rin naiintindihan 'yung role masyado. Tanungin ko na lang daw 'yung boss dun next week.

Masaya naman ako sa current kong ginagawa. Sabi ng mga kasama, bakit daw ako? Hindi naman in a negative way. Pero may ongoing projects naman at madalas naman akong ma-commend at gamay ko na 'yung ginagawa.

Isa pa, may nag-resign nanaman sa amin, last day na niya next week. Naaliw ako kasi nagkausap kami about saan siya lilipat. 'Yun daw kasi ang gusto nya talaga. Tanungin ko lang daw sya kasi 'yun din ang alam niya talagang gawin.

Kahit ako na nandito sa atypical doctor work, patuloy na nakakadiscover ng iba pang atypical doctor work. Never ko naisip na may mga ganoon palang opportunity for us. Gaya ng iniisip ng iba na nasa ospital at ang idea ng trabaho namin ay consults (o nag-oopera, or something), akala ko rin clinical opportunity lang mayroon.

Pero hindi. At may greener pastures din. At minsan, may mga ladder din na pwedeng akyatin.

#hello universe

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#therapy

[nice2meetyouu]

Kahapon galit ako pero ngayon hindi na. Ready na magpatawad, na-override na ng fondness at love ang negativity. Dinelete nya 'yung buong usapan, e paano ko na ngayon babasahin 'yung iba kong sulat? Tulad nito:

Super happy ako tuwing nagmemessage ka.

I always wish I could be a better version of myself para sa ating dalawa.

Sa dinami-rami ng tao sa mundo, at sa dinami-rami ng nangyayari sa bawat araw, I'm glad I found love, safety, and peace with you.

Same pa rin sa sinabi ko dati, thank you sa one of a kind experience (in the form of the love that we share). Thank you for never making me feel like I'm too much, or I'm a burden.

I know na pag ikaw 'yung nagsabi, 'yun 'yung totoong iniisip mo. Thank you sa pag-cherish ng lahat, thank you for everything that you do.

I want to be with you always and for life. I love you, _. 😊

Dadating ba 'yung panahong makakapagsabi ulit ako ng mga ganyan mula sa puso?

#live in the present daw

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Mahabang kwento part 2.

Ano 'yung toxic at unhealthy dun?

Sabi nga ng ibang tao, pag sinabi mong ganyan, it implies na may pattern nang nangyayari.

Paano nareduce 'yung mga bagay na sobrang vinalue ko—moments and experiences together—sa something na "toxic" at "unhealthy"?

As far as I know, straightforward akong kausap. At 'yung mga brining up nya dating concern, ni-receive ko naman warmly at positively. Hindi ba sabi nya, naghanda sya ng rebuttal, pero na-amaze siya na pinakinggan ko sya at tinanggap as is?

Just a week before we were on a happy date. Just a few days before I was thanking him for various things. And even on the day itself na I was so down, I know some of my statements weren't the best, but I showed appreciation, hindi ba?

Oh, and weren't you calling me wife-to-be, and asking me things about changing my surname?

If from the start nilinaw mo na casual lang gusto mo, kasamang lumabas, kasamang kumain, kasamang magtravel, kayakap, occasional na kausap, and none of life's drama and no emotional support required, sana nakapag-adjust ako accordingly.

Sana, hindi ako nag-lean on you. To think na I trusted you with worries, anxiety, goals, and the steps I've been taking to reach those... only for you to "devalue" me now that what I did turned out to be a misstep, and leave me when I was desperate for support and comfort...

Naging toxic at unhealthy ang relationship? At ngayon hindi mo alam kung justifiable ba na i-block ako o i-unfriend na lang? At nagkocomment ka pa sa ibang namomroblema, na kung gusto nya ng advice, pwede ka nyang kausapin? At naghahanap ka na agad ng kasamang gumala at kumain sa mall? At, for some reason, 'yung display pic mo ngayon ay 'yung picture na ako ang kumuha sa isang date natin dati, at nandu'n ang kamay ko at bracelet?

Naiisip daw nya na every time na lang, ganu'n ang mangyayari—bro has predicted the future of our relationship. Ganu'n as in pag may mabigat na problema ako, magbebreakdown ako? Did I? 'Yun ba 'yung nangyari in the past? At 'yung sabi mo na safe space ka, nasaan? It really baffles me. Kung aware ako na pang-good times lang 'tong ginagawa natin, sana hindi ako nag-open up sa 'yo?

Alam mo namang hindi ako nagrarant dati sa 'yo, pero pinapaniwala mo ako na okay lang, at hindi ka affected negatively, at gusto mo kamo marinig at malaman ang lahat.

On top of your other little lies, like when I asked saan ka huling nagtravel by plane and you said na Boracay, and later on it turns out you've never been there, or when you said na you met your ex sa ML and it turns out na sa dating site mo sya na-meet, I find all of these atrocious.

Selfish ako... for feeling hopeless?

On paper, mukhang okay ka naman. When I met you in person, I found you endearing din. I hope you got a big ego boost from me, I sincerely complimented you a lot, didn't I. It's a pity that you lack humanity, and you're always thinking of the "ideal" characteristics to show people, the "ideal" words to say in situations, the "ideal" course of action in life, and everything ideal.

Oh, to be discarded. I feel free. The next time I "trust" again, I hope it's someone sincere and upfront, and not someone who wants me to believe that his love is deeper than the ocean, and had on a gift to me engraved "I will love you until the end of time," only to see my vulnerability and weakness as selfishness, and call what we had toxic and unhealthy.

#sinulat to habang emotional

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Mahabang kwento part 1.

Umpisahan natin sa mga bagay na nagustuhan ko sa kanya: stable ang work, may ipon, mabait, considerate, respectful, nakikinig, masayang kausap, generous, payapa pakiramdam pag kasama sya, into fitness, into skincare, financially literate, mukhang parehas kami ng values, nagkakasundo naman ng humor... at marami pang iba.

Fast forward to two weeks after nyang makipagbreak: Nagpost ang mahal kong ex sa social media. Nagtatanong kung justifiable daw bang i-block ako sa lahat ng social media platform. Nakipagbreak daw sya sa akin dahil toxic at unhealthy na ang relationship (sabi sa post). Sinabi rin daw nyang there's no chance of getting back. Alam din ng parents nya ang nangyari dahil ikinuwento nya, at ang payo nila ay iblock ako for good at mag-move on.

Hindi ko maintindihan bakit ito 'yung part na inooverthink nya. Hindi rin ako aware na sinabi nya palang there's no chance of getting back, kasi ang naalala ko, while hindi na raw kami magiging friends, sabi ko, pag okay na, pwede pa ba maging kami ulit? At sabi nya, ayaw nyang panghawakan ko ang mga salita nya, kaya mag-focus na lang daw muna ako sa sarili ko.

Anyway, kanina, nalaman kong dinelete nya 'yung usapan namin. Wala na lahat. Gets ko 'yung idelete nya ang kopya nya, pero bakit pati 'yung kopya ko, dinelete nya? Paano ko na babalikan 'yung mga sinabi nyang malayo sa katotohanan? Paano pag gusto kong ianalyze 'yung mga usapan namin?

Bukod dyan, nagpakadetective ako at nakita ko ang mga bakas nya sa internet. Naghahanap pala sya ng FUBU/ONS noong 2022. Sabihin na nating parte 'yan ng past nya. Pero meron syang mga deleted na post na never kong tinignan o inungkat dati. Apparently, matagal na syang naghahanap ng makaka-date. I was under the impression na first time nya triny 'to dahil daw maraming success stories 'yung friends nya na nagkakilala online. And 'yung mga naabutan ko lang na post nya e naghahanap sya ng accountability/fitness buddy; in between 'yung deleted posts.

Hindi naman masama kung naghahanap sya ng makaka-date. Pero kung babalikan mo 'yung mga inilista kong bagay sa taas bakit ko sya nagustuhan, ang problema e ni-misrepresent nya 'yung sarili nya. Akala ko on the same page kami, maayos communication namin, upfront and honest kami. Pero ako lang pala 'yung ganu'n.

Lagi kong sinasabi na "for your informed decision-making". Gusto ko lang ng tamang expectation setting. Kung babasahin mo talaga 'yung mga sinabi nya sa akin, parang mahal na mahal talaga ako. Tugma rin naman sa kilos niya in real life pag may date. Princess treatment pa nga. Pero nagkaproblema lang, hiwalayan agad. For the first time, I'm hearing about mga reklamo niya tungkol sa akin na never naman na-bring up before. I'd say, kaya naman kami napunta sa setup na mayroon kami, ay dahil sa encouragement niya na sabihan ko siya ng lahat, kwentuhan, okay lang, hindi siya affected. Kung kailangan ko raw siya, sabihan ko lang siya. Kung hindi raw sya pwede, or walang bandwidth, sasabihan nya ako.

So ano 'yun? Someone who kept saying na "I'm here for you" nu'ng gabi, literally gone the next day, stopped talking to me, stopped replying, ni seen wala. Akala ko okay na kami. Yeah right, blinock na ako ng family members nya.

#ewan