Thank you for such an interesting request! I hadn’t even thought about what Jason might think of the Joker Jr situation before, so that made this especially fun to explore! I’m glad you liked it! 💕
If you are still doing a requests, could I potentially have a short fanfic drabble for Jaytim where Jason interacts with Tim during the Joker jr. situation? Or how about one a short domestic drabble for the ship where Jason and Tim live together and are baking together in their kitchen? If not, otherwise have a good day! :)
“Heard you beat me to the punch.” Jason couldn’t quite keep the bitterness out of his voice, though he kept the anger out. Didn’t want to scare the kid off. It had taken some doing to find the kid alone – he’d had to break into the Manor, and then find the kid tucked away in the dark corner of the attic like a forgotten wife in a gothic novel.
On his way through the Manor, he’d seen a bedroom set up for the kid; the bars on the windows weren’t iron, but he knew a safe room when he saw one. The attic must be where the kid escaped to, a private space that Jason was invading.
The kid doesn’t even look at him. Jason’s not sure that he heard him, but he’s not going to repeat himself. The kid just sits there, staring at nothing.
He can tell they’ve tried to fix him up, but some things can’t be fixed.
He’s hard to look at. Jason can feel that last bright, hot moment before everything went black when he looks directly at him, a miniature version of Jason’s personal boogeyman. He tries not to let it show. He’s betting the kid’s broken more than his share of mirrors.
He knows the kid should be sounding the alarm – Jason was a stranger in a safe place, a place that should be impenetrable, but he doesn’t react. Doesn’t do much of anything.
Jason had been like that, before the Pit. Is that what it would take to get this kid back to something approaching human? Jason pushes the thought away; what happened to this kid was something entirely different, and the Pit would likely make it worse.
He imagined that face, those laughs, combined with the liquid green madness that had clouded Jason, and knew he would never let that happen.
“You got anything to say?” he reaches out and nudges the kid’s foot with his own. The kid hunches in on himself, cringes away, and Jason feels the sharp edges of his bitterness soften under the sheer understanding that this kid has been shattered just as surely as he has. Had his identity blown to pieces.
Is left scarred in ways that others can’t imagine.
Jason took a deep breath and sat down next to the kid. Tim. His name was Tim, and he wasn’t Robin, not anymore, and even though Jason doubted he felt much like a Tim – Jason hadn’t felt human enough to feel like he needed a name for a long while, after – Jason knew it was important.
He didn’t say anything, and Tim didn’t outwardly react to Jason sitting there, just continued to stare and occasionally let out a strangled little laugh.
The sound made them both flinch.
The thing was, Jason hadn’t planned on coming back to Gotham this soon. He’d had a whole plan in mind that he was fine-tuning, a way to make Bruce really understand what he’d done wrong. He wanted to make everyone pay, because sometimes the rage filled him to the point that it had to explode out somehow, and it might as well be in the direction of the people who had turned Jason into this in the first place.
But then he’d heard a rumor.
He’d heard a rumor so outlandish that he had dropped everything and came back to Gotham.
He hadn’t expected it to be true.
So here he was, trying to wrap his head around a world where the Joker was as dead as Jason always dreamed, and the fact that it was his replacement that had done it.
Not Bruce.
Not Jason.
But this broken kid who had been warped into something monstrous and then somehow managed to do what none of the rest of them had.
“You did good.”
Finally, a real reaction out of Tim– he whipped his head around, stared at Jason with eyes that were too old and too young at the same time. It was like looking into a fucking mirror and Jason hated it, but he couldn’t bear to look away.
“Seriously. The–” The name caught in Jason’s throat, even though he’d spit it out a thousand times before. “That bastard. You did good. He didn’t deserve…”
To live.
Life, Jason had found, could be as much a curse as a blessing, and what Tim’s life had become wasn’t something anyone deserved. He took a shaky breath and tried to continue. Words had never escaped him like this, but words had never felt quite this important.
“Fucker deserved to be put in the ground, and if I couldn’t be the one to do it, I’m glad you did.”
There. Not the entire truth – if Bruce had just done the fucking deed back when Jason was freshly dead, then this kid wouldn’t have gone through whatever nightmare he had. Wouldn’t have the face he had. Wouldn’t hiccup tiny little giggles that made his eyes widen like he thought that the Joker was right there behind him.
Yeah, Jason couldn’t be mad that this kid had stolen his revenge.
Something garbled came out of Tim’s throat – a word, he thought, something that wasn’t one of those horrifying laughs – and Jason tilted his head. He’d forgone the helmet – he hadn’t known if Tim would understand the reference, but hadn’t wanted to chance it – and that left him feeling strangely vulnerable as Tim stared at him, wild, mad eyes searching Jason’s domino mask.
He stayed quiet, waiting for Tim to repeat whatever it was.
His second attempt at speech was more clear, though his voice was raspy. Jason knew the sound of a voice that had screamed itself hoarse, and said nothing. “You’re not mad?”
“Kid, I want to burn the fucking world down, I’m so mad,” Jason said honestly. “But not at you.”
Not now, not when he’d seen the wreckage the Joker had left behind.
A ghastly smile, then Tim said, “Thanks, Jason.”
Jason’s eyes shot open. He shouldn’t know, there was no way he could know who Jason was. No one knew, not outside of the League. There was no fucking way this shell of a Robin could clock him.
But that explained why he’d sat there, when Jason had slipped into the Manor and into his private sanctuary. It explained why he kept flinching away when he laughed. It explained why he’d hung onto Jason’s words like a lifeline.
He had somehow figured it out. He’d read up on Tim when Talia had told him about the new Robin, and even the League’s write up on him had emphasized his intelligence, and how well-suited he was to taking over Bruce’s role as a detective.
Jason took a breath in, let it out slowly. “If you ever need out of this place, let me know,” he said, in lieu of almost anything else in the fucking world, instead of all those things he’d thought he would say when he broke into the place. “I saw that room. A fuckin’ jail.”
“Sometimes I can’t be trusted.” Jason could tell Tim wasn’t sure if he meant by Bruce or by Tim himself.
“Join the fucking club.” He tucked a slip of paper into Tim’s pale hand – contact info, in case he decides he needs away from all this – and then pauses. Squeezes Tim’s hand. Doesn’t say anything else, because he doesn’t have to.
Last time he left the Manor, he’d been a child, optimistic, and had thought he would be back, armed with answers and family.
This time, he knows he will.
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