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More stories from hell (retail) today I was ringing up this lady and she goes oh I want to do part of this on a gift card and the rest on normal card and I go ok and then she hands me a folded piece of paper. I think oh OK it must be folded around the gift card, right? Wrong. It is a folded sheet of 8×11 printer paper with "$40" written on the inside in ballpoint pen. I go what is this. She says a gift card. I say this is not a gift card. She says yes it is. I say this is a piece of paper with "$40" written on it. She says "well it's a gift card." I say it absolutely is not. I am grinding my teeth. She says well I want to use it. I say you physically cannot do that bc it is a piece of paper. I cannot scan or swipe it. I apologize, as if this is my fault, and not because she is completely insane. I hate it here

#YES OP!!!+

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guy with a degradation kink x guy who just hates him

#early vandermatthews 😂😂

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AUDIO FILES ARE FINISHED. 4 YEAR PROJECT DONE

YES! YOU HEARD RIGHT! EVERY AUDIO FILE EXCEPT FOR A FEW. GUYS, please, if you run across something you like, like and reblog it! I worked so hard on these for years and lost money. Don't worry if something is "Old". This is an archive for YOU. USE IT. The ones NOT uploaded break tumblr's rules of content rules for racism. So, no no Bill or Micah being racist towards Charles, Javier etc. No Bill/Kieran audio. I don't feel comfortable with it and I don't want to be reported. Final one is Lenny's father's pocket watch story. It has so many triggers in it, I couldn't cut everything out without it being a mess. Finally, I did a poll and people voted that I write transcripts for all of the files that need it. So you WILL see some of them reblogged!

I have some tidbits I'll find and post! If you want an individual piece, let me know!

#this is honestly incredible #you have provided us with so much content and I don't think you get the recognition you deserve for it #thank you so so much for all of these files #its honestly just mindblowing the amount of effort you have put in #thank you #rdr2

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i will never b happy

#FUCKIN #OW!!!! #vandermatthews

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Reblog if you think fanfiction is a legitimate form of creative writing.

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"Oh, Dutch was something special back then"

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Hosea fucks

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Broke Back Redemption 3

#help 😂😂😂

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anything else with your vandermatthews angst? therapist appointment maybe?

#vandermatthews #dutch van der linde #hosea matthews #read dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #actual tears

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For Hosea fucks Friday, my favourite doodle of the guy

#Hosea Fucks Friday #:D

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I know that only you can save me.

#screaming #vdm #rdr2

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Some Apps Which Help Me!

I've been doing this for a few years and have tried every app and website! When I relapse, I come back to the same few, here they are!

-https://www.fatcalc.com/rwl (Great for seeing how long it will take you to reach a certain weight which certain cals, but won't go under 1,000 cals so estimate)

-Lifesum (Best food tracker I have found and great for logging daily weights, I like the food scanning ability and you can track food by the gram if you have a food scale)

-Zero (Great fasting tracker with a ton of great communities you can join, good if you like to compete against others)

-C25K (I use this when I'm running because cardio is the best for weight loss, talks you through running and walking intervals)

-Tumblr (OFC to share and learn more, talk to others who also experience similar thinking patterns)

-YouTube (Surprisingly has a lot of restriction content if you search the right words)

#jimmy fitness stuff

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“If you have time to watch Netflix you have time for a side hustle” my side hustle is relaxing so that my body and brain can heal from by this nose-to-the-grindstone bullshit. I refuse to feel guilty for being a human with the need to relax sometimes. my side hustle is no.

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I make art about grief again

#oh no ow #ow my heart #grief