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Jealous! Me? ( Part two)

OUT OF MY HANDS!

People are people. They must be free to love whom they will love and not love whom they choose not to love. I have been compelled to brood over this fact  to snap my heart out of foolishness! Maybe I should say, jealousy!

This introductory visit was supposed to be brief since PP had to return his office and I had a load of other things to do. But as always, you never quite spend the time you plan to spend with YAAA... 30 minutes easily become 3 hours around YAAA! I kid you not! And the amazing thing is that it feels like you have only been with her for 15 minutes... Lol!

As I suspected, she was not interested in managing a forex account of her own, like myself. She suggested that PP manages both our accounts for us for a commission on our earnings. Coming to that decision was easy since we were both certain that we were unprepared to commit all the attention required to manage a profitable forex account.

 WEIGHTIER MATTERS: Positive Distractions

PP's spiritual senses were in tune and in no time, the weightier matters for which I believe the Lord orchestrated this meeting began to show up and distract PP...needless to say, the next 2 hours or so, were not spent discussing forex trading.

The Lord visited YAAA  in a most beautiful way and I believe her whole family was touched one way or another because of this visit.

 SMITTEN !

So PP was bitten by the bug... He was caught by the allure of YAAA's company and the ambiance of her cozy home (same thing happened to me).

There was a request that we return the next day... Distractions part two! This time, we met her husband. PP was gobsmacked! He loved the man. (I guarantee you would too if you were there). On and on we went... PP I mean. I was more of a spectator actually. Just loving all that the Lord was doing!

PP received some gift vouchers from YAAA'S 'Head' who promised to sort me out later. I didn't have any problem at all.

Things begun to ruffle my feathers a bit when PP came to my home later that afternoon to hand me two of the vouchers... Feeling guilty or bad for me I guess. I suspected he will do this and I rejected it.

I sent him away quickly, telling him that I am not his Pimp. I was busy cooking at the time and I also had a meeting in the evening which I could not be late for.

Then I had to send PP the phone number for YAAA.

They of course begun chatting and YAAA will tell me whenever they did. (to the best of my knowledge)

Before you know it, PP started to visit YAAA by himself. This is not a bad thing... But what?

 JEALOUSY GO SHEE!

When I heard about walks in her yard and 'Kofi broke man' lunches, I confess I got sober. I began to wonder why Kofi did not mention these to me.

I shocked myself in the ensuing days.

Lava hot jealousy gripped me. Here I was thinking all sorts of things; he is enjoying my new friend, when he kicked against meeting her in the first place... I finally found a friend in the faith, who is also female... And now PP has waltzed in and is whisking her heart away... From me... And he now wants to do stuff with her I thought was exclusive to us... And what's worse, I handed him to YAAA on a silver platter!

I love YAAA... I know she loves me right back... She told me so.

As for PP, he has sentenced himself to life as my 'Ride or Die'! It is what it is!

So why was I hyperventilating each time I thought of them together?

I began to feel angry at PP. Why was he enjoying my friend? Why didn't he just stick to forex trading? Ah!

I stopped answering PP's phone calls. I needed space to think.

I know I was being unreasonable. I mean initially, PP was behaving as if he couldn't go over to YAAA's home without me. I of course told him that was silly and I was not his Pimp! I eventually admitted to myself that I was jealous. I also convinced myself that I had to get over it. These are two people I am grateful to God that our paths have more than crossed at this side of eternity. Instead of 'stewing' in jealousy, I must put my time and emotions to better use and just love. I am actually glad they both get along.

Unfortunately, before I could complete the self soothing process, I got caught.

 BUSTED !

Okay, so did I mention that YAAA is a fierce lawyer, entrepreneur, wife, mother... SFFS? Nothing escapes her attention. So I kind of expected it when she called me and pinned me down with the question... "Do you have a problem with my relationship with PP?"

I was ready! Thankfully, I had just cleared my head on the subject.

Without giving her all the details, I told her  what I honestly felt. It helped to talk about it to another person. She told me she was breaking up with us both... Lol! She didn't want to come between friends... (she was just joking).

PP called me a few minutes after. I declined to take the call. I was going to handle it when I had time.

This was the very next day though. PP came over to my home. I poured my heart out, he took notes. He addressed all the issues I brought up. He was surprised but glad that I opened up... Guess what? YAAA called! Then she came over!

I wish I could say... "And they lived happily ever after" but you know what they say "two is company, three is a crowd".

I must say that I thank God for this 'Crowd'.

#frienship #friends #openness #love triangle #spilled truth #real deal

[pearlsprings]

Jealous! Me? ( Part one)

Rev. Rex had just finished speaking after my submission. I was inspired to share some details about my life... (can't recall what it was). I spoke at length, as I usually do when I am inspired.

A lady by name YAAA began speaking. She was new in our discipleship class... New to me, because I could not recall ever seeing her face to face. She sounded just like me... Maybe a little better.

She sounded confident, fresh and genuine. I sensed a hunger in her voice... A hunger for God... " who is this YAAA?" I wondered to myself. Need I say that her submission was on point!

" I am a lawyer..." I heard her say!

My antennas were all up and excited. I quickly typed a message to her direct chat on the zoom meeting asking for her number. I was now anxious for the discipleship class to end so I speak to this captivating person who sounded as fresh and genuine as I know I am.

The beginning :A SISTERFRIEND, FRIENDSISTER

My liberty in Christ has helped me embrace the gift of 'loquaciousness'... I can talk!

You can't imagine my utter surprise and delight when YAAA said to me in our over 2 hours conversation that her husband remarked after my submission on the zoom meeting, that he had never heard anyone who could talk so much more than his wife.

I finally found someone who talks as much as I do and, is comfortable with it... It was 'love at first talk'.

It turns out that YAAA and I had met previously in church, where I had the audacity to ask her to take off her face mask because I wasn't sure if I knew her. She hesitated but later obliged me. She looked familiar but I didn't know her. This was the first time I saw YAAA; Short hair, gold framed glasses, light makeup, a clean white shirt, a cute designer handbag and a fresh aura of good taste.

Speaking on the phone however, it felt as if we had been talking like this forever. So much to say! So much warmth!

I said to YAAA, "I want you to mentor me... I am in law school, you said you are a lawyer" she exclaimed "Oh Aunty, I was going to tell you to help me with the Bible... I like how you all flow..." (or something like that).

My prompt response was, " you scratch my back, I scratch yours"

And just like that! From that fateful Saturday morning into the afternoon, I believe I found me a SISTERFRIEND, FRIENDSISTER! A day did not go by without us talking, 'whatsapping' or seeing each other!

Sunshine, laughter, love, sharing, help, hearty talks, secrets, prayers, givings, openness... No holds barred... and so much more filled our days! I will dole out some details as the blogs roll on.*

In the course of this new normal, I decided to have my 'brother from another mother', my Personal Prophet, PP, meet my SFFS. Little did I know then, that this decision was about to 'rock my boat'.

DO I WANT TO SHARE MY SFFS? I genuinely didn't think this will be a problem!

For a good part of my young life, into my adulthood, friendships were hard. There were several disappointments, rejections, betrayals and false friends. Frankly, I was tired of opening up to people, male and female alike, only to suffer emotional and psychological pain. I must add that my burgeoning life as Christian did not shield me from this fate even in the household of faith. I had resigned myself to a wonderful relationship with my outreach partner, who later became my dream interpreter and teacher, prayer partner, fellow God chaser, dear friend, and now and forever, my 'Blood bought' and 'Blood washed' brother. In recent times, he has jealously guarded his position as my PP.

I shall reserve details of our escapades, all in search for depths in God for another day.

I really wanted PP to meet YAAA... my reasons were not very clear to me until after they had met though. I realize that I wanted to know what PP could discern concerning any potential or future for this sisterhood with YAAA. I dreaded the possibility of putting my heart into another friendship only to have it shattered to smithereens. Yes. I was going to live with my heart treading cautiously, eyes wide opened and watching, all the while praying that If this was a waste of 'heart', PP will pick it up, alert me and save me the trouble of another heartbreak. I did not tell him this though. I knew that if he met her, certainly, I will know what I needed to know.

A tiny problem arose however, when for two weeks, PP was stalling and didn't want to go with me to meet my SFFS! I must explain that, though PP loves people, he keeps his circle really small and does not easily let people in. He therefore didn't want to meet someone I claimed to be worth meeting and have to begin another relationship (it was his full expectation that this new friend was likely to be a troublesome person or even try to take advantage of his spiritual gifts).

Alas, an opportunity presented itself when PP offered to teach me about forex trading. In fact, a year ago, he had attempted to begin but I was not ready. This time when he brought it up, I realized that that this was the perfect opportunity for PP to meet YAAA.

" You will teach me and my new friend. She is good at these things and I want her to learn with me. Let's go to her house."

PP agreed and after informing YAAA, we finally went to her house.

END OF PART 1

#friends #frienship #spiritual gifts #jealousy #love triangle #real deal