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Red Dead Online lassoed me off my sloop right as I was getting ready to re-enter my Sea of Thieves fixation

Now I’m too focused on delivering mail and looking for treasure to deliver mail and look for treasure

Wait

#adhd is a hell of a drug #red dead redemption 2 #sea of thieves #cowboy #pirates #you cannot fathom the depths of my despair knowing how desperately I want to play both of these games #but being sentenced to hyperfixate on only one at a time or I will play neither for 6 months

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Never in my life did I think that re-tweeting resources for SA, and supporting victims would be considered problematic or performative.

I should not have to bare this, but I'm going to tell just one of my stories, because I need you to understand where I'm coming from. TW // Sexual Harassment

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When I was 15, I had my wisdom teeth removed. I wanted to avoid using the pain medication they prescribed. I struggle a lot with sensory issues, medications and substances made it worse.

However, my surgery was for impacted teeth, and only two days in one of my stitches fell out. I was in so much pain, and couldn't eat solids w/ out pain for up to three weeks.

So, a week into my recovery, one of my friends invites me to their house. They were having our friend group over, it was just a little bonfire get together kinda thing. I took my pain meds a few hours prior, and only half a dose, but I was out of it to some degree, and somehow still in pain.

I was sitting on a lawn chair outside, when one of my close friends came over and asked to sit on my lap. Honestly, I said yes at first, because this was my childhood friend, someone I trusted, and I thought our relationship was incredibly platonic. Then he started to shift/grind about in my lap, and I started to feel things of theirs I did not want to. They made a noise that deeply unsettled me, and I told him to get off, they didn't. It was only when I told them that he accidently triggered the emergency call shortcut on my phone (it was in the pocket of the lawn chair, yes they were moving that much and I was moving trying to push him off) that he finally got up.

I was bewildered, and a bit confused, and also embarrassed that my phone nearly called 911. I claimed I wasn't feeling well, and went home early.

That was the first time someone touched me in a remotely sexual way, but I didn't dare to label it until I talked to my therapist. It made me dwell on a lot of experiences with this person as well. How obsessed they were with being taller than me, how often they'd grab me and force me to see if they were stronger than me. At the time, I was in a friend group of predominately non-men, and they were all friends with this person.

However, when I told them about this, when I expressed the discomfort it brought me. I was brushed off. "He's just like that!" oh "He probably didn't mean it" etc.

I didn't feel comfortable in the same room as this person. My friends would continue to invite them to hang outs. One of my other friends told everyone about what happened without my permission. I started having breakdowns in my classes with him. I had panic attacks all the time. I felt as if I had to continue this façade of being nice to him, or else I would lose my friends of years and years.

I was happy when covid started, because for the first time I had breathing room, but by then so much of my trust was dismantled.

Due to my friends association with this person, and the fact that not being their friend excluded me. I eventually got over it, and told myself I'd grown past it.

Three months ago, this same person admitted to me they hold extreme grudges against me, that they projected their "mommy issues" on to me, and quite literally said the words, "Yeah yeah, you're a woman who's outspoken and challenged me and that bothers me yeah yeah." in regards to that. They said it with sarcasm, like it was something they knew, and their mother was reminding them for the 12th time.

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I bring this all up, not to make you feel guilty, but to discuss the harm of not supporting victims, not listening to them. It puts them in a position of isolation, and in a position to potentially be hurt again.

So yeah, I'm gonna be a little upset when people say I'm being "performative" about supporting victims of sexual harassment and SA. I'm not doing this because it benefits me, in fact it's caused a lot of backlash, horrible dms, and very triggering memories.

I'm doing it because I was once not heard, and i've sat with Caiti behind the scenes for months watching her lose passion for something she loved (content creation).

I didn't do this because I'm secretly sniveling behind the scenes tapping my fingers praying on peoples downfall. I'm not a Disney villain dude lmfao.

Honestly, this narrative that is being pushed, that people are doing it "because it benefits them" is quite ironic, considering most of the people talked about within the last 72 hours were under Wilbur's weird ass apology doing just that.

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I hate how people are okay with this narrative, the misogynist undertones of it. I've seen people admit that they didn't like me or my friends the entire time, while simultaneously "calling us out" about this, so I ask you,

Are you calling us? Because it benefits your motives? Your feelings?

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Now tumblr wants me to apply to be a nasa astronaut

I feel like I need to ask a question but I don’t know what the question is

Behold; baby’s first philosophy class

Alternatively; nerd after reading hitchhikers guide to the universe.

I am so mentally ill

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I feel like I need to ask a question but I don’t know what the question is

Behold; baby’s first philosophy class

Alternatively; nerd after reading hitchhikers guide to the universe.

I am so mentally ill

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CHARLES POODWATTLE IT IS I AND I PRESENT YOU THIS INQUIRY:

do you drink ice water

If so, do you put room temperature water on your ice or cold water on your ice.

I personally find the cold-on-cold to be too cold.

I arrive at the fuction

I crunch thos ice

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The Chem Baroness Renata Glasc by 齐齐喜欢看美漫

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In other news, tumblr thinks I should invest in weed

Me and my irls have started a new running joke where out of the blue we will ask the imaginary chat moderators to do something incredibly specific and often threatening to “this guy”

These can range from “Mods, put a lump of coal in this guys stocking” to “mods, make this guy forget the face of his childhood pet” to “mods, make sure this guy never understands what it truly means to be loved” to “Mods, take this guy to the new facility for researching pita bread, but take away his snacks”

However, in the off chance we are feeling merciful, This Guy can have a treat if he behaves.

“Mods, give this guy some salami.” “Mods, show this guy the true meaning of Christmas.” “Mods, make sure this guy gets a long and fulfilling night of sleep and awakens tomorrow feeling prepared and able to handle the days problems.”

Most of the time I’m glad I’m not this guy because I’d rather not suddenly be afflicted with ovarian cysts as a member of the salami and meatballs club, but I think not having insomnia would be nice.

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Me and my irls have started a new running joke where out of the blue we will ask the imaginary chat moderators to do something incredibly specific and often threatening to “this guy”

These can range from “Mods, put a lump of coal in this guys stocking” to “mods, make this guy forget the face of his childhood pet” to “mods, make sure this guy never understands what it truly means to be loved” to “Mods, take this guy to the new facility for researching pita bread, but take away his snacks”

However, in the off chance we are feeling merciful, This Guy can have a treat if he behaves.

“Mods, give this guy some salami.” “Mods, show this guy the true meaning of Christmas.” “Mods, make sure this guy gets a long and fulfilling night of sleep and awakens tomorrow feeling prepared and able to handle the days problems.”

Most of the time I’m glad I’m not this guy because I’d rather not suddenly be afflicted with ovarian cysts as a member of the salami and meatballs club, but I think not having insomnia would be nice.

#mods kill this guy

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pompurin: the sequel

WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHG

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do you listen to metal?

sometimes

i dont go out of my way to listen to it but when its played i jam

i was in the car yesterday with a friend and we listened to metal while christmas shopping and it was amazing

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siege tower by curta’n wall gives you vibes

me fr

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Favorite league champ?

Her 😳

I have this like half animated just gotta yknow… get motivation

#renata glasc #leagueoflegends #eat your heart out Kim Kardashian #debra wilson

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do you still have the cosplays you made

Some of them yea

I don’t have the technoblade mask anymore cause technodad has it now

I don’t have the big pauldrons for Ainz

I don’t have Julian’s jacket or mask anymore

I gave Charlie the Gillion chest plate

I can’t remember what else I’ve done that I don’t have anymore

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Hahahoo

Wow that sure is a lot of notations sure would be a shame if i wasn’t even halfway through the book

Oh nooooooooooooooooo

There is an entire page dedicated to listing off some of momongas passive abilities and three out of four paragraphs end in “etc.”

This video is gonna be L O N G

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I need to get good at a jhin impression because his voice is gender and shouting “4!” doesn’t quite capture his voice

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Wow that sure is a lot of notations sure would be a shame if i wasn’t even halfway through the book

Oh nooooooooooooooooo

There is an entire page dedicated to listing off some of momongas passive abilities and three out of four paragraphs end in “etc.”

This video is gonna be L O N G

#overlord #light novel #video essay

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oh you're that pondwater guy right?