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[prettypuppxx]

i dont know how much longer i can go on. my erotophobia keeps getting worse and now ots to the point where i feel Nauseous just thinking about sex. genuinely makes me want to die. why cant i be normal. why cant i just expereince things as everyone else does. im crying right now because i dont want to be just an online sex object, i want to be loved by someone who actually cares about me. i miss being in a loving relationship i hate my nsfw blog i hate the dms i hate the asks i hate comments i hate my twitter account i hate looking at myself i cant take it anymore

#nsft #vent #erotophobia #genophobia #nsft vent

[prettypuppxx]

yoy ever just throw up because you thought about reblogging an nsft ask game and reblogged it anyways because "the show must go on" then reblogged a few more while feeling sick to your stomach and ready to throw up again? me neither haha

#erotophobia #genophobia #emetophobia #emetophobia tw #nsft #vent #nsft vent

[prettypuppxx]

why do i even bother with masturbation honestly

i always end up crying and wanting to die

why even bother...

#prettypuppxx

[prettypuppxx]

1nc3stplay acc used my original post for their 1nc3st fantasy and now i feel gross and want to cry

#nsft vent #vent #nsft #am i overreacting #is it kinkshaming...

[prettypuppxx]

im sobbing my eyes out in genuine fear at the idea of having sex

ive never had sex,i shouldnt be feeling physically sick at the idea of having sex, i dont have sexual trauma that could be causing these rractions, what is wrong with me

#vent #nsft #erotophobia #genophobia #nsft vent

[prettypuppxx]

its getting more and more difficult to log into my nsfw blog because of the amount of hard kinks (i think thats the correct term?) im getting reccomended on my dash that i cant handle and cant seem to completely get rid of. i cant handle detransition and misgendering, and i just found out about conversion therapy play?? why is tumblr reccomending these?? i keep dismissing them and hiding the tags but they keep coming back and i cant take it

#nsft #nsft vent #im really trying with my genophobia and this isnt helping

[prettypuppxx]

ow

#nsft vent

[prettypuppxx]

hey nathaniel

infodumping about your research on sex

is not sexy

stop it

#its tempting ... #no #*baps myself with my Sex Notebook* #nsft vent

[prettypuppxx]

theres no way im the only person with genophobia/erotophobia on this site.... theres no way... yall are just hiding from me

i dont understand sexual stuff, masturbation is painful, and my genophobia/erotophobia doesnt make it any better

idk why i made an nsft blog in the first place honestly its frustrating not understanding how to properly respond to asks on top of my erotophobia screaming at me and making me want to cry everytime i get a sexual ask or dm

#erotophobia #genophobia #nsft #vent

[prettypuppxx]

sex toys are scary for me because of the noise. i dont make any noise and im always scared someones listening, so things like vibrators that are known for making a lot of noise are difficult for me to adjust to or even just convince myself to buy.

the vibe i have is quiet, i think, but it srill makes noise and i still have anxiety when using it

it took me weeks to actually try to dildo i got because i was scared of possible noise it could make

im scared of buying anything big because of the noise it could make and i dknt want to deal with noise ....

everything about anything relayed to this is so anxiety inducing how are people able to handle all of this without feeling this anxiety about it ...

#vent #genophobia #erotophobia #nsft

[prettypuppxx]

masturbation isnt stress realiving for me, its stress inducing and uncomfortable because i have no idea what im doing and its scary

ive tried looking up videos on how to do it correctly but the only thing close to what i was looking for was this picture perfect model trying to get me to meditate beforehand?

and any article i read has sone form of "✨️💕explore your body💕✨️" in there and i dont know what that means??? how am i supposed to do something if i dont know what it means and you wont twll me what it means????

theres been points where ive given up on masturbation all together bc i was confused and my erotophobia wasnt making it any better. once in a while ill try but its painful and uncomfortable and theres no "✨️💕 you know youre done when you feel tension release from your pelvic floor💕✨️" whatever that means ....... i stop because it gets painful and im about to cry because im uncomfortable and insecure, not bc i had an orgasm

im sure im doing it wrong but theres literally nothing for me to go off of for reference that i can find and its frustrating

#me being in pain isnt sexy #there was a time where i contemplated going to the hospital because i thought i bruised myself or broke smth up there #it hurt to move anything from the waist down and i was crying #i hate anything sexual so much it makes me so uncomfortable and brings me so much pains its stupid #nsft #vent #genophobia #erotophobia

[prettypuppxx]

my erotophobia makes it difficult to respond to sexual messages nd asks from people and i tend to ignore them a lot because they make me uncomfortable, but why would they make me uncomfortable when my entire blog is nsfw? that doesnt make sense. why do i have an nsfw blog if im scared of sex? yeah im human and experience sexual feelings and desires or whatnot, but why do i need a blog for those? i dont respond to people, im a virgin, i cry when people are sexual towards me, and most of the time indont understand what people are talking about. it doesnt make sense ...

#vent #genophobia #erotophobia #phobias #nsft

[prettypuppxx]

yes i am prettypupp/nate

this acc is kinda like a vent for nsfw stuff just to keep it off my original blog

not really much to say about this honestly

the 18+ rule still applies as im still going to be posting nsfw, technically, but its just me venting about it

#nsft acc #prettypupp #nsft #t4t #vent #transmasc #ftm #i dont understand this nonsense and i dont think i ever will #i hate sex #and i have genophobia/erotophobia