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Junko Shimada (2009)

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EAT ALL YOUR RICE OR YOUR HUSBAND WILL BE UGLY

Eat all your rice or your husband will be ugly

We eat vegetarian food, we’re Buddhists

Not junkies

Drink the soup in the dumplings

It’s good for your skin

Don’t forget to say "Xie Xie" to Ayi who cooked it and

Eat black sesame, it’ll keep your hair Heise

When mom drinks boba, she thinks its better to drink it ‘Taung’ not ‘Leng’

In the mornings dad makes premade Bao Zi and boils herbs

You cover your nose because you think it’s retched

Little do you know

Being jian kang is one of the luckiest things in the world

So, quanbu he diao because mom doesn't like when you waste food

Even the Pei Pa Koa when you get sick

Black herb-y honey-like reliever

It doesn’t make sense to a lot of Americans, but

If you know,

You know

You can only eat the oranges after you��ve worshipped your ancestors

Learn your manners!

Mom teases me to get buddha’s belly

It sounds silly, but

She says to eat your bok choy so you have better luck

And that drinking hot water is the answer to all things,

“FUCK YOU!”

Is what you say when you stick your chopsticks straight into the middle of the bowl

instead of gently to the side

or on the top

And eat all your rice,

Because if not,

Your husband will be ugly

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Translation

Xie Xie = Thank you

Ayi= Aunt

Taung= Hot

Leng= Cold

Bao Zi= Bun/Dumpling

Jian Kang= Healthy

Quanbu he diao= Drink all of it

Pei Pa Koa= Asian Tyloneol made out of herbs

#mine #submission #personal #taiwanese #poem

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Dust, Gas, and Stars in the Orion Nebula by NASA

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rotten teeth

losing you feels like losing everybody i’ve ever lost all over again

the cycle never ends

you bite me in my sleep

make love to me hard and deep

i ask you if you can make the bed and run to the smoke shop to get me a new piece

you’re back in 2 seconds

then we’re on the train tracks fucking violently

it feels like having a cavity ripped out of ur teeth

it’s rotten

it hurts

it’s a chasm

a black abyss

of bloodied gums

and zipped dick

just like keith

the sun and moon become blocked out and i can only feel my rotten teeth remaining

sometimes it cracks breaks when i grind them together like a grinder with weed

sometimes i don’t think about it

and the sounds r just silence deafening in the key of C

sometimes all i hear is radio silence

like the blurry words they say in the background on the news on TV

sometimes i slide my tongue across that fake tooth

and remember when u wore my white hello kitty glasses at the evergreen

cemetery

it’s all like a dream

you told me you would have killed your self without me

so i sent someone to check on you

cuz you said you’d jump off buildings

they just had to b a certain feet

i told you i would kill myself if you died

some days it feels like i already did

so many parts of me are gone and now i have to find other people to have our parties with me

i wish i could have told you i loved you one more time

held your face in white room light

i wish you would understand how beautiful u were to me

from the beginning

to u sweeping all the poop under my desk from all the mice scurrying underneath

to you washing my feet

you got so sick of the mice being in yours

you put peanut butter and baking soda on everything

the last time i see you is today

february 15th

i had moved out just a month before

we talked about playing chess and smoked but you didn’t have the game board

you were zooming everywhere in that purple wheeled skateboard

creating your own roads in your own world to ride on

you asked me if i could just stay

after pushing shoving and choking me

i said no

you made me say okay

when i tried to leave you told me to make you some fucking breakfast

lox butter bread brie cheese

i gave it to you and i didn’t see you eat

i walked away and said in my heart a goodbye, solemnly

you called after me asking for a kiss

i said no but u had to insist

push me down to the bed

rub your body against my black and white silk dress

i say no

you say yes

you tell me you know i like it

you say it’s my kink

now i walk through himrod street

picturing your body slumped over

over a tattoo table

holding your machine

sucking the hole in my teeth

cuz things keep getting stuck in it

the things i don’t need

the terror the malice

heart slashing words

violence

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sorry your kid wouldnt stop naming pokemon in order so we had to flatten em into a sheet of lasagna

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society is actually wrong. u can like poem and talk about it to ur friends

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Addiction is a disability.

And we as a society should look at addiction from the perception that it is a disability and not a moral failing.

Because there are some people more likely to get addicted than others, and we should not judge them for whatever mental or physical health issues that influences their chances of becoming addicted to substances.

-fae

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Kiss me like this....

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cotton candy dreams

cotton candy

melts in my mouth

sugar’s so sweet

but it’s time to wake up

it was just a dream

dissipate

disappear

disappoint

u don’t love me

make fun of my clothes

the way i present

when u just wrote me a song

breakfast and head

when im with u im soaring

like wings of a dove

when im with u im soaring

when push comes to shove

i wake up

i wake up

i wake up

——

and i always tell u that you’re everything i’ve dreamt of

but in a real person

you fill the gaps where i find balance in

you know you check every box

you do the laundry

i’ll fold your socks

i do the dishes

you sweep and mop

you say we’re damaged yet you say we’re perfect

you ask for a riot just to prove that it’s all worth it

you say you’d rather argue everyday than have peace as long as it’s me you’re arguing with

so let’s go for a ride on the merry go round

we go around and around and around

in circles

love and hate

big debates

cotton candy dreams are dreams

but dreams come true

because i can touch you

and keith knows you’re real so you must not be

a carbon copy — you must be real , not fake

you must be my dream

come

true

#mine #personal

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Thierry Mugler - Fall 1992 Couture

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JENNIFER’S BODY 2009, dir. Karyn Kusama

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"I Loved You", Alexander Pushkin (translated by Antony Wood)

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Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

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@fairycosmos / Comic by @shhhitsfine / Comic by @incendavery

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10 minutes in heaven

chasing that feeling i felt with you

inhaling

to touch you

exhaling

to realize you’re

not there

It only lasts 10 minutes

and it’s expensive.

it hurts my lungs and

soot’s all over my fingers

i barely hear ringers

My lips are burnt

Its you I still yearn

and my phone screen’s cracked.

the brass sticks into my skin

like rusted safety pins

i feel like a teenage dirtbag

replaying all my sins

it’s almost 11pm

I ask you if we can have a party

With all the headlights off

And just the Christmas lights on

And i'll wear something cute for you

Just to turn you on 
just to take it off

And we sit on the unkempt leather bar stools side by side

where i taught u how to whistle for the first time

we’ll play slide til midnight

And you’ll teach me how to fart through my armpit right

at 3 in the morning

we make our own handshake

I let you make most of the choreography

because I tell you over and over again

you’re so god damn bossy

you said you’d put a million balloons on a house and fly

anywhere with me

carl and ellie

matching chairs

painted seats

it’s 6 in the morning now

and

the sun turned on

do you still see the carpet moving by itself?

do you still hear the mice?

#mine

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unlearning how to love you is like unlearning how to walk, one foot in front of the other where do i put all of my weight? or is it spread throughout my two legs evenly, distributed with ease? how do i not miss the shape of your lips, the curve that they have how u can fix almost anything and fall asleep anywhere