ripoutmygvtz

[ripoutmygvtz]

I have a love hate relationship with being medicated tbh, on one hand yea it makes it a bit easier to live but on the other, i hate having to rely on them to function like the average person and having to make sure they're not trying to off me (again)

and to make things even worse, i have to not only go to the doctors for a checkup on them in a month (which means i can't lose as much weight as i wanted without it being even more suspicious) but i'm getting my bloods done sometime within a month or two

i'm just kinda nervous the doctors are gonna say something and i'm gonna have to be forced into recovery, which as long as i'm not sent away (highly doubt my mom will but i don't trust doctors) i can just refuse and keep losing weight

also they nearly put me on appetite stimulants since my weights low but i had already been on that specific one and gained so much weight bc of them that they changed it

anyways starting antidepressants and mood stabilizers today or tomorrow 😻

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

went with my mom to work for the first time in a while and i said i wasn't sleeping (this time) her coworkers first words were "have you not been eating either?" OMG I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS THAT NOTICABLE?? IM WEARING A HOODIE AND SWEATPANTS??

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

Hot girls have a cigarette and go to sleep. You’re not trying hard enough.

TH*NSPO

#gvtz #gvtz 👙 #tw th*nsp0 #tw thinspi #thinspø #thin$po #thinspp #no eating #eating diary #ed relapse #tw 3d vent #tw ana bløg

[ripoutmygvtz]

do u have any diets that go from 700- 1100

not many since i'm more of a low res person but i did find quite a few!!

all from tumblr, twt, or 📌terest

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

Pretty meal$po?

«Pretty m3alsp0»

#gvtz #gvtz 🍽️ #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

transmasc th1nspø if you can find any anywhere, if not it’s completely okay x

it's hard to tell who's actually transmasc but either way there's mascsp0

all from twt

#gvtz #gvtz 👙 #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

Can you do a cute workout plan? In white and pink😭🤭 I think that would be so cute🫶🫶

I could only make one bc it's draining my battery and i don't have a charger out here 😭

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

«Day 1»

Wieiad:

rice cake- 35

laughing cow cheese- 25

spices- 3

salad- 30

ranch- 60

#gvtz #gvtz eats #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

sorry for my inactivity today guys i woke up ~5pm, went back to my house for ~2 hours before going back to my sisters apartment, then we went to the store and made a pizza and a cake (neither of which i ate bc i genuinely don't like them :)) and by then it was like 10:30-11pm, kinda just played work search for an hour after that lmfao

anyways the depressions kicking my ass rn but i'll try to get the asks done soon, there's like 15-20 of them so i'll go until i lose motivation :3

(also my doctors appointment is tomorrow so i've been a bit nervous bc even with my clothes and shoes i'm 107.4lbs butttt that was on an empty stomach and since that's not very underweight (~2lbs) i don't think she'll be too worried rn, also i'm either switching my meds or getting off them so hopefully i find something that works without trying to kill me

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

Hii! Do you have a twitter?

i do!! i don't post as of right now but i may start soon (once i get motivation again)

its the same as my username here :3

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

Days 19/20:

dude i honestly can't even remember, anytime my family gets fast food i either get a water or a diet coke and when my friends family gets it i just say i don't want anything and refuse to eat if they buy something anyway

i dont have a favorite diet, i just kinda find some and choose one or i post a poll so yall choose for me, starting this diet today tho!!

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

guess who found out their meds have life threatening side effects 😻

like i just read the side effects of them today and it clicked but i've been feeling them since NOVEMBER

y'all remember me freaking out about my heart and breathing, yup, it's the meds

• = yes

• = no

fainting has nearly happened multiple times and i have trouble swallowing occasionally

(ps, itching was around my mouth and throat)

i just can't believe the meds that are supposed to help me with my anxiety MADE IT WORSE FOR MONTHS WITHOUT ME EVEN REALIZING

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st��️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

guys i really need to check followers more often bc tell me why multiple nsfw/p0rn accs were reblogging my (an aroace MINORS) posts🧍🏻

anywayyy that's why i stopped posting bc's

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

I hope y'all know that i do try to follow everyone back but there's so many of you 😭

also being a minor that strictly follows ana accs means i have to go through every blog to

1. make sure it's not suspicious (ana "coaches", blank blogs, only reposts, etc)

2. make sure that it's at least ana focused

3. make sure that there's no mdni on any blog

basically just a bunch of checking and scrolling lmao

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

do you think you'd be able to give me any male deathspø or really really skinny thinspø? im struggling to find any

unfortunately since i don't want to get this blog t'd, i can't post actual d3athsp0 on here, however, im gonna start posting it on a separate account but keep in mind it's hard to find so there probably won't be much (under my tag "gvtz")

for some reason it won't let me tag that account so i'm not 100% sure it's working or you'll be able to find it but it's @w4st1ing-4w4y-sl0wly

also if it doesn't work i have no clue what to do to fix it so y'all would have to help me out 😭

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account

[ripoutmygvtz]

idk what it is but downing my meds rn is sounding REAL nice

#gvtz #sorry for being depressing #this is depressing #depressing shit #su1c1d4l #lowkey might kms #been thinking about it for a hot minute #tw depressing thoughts #sad thoughts #hell is a teenage girl

[ripoutmygvtz]

ended up having that meta day after my nap, ate ~929/1400 and i feel like shit

i hate meta days so much it literally just feels like bingeing, prolly gonna pass out now bc i've been so pissy today and i'm sick of it 💀

#gvtz #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #starv1ng #bulim14 #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #st⭐️rving #3d but not sheeren #ana account