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sonya and raskolnikov would like class of 2013 by mitski i think

#“am i still young/can i dream for a few months more” is sonya #“it would be just to sleep at night/and i'll leave when i figure out/how to pay for my own life too” is rodya #mitski #crime and punishment #fyodor dostoevsky

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OP you would love the meek one by dostoevsky

Cannot STAND Luzhin suck my whole entire cock and balls you small vindictive selfish man

#so would everyone else btw #everyone read the meek one IMMEDIATELY #REQUIRED READING #it's also sometimes called a gentle creature i think?? #anyway it's kind of a deeper dive into the psychology of men like luzhin #fyodor dostoevsky #the meek one #it’s a short story! so a quick read

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sonya and raskolnikov would like class of 2013 by mitski i think

#crime and punishment #fyodor dostoevsky #mothers are the backbone of c&p tbh #mothers and their unconditional positive regard for their children

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just realized that the worm speech was the last interaction between nikolai and pyotr. like nikolai fully ghosted him (literally) after pyotr called him his sun fucking brutal

#demons #fyodor dostoevsky

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i absolutely love that dostoevsky chose to open demons with vavara and stepan. it's so so interesting to meet these flawed but ultimately deeply emotional and loving characters and then be introduce to their demonic ass sons with no moral compass. when evaluating the grander story, vavara and stepan are ultimately sort of detached from the whole fivesome debacle. for fuck's sake, they're literally not even in the same province at the end. the whole book they've sort of just got their own shit going on while nikolai and pyotr terrorize everyone.

but. but. they're important anyway, if only for the contrast they provide. their relationship mirrors pyotr and nikolais' in a way; stepan idolizes vavara in a way similar to how pyotr idolizes nikolai. but a distinction is made at the end: nikolai dies completely alone, rejected even by his own mother while pyotr sets off (also alone) to god knows where. stepan dies with vavara and some random but kind girl he met earlier that week. his death feel comparatively much happier.

i feel like there are a lot of reasons why dostoevsky might've presented it that way, a lot of ways their relationships are different, but what sticks out to me is the fact that stepan and vavara actually knew each other. like, knew knew. pyotr projected his image of an ideal onto nikolai and worshipped that; nikolai didn't care for pyotr at all beyond amusement. but reading demons, you get the sense that, for all their misunderstandings, vavara and stepan do actually understand each other.

also it's just fun to have their parents involved because they are so horrible. usually awful characters don't have parents present in the story because it's a reminder that they used to be children and it humanizes them etc but vavara and stepan are just like. there

anyway stavrogin + verkhovensky (chaotic) >> stavrogin + verkhovensky (demonic)

#demons #fyodor dostoevsky #does this make sense?? i feel like it doesn't make sense

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#i am IN the panopticon

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why is there so much robespierre fanart. i'm not complaining, it's all really gorgeous but like. why him specifically

#robespierre #french revolution #?? how the fuck do i even tag a post like this

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i heard someone say that demons starts slow the other day and i can't stop thinking about it because like. what do you mean. nikolai bites a man in the first fifty pages

#dostoevksy came out SWINGING with demons imo #crime and punishment lowkey starts slow in comparison with marmaladov and shit #no hate to c&p though my beloved <33

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sonya and rodya depicted as the pieta sculpture

#was JUST thinking about this statue #absolutely beautiful drawing as always mootie

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i've seen haruki murakami compared to both franz kafka and colleen hoover and someone needs to clarify because there is absolutely no way that both of those things are true at once

#haruki murakami #literally OPPOSITE ends of the spectrum #one has to be false

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why would i reread the iliad when i can just read the batrachomyomachia

#it was actually originally attributed to homer #the iliad #tagamemnon #homer

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"raskolnikov's struggle throughout crime and punishment is reconciling the part of his mentality that allowed him to commit murder and the part that allowed him to condemn it" no. raskolnikov's ideological struggle is between the part of him that is canonically super tall and the part of him that idolizes fucking napoleon

#first man to be above six feet and still have a napoleon complex #crime and punishment #fyodor dostoevsky

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reinforcing the dostoevsky girl stereotype (diagnosed with clinical depression)

#fyodor dostoevsky

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#to settle an argument! #tbh it doesn't fit right for me no matter how i order it #alyosha is dark-haired which would make him the leftmost but he seems most like ivan to me #middle seems like mitya #but the rightmost doesn't match with my visions of any brother #the brothers karamazov #fyodor dostoevsky

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how is rakitin slutshaming and virginshaming poor alyosha at the same goddamn time?? pick a lane

#he's been calling the entire karamazov family whores for like three pages now #literally stirring up drama for no reason pls he's so funny #and lovely wonderful angel alyosha keeps calling him 'dear mikhail' and 'misha' HE'S INSULTING YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY?? #the brothers karamazov #fyodor dostoevsky

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pyotr verkhovensky gives me whatever the opposite of cute aggression is. i hate him so much that it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside

#my dearly beloathed #demons #the possessed #fyodor dostoevsky

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pyotr verkhovensky will really call nikolai stravrogin his "better half" and his "sun" but not fuckin kolya WHERE ARE THE DIMINUTIVES DOSTOEVSKY

#ik they're like a fivesome and not friends but like...?? #if i was trying to plan a revolution me and my co-conspirators would keep it casual yk #i love demons but there are like no diminutives #demons #dostoevsky #the possessed