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I nice way to die.

reblog to be eaten by this thing

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HELL YEAH

I hate that I’m always trying to find cool biology themed stuff to wear but all the “nature inspired” clothing companies just have like two crossed arrows or a minimalistic mountain on a sweatshirt. Fucking lame, that’s barely even nature-adjacent. Put the life cycle of a salamander on a jacket, put hyena skeleton patterns on leggings, put a damn field guide of birds of prey on a peacoat and THEN you can have my money. Do NOT give me a shirt with a leaf on it that says “stay wild” or some bullshit I would much prefer clothing that broadcasts to everyone around me how many teeth an adult Jaguar has or how some pitcher plants can catch and digest rats.

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I'm on my umpteenth fictional marriage right now. I can't figure out if I'm like this because I'm a-spec, or just extremely picky.

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Ableist: "ADHD and autism don't exist, everyone does those things."

Also Ableist when someone shows traits of autism or ADHD: "Why are you doing that? That's so annoying/weird."

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And that shit hurts man

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Autistic healing is telling allistics to fuck off when they want you to act "normal". /hj

*On a serious note, next time someone tells me to "act normal," I'm going to do what I'm doing even *more* just to piss them off. I'm not going to be fake for anyone anymore.

#personal #rant post #tw swearing #cw swearing #just screaming into the void #Not entirely serious

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Things You Should Know About Being Lithsexual

1. It’s the sexual or romantic desire for a relationship that fades when it is reciprocated. The sexuality of “Why haven’t you gotten a boyfriend yet?” and “Do you really just enjoy playing with people’s feelings?” and “Is that even real thing?“ 2. I have heard these questions a million times, and most of the time they are asked by me 3. These questions come late at night, creeping in my mind and refusing to get out, making everything look darker, making the walls look like they’re caving in on me and the closet seem like it has monsters hiding inside, but I am the monster. 4. When I love, I love deeply. When I was 5 years old I fell in love for the first time. The crush lasted until I was 13. Now maybe I realize that if I had actually told him how I felt I would have gotten over him sooner. 5. I have seen every single romantic comedy, romantic drama, and romantic sic-fi movie on netflix. I watch them friday nights, when all of my friends are out on dates and I am alone. 6. I have always wanted a love like in those movies. But now I see that its only because I know that I’ll never have it. Because once you have it, you can lose it. 7. I broke up with my first girlfriend after 4 weeks. I had simply just lost feelings for her. I used to grin like an idiot when she texted me, but suddenly I just didn’t want to respond. I used to love when she hugged me, but then it felt clingy and unnatural. I used to get butterflies in my lungs when she held me, but then I just flat out could not breathe. She was one of my best friends, and I still loved her. Just not that way, anymore. 8. The second I ended the relationship, I started liking this boy. I had found out from a friend of his that he liked me and this other girl. At first, I cried because I could never compare to her. But then I cried because I hoped he picked her, because she wouldn’t ruin everything like I knew I would. 9.It hits me that I will never get married. I don’t think I can stay in love long enough to convince someone that I am worthy of devoting their life to. I see couples holding hands and laughing and I am tempted to try again, see if maybe it is because I haven’t found the right person, maybe those weren’t supposed to work out. No. I remind myself that I should have been in love with the people who came before. They did everything right. Maybe I can only fall in love with ideas. 10. I still tape “Say Yes to the Dress” 11. Im too afraid to go to pride. I don’t understand how I’m supposed to be proud that I have ruined people and destroyed friendships and broken hearts that used to be so full. I don’t understand how it is classified as a sexuality when it feels like a disorder. Like a person comes in and turns a light in my heart on but then my sexuality comes and flips it off with no warning or reason. 12. How am I supposed to live like this? Why is it that I am unable to love people like they love me? 13. What am I supposed to tell family members who ask me why I’m not dating, or why I haven’t gotten married yet? How am I supposed to tell my grandparents who have been asking and asking for grandkids? How can I look the people who ask me out in the eye when they get angry at me for leading them on, for flirting but never following through? 14. What am I supposed to do when I am all alone? 15. I think the key to dealing with all this, every bad thought that comes with this sexuality is to remember that its who you are. 16.That its the sexuality of always being there for late nights with friends, for loving yourself and your life, the sexuality of midnight cookie dough and not wearing pants all day, the sexuality of traveling alone and loving the simplest things in life 17. I know I’m never going to be a role model, a poster child for akoisexuals, but maybe this is at least something to raise awareness. We are here. We are valid. We are learning to love ourselves, learning to be proud of who we are. 18. And that’s all anyone can do.

A poem written and submitted by @emilygracecatherine

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I love this explanation. I'm going to paraphrase it every time someone calls something cringe.

'You're the one disgusted by other people's happiness. THAT'S cringe.'

be free!!

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be free!!

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Bittern at the grocery store

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SAME 😩 I will cry if he doesn't pop into existence and give me that look.

Shifting? Lucid dreaming? Whatever you call it, I NEED IT.

You don’t understand though, I NEED him to look at me like this

#obey me shall we date #obey me lucifer #obey me shall we date lucifer #obey me thirst #obey me sexy

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hey let's all do this on March 15th. on the website.

Hey don’t just like. Reblog.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERB

Ferb’s birthday is on February 29th (leap year day).

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I NEED IT

SHUT UP

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Accept your child with autism or you will be forced to accept a child with autism and DID, cluster B personality disorder and/or PTSD.

The choice is your.

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I was so shocked to hear that some kids get diagnosed at 4-5 sometimes, and I wasn't diagnosed until I was 14!!!!!! FOURTEEN.

Then I found out some people don't get diagnosed until their 20s and later, and that just blew my mind.

Shout out to all the autistic peeps who weren't diagnosed as kids even though they were very stereotypically autistic because they were afab and their families didn't know anything about autism so they just thought they were weird and lazy, but other kids could tell that they weren't like them so they got bullied into learning how to mask constantly (which put the diagnosis off for even longer) and then they kept on getting burnt out from masking all the time and they had to go to noiser more overwhelming environments as they got older until eventually it became very obvious that they were autistic again and they finally got a diagnosis (which is a whole other story on its own).