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innocence died screaming

(honey ask me, I should know.)

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there's something so special about Hozier s music, specially from Eden, I don't know why but to me listing to that song feels like waking up in the morning with the sun on your face and a happy feeling that you don't know where it came from but it's there, like war is finally over and I get to enjoy things again. It's just a melody but it evokes something so magic to me.

#hozier #from eden #that guys just vibretes so high

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I feel like everyplace I stay too long is trouble, chaos, anxiety, sadness, and the only moment I'm at peace is while I'm traveling, because I'm just moving, I don't have to worry about everything, it's just me myself and i

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most of my family, probably all of them, think I'm a lesbian because I never had a boyfriend. They are not homophobic but the thing is I'm straight. I don't like girls I barely like boys, I'm not sure. They expect me to be bisexual or a lesbian but they never imagined I'm just ace lol

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I don't know how I feel about having sex, I think I'm asexual and I don't know how to explain to other people without them dismissing it and saying I just have to find the right person

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my mistake was looking inside you for something that was inside me

now i'm lost

I can't find myself

I need to get out of you

will I ever get out?

how am I supposed to find me?

life is passing and I'm still lost

i can't go back but I can't go forward either

and it's your fault

my fault too

i let you take me

just let me go

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fleabag season 2 EP 1

no one has ask me a question in 40 minutes or something like

that's how I feel rn

I feel like I don't care to anyone, like yes I love my family and friends but no one ever asks anything real. I feel ignore. I feel like I'm drowning and everyone it's just doing anything else except watching me. I don't even ask for help because I can't even speak, I'm silenced and I just watch from down there how life goes on while a try to grasp from air that never comes. I don't even know when it started to feel this way, it just does. I don't know how to stop it. I know I can't just wait for a hot priest to ask me a question but God I wish wouldn't that be nice.

#fleabag #personal #mental health

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i have friends from highschool that I know since I was 5 and I love them so much. we spent so much time together, we experience a lot, A LOT, we know things about each other that other people will not get but we do. because of this shared years. They were my only friend group until last year. That's when I met another group of friends. We found each other through music, we all went to the same concert and we all click. Like I didn't know I needed them until I had them. We understand each other in a way that seems we've been friends for decades, we aren't all the same age, some are a few years more than me, some less, some like me, it doesn't matter, we get it because even we were separated life put us through the same things. We were bullied because of the music we listen, we were the emo kid in the room, we were obsessed (still are) with that singer from that band, and with that guitarist from that band, and that band that, and omg you remember when they kissed on stage?? I'll never recoverd from that too. just stuff that I went through alone when I was a kid and turns out I wasn't so alone because there was someone 40 minutes from home who went through that too and now we get to talk about it.

So what's my point? it doesn't matter how long you've known someone, with someone people it only takes a week to know them for ten years, with other you're stuck with them and learn to love them and learn how to form a relationship over their differences. We some people you just know. And it's okay to have both. Don't be afraid to meet now people. I was but then I said fuck it I only have this life and i'm going to live it.

#friends #personal #i just need it to say it

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Xaden Riorson 🤝 Aelin Galathynius

Can murder people in cold blood but favorite food is chocolate cake

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Xaden Riorson 🤝 Aelin Galathynius

Can murder people in cold blood but favorite food is chocolate cake

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every time I feel overwhelmed, stress or with extrema anxiety with a lot of anguish I just scratch my arms really hard. that's why I keep my nails always short

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Happy Ace Week to people of all asexual identities!!

22-29 October 2023!

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I happened to had a sex dream with one of my friends and now I'm kinda freaked out because what the fuck does it means. I also kinda hate the way I felt in the dream bc I was so comfortable and at peace in his arms. I'm so fucked

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I've been told my whole life that I speak too quiet and close, that I need to be louder so people can understand me. it makes me feel so bad when my family tell me this. it's not something I do on purpose, I can't control it's just how I am

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my problem with going on dates and meeting someone that I would like to be like romantically involved is that I get too much anxiety and I can't eat. I feel like throwing up that whole time, I get really nervous and my words start to stumble and I feel like very self conscious. I hate this

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I knew I was fucked up the exact moment the sun hit directly into his eyes and they turned into the most beautiful green I have ever seen. it was the first time we met alone with no friends, I knew I was fucked from that moment. God how I regret that day

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it hurts so much to know that he will never be mine, to look at his face, see those beautiful green eyes and know they will never look at me the way I want them :(