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Sykkuno with painted nails? Hot. Never expected it. Never getting over it. He was also so vocal about it being for Corpse which was sweet. Sy has gotten so confident over the past few months and it’s so wonderful to see. We always got hints of it, but truly, he’s flourishing. And that confident person Sykkuno has become? Corpse is so important to that he gets all dressed up with painted nails because they haven’t played together in a mere six days. And I know there’s nothing there but I cannot wait to write between the lines of Monday afternoon and the whole nail painting.

i think the nail painting and all the implications are what’s getting me the most. Like, Corpse was so excited that Sy used his secret teechnique. So at some point, either A. When they met up in March. or B. During a subsequent secret meetup or C. During a video call Corpse taught Sykkuno about painting his nails. I think C is most likely, which means they actually like sat down and discussed nails and Corpse angled his camera at his hands and showed Sykkuno how to paint his nails while explaining how to do it and you know he probably got nervous because he always does around Sy. Well, not always but yeah. Corpse, painting his nails and stuttering because he can see Sykkuno staring intently on the other side of the screen. And Sy did recently comment that Corpse had nice hands... Which makes me wonder if now that they’re met in irl, if they do actual facetimes with Corpse showing his face. There’s a small chance of that I’d say.

But as for Monday, Sykkuno mentioned that his sister helped him paint his nails. Which, for one, means one of his sisters traveled from Cali to Vegas, likely just to be there just in case he got sick from his COVID vaccine since he got his Monday morning which is adorable. I kinda get the feeling that Sykkuno wasn’t always close with his family but right now is, his parents seem to visit him in Vegas often enough despite the drive. I’m glad that he’d not cut off from his family despite the drive and that soon it‘ll be easier to see friends- like fully vaccinated Vegas squad dinner party to celebrate Hafu’s marriage in May?

ANYWAY so yeah. He went to ask his sister for help with his nails. Which any nosy sister would want to know why. And so he would’ve told her about Corpse. Corpse, his good friend. Corpse, who taught him this special technique which he then had to explain to his sister. I’d like to believe it was a good bonding experience, that they giggled over it and talked about nail polish and the hoodie and it smelling like Corpse and the stuff Sykkuno can’t tell chat. Like, as a shippy writer, that scene would be the perfect place for Sykkuno to admit to having a crush on Corpse and some good natured sibling teasing but also acceptance and it’s going to be okay Sy. Giggles and nail polish and cushes on best friends and heartaches and hugs and sore arms. And a sister that’s on your side no matter what.

The entire thing is just sweet. I’m glad Sykkuno did it and I hope he keeps experimenting with nail polish. Black is sexy, but I’d love to see greens and pinks and blues on his nails tbh. Something more delicate, something more free hello kitty band aids from Miyoung vs Corpse’s astectic of black nails and heavy rings. And... yeah. Just some fluff today!

#corpsekkuno #corpse husband #sykkuno #light shipping #I just really love sy with nail polish

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It's been a while! I haven't been quite in a shipping mood but I have a rough idea I'm working through and made a list of things I wanted to include/a couple of plot points and had to take a picture of the list so I figured I'd post it here? Sorry for the quality, did it on the work iPad while bored but I didn't know how to transfer it so I took a picture of the notes app before I backspaced the entire thing. Didn't want anyone else seeing it.

This idea is a hodge podge of different loves and ideas I've had for a while. Different inspirations. A large part of it is the Taylor Swift lyric: "Back and forth from New York(Sneaking into your bed)" when she first started seeing her boyfriend and she would fly from NYC to London to see him.

I don't know, I like the idea of Corpse visiting Sykkuno in Vegas from Cali often and after that comment he made about it being awkward in a good way, it was like, what if it's a way to work through that awkwardness and get used to being around people, like they talk and game together and learn to cook together and laugh.

And one visit things change. But to me Corpsekkuno fwb is always it may start physical but they know there's deep romantic feelings there. But they're not rushing it. They just are between sex and romance and that's this. Taylor has some lyrics about her bf about this too.

I know some fics deal with Corpse's anxieties but I think the thread that ties all this together FINALLY was Sykkuno making a comment on stream about “i’m not depressed... or maybe i am and i’m just not diagnosed.” and wanting to explore it. I need to put some thoughts into that but yeah. Hurt comfort but more Sy focused.

Also related, Dress is by Taylor(shocking, I know) and the full verse is "Inescapable, I'm not even gonna try/And if I get burned, at least we were electrified/I'm spilling wine in the bathtub, you kiss my face and we're both drunk/Everyone thinks that they know us, but they know nothing about."

And I seriously have to go now but thoughts?

#corpsekkuno

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Oh shit I have to add Mavix to Evermore Ch 2 now I just realized. I'm working on it now. At the start, Corpse and Sykkuno talk about doing weekends at Corpse's place and how Sykkuno will probably have to stream from there and how Sy will have to contact Cyberpower to make him a secondary computer to keep at Corpse's but shit, he'd need a second Mavix chair too. It might be set in an alternate August 2021 but I still gotta keep up to date with sponsors, especially with Mavix gifting subs almost every stream and knowing about Chairkkuno and being generally cool.

Honestly, something I loved about Evermore is that I tried to keep up with streamer life. Like, including a stream and talking to chat, having Sykkuno have a meeting with his video editor and a new sponsor(Which holy shit was late Feb/early March, very concieveably could've been Mavix based on when he announced their sponsorship IRL, okay, new headcanon about my fic), mentioning that Corpse and Sykkuno sometimes have to work on work stuff during their picnic lunches.

To me it just makes the world feel a bit larger and more realistic. Those little background things.

... Okay this is also a writing blog too, lbr.

#Evermore #Evermore Ch 2 #I actually am really happy Mavix is sponsoring Sy though and will be happy to add them in #They seem very hands on #But I finally got past the point where I've been stuck! #Not sure how happy I am yet but I got over the hill!

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So here's an idea I've had for a while! I picked it up halfway through because sometimes I have issues with beginnings and just want to write whatever I have in mind, but it sprialed from there but it's a bit disjointed because I wasn't sure what I wanted to do exactly and then the Salad Gang decided to stream mini golf so I was kinda distracted but I just wanted to post something.

So, the originally idea of this came from the night that Sykkuno messed up whatever he said and said NEXT time he saw Corpse maybe he'd get the merch. And so it was like wait. Have they already met? Why did they not say anything? So I narrowed it down to it had to be in Cali/LA post-Christmas but pre-Sykkuno moving to Vegas. Like Rust days. So I came up with this being a middle of the night Discord call turned into a Corpse anxiety attack where Sykkuno goes to comfort him.

The lead up to the kiss, like the almost kiss and Corpse turning away and the discussion was the original thought. It's a headcanon I've had for a while, especially on Sykkuno's side. Otherwise, there's TW for mentioned child abuse(Corpse's past, it's not really discussed in story, but Sykkuno knows the backstory) and allusions to suicidal thoughts(But it's getting better!).

Thank you for reading! I hope it's not too confusing!

Corpse pulled his face out of Sykkuno’s neck and met his eyes. Sykkuno continued to rub his lower back gently.

“Feeling any better?” Sykkuno asked softly. Corpse nodded.

“Yeah. Thanks for driving over, Sy. I know you’re tired from streaming Rust and getting ready to move,” Corpse said.

“It’s alright. I didn’t want to leave you alone with the way your anxiety was flaring up,” Sykkuno said.

“Thank you,” Corpse said and sighed and gave a small smile. Sykkuno smiled back.

“Your smile is, um, it’s nice,” Sykkuno said and blushed. Corpse’s smile widened a bit and Sykkuno rubbed his thumb on the scar on his chin.

“Liar,” Corpse said despite the smile, his self hatred was thick.

“Not a lie,” Sykkuno said, “You’re quite handsome.”

“I am not. And you cannot say that, Sy. You’re even more adorable in person,” Corpse said and Sykkuno looked away.

“Liar,” Sykkuno said. Corpse chuckled and the sound sent butterflies through Sykkuno’s stomach. He glanced up and their eyes met again and everything seemed to stop. Corpse’s eyes dropped to Sykkuno’s lips for a moment before glancing back up and Sykkuno wasn’t sure who started leaning in first. At the last second, Corpse turned his face away and Sykkuno’s nose brushed against his cheekbones.

“Corpse?” Sykkuno breathed.

“You’re straight,” Corpse whispered.

“Only to please my parents. They’re disappointed enough to say I’m a streamer, they don’t want to have to say their son is a gay streamer,” Sykkuno said.

“No. You’re straight,” Corpse said, like he was trying to convince himself.

“I’m not. You, however, are,” Sykkuno said, but with the way Corpse had been looking at him, he had been able to fool himself into thinking Corpse felt the same. Had been falling these past four months just like Sykkuno had been.

“I’m scared,” Corpse said.

“You have no reason to be scared around me,” Sykkuno said, breath still against Corpse’s cheek.

“Don’t you see, Sykkuno? That’s what scares me the most. That I’m not scared around you,” Corpse said and he fisted his hands in Sykkuno’s hoodie. “I was straight. I thought I was. But then I met you and suddenly I’m not sure. I just know my heart skips a beat when we talk. I think about you. I watch your streams and I feel safe. I trust you. And when I’m alone it terrifies me because I thought I was secure in my heterosexuality and now I’ve lost that too.”

“I’m sorry,” Sykkuno said.

“No. Don’t apologize. Everything changed last year but in the end, it was for the better, I think,” Corpse said.

“I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Especially not you,” Sykkuno said and Corpse pulled back to look for him and in the dim light, Sykkuno could see his eyes searching for the lie in his words. “I like you, Corpse. I assumed it would always be unrequited and it hurt. A lot. But keeping quiet was better than saying something and losing you.”

“Agreed,” Corpse said and before either of them could say anything more, he leaned forward to kiss Sykkuno. Sykkuno made a noise of surprise and he wasn’t sure what to do with his hands before he reached up and slipped a hand into Corpse’s curls and kept the other on his lower back. He tilted his head to angle the kiss better, and Corpse took the opportunity to deepen the kiss.

They kissed for what felt like hours, actions saying what they had been terrified to put into words. The kisses were passionate, desperate, they couldn’t get enough of each other. Sykkuno learned Corpse loved having his hair tugged, and his groan did things to Sykkuno’s insides. Corpse seemed to know all of Sykkuno’s sensitive spots like his heart had had a map to them all along, and seemed to be equally egged on by Sykkuno’s moans and whines, especially when he reached the sensitive spots along his collarbone. Eventually, Sykkuno tugged Corpse’s hair hard enough to pull him away from his neck. They looked at each other for a minute and then Sykkuno kissed him, just a couple short and chaste kisses and he could tell Corpse was trying not to try to chase his lips.

“Wow,” Corpse said and Sykkuno giggled.

“Indeed,” He said. Corpse leaned their foreheads together and giggled for a minute. “I really like you, Corpse. I know it’s scary. Trust me, I know. I’m scared too and I feel so horrible that I leave the state on Friday. But I want to try to figure us out. If you want to.”

“I do too. I don’t normally like long distance but I don’t normally like people for people like I do you so I want to try this. As long as you promise me that you like me. Even after I opened up today?” Corpse said. Sykkuno met his eyes.

“Of course not. Your parent’s physical and emotional abuse and neglect was not your fault, never, ever your fault. You had a hard life and you pushed through it. You are so handsome and kind and I wish you showed yourself an ounce of kindness. I miss you when you aren’t in lobbies and I worry about your health and even now I am terrified of being close to you without me being tested for COVID. But I could never get enough of this. Of you. We’ll make this work. I like you and I don’t see that changing anytime soon,” Sykkuno said.

“Good, I’m glad, because neither do I,” Corpse said, “And this is worth the risk of you not being tested.”

“We’ll see,” Sykkuno said softly. Corpse nuzzled into his neck.

“I’ll be fine. Live a little, Sy,” He said and chuckled when Sykkuno squirmed at the air on his neck. “Sensitive?”

“You now know I am,” Sykkuno said and Corpse laughed more. They stretched out on the sofa, Corpse’s head on Sykkuno’s chest and Sykkuno playing with Corpse’s curls. “I can live a little if you’re alive. I mean that in a lot of ways.”

“I know. And it’s getting better,” Corpse assured, “Everyday I find more to live for. And now I have you.”

“I’m glad. And I’m still only a call away even if I am in Vegas. We’ll figure out how to be comfortable in our sexualities. If we have each other, there’s no reason to be scared because that’s all we need. And when numbers go down, we can travel back and forth easier. We’ll make us work,” Sykkuno said.

“We will,” Corpse agreed. They fell silent and eventually they dozed off. When they woke, the morning sun was still weak and their morning kiss was chaste and shy but still hopeful for the months to come.

#Corpsekkuno #This is the first time I've written them in months so sorry if it sucked! #I have a lot of headcanons hinted in this fic #And there might be later parts of this too #I would say more but I'm distracted by Salad Gang and Brooke love #She deserves it

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I will never ever be over the fact thar Corpse gave Sykkuno his own hoodie that still smelled like him. Like it’s been like two days since the TikTok dropped and Sykkuno wore the hoodie on stream and shared info on their meeting and I’m still not over it(I’ve been posting about it on a different account, trust me. I was so excited. The fandom melted down and so did I.)

I am SO happy they met, SO happy they had a nice time together even if they are self professed awkward. I am happy they’re keeping what they did quiet for the most part, I am the most vocal person about wanting their friendship to be able to flourish away from the keen eyes of fans and shippers. I do like the little details we got.

Sykkuno laughing at Corpse in the TikTok, looking overjoyed to be with Corpse. Them eating pudding. The way they played Mario Kart. Corpse trusting Sykkuno with his face. Sykkuno welcoming Corpse into his house. Corpse saying today’s stream would be the first time they talked since met in person. It‘s just very sweet and very trusting.

But the hoodie thing. It’s so intimate that Sykkuno literally got Corpse’s hoodie and he knows that it still smells like Corpse so either Corpse purposefully sprayed his cologne on his hoodie or he was just recently wearing it and didn’t wash it and Sykkuno was fine with that. Also. Corpse’s hoodie looks so large on Sykkuno and it looks so adorable. It’s such a cute visual for fanfiction.

I realized last night that in Evermore that when Sykkuno sent pictures of him in Corpse’s merch hoodie Corpse said he wanted to fuck him in that hoodie and I try not to sexualize them but that image is much different with the reality of knowing it’s Corpse’s hoodie and not a Corpse hoodie. Definitely way more possessive.

Ugh. That would’ve been a wonderful addition to Evermore, Corpse giving Sykkuno his literal hoodie. Just because it was more of a unlabeled long distance relationship and felt hopeless at the start but they tried to hold onto each other. And the hoodie could’ve been a physical manifestion of that attempt of trying to hold onto each other. Damn the missed symbolism.

Like sometimes Corpsekkuno is beyong what you can imagine in your wildest fanfiction dreams. And the hoodie is this. I feel such a loss I never could’ve imagined. Oh well. I can write another long distance fic with THE hoodie this time.

#Corpsekkuno #the hoodie #Writing things #I have a chill weekend and I want to do some writing so I might post some #Thing this weekend #Evermore #like never in my wildest dreams would I have expected Corpse to have given Sy his own hoodie #But I love it so much

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Also hi to my followers! It's weird but actually kinda cool to have followers but no likes! Like some secret underground thing but I like knowing I'm not alone.

I turned on asks(I didn't realize they were turned off by default) and anon asks so yeah. Feel free to send me stuff on anon! We can have our own quiet community here. I also turned on submissions in case you guys want to submit stuff.

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Right in time I have a place to celebrate but this hit 500 kudos!!! This story has a very special place in my heart. I wrote it in like a week and I love how it turned out. It's slow, because it's forced to be, but it's healthy, there's good communication and respecting each other boundaries, and a lot of hope, good old fashioned hope for both me and the characters. It kinda came from a place of frustration at everyone doing oh, who cares about COVID and Corpse legit not going to physical therapy due to fear of COVID, Corpse hand delivers Sy's merch and they fall into bed together, and also anxiety because I was just starting anxiety meds to combat my own COVID anxiety.

I have to laugh because I had no idea what to do for a vaccine schedule but it was like June for Corpse because he has health issues and July/August for Sykkuno for general population. And then Trump was dragging his feet with vaccines and I was like, "That was way too optimistic. Stupid me." But now we hope to have everyone vaccinated by the START of summer and I've gotten my first vaccine due to being an essential worker and my mom gets her first vaccine for being high risk this week! I mean, idk how CA is doing it and they live in CA in this story and my state is one of the highest vaccinated percentage states so...

I'm just really happy about this. This story is my pride and joy, I think. I have Ch 2 started but it just never came together but chapter 2 was going to be nothing but fluff. First kiss, asking each other out, spending hours in bed just losing time cuddling, Sykkuno finally letting Corpse call him baby and he was going to call Corpse sweetheart, a picnic with Rae and Toast, going out for a very early morning breakfast, all that fun stuff.

Anyone who's read it want to send me asks about it? I'd love to hear people's thoughts on it. I'm also willing to share what I have of Ch 2 if people want to see?

#Corpse Husband #Sykkuno #Corpsekkuno #I thought that metaphor for being drunk was so good #Wait no simile #Either way #I loved that #There's a really good metaphor in Ch 2 too about touch #And how they're kids in the pool and they jumped into the middle #And they're standing on their tip toes and they can still go deeper to explore and indulge in each other #Touch is so sacred in that story #My writing

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So, I’ve been around in the fandom for several months and I used to have several popular posts on my main that I deleted when Jack made a comment about shipping Corpsekkuno. I felt weird about it, but I miss having a place to put my Corpsekkuno thoughts so I decided to made a whole new blog. I’m starting with reuploading my most popular idea, so some of you guys might remember this! I am still super proud of this and other than refreshing a little bit of it, this is still the original thing I posted back Nov 2020. 

As my bio says, THIS IS ALL FICTIONAL. CORPSE AND SYKKUNO ARE JUST FRIENDS IN REAL LIFE AND IF YOU THINK OTHERWISE THIS IS NOT A SPACE FOR YOU. I have no tolerance for people thinking, “Oh, these two celebs are secretly dating.” It is an invasion of their privacy and disrespectful to their wonderful friendship. I definitely believe you can ship without shipping them IRL, that’s how Kpop was for me and thousands of others.

Anyhow, this first post was made back when Logic, Rae, and others were teasing Corpse about E-Girls but the chorus was also giving me AU ideas, the whole “Choke me like you hate me when you love me/Lowkey wanna date me when you fuck me” and him saying he’s not the right one to wait on screams friends with benefits that wants more and I just have an idea.

Corpse and Sykkuno FWB with unspoken feelings AU. Non Youtubers AU, maybe make it be a flower shop/tattoo artist AU where their shops are on the same block, just on different ends. Jack is a mutual friend and introduces them when Corpse moves into his shop and there’s feelings there from the get go. Sykkuno is attracted to Corpse’s voice and warm chuckles that goes against his all black except for silver rings look. Corpse adores how Sykkuno stumbles over his words and blushes and giggles, and finds Sykkuno endlessly endearing.

Somehow, Corpse becomes friends with Sykkuno’s group(Toast, Rae, Leslie, Tina, etc.) and Corpse is open about his shitty life. Anxiety, medical issues, a runaway father, extended family who makes it clear he’s the black sheep of the family, girls who dated him just for sex, but dropped him when they realized his baggage. And Sykkuno hates them all, for how they treated Corpse, who deserves nothing but love and gentleness. His warmth is barely hidden behind his dark clothes. He wants to be loved, wants to love, Sykkuno can see it like a beacon in the darkness. And he knows Corpse wants it with him.

And Sykkuno never thought he’d be in a friends with benefits relationship, but he also knows that Corpse doesn’t think he deserves love. Deserves the traditional relationship Sykkuno has sworn by. He knows Corpse needs time to be shown that he’ll stay when everyone else has left him. It’ll take time, and somehow(Read: I still need to come up with it), they fall into bed together and become friends with benefits.

At first, it’s in the dark or in the dim lamp light. Corpse doesn’t take off his face mask except for when he’s between Sykkuno’s legs, where Sykkuno can’t see his face. The sex is rougher that Sykkuno is used to, more vanilla than what Corpse is used to, but they meet in the middle. Their biggest shared kink is dirty talk, Sykkuno loves hearing filth in Corpse’s deep voice. Corpse loves hearing well-mannered Sykkuno who never even swears turn vulgar and knowing it’s because of how well Corpse is fucking him is even better.

But then one night, in the pitch dark, Corpse asks if he can kiss Sykkuno. Sykkuno is confused, because Corpse doesn’t kiss, it’s too intimate for him with his facial insecurities. Corpse repeats himself, and Sykkuno agrees, and is shocked when lips press against his. And after a month of sex without kissing, the kiss is intoxicating. They start kissing all the time. In windowless rooms in their shops on lunch. Corpse has every light turned off in his apartment before Sykkuno arrives so they can kiss right away, they can’t get enough of each other’s lips.

One evening, they’re just chilling in the living room, on their phones, when Corpse says he wants to show Sykkuno his face, and Sykkuno agrees. He can sense the nerves radiating off of Corpse and is proud that they got to that point. He knows how huge this is, and he’s patient as Corpse works up the nerve. And when Corpse takes off his mask, he’s shocked at the way Sykkuno looks at him. With reverence, likes his face is the most beautiful thing Sykkuno has ever seen, like he’s the most precious thing to Sykkuno. With Corpse’s permission, Sykkuno touches his face, touches like a feather like he’s made out of a porcelain that will crumble if he touches too hard(And he is porcelain. And Sykkuno knows it and knows how to not push too much, but lets Corpse decide the pace of their relationship). It’s one of the most powerful moments in Corpse’s life and some part of him knows that Sykkuno is the real thing. The one who won’t leave. And Sykkuno is so in love, so honored that Corpse trusts him.

After that night, things change. They spend nights eating takeout and talking, going out for walks, flirting at the cafe in between their shops. They go see movies, have inside jokes. Sykkuno doesn’t judge him when Corpse’s anxiety spikes and he wears a mask even when it’s just the two of them. His arms are a safe place that eases anxiety and insecurities. Corpse listens to Sykkuno talk about flowers and how he fell out with his parents a bit when he decided to go full time at the flower shop instead of using his math degree. They’re less friends with benefits and more dating without a label.

Nine months into their arrangement, Corpse’s illnesses/pain is flaring up. He lets Sykkuno see him in pain-vulnerable. And then he has to go to some family function and the next time Sykkuno sees him, it’s clear his anxiety is extremely high. Sykkuno knows all his tells. That week is very tense, and one night, Corpse picks a fight. Yells over something trivial. It’s unlike him, but thankfully Sykkuno knows what this is. Corpse is daring Sykkuno to leave, to be like everyone else who left. It’s a test. So he stays calm. Refuses to get off the couch when Corpse tells him to leave. Corpse goes to wash dishes, and comes back shy, embarrassed by his actions, Sykkuno just opens his arms and Corpse runs into them, cries. He’s fearful and in pain-physically and emotionally. He feels powerless. But he has Sykkuno. He can’t doubt him anymore. Sykkuno will stay, and will love him through every rough patch.

Sykkuno is by his side at doctor’s appointments, gives his opinions on the options Corpse is presented with, and in the end, they decide on a slightly risky surgery. A few nights before the surgery, Sykkuno confesses to his unspoken feelings. They both know them, but they’ve never said it. He doesn’t want Corpse to go into surgery without making things official between them. So, he confesses to being in love with Corpse-that he’s loved him for months now- and asks him out. It is the easiest decision of Corpse’s life. Yes. Yes, he wants to make things official. Yes, he loves Sykkuno too. And he trusts Sykkuno.

And they live not happily ever after, but with each other through sickness and in health. Through anxiety flare ups and arguments with family. Through periods where it feels like they spend more time in doctor’s offices and hospitals than in their home. Through sunlit mornings in bed and warm chuckles and breathless giggles and their first dance as husbands. Their relationship wasn’t the traditional one Sykkuno swore by, but it’s the one that lasts through the decades until they die.  

#Corpse Husband #Sykkuno #Corpsekkuno #I was so proud of this back then #I still am #I just want a place to bounce ideas too #And maybe no one will care #And maybe some people will #And maybe I will get some hate #I won't tag them on a lot of stuff but I want to like signal boost #Because this was my most popular post ever #And if people want to find this again I want them too #to #Ugh #Am I a hyprocrite? #Maybe #But who cares #Do what makes you happy