#💚💚💚💚💚 thank you johnnnn

[andragoras-in-vanity]

🩸🌹🩸Valentine's day asks 🩸💗🩸 bloodsoaked edition🩸🌹🩸 (I know I probably asked you some of these before but hopefully they're fun to think about again 🧛‍♀️)

3. favorite love song? 6. Sexual/romantic orientation? 7. Poems or love letters? 11. Dinner date or brunch date? 12. Favorite flowers? 13. Favorite perfume/cologne? 14. Favorite candle scent? 17. Most attractive thing a person could wear? 22. Fictional crushes?

24. What makes you blush?

30. Prefer to charm or be charmed?

47. Do you think about love a lot?

ooo!!!! (if you did its okay, i dont mind and my taste change rapidly)❤️🍓❤️

3. changes DAILY, but probably screaming bloody murder by sum 41 or candy by the blasting company at the moment

6. bi....ish???? (technically??? but also...men good.... masculinity..yes)

7. love letters without contest unless the lemony snicket "i love you like misfortune loves orphans" piece counts as poetry

11. ooooo brunch

12. carnations, peonies, lily of the valley, and pale pink roses (and all the wildflowerssss)

13. death and decay from lush 🙃 its just so pretty and me, i dont know amy colognes but old spice is always a good choice

14. anything woodsy like myrrh

17. hmmmm we love a good button up and waistcoat/tie combo paired with stompy work boots (leather jacket and rolled up sleeves optional, and rings....)....on me tho anything flowy that shows off my collarbones or cropped to show off my hips and belly

22. hmmm i dont know if i have any rn that arent the obvious mr darcy, mr Knightley, or henry tilney beyond characters of my own making

24. kindness, interest in me and mine, hANDS., SHOULDERS, chivalry, musical ability, powerful but not threatening energy especially if that person has decided to engage with me and just overall are better looking than me and competent too. the idea that someone might ever actually worry about me or be afraid of living a day without me, or that they'd understand me and help me when im at my limits .....that theres someone who might read all those letter i write and then seal until i am loved some day....

or just an acknowledgement that im a human worth as much as anyone else, but that can be from anyone. or being told im pretty which is a lie but feels nice

30. i charm others fairly easily when im able to block out my thoughts of myself but i dont enjoy it, id rather someone charm me instead, be worth the effort in their eyes

47. every second of every day for my entire life

💕❤️🍓❤️💕 thanks hiero 💕❤️🍓❤️💕

#💚💚💚💚💚 thank you johnnnn #ask game #ahaha 47 was insulting thanks #yes its all i think about its all ive ever thought about #and aside from a comfortable pretty home its all ive wanted #but i have not a home nor have i been lucky enough to date or even crush and even now i dont even have understanding or compassion #long post #so yeah #every wish ive ever made since i was 7 stars snow eyelashes everything just for my person #so i can know what effort is like and gentleness and understanding and a willingness to accomodate #and never get mad at me unless i deserve it #and im not selfish thats not only why i want it i want to give what o have ro #im useless to this world but i could be adoring and wonderful to someone if i could click with them and theyd choose me #i know im so much work and probably more than whats worth it but id love them so much #and i just want someone fucking handsome and beautiful and breathtaking to give all of myself to #i want to share my life and theirs and i want to deal with things together no matter what happens #and i want to build a beautiful warm home together that will be OURS #and right now i dont even have MINE and i never will unless i meet that sweet good person that i mso scared is just a fantasy #but anyway #yes i think about love a whole lot and my heart is in constant agony #especially having been denied the very basic idea of it as a teen when everyone else was experimenting and no one wanted me #but does it even matter if so few of them were attractive to me anyway? idk but it still aches #even when you know they wee stupid games for teens it still hurts when the one time you tried you ended up with someone #who happily called you a couple then never wanted to show it or spend time with you in public #still regret letting that fuck feel me up but im the best he'll ever get close to so anywah #yeah i feel stuck at about 19 cause of that but also i believe in real love anyway so i never wanted to lock myself into a time waster #ive only ever wanted security and permanence and romance my whole life #i think i want a fantasy but i cant give up hope i dont know what id do or if i could #ive tried and everyone tells me i dont need it but thats because theyve had it #and anyway yeah i think about it a lot and it hurts my heart may never mend if i cant meet this man soon

[andragoras-in-vanity]

Please take this bouquet of 🌹Flower Asks🌹 Aubrieta - favorite drink?

Baneberries - favorite song?

Begonia - favorite color?

Bellflower - favorite animal?

California Poppy - height?

Carnation - What are you currently wearing?

Common Boneset - What are you looking forward to?

Daffodil - Zodiac sign?

Hellebore - How do you show affection?

Lantanas - Best compliment you've ever received?

Lavender - favorite thing about yourself?

Rose - favorite sound?

Transvaal Daisy - favorite article of clothing?

Tropical White Morning Glory - describe your aesthetic

Tulip - best present to get you?

Zinnia - Random fact about yourself?

oh okay geez i didnt know this was here, im gonna answer them now 🙃🙃🙃

aubrieta- orange smoothie or chai frap cause im a white girl apparently

baneberries- that changes from day to day...today its After the Rain by patr or Devil Like You by bridge city sinners...maybe op2 from ranking of kings cause it gives me feelings

begonia- green or burnt orange

bellflower- dogs or wolves, or bears or bunnies or--

California poppy- 5'8 on a good day

carnation- my grey knit pullover and ✨VeLoUR✨ pants

common boneset- literally anything else. the day i can finally leave this shit province and house, meeting friends that actually give a shit and do stuff, meeting my person and having a life with him, not feeling suicidal, and maybe closer in the future....fabric store trip so i can build my portfolio and get closer to getting out

daffodil- leo

hellbore- i give gifts, bake, mend and make things, beyond that depends in what way i love someone

lantanas- 1) my friend told me the stuffie i made and embroidered looked like soemthing youd find in a value village from the 30s from a little girl who died and the family didnt know what to do with her collection of haunted plushies, 2) someone told me i looked so good when i walked into the venue that they didn't realize who i was, just thought WHO is that GODDESS, 3) every fan ex someone points to my poster of jekyll and hyde and tells me my art looks like that of the manga Gangsta.

lavender- my hair, my hips, my eyelashes, im not overly pretty but i could be if i had money and the right light

rose- a good powerslide or fiddle solo

transvaal daisy- my blue heavy cardigan and my big fluffy green and white pantssss

tropical white morning glory- cottagepunk prince. more comfy than solarpunk but not as wispy as cottagecore, all the values of an anarco communist but the vanity of royalty.

tulip- lil novelty music boxes? crystals? genuinely i dont want much but theres this locket i saw once that had a heart shape with either rose quartz or birch bark in it and the rest was a locket with a music box in it that played merry go round of life, and as selfish as it is id kill to have a sweetheart give me something like that

zinnia- cut flowers in a vase last about two weeks longer for me than they should, and ive prayed every day since i was ten for the love of my life and yet ive been single my whole life in spite of that and i dont at all wanna die about it

#long post #ask #ask game #💚💚💚💚💚 thank you johnnnn #sorry o mossed this one it got lost in my inbox