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|･ω･｀) hibari-kyouya-skylark

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These memes are a time for me to just ramble and talk. So, to start, I guess I’ll go with: I was very confused when I looked in my notifs one day to see that I was followed by a Hibari blog. Not in a bad way! It’s like--- ???????????????? someone from KHR, with a popular muse, is following me? 

Is this a mistake or---?

Forgive me, because I dealt with a lot when this blog started out. I won’t get into how many times I was told that people didn’t want to interact because: “My muse is gay” or “But my muse hasn’t canonically interacted with Haru before-- I don’t want to interact”. To put it simply, I became kinda jaded around that time. 

I’ve gotten better, but there are certain habits that I formed because of that dark time. Such as, I virtually never follow first. I am too terrified to follow people first because of what happened in the past. I’ve had people follow back, but then later tell me they had no intentions of ever interacting. It’s like-- but why follow back then? 

So, that’s why, I stopped following first. I have people follow me first as that’s a clearer indication that people are actually interested in rp’ing. So that’s the backstory on that. So, I was surprised to see a Hibari following. Essentially, i’m very unused to people from KHR following and interacting, so I was very ?????? for a bit. 

Pretty sure I asked about the guidelines via ask or im. Probably because they weren’t there? I’ll admit that I was terrified to ask, but I did it. I like to read the rules before I do anything with a blog so I was very ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; what if I mess up. Highkey anxious. 

I think I first came across the blog when they appeared on Rikku’s blog. Pretty sure I looked through the blog and was fascinated by the whole ‘ohhhhhhhh Yakuza backstory’ in the headcanons or about page. It was somewhere. I know that it was before the blog was then redone. 

Basically, I am a curious bean and I like to look into who people interact with and read random stuff. So when I saw the follow on Haru, I noticed the slight difference in url name and also the blog layout. I didn’t have to admit that, but here we are. I lowkey stalked bc i’m curious bean. Then got followed and was “shock-desu.”

I’m very easily intimidated so I was highkey intimidated lol. I won’t lie and say that I’m still not. I’m just--- like that. It can take me a while to warm up to people. Some, I can warm up to quicker than others. I’m not really sure what it is. Basically, i’m just dumb. We can chalk it up to that. 

So----- let’s see. Cycling back, I do think you said something about how you didn’t have rules up yet since you weren’t ready to do full blown rps yet since you were going back into the series to refresh your memory. I was okay with that and was pretty much, cool beans, i’ll wait. 

I’m pretty sure it was not long afterwards that I saw a post for rules that was written and was like- oho. Proactive- for a lack of a better word bc I can’t words at the moment. Idk, somehow that left an impression on me. Perhaps because 1) It lessened my anxiety 2) it just somehow gave off the feel that ‘someone asked for it, so I will put something up/find something while I’m reliving KHR’

So I appreciated that. Even if it wasn’t done for that purpose, I still appreciated it. I think it’s in the rules where it’s stated that you normally don’t like to write starters because you feel as though you can’t write them well. 

Did post a starter call tho, and I stared at it for a few seconds before I clicked on the lil heart. Will say that I was surprised that something was written pretty promptly. For another thing of backstory-- I don’t mean it in a bad way at all. I just-- am used to not getting starters written even if I like starter calls. I’ve just reached a point where I will like starter calls but not get my hopes up. 

So, to see something so prompt was a shock for me, and also--- uhh--- touching? It’s like, it could’ve been ignored, but it wasn’t. Not only was it prompt, but it was a well written starter and so, it left a favorable impression to say the very least. It goes to show that you took care when writing it, and that meant a lot to me. 

Afterwards, each reply was written very well and with a lot of detail. It’s clear that thought and effort was put into every reply, and-- idk, it made me pretty emotional. Like, wow, I think... Rena is enjoying this thread? New concept! A KHR blog who actually wants to interact. #Concept. 

[Sorry that this goes down a dark point sporadically. I just-- have baggage when it comes to the KHR fandom from a few years ago aha;;;;;;; I honestly don’t get my hopes up to high with KHR fandom bc of the past. It hurts less that way. ]

It was recently we talked via im and you let me know that you actually liked Haru and enjoyed interacting with all sorts of muses as it allows one to explore through different themes. I feel the same way, and it was nice to know that we shared that thought. 

Pretty sure I was also sent a fanart with Haru and Hibari in it and it’s like. omg. A picture tribute. #blessed. 

Lil things like that mean a lot to me bc it’s like, ‘wow someone thought of me and thought to share with me something. I exist in their realm.’ So that really helped me warm up in the past couple of days. 

Now i’m just intimidated because ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh such a good writer. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh can’t do justice. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh.

I can’t think of anything else to confess, write about, so i’ll stop there. alskjlaskjdlfajlfjals

#Anonymous ask #answered ask #thanks for the ask! #Meme answered #Neo speaks #((Sorry that I'm just everywhere)) #((Also sorry that I just go through emotional bumps throughout)) #((sorry if I say anything that came out wrongly OTL)) #((I'm just a very shocked bean who has very low expectations for things))

[once-upon-a-scenario]

Himejima: Meeting s/o’s family headcanons!

“Can I request genya and sanemi fighting over a s/o but at the end decides to share headcannons I just would find it really cute and if not some headcannon on gyomei meeting the s/o family I just find these would be really cute if that’s okay with you maybe both ... thank u love your content 💓” Requested by @missmadness123 Sorry, I accidentally deleted your ask OTL Thanks for the kind words, I’m glad you’re enjoying the blog! I thought about the Genya + Sanemi one but I’m afraid that the age difference between them/their general relationship made it difficult for me to figure out how to write that particular scenario;;; the idea for Gyoumei sounds adorable, though, hope you enjoy! (Also quite random, but just a note in order to avoid confusion for everybody following this blog: I am not Mod Lily, whose name you’ll see in the blog bio thing; I’m Eve. This blog is for both of us mods, I’ve just been too lazy to add myself in the description lol. Everything you see uploaded nowadays is by me because Lily herself is too busy atm to write anything, but please stay tuned for when she comes back! :D) -Mod Eve _____ -he’s mostly silent on the journey to your house, lost in thought. He won’t push it, he decides; how your family feels about him is up for them to decide, and what you’ll do either way is your decision. In his mind, he’s already lucky to have kept you this long. -(he is, after all, a bit of a cynic, and still barely learning to trust love. How many children has he saved and taught and cared for, only to have them torn away from him before they reached adulthood? How many times has he been left by someone he cared for? You’re a bit of an anomaly in this aspect, considering that you’ve neither died nor tired of him yet, but he still tends to view your relationship as something delicate; uncharted waters that he’s still struggling to navigate properly. You, your laughter, your touch, your warmth- he doesn’t want to lose this, but he doesn’t see how he can avoid being left behind, when being left is all he’s ever really known.) -and he’s his quiet, morose self, prayer beads in hand and mouth set in a firm line, determined to be simply polite and respectful and let everything run its course, but he’s surprised, then, when he finds himself pulled straight into the arms of your family  -he’s asked questions, everything from how he met you to what he likes to eat, to whether he’ll be asking you to marry him soon (this last question from one of your small siblings, cousins, something or other- the child immediately gets hushed by the moritifed adults, while Gyoumei sits there, mouth slightly dry, trying not to break his composure) -in a sense, it’s as if he’s suddenly privy to a new side of you as he wanders through the house you spent your childhood in and speaks to the people who’ve known you all your life, long before he ever did. He learns about the foods you refused to eat, your favorite toy at age six, the room you used to sleep in, and then he can almost imagine a past version of you, racing about this very house- the light patter of your feet on the floor, the sound of your childish laughter. -he sets himself up for disappointment so firmly that he’s actually caught off guard once he realizes that your family isn’t aiming to get rid of him, that they don’t mind his scars, that his height does not intimidate them, that they’re either unaware of his past as a (wrongly, but few people know that) convicted murderer or don’t care -(Thank you for your courage, is what he hears instead, from the lips of an elderly family member as she leads him aside with a wrinkled hand. Thank you. You make that child happy.) -I’m the one who should be saying thank you. That ‘child’ you refer to has saved me from solitude. -then he starts a little, hearing your voice calling him before whispering somewhere a bit closer to his ear in a way that tells him you’re probably standing on your toes, “I can’t believe they told you all those embarrassing stories!”. He feels the familiar touch of your hand (yours and no one else’s; he knows the weight and shape of it better than anything, and could never forget) on his shoulder -and for a moment, he breathes in deep and steady. He can hear the bright, animated sound of your family’s voices as they chat amongst themselves. He feels the anchoring weight of your body leaning slightly against him, and, he realizes, a small tug at the leg of his pants, followed by a high-pitched voice commanding, “up!” -another one of your younger family members, then. From next to him, you stifle a laugh. -he stands there as you playfully complain about your family, a child in his arms and tugging curiously on his prayer beads with one tiny fist. His lips curve upwards in spite of himself in one of his rare smiles. It’s harder to worry, here, with you at his side and the potential promise of a future before you. He swears he’ll find his courage; he’ll be a man worthy of you and the trust you and your loved ones have placed in him. -”Is this ok, Gyoumei? Are you alright?” you ask him tentatively once your complaints are through, and his voice is gentle when he replies. -”It is. I am. I’m glad...” he says slowly, “I’m glad I came.” -and the answering squeeze of your hand on his is all he really needs.

#Kimetsu no yaiba #himejima gyoumei #Himejima x reader #himejima gyoumei x reader #headcanons #reader insert #Mod Eve #first request! #more of a scenario than headcanons r.i.pieces #apparently I do not know what a headcanon is lmao