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i-mpurrthoughts · 2 years

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This is quite a negative post, with a lot of negative themes talking about ocd. Please be aware I have been diagnosed and these are my personal experiences with living, that doesn’t mean they are 100% the norm or anyone else’s symptoms. This is my blog to record my thoughts, and it’s the easier and more encouraging than a journal. Helping someone relate is just a plus.

I want to list all my day to day symptoms that cripple me on a day to day basis

or just behaviors that are related to ocd or other disorders I have

long post so under the cut

-i overanalyze my body, mainly physical symptoms, to see how im feeling. I’ve been sick almost all my life and bad things have happened when i even felt slightly sick. i assume my brain is trying to gauge to prevent those traumas from happening again

-i have a huge phobia of being in cars, mainly because they make me motion sick and a lot of sickness has happened in cars. even if im feeling ok, my brain will freak up and my body tenses when im in a car. i immediately try and find an excuse to run away from it. also good ole’ emetophobia, which I found out this year quite a huge amount of people have.

-i research. everything. too much. i’ve been on a 3 day research binge of leukemia because i have some symptoms and my brain is desperately trying to figure out why im sick. when I research a new disorder that could possibly be the root of my physical issues, I get tunnel vision. in my obsessive mind, it could possibly be nothing else.

some are asking, why no doctor? I have been to doctors and some have helped, most havent. I had my gallbladder out when I was extremely young (which made me feel deathly ill for about 4 years) so they usually use that an excuse and offer no supportive treatment. I have been diagnosed with ptsd and ocd and have medication for it, and it has helped somewhat, but does nothing to calm or subdue physical illness. luckily, i am seeing a trusted family doctor in the next couple of weeks and i’m bringing my mom because i know she’ll dig for tests and scans. not let anyone talk over me and dismiss me without a proper explanation.

-i have perfection syndrome that often paralyzes me. I wanted to be an artist. I still do. I can’t even sit down and draw for more than 30 minutes before getting overwhelmed. it never looks good enough. I wanted to be a figure skater, i got sick so i couldn’t travel to lessons, but at a certain point, my brain decided: you’re too old, there’s no point, if you aren’t an Olympic athlete by now, you’re just going to embarrass yourself in front of your coach like the first set of lessons. i love this video game, I’ve been playing it for about a year now. ive climbed in ranks, but i just stopped. if I’m not winning every battle or game, who cares? i obviously don’t have what it takes to be at the top. this way of thinking has me absolutely destroyed. I can’t just,,, enjoy anything anymore. I can’t have fun while doing everything. I have to be the best and i have subconsciously decided that I’m not good at anything, and i wont ever be.

-i cannot stand romantic relationships, or friendships for that matter. this might just be my social anxiety, but holy shit this is the most disgusting trait i have. since this blog is anonymous and im being completely honest, I feel free to post it here. it is so hard to be around people who aren’t exactly like me. it’s filthy that i somehow hate myself, have no confidence at all, but i cannot stand people who don’t live up to my level. i grew up with an extremely small friend group (thank god im not longer in contact with) who was very toxic to me and constantly either made fun of me or did not hold the same standard of kindness. I was bullied quite a bit for being poor or “not as educated” as my friends and it just left a dent in me. I have a friend group now that i adore, but sometimes i do not want to be around them.

same with romantic relationships, I’ve had relationships before that all turned out bad, because i was being obviously used for sex or just disrespected (LOL back then my taste was so bad so not surprised there) and my spineless ass never said anything until I just broke up with them when I couldn’t take it anymore. idk, I just hate commitment and shit being expected of me and the moment I’m tied down by anything: plans, close relationships, jobs, school, i freak the fuck out. i just want to be someone who is in a stable casual relationship, with a small friend circle who I can trust, with a gentle, decent paying job. perfectionism at its best again.

LOL I honestly forgot about this but i was scanning over what I wrote so far and remembered one of the things I was bullied for

i do not have eyebrows or eyelashes :) it doesn’t bother me much anymore tbh, ive got pretty good at makeup so i can do light eyeliner and put on decent looking eyebrows, but holy shit. that was the earliest sign of my ocd. it probably started when I was 8 but i have had little to no eyelashes since then. I have a set of bottom lashes (who fucking knows why??? lmfaooo like i have no compulsion to pull them out for some reason this year. yet another example of how strange mental illnesses can be) i was bullied by a lot of people, mainly by my close family, but on a good note, they stopped mentioning it as i got older and it just became part of who i am!

it does make me happy because i often get many compliments from people my age when im too tired to put on makeup. like woah that’s so cool! it’s really a new fashion look and i think it looks good on you :) so thank you strangers who have been nice to me and said those things, if I could find you again id hug you. hope you all are doing amazingly.

thank god i got over this phase because i was convinced it was destroying my ears. I used to wear earbuds literally 24 hours a day, when I slept, when I went to school, at dinner. They never came out because I could not stand the overwhelming noises, plus I was just obsessed with vocaloid and nightcore LMFAO, honestly that shit still hits, miss me with that cringe culture bullshit

have to sleep in my room only. no exceptions. I never sleep at friends houses, when i go on vacation I had anxiety attacks because it’s not my room. ive gotten better over the years thank goodness, but my room is my safe space, and honestly as I’m writing this, I feel so safe and comforted in here. one of the only places besides the skating rink that make me feel so safe, contrary to the earlier comment.

honestly im super tired and just want to get this out right here before I pass out. This is the first time I put my thoughts out so bare and honest, so if you read even a sentence of this, I hope it helps. it was quite negative, but i spend most of my days masking and trying to be positive for other people so i can feel tension erase as i write jt.

also, after putting together all these symptoms, autism seems like such a good guess over ocd. I know testing is expensive, but ill try and bring it up at my next doctor visit :)

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bigbrothernetflix-st · 4 years

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EPISODE FOUR

“ ‘something will be unleashed’ are u gonna start KILLING PEOPLE??” - saira

HOH: Nick UPSIDE DOWN: Emma & Kiki NOMINEES: Monty & Saira POV: Jev FINAL NOMINEES: Monty & Saira EVICTED: Saira (1-0)

JOSH C

well, we just voted out GINA and i'm feeling some kind of way about it. i feel like the push to save emma was VERY quick and i think there are a lot of alliances going on that i'm not involved in which is FINE but it's just something i need to watch out for. i know i talk with almost everyone constantly so i think i'll be okay for this week, but i'm just worried about the people that i enjoy.

a lot of people have said they don't talk to saira or brianna so i wouldn't be shocked to see them both go up, which is FINE i guess but i enjoy both. i don't want saira to leave at all but i don't think she has as GOOD of a social standing as brianna does. which is worrisome because i know this is her first game so she doesn't have any pre-existing relationships to save her which is.. not ideal.

i'm finding things a BIT frustrating because i have to navigate not ONLY game thoughts but people's pre-game relationships. not that i'm knocking anyone for them but almost everyone i've talked to says they don't talk to monty but they wouldn't want to see him nominated. i just don't FULLY understand why we can't nominate him but they're friends with him so he's a bit UNTOUCHABLE. i might push it anyways because he's the only person i don't really talk to anymore. WHO KNOWS.

i've felt like a deflated balloon for most of today so maybe i'll just go with the flow on this but i need to make sure i'm not just voting out all the people who will be votes for me later on.

ARIA

Im small, bitter, and very angry...but spite is the best motivator and im going to use it to win this season. Anyways i miss saira im SICK of trusting nicks, i see a nick i FLOOR IT!!! I refuse to have a nick fuck me over in a game again i am so over it. But hehe anyways lets get into the info spilling section real fast and then i can analyze because my position has drastically changed from last time-

also sorry for repeated info but sometimes i forget things or people say it again so..

-nathan leaked "all" his alliances to me (Screensht is cut weird i think theres one he cut off)

-Jacob found out my gina connection

-perfect voting record is dead (told jacob i voted out gina tho idk why hehe)

-kiki-joey connection

-emma knows about bri's backups because jake leaked it to her before he left

-josh c IS EVERYWHERE

-nick says they havent talked to bri

-nick likes jev

-nick wants (more so wants others) to take a shot at kiki/nash

-nick said nathan is a wildcard

-joshua nommed monty and nash

-STOP UNDERESTIMATING JOSHUA

-told josha jacob is protecting him

-joey exposed saira's deal to me and bri

-joey wants a larger alliance

-bri said they like nick,,,but that conflicts earlier info so im thinking peer pressure or just bri is too sweet for this cast and i adore her-

-bri told nathan her noms

-nathan hates bri and for wHAT??

-jacob has a dpov and used it to cement a f2,, AND DID THE SAME THING WITH BRI FFS

-jacob scared of nick and jev

-kiki and nash tell everything to jacob

-jacob said emma and joey have a connection??

-jacob thinks nick is gonna join the emma jev joey side (his words)

-jacob thinks monty is a threat

-jacob ranked the players in tiers as follows:

A kiki jev bri

B joey joshua nathan

d: nash saira monty

-bri talks a lot with kiki and josh c

-told bri about the trio between jacob kiki and nash

-joey told me yesterday he wants to win,,,but then just said to take him out

-planting seeds against joey to bri

-jacob wants to bring dpov up with alliance at f10

-joshua and jacob were shook saira was evicted

-told jacob that joey asked to throw

-jev and jacob are getting closish

-jacob is so threaten by nick

-jacob told bri that nathan doesnt like her

and thats where im at currently. Lots of options and lots of interconnections I have to navigate but i think im gonna be fine for the time being which makes it super easy to just be complacent and float my way to jury BUT!!! I want to try setting myself up well where i dont get clocked at f9/10 and wabam im out. Im trying to set people against each other subtly but honestly i think im overestimating myself here but at least i know im safe. I mean for now im trying to set up this side of jev emma joshua to at least form together as a group but im STRUGGLING i might just have to settle for them keeping each other safe without a solid alliance ig. At the same time I think i really have two actives pieces of info im working with which is emma knowing about bri's backups and then me and bri knowing about jacob's dpov.

So i think what I want to happen is that Jacob wants to dpov nick out at f10 so i'll let that happen probably which puts a huge target on jacobs back, idk if its anon but if it is ill make sure bri leaks it kinda framing it in a "if you leak it and i pretend to not know i can analyze how other people respond so we'll know what everyone thinks" and once jacob leaves emma can leak the bri's angels (which should be weaker at this point since jacob is the glue that holds it together a bit) which #1 makes a bunch of good players house targets and then forces those people to solidly stick together as well. Not sure how im gonna play both sides but,,,,if i can play it off kinda like i did in pasio somehow maybe i'll be fine but who knows. Either way im here to have fun (and hopefully win for gina/saira)

WELL WELL!!! just did a vc with jacob, he decided to take matters into his own hands and be totally cracked and now thinks nick/monty/nathan are a side,,,,which,,,,idk yall nathan did show me all of his alliances and none of them were that but who am i to stop jacob from making himself a target by leading this charge against them uwu. I do need to be more proactive about leaking tho but im not sure how im gonna work that. Also im not sure if i want nick/monty/nathan all gone, i can live with monty gone bc they probably think i nommed them and might want revenge but also nick and nathan are kinda cute numbers for me,,,

I mean idk because at this point i have a game relationship with mostly everyone left in this game and im just not sure which path i need to take to get to the end yet and its kindaaa stressing me out a little bit. I can feel myself starting to drop in peoples trust rankings a little bit and god its kinda annoying how jacob has this game wrapped around his finger, however i dont need to be in a dominant position this entire game i believe in myself!! I got this easy peasy!!!

JEV

My reverse psychology paid off and I won the veto so I'm loving that for me, I'm not going to be using it because I'd preferably like to see Monty leave because I just... never see them and I think Saira is much more deserving of her place here than Monty is. It's frustrating that Monty is cruising through this game so easily because we haven't spoken to eachother since day one, and they haven't even bothered to come and speak to me to campaign for me to use the veto. Like, do you want to be here or not?

Thinking about it more, I'm super happy I won the power of veto. I managed to ensure myself and those I'm closest to in this game weren't going to be named as renom and kept Monty up there as a final nom, which I'm worried otherwise wouldn't happen during this game since people seem either threatened by Monty OR a little over-eager to keep him around in this game, which annoys me but whatever. I just hope whoever wins HOH has the balls to make the right decision, better to get him gone now rather than later.

JEV

So I think I've had a little bit of a brainwave/breakthrough. This is gonna be longwinded so hear me out.

Apparently from what I've heard, the nominations this week were revealed in order of who recieved the least to the most nominations from every

one. This is extremely interesting to me, as I've taken note that Nick, Aria, Jacob & Brianna were 10th-8th in the rankings of votes respectively.

First of all, I haven't made secret that I think something is going on with the Pasio alumni. This was highlighted when I was asking around for what people were doing for nominees, and from everyone I heard Saira/Monty, but from two people I heard Saira, Nash, Joey & Monty -- with Monty strategically placed last in the ranking, to give the illusion his name was the least uttered. Funnily enough, the two people I heard this format of the names were Nick and Aria who just happen to be Pasio alumni... interesting, right?

So looking at the ranking, I'm thinking "okay so they obviously didn't do eachother, and with Nash/Joey in 3rd and 4th respectively, they must've not expected so many votes on Monty and didn't plan accordingly, and so split the votes too much and didn't have enough to put up Nash or Joey over Monty. So I'm thinking, I know there's a connection between Jacob and Monty because I used to play orgs with them on Skype. Jacob used the veto on Brianna last week, this has brought me to the conclusion that Monty, Nick, Brianna, Jacob & Aria are working together with the possibility that Josh C is either playing both sides or is fully with them too, hence why he recieved the least votes.

That places Myself, Emma, Kiki, Nash, Joshua, Joey & Saira on the outside, and Nathan too as I'm guessing he's strayed from their alliance and/or wishing to work with them, hence why he recieved 5th most votes.

I'd love to make an alliance with this group of people, but it's still only pre-jury and I don't want to be seen as playing too hard too soon.

(cont.) So I initially wasn't going to go for this HOH, but I feel like I need to because I can't trust anybody else to make the move to take Monty out, and I'd rather see their numbers thinned sooner rather than later. It would paint me as their #1 target for next week probably, but if someone I trusted won HOH next week then I could go to the upside down and not have to worry about it.

JEV

Yes again I'm so sorry, another thing that was interesting to me was that I mentioned to Aria that I was close with Emma, and she asked for an alliance with the 3 of us almost immediately after, stating that she was also "very interested" in working with Emma too. This tells me she's the mole and wanted the alliance to try and get intel from us, I don't believe for a second she did Saira/Monty along with me and Emma at all, which is why myself and Emma are hesitant to say too much in that alliance chat. So I like Aria, but I don't trust her as far as I can throw her.

HOST WEEKLY CAST ASSESSMENT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hL__dyRaq2E&list=PLFEwPPy8j010XXwntq80VSU0qLNTNpSIN&index=5&t=0s

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r-o-se · 7 years

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Produce 101 Season 2 Ep 7 lit lit lit 92 point running commentary

hey whats up squad fam id link where I watched it but it was like 4 different sources so I’m sorryyyyy message me and ask for them later

1. They’re jumping right into it and its BTS Spring Day stage all are pastely beige pink and its cute af this is the youngest group on average and has the small Woojin, Kim Youngjin, Kenta, Seonho and Bae Jinyoung

2. Younjin wants to be center/main vocal eventho hes originally a rapper and I understannd WHY he wants it but to have a rapper as main vocal is…… not clever

3. Holy shit he actually gets to be the main vocal wow I’m shook as hell

4. Seokhoon is making angry eyes at him tho and now Woojin is a shitton better at this checkup and gets to be the new center

5. He has problems hitting the high note though poor baby

6. Baejy gets praised by BoA and he gets cute and smiley as fuck its adorableeeeee

7. SEONHO IS PLAYING PIANO IM PROUD OF MY LIL BABY BIRD

8. Baby Woojin didn’t fully hit the note but he didn’t fully miss ti either so its okkkk

9. Kenta got literally 0 personal screentime though mnet fucking hates him this boy is a GEM you could make so much clips out of him but nooooooooo

10. Seonho made kissy faces at the camera and Guanlin cringed so hard it was beautiful

11. Seonho got first aaaahahahha it’s the piano and the visuals but can we just remember the fact that the kid is only what 15? 16? He’s fuckin SMALL

12. Now the next stage is N Sync-Pop aka the group with one dancer and a bunch of other professions since they got filled also………… WOODAM IS HERE IM SO FUCKING EMO POOR KID

13. They also got Sangbin, Jung Jung, Insoo, Kiwon, Jaechan and Woodam obviously. Jung Jung is the only og dancer there

14. I’m very sad about Woodam but I wanna see others too like please…… I miss Sangbin and Insoo… Show them too they literally choreographed the whole thing and GOT PRAISED FOR IT…. And their teamwork was called the best they had seen IM SO GLAD

15. But their team is all very low numbers it makes me really really sad ugh

16. Their clothes are so 90s I LOVE IT HOW CUTE

17. They all dance so well especially for a group of people who aren’t actually dancers

18. SANGBINI IS SO GOOD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FUCK

19. Junghung unzipped his sweater and flipped around OBVIOUSLY

20. Everyone are clapping in circles aaahahahahah round of applause LITERALLY

21. Oh my gooooosh WOODAM HAS ASTHMA POOR BABY KID

22. If Woodam won’t make it I’m going to riot

23. SANGBIN IS LAST AGAIN LAST HERE AND LAST IN THE GROUP EVALUATION WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT JUSTICE FOR SANGBIN HES A RANK AND INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE AND AN EXCELLENT RAPPER FUCKING VOTE FOR HIM ASSES

24. NOW ITS TIME FOR A-TOM, EUIWOONG AND MY PINK RAPPER FLUFF WOO JINYOUNGGGGGGGGG THEY ARE DOING

25. Ajlahlskadf they asked Jinyoung ‘whos the best’ and hes like ahh everyone are good in their own way and they they asked again from Sanggyun and he’s like ‘I’m the best lol’

26. Wait is this the stage where Ha Minho was…….. because lmao they really did a good job editing him out I’m dead ‘they can’t edit better evil editing isn’t a thing’ MY GUY THEY DELETED A GUY WHO WON A BATTLE!! WITHOUT IT EVEN BEBING NOTICED IF WE DIDN’T KNOW HE WAS THERE!! GODDAMN

27. Jinyoung is the centerrrrrrrr love my babe but obvi I’m sad for Sanggyun

28. Also yall Minho won this battle with an Mnet diss

29. Sanggyun has problems coming up with lyrics poor babe I hope he’s alright OH NO BABY MESSED UP HIS WORDS TWICE

30. KAKLKFNAWKNN MINHO IS BLURRED OUT ON STAGE WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY

31. SANGGYUN AND EUIWOONG GOT PRAISEDDDDDDD AND OBVI WOOJY TOO IM SO PROUDDDDD

32. THEIR STAGE IS SO GOOD THE ENERGY IS SO GOOD WHAT THE FUCK THEY ALL ON FIRE AS FUCK

33. Cheetah is feeling herself big time

34. Euiwoong looks so much better here than with the BIL team he looked like a fetus there but rn HES FUCKIN AMAZING

35. Imagine ranking 4th out of 3 people wow that seems like something that would happen to me lmao poor Euiwoong

36. A group with no first place how tragic

37. ITS TIMEEEEEE OFR RHYTHM TA ok but why choose the same song for two years in a row lol

38. This team is Gwanghyun, Yoojin and Taewoo

39. Yoojin hated being a leader back in Be Mine days and now he’s stuck again because Gwanghyun and are submissive fucks

40. GWANGHYUN IS NERVOUS AND WENT TO ASK JINYOUNG FOR HELP THIS IS SO CUTE AND JINYOUNG BABE GAVE HIM ADVICE INSTEAD OF SENDGIN A RIVAL AWAY

41. This groups teamwork is seriously amazing I love it so much their dynamic is so amazing

42. Their energy is so good they sereiously seemed to just fuckin get such a high out of being on stage

43. Poor Baby Yoojin is last, Taewoo is second and Gwanghyun got first poor baby is crying and the others are cheering him up this is so sweet

44. BoA Amazing kiss is up next with Dongsu, JELLY HEESEOK WHO I HAVENT SEEN IN WEEKS LOVE YOU BABE DO WELL, Seunghyuk and Gunhee. Gunhee is the leader yet they have problems choosing the center

45. THEIR VOCALS ARE ALL SO GOOD WHAT THE FUCK GUNHEE IS AMAZING

46. Heeseok really wants to be center and is being kind of pushy but in the end Gunhee got the center part too

47. THEIR HARMONIES ARE SO GOOD

48. AND VOCALS SO STRONG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

49. Gunhee looks………. So good…….. I cant take it…… with the choker and everything just fuck me upppp

50. Jahldfhaan gunhee shook his ass on stage while appealing time

51. Gunhee is bringing up Hyunwoo too goddamn im weakhearted don’t do this to me

52. Heeseok got last place….. I’m emo as fuck…… fuckin stab me…… My Jellyfish son…. Seunghyuk is third, Dongsu second and Gunheeeeeeeeee is FIRST!!! Proud of my kid

53. Now its I.O.I Downpour team, Hyunbin, Jisung, Minhyun, Jaehwan and Sungwoon aka ALL THE KIDS I LOVE!!!!

54. They chose Jisung as leader my babe looks so good with purple hair GOD BLESS

55. Sungwoon is so pretty godddamnit ‘I’ve heard it often I’m not good enough for main vocal’ I’ll beat up whoever said it

56. HE IS GIVING UP MAIN VOCAL TO JAEHWAN!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! WHAT AN ANGEL!!!!!!! I’M SHOOK!!!!!

57. Hyunbin got a lot of hate and I’m very salty over it I love my tall boy very much SAME GOES TO JISUNG!!!! THAT KID HASN’T DONE A SINGLE THING WRONG HE IS SO SWEET AND SO INSPIRING AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH MMO BETTER FUCKING DEBUT HIM WITH THE MMO SQUAD ONCE ITS DONE!!!!!!

58. Hyunbin messed up a bit and Jisung comforted him poor lil baby I’m so sorry for my tall child and thank you so much Jisung for taking care of my baby kid

59. Anyways they asked if they can change and having Jaehwan play guitar instead of having the teachers play piano

60. Minhyun looks so fine in pastel pink fuck me up

61. Cut to Baekho and Jonghyun lookin like ‘damn right’

62. JAEHWANS VOICE DOES THINGS TO ME I DIDN’T EVEN SEE ITS HIM BUT WHEN HIS VOICE STARTED I GOT SHIVERS SAME WITH SUNGWOON I LOVE MY POWER VOCAL CHILDREN

63. Oh my fucking god everyone in the crowd and the other trainees AND HYUNBIN are all bawling

64. JAEHWANS VOCALS SAVED MY LIFE! FUCKING G O S H THIS IS SO EMOTIONAL I DON’T EVEN KNOW THE LYRICS BUT I FEEL LIKE CRYING

65. Sakjfbakjsablkfjn Hyunbin and Jisung are holding hands

66. Hyunbin is 5th and Jisung takes his hand and comforts him a lot and tells him it’s okay this is too precious and Jisung himself is 4th and Sungwoon third, Minhyun second and JAEHWAN FIRST HE DESERVED IT BEST FUCKING VOCALS IN THIS ENTIRE SHOW IF HE WONT MAKE IT I AM RIOTING!!!!!!

67. Jinwoo ranked super low in vocals……. I’m so fucking sad when will people learn to appreaciate true talent…..

68. Gunhees mouth can open so wide its amazing honestly also HE GOT OVERALL VOCAL FIRST PLACE IM SO PROUD!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!! BABE!!!!!!!!!! U DESERVED IT U WERE A GREAT CENTER AND LEADER

69. Now its only the dance teams left starting with Gete Ugly. The subber seems to love him and tbh same bless Danik

70. Ong is so fuckin funny I love him lmao

71. It’s Daniels team and he’s like ‘I’m sorry I was a bad leader’ and Ong is like nah fam ALSO FUN FACT REVEALED BY ONG Jonghyun inspired him to be the leader this is so fuckin cuteeeeee

72. Afnhlna what is going on why are they showing them in the result room before the stage I’m????

73. This team has all of the alpha bitches like seriously Jihoon, Samuel, Ong, Daniel, Hyungseob are 1st, 2nd, 4th, 5th and 6th and then poor baby Park Woojin is 24th.

74. Awwwwwwwwww the populars are all thinking that Woojin could kill it this is so cute

75. Danik is the MMO maknae apparently and volunteered and FUCK SUNGWOO JUST SAID JONGHYUN INSPIRED HIM TO BE THE LEADER MY SORRY SORRY AND ONGNIEL HEART CANT TAKE IT

76. Samuel keeps being eaten up by Jihoon save my boy those two want center and WOOJIN WANTS TOO!!!!!!! I LOVE WOOJIN!!!!!! PICK HIM!!!!!

77. AAAAAAHAHAH FUCK SAMUEL JUST SAID THAT HES LIKE A SKINNY DEER NEXT TO JIHOONS TIGER THIS IS THE CUTEST

78. Jihoon?? Recommended Sameuel now?? FUCK CUTE!!! Poor Woojin tho aw

79. They are a bit lacking in the dance section though which makes me a bit sad and Danik egets a bit flamed from Kahi since he is the only one who has problems with the choreo

80. Samuel, Danik and Woojin are all choreographing it but they all have very different styles so it’s a bit hard to learn

81. Anyways Danik is so cute and he has NICE ASS FUCKIN THIGHS HOLY SHIT LOOK AT HIM B-BOYING

82. The whip sound effects are so funny idk why but THEY ARE

83. Ong and Jihoon are poppingggggggg and its GREATT

84. Dabbing fuckers I stg

85. Samuels legs are so thin OH MY GOD DANIEL TWIRLING ON HIS HANDS HOLY SHIT

86. WHO DID THAT HALF SPLIT WAS IT ONG??? THAT WAS FUCKIN COOL

87. Hey yall I love Kang Daniel and Park Woojin and I’m not gonna waste my fingers typing out all of the members here BUT I LOVE THEM ALL FUCK

88. Jihoon did goddamn aegyo on that goddamn stage and Samuel gave half of a heart miss me w that cuteness

89. Everyone think Samuel won it but goddamn?? No?? He ranked last? How the fuck did that happen I’m literally…… what?? Why on earth? Anyways yall remember when Samuel called his mom and she called him a puppy

90. DANIK GOT 5TH IM ANGRY!!! AND HE SAID ITS WHAT HE DESERVES!! NO!!!!!

91. Hyungseob is 4th, Ong is 3rd and Woojin is SUPER NERVOUS AND NOW THEY CUT IT OFF!! FUCK YOU MNET!!

92. If Taehyun isn’t getting the best dancer I’m going to scream right here right now

93. Pop got really low votes I’m emo

94. TAEHYUN WRECKED IT HE IS FIRST!! HE DESERVES IT FUCKIN HELLL HE DOESSSS

95. Ok cut back to get ugly votes WOOJIN GOT FIRST HE REALLY DID IM SO PROUD HE REALLY DID IY MY FOX BABY HE DESERVED THAT FIRST CENTER PLACE FROM A RANKS AS WELL BUT NOW HES HERE AND BEAT UP!!!!! THE ENTIRE TOP TEN!!! FUCKIN GOD IM PROUD

96. TAEHYUN STAYED THERE HE REALLY DID WOOOJIN IS 5TH BUT TAEHYUN MADE IT HE IS FIRST HE BEAT ALL OF THE AVENGERS F U C K

97. Samuel and Daniel are ranking really low…… this is…. This is really sad wow holy shit….Poor children…. To drop from second to second to last??? Poor kid

98. Anyways the golden trio is now Gunhee, Jonghyun and Taehyun I am satisfied and have no objections to that

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Gloria Steinem: I shouldnt have been a Playboy Bunny even to write an expos

The writer on behaving badly with old lovers, Donald Trump, and the impact Little Women had on her

Born in Ohio, Gloria Steinem, 82, graduated in 1956 and became a writer. By 1972, when she founded Ms magazine, she was known as a political activist and feminist organiser. She is the author of many books and essays, including the bestselling My Life On The Road. Woman, her documentary series about violence against women, will air on Viceland UK on 8 March. She lives in New York.

What is your greatest fear? Being about to die, and saying, But

What is your earliest memory? Being held on my mothers lap while my father drove.

Which living person do you most admire and why? Dr Denis Mukwege, because he is to sexualised violence against females what Mandela was to apartheid.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? Waiting until the last minute.

What is the trait you most deplore in others? Its a tie between an inability to empathise and having no sense of humour.

Property aside, whats the most expensive thing youve bought? In my 30s, I was staring at a pair of expensive boots in a shop window when the photographer Gordon Parks came up behind me. He instantly understood, because he grew up even poorer than me; he made me buy them on my credit card.

What would your superpower be? To be able to show people that we are linked, not ranked.

What do you most dislike about your appearance? Ive wished I had a more angular face. Also, it seems odd to be white in a world that mostly ranges from honey to sable, especially since this groups me with too many people who think whiteness has a superior meaning.

Who would play you in the film of your life? As a child, Natalie Wood. As a grown-up, I wish I could go from Audrey Hepburn to Cicely Tyson. I admire Marisa Tomei and Meryl Streep, who both play cross class. Of course, Streep could play anything, human or animal, and is a great political activist besides.

What is your most unappealing habit? Committing myself to more than I can do. My eyes are bigger than my stomach.

What is your favourite smell? Vanilla.

What is your favourite word? Hello? as sarcasm. Also, Fanfuckingtastic!

What makes you unhappy? Seeing anybody rendered invisible.

What book has changed your life? As a child, Little Women, because it was the first time I realised women could be a whole human world.

What is the worst thing anyones said to you? That I was betraying someone or something I deeply cared about.

What did you want to be when you were growing up? First a horse rancher, then a dancer.

What do you owe your parents? My mother, a huge debt for creating a loving childhood for me when she didnt have one. My father, for being OK with insecurity. As he always said, If I dont know what will happen tomorrow, it could be wonderful.

To whom would you most like to say sorry, and why? I behaved badly with two old lovers. Years later, when I took one to lunch to apologise, it made it worse.

What does love feel like? Feeling you want someone elses welfare as much and sometimes more than your own.

What was the best kiss of your life? Late one summer night in Manhattan, walking from east and west on the same street until we finally met in the middle.

Which living person do you most despise, and why? It has to do not just with dislike, but power to hurt, so right now, there is no one who can surpass Donald Trump; not even Putin or Prime Minister Modi, who are right up there.

Whats the worst job youve done? Being a salesgirl in a baby shop where the others said things like, Hes Jewish, but shes American. Also, after college, being a waitress in London, and trying to make change in the old money of shillings and pence.

What has been your biggest disappointment? Seeing the future die, from Bobby Kennedy to dear friends.

If you could edit your past, what would you change? Since hostile people still call me a former Playboy Bunny, even at 82, I probably shouldnt have done that in my youth, even to write an expos. And since a couple of times theyve also referred to me as a former CIA agent, because I went to two Soviet-era communist youth festivals, I probably shouldnt have done that, either. Yet if I hadnt done both, I might have judged other people by such empty symbols, too.

How do you relax? Having dinner with friends, walking around the city, reading with my cat on my lap. Ive never done sports: if there were an Olympic team for sitting still, I would be on it.

How often do you have sex? After 70 or so, all those brain cells that were devoted to sex are available for other things. Its not better or worse, just different and equally great.

What is the closest youve come to death? Ive had cancer three times, but never felt close to death except when I walked between parked cars on my street and a car sped past my nose.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? I havent done it yet.

How would you like to be remembered? As someone who left the world around me a little kinder and less hierarchical.

What is the most important lesson life has taught you? To behave as if everything you do matters, because you have no idea which thing might.