#AAAHHH 😓😓😭😭😭😭

[comradekatara]

normally when i engage with fiction i view the events being depicted through the framing the narrative imposes, but because i am so invested in these characters when it comes to atla im legitimately like “i bet sokka was actually really scared when he got stuck in that hole. he’s spent his whole life preparing to die a martyr, and here he has to contend with the fact that he may die a stupid, insignificant death, failing to provide food for his friends while they hone skills he lacks and is further devalued for, hungry and alone. and yet this existential crisis is brushed aside. first, by his own coping mechanism, making jokes to distract himself from his ultimate fear, and secondly, by his friends, who barely give him a minute of their time and cut him off from a rare moment of true sincerity for the sake of admiring aang’s flashy new earthbending skills. the fact that this entire subplot is played for laughs thus becomes even more sick and twisted, as sokka’s greatest fear, that he is truly worthless, is fully realized, and his entire existence is shown to be nothing more than an absurd, frivolous joke, with no punchline but his own insignificance.”

like what is WRONG with me….

#THIS POST WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A JOKE TOO #IT WAS JUST SUPPOSED TO BE THAT ONE SENTENCE AND THEN I KEPT WRITING #AAAHHH 😓😓😭😭😭😭 #sokka #analysis #i guess! #i guess. that is what this is #i rly need to finish that sokka nanami essay fr fr #esp now that i have an utena sideblog too (@saionjeans) (i don’t rly care abt saionji tbh i just love that joke) #anyway. #il faut imaginer sokka heureux #they stuck that boy in a hole for 20 minutes

[cloud-somersault]

Hey, how are you doing? I hope you’re alright. 💕 I’ve been reading your status updates on Constellations and the Epilogue, and I just wanted to let you know that I think you’re amazing. Your writing is incredible and I love it. Your stories are so well thought out and the characters are ✨on point✨, and the plot is complex and detailed and aaahhh! It has me hooked! 🤩

And I understand how it hurts when you put so much effort and love into a story, only to post it and not see others be anywhere near as excited or invested as you are. I know how discouraging it can be. And it may be a little silly, but I do want to apologize for not commenting lately—life took some difficult turns for me healthwise around the end of last year and I haven’t been able to catch up! I’m still on Chapter 4 of Constellations! 😭 BUT Chapter 5 is open on my phone, and I am READY to read it as soon as I have the time (and mental energy, but that’s a whole ‘nother issue 😩). Don’t worry that your writing isn’t enough, or be discouraged if some readers don’t catch hints while others are figuring it all out seemingly too easily. Everybody reads and comprehends stuff differently, and it’s not a sign that your writing is bad if they don’t catch it! Honestly, I’m pretty bad at catching hints the first time I read a story unless they’re pretty darn obvious. I don’t usually notice subtle hints until the second, or third, or even seventh read-through, haha! (on the bright side, rereading stories and rewatching TV shows is always fun!) 😅

I guess what I really wanted to say is… don’t give up hope. Don’t lose your love and enthusiasm for your works, or feel like they aren’t worth writing because others don’t seem interested in them. At the heart of it all… at the end of the day… write because you love to. Because it makes you happy. And know that it doesn’t have to be “perfect”—the main goal should be that you enjoy it. That’s something I’m trying to teach myself, too. 💕

Thank you for taking the time to write this message and send it. I appreciate you're very kind words 💕I'm doing okay, I just had to take a step back for a bit from socials and stuff. I'm gonna keep that up for a while.

Please don't apologize for not commenting or taking your time reading. Your health always comes first, and I'm sorry if I came off as childish or needy, that wasn't my intention. Two things just happened that set me off and the timing of it was incredibly poor 😓

Please take your time reading; none of it is going anywhere, and don't feel obligated to leave comments either. i'm realizing that, even if chapters are short or long, finding the time to finish things is difficult, and everyone lives different lives. And I'm sorry about all the spoilers on this blog, I'll tag that better from now on.

But I really do think I got confused or disjointed in my perceptions; everyone here knows so much because i've been asked questions and given answers and people have interacted, so people following me here have more context than the average ao3 user. But I've kinda been expecting everyone to be on the same page, which will never be true.

I'm also the same way where it takes me a while to pick up on hints. I actually changed my writing style to prevent this. I got tired of reading books in college where you had to dive into every little thing. the hints and clues weren't obvious to me. I decided then that, when I wrote, I wanted things to be bold, obvious, but beautiful. I didn't want to make readers feel like they're missing something. I wanted them to trust that every answer, every clue would be answered in time. I made that promise to myself a decade ago, and being reminded of how different people interpret things just...made me remember.

I take writing really seriously, probably too seriously, but I've been doing it for so long and I love doing it. I want to be good at it. When it feels like I've gone back on that promise to myself, I get frustrated. I think of ways I could've fixed things. But I also remember that those books and those writing styles just weren't for me. I wasn't the target audience.

Sorry to go off on a tangent, but I wanted to explain why I got upset. I still love Constellations and I'm posting it on ao3 out of convenience, really. It's easier to reference and search there in one "Entire Work" than to have 5 documents open. The fact that others can see and read and have fun is a bonus. But I'm committed to telling this story, and I'm gonna finish with a bang.

Thank you, I won't forget why I'm doing this and that my thoughts/feelings come first! 😤I hope your health concerns are taken care of soon. Take it easy, and thanks again! 💕

#ask #this is very kind i'm sorry i worried people i was just REAL upset/mad #but i'm better now. i just needed to take a minute and refocus and remind myself of a few things #we're still chugging along #but seriously thank you for sending this. i'm really glad you like constellations! that means a lot to me #but seriously--health comes first. and DON'T FEEL PRESSURED TO COMMENT!!! 😤 #okay love you bye~ 💕

[uvobreakmylegs]

Hi, I’ve been on tumblr for a long time but never actually sent anyone a message before (anxiety x1000) 😓😮‍💨But I wanted to let you know that I LOVE and appreciate your works. I used to write, stopped for my own reasons. But it’s nice to keep coming back to tumblr and seeing your favs still going strong. I always worry when one of y’all will disappear- hopefully never 😭 I hope you’re up to good trouble!

I guess I wasn’t actually asking anything 😂

aaahhh thank you so much for this message! it was so sweet to read and i'm glad that you like my writing so much❤️❤️❤️ and i don't plan on disappearing anytime soon, so no need to worry about that😁

(and don't worry i also get major anxiety with talking to someone the first time haha)

[domjaehyun]

aaahhh okay lmaoo but honestly felt bc when i got into NCT it literally felt like a full time job 😓 most of my focus goes to them ~ 🧠

RIGHT like there is almost always so much going on in ncity… how am i supposed to work in these conditions AND pay attention to other groups like i think it’s impressive as fuck when ppl manage to stan and actively keep up with more than one group ESP groups that have a lot of members 😭😭😭

#answered #anon #🧠

[jaeyunverse]

yeahh that’s what i meant 😭 AND IT’S FINEE !! but i didn’t request to be part of the taglist through the form so maybe that’s why you missed me :’) after all, asks are more troublesome to sift through,, and it’s fine HAHA just wanted to lyk !!

aaahhh thank you so much for understanding!!! 😓😓😓 and tysm for letting me know too :”)

#jaeyunverse asks #ily-cuz-i