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#Be yer own damn guru
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Denis Diderot...
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fenrislorsrai · 3 years
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30 questions
I was tagged by @ouidamforeman
Rules: Answer 30 questions about yourself and tag 20 others you want to know more about
1. Name/Nickname: Fenris
2. Gender: NOT FOR YOU
3. Star Sign: Aries
4. Height: 5’2″
5. Time: 1:58 pm
6. Birthday: Nuclear accident, but it turned out okay!
7. Favorite bands/groups: Johnny Cash. Le Matos, Beth Orton, Preturbator,  Le Castle Vania, Loop Guru, Lords of Acid. Sarah McLachlan, Florence and the Machine.  A tribe Called Red. my tastes are all over the place.
8. Favorite solo artist: Johnny Cash.  It does not matter what playlist I was making eventually I am like “but why not some Johnny Cash”
9. Song stuck in my head: some goddamn electronic loop. which song? Fuck if I know.
10. Last Movie: I don’t honestly remember. beginning of year was kind of a big blur. I know I watched some. The last one I can clearly remember was Rare Imports. A Finnish horror movie with Santa as a cryptid.
11. Last Show: Star Trek Deep Space 9, which I’m currently rewatching
12. When did I create this blog: April 2012
13. What do I post: Good Omens, Star Trek, my own art, werewolves, hyenas, bats, I like critters. solarpunk stuff.
14. Last thing I Googled: Lesbian labrys flag to show to someone on my phone
15. Other blogs: My art blog which I forget to update is @hconeillart my business on is @rainydaypaperback and I also have @werewolfccg which is werewolves
16. Do I get asks: very rarely!  I occasionally get people asking for help finding textbooks as I can help you do that!  I just rarely publish those publically.
17. Why I chose my URL: I have used this user name for 20+ years.  Back in the days when the internet was fractured into message boards and listservs and various fandom groups had about 6 words each they liked as user named. damn RavenBloodWulf was already taken! what about RavynBludWolf? THAT TOO???  Fenris was one of the popular words in that group, Lorsrai is literally nonsense that look like a foreign word and isn’t. 
18. Following: 199
19. Followers: 888
20. Average hours of sleep: 8-8 1/2 
21. Lucky number: 4? idk
22. Instruments: trumpet.  I haven’t played in years though. I was a band nerd. I was even in the pep band in college. Despite having to play at every football game, I have never, ever figured out the rules. A thing has happened, PLAY LOUD.
23. What am I wearing: jeans, a blue and white striped sweater, and the gayest sneakers. they’re pink and teal neon and sparkley. GAY.
24. Dream job: I own a bookstore. I’m really happy with that. 
25. Dream trip: anything I don’t have to drive at all. fuck you, cars.  I’ve done a bunch of long haul train riding. So maybe the one across Russia.
26. Favorite food: Sweet potatoes. But savory. bake ‘em, fry ‘em, mash ‘e, put ‘em in stew. gimme.
27. Nationality: American
28. Favorite song: Hurt by Johnny Cash
29. Last book I read: Redefining Realness: My Path to Womanhood, Identity, Love, and So Much More by Janet Mock. I’m ALMOST done with The Mushroom at the End of the World: On the Possibility of Life in Capitalist Ruins.
30. Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: Star Trek. Just let me chill in a  post-scarcity environment. I’d probably be doing ecorestoration somewhere.
Valdemar- I’m gay and I like horses. 
Watership Down- I’m aware that barely counts as a differently universe. but a world where we are not alone and there are other species whose gods may be seen just at the edge of the garden... that just gets to me. 
I’m supposed to tag people, but lord, I know a lot of you have anxiety. s’okay, I love you anyway. No tags. I don’t want to put anyone on the spot NOR have anyone feel “why didn’t you tag me?” YER COOL AND I LOVE YOU YOU ANXIOUS MESSES.
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hanneswrites · 5 years
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i found something interesting and we should discover it together
Title: i found something interesting and we should discover it together
Pairings: Hakuba Saguru/Kuroba Kaito/Kudo Shinichi/Hattori Heiji || HakuKaiHeiShin
Rating: T
Word Count: 1.8k
Summary: Private Detective Agency / College AU How did these four boys get together in the first place? Who knows.
Saguru sighed as he rubbed his temples. This case was eating him alive. Three weeks and no lead, no clues, no sign of a witness or a suspect, nothing. There was a knock on his door, a soft knock—Shinichi—before it creaked open to reveal the barely-open eyes of his lover.
“It’s morning, babe, go to bed.” Shinichi said, closing the door. Saguru could hear the shuffling of Shinichi’s slippers going down the hallway to his own office. A smile crept over his features as he made his way out of his own office, down that same hallway, and into their bedroom. Kuroba was already curled up in bed, hogging all of the blankets. He sighed as he climbed into bed and tried to burrow himself under the covers surrounding Kuroba. He shifted a bit to let Saguru in.
“Late night?” Kaito mumbled, wrapping his arms around Saguru’s waist and pulling him closer.
“Of course,” Saguru replied, “I suppose you’ve been asleep for a while.” He kissed Kaito’s forehead. Kaito hummed in response, burying his head into Saguru’s chest,
“Shhhh, sleep.”
A loud crash from the kitchen startled both Kaito and Saguru awake and Saguru was suddenly aware of a warm arm draped over him, overlaying Kaito’s arm as well.
“Shinichi is trying to cook.” Kaito groaned as he disentangled himself from Saguru.  He slipped on a pair of lounge pants – clearly Saguru’s, as they were way too big for Kaito’s hips and pooled around his feet. Saguru moved to get up but was met with a hand on his chest, pushing him back down into the mattress.
“You finish sleeping. You know how you get when you’re sleep deprived. Plus, I think Heiji needs some company.” Kaito gave him a quick peck on the cheek before heading off to the kitchen, presumably to stop whatever atrocity was currently being cooked up by Shinichi.
It all baffled Saguru sometimes: his life now, how domestic they had become, how this crazy dream had become a reality, how well they worked together. How they’d gotten here—it was so far off now it felt like a dream. Part of him understood that they hadn’t always been like this, but it was just so damn hard to imagine the three of them not being an integral part of his life now.
By some stroke of luck, Heiji, Shinichi, Kaito, and he had all ended up at the same university. They had all studied together their first year, bouncing ideas off of each other. Even though not all of them had the same major or coursework, it was helpful. Sophomore year they had gotten an apartment together, for costs, they rationed. They all knew that was a lie, but that didn’t mean they’d admitted it. A large apartment: small bedrooms, one master bedroom, a living room, a kitchen, baths.
Unsurprisingly, Shinichi made the first move – on Heiji – that had been boiling even when Saguru had first met them. Saguru had bitten his tongue and bared the moderately loud moans coming from the master bedroom. He’d also bitten his tongue when he noticed Kuroba grow quieter as the weeks went on. He ignored it for about two weeks exactly before knocking on Kaito’s door in the middle of the night. There was light peeking out from under the door and Kaito had no reason to be up this late. The door cracked open, and Kaito, red-eyed and puffy-faced stood before him.
“Kaito,” Saguru whispered, his voice cracking halfway through, despite himself. He sounded pitiful. “What’s the matter?”
And that was how Kaito had ended up in Saguru’s bed, squeezing the life out of him and soaking the left shoulder of his nightshirt, explaining to him that he liked him, but he was confused because he also liked Shinichi…and Heiji. Saguru comforted him that night; he’d kissed his forehead and told him it was alright, that he felt the same way. But how would they tell the others? Heiji and Shinichi seemed content with what they had already. And Kuroba didn’t want to tell them, he didn’t want to burden what they had.
Saguru and Kaito had become lovers then, comforting each other, loving, settling. And they weren’t secretive about it, like Shinichi and Heiji tried to be. Both of them noticed the shift in the air then, the tense feeling permeating the apartment when they all ate together. It was Heiji that broke the silence this time.
“Ok. We’re all bein’ idiots. We gotta work whatever this is out.” Heiji sat them all down in the living room one fateful Tuesday.
“Work what out, Hattori?” Shinichi said, glaring up at Heiji, who glared back at him.
“Yer bein’ the most stupid. Quiet.” Heiji shushed, sitting down on the couch next to Shinichi, “Shinichi and I have been all jealous this whole time because y’all’ve been all over each other all the time.”
Saguru paused, he took the information in, turned it around in his mind, and almost snickered at him.
“And? Why?” He said. The words came out too bitter and he knew, but he refused to continue.
“And we’ve talked about it,” Heiji had a smile now, only to fall when Shinichi punched his arm, face a bright shade of red. “He likes both of you. I like both of you. We want to ask you if you’d join us.”
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A while later, Saguru woke to Kaito patting his shoulder. Heiji had managed to nearly roll himself off the bed now, his head laying half on the mattress, half off. Saguru caught a fleeting smile on Kuroba’s lips.
“Dinner’s ready,” Kaito said, and Saguru took to the task of waking Heiji.
Spaghetti with Bolognese sat on the table, while little burnt bits of peppers sat discarded next to the stove. Shinichi sat at the dinner table, waiting for the rest of them, a sheepish smile on his face.  Heiji followed them in, still rubbing sleep from his eyes.
“Shinichi,” Heiji yawned, “it smells like you burnt down the kitchen again.” Shinichi chuckled nervously and Kaito burst out laughing.
“He almost did!” Kaito said, “When I got out here he was dozing off on the table and the peppers he was trying to cook had sparks coming from them.” Shinichi blushed, wringing his hands together.
“You’re one to talk, Kaito. You nearly knocked down a load-bearing wall while trying to hang up a shelf.” Heiji snorted, pointing accusingly at Kaito with his fork. Kaito laughed along with him.
“I did do that, didn’t I? But I wasn’t the one who filled the laundry room with bubbles because he overfilled the washing machine and put an entire bottle of dish soap in.” Kaito countered and everyone looked at Saguru, fondly remembering the “Laundry Incident”.
“To be fair, I had never done laundry before. Baaya-san always did it for me.”
“How did you survive living alone freshman year?” Shinichi, who was now halfway done with his second plate, asked.
“I paid my neighbor $50 per week to do it for me.” Saguru answered, gracefully twirling spaghetti around his fork.
“’Guru…..no……no….” Kaito chuckled.
“Hey, Heiji would just let his laundry pile up until Shinichi got tired of it and put them in the wash,” Saguru retorted.
“That was more out of laziness than necessity, to be honest.” Heiji said.
“You did break our first bed though.” Shinichi was smirking now, and that sent Heiji into a full-on denial rant.
“That bed was unstable from the beginning! Also, it wasn’t just me! Saguru had a hand in it as well.” Heiji huffed. Kaito patted him on the leg and smiled.
“Unfortunately, no. Saguru and I were in England when that happened, if you remember. “ Kaito continued, clearing the now empty plates from the table and putting them in the sink.
“Fine, fine.” Heiji laughed, “You got me. I suppose that’s not the worst thing I could have done.”
It was Kaito and Heiji’s turn to do the dishes. They usually tried to avoid this – pairing Heiji and Kaito together and trying to have them do literally anything productive. But tonight seemed to be starting off in the right direction, so Shinichi and Saguru settled down on the couch with the television blaring the local news channel. Fingers intertwined, resting against each other, languidly watching the newscaster freak out over every small piece of news.
“How is Ran doing?” Saguru asked, shifting a bit to let Shinichi lay his head in Saguru’s lap.
“She’s well. She and Sonoko moved in together recently and they’re having all of the ‘living together for the first time’ quarrels. He grabbed Saguru’s hand and placed it on his own forehead, “All the silly little fights, y’know? Ran is going to defend her Master’s thesis soon and she’s pretty stressed about that but I know she’ll be fine.” He closed his eyes as Saguru ran his fingertips slowly through his hair.
“I agree, if anything she’s probably over-prepared, knowing Ran.” Saguru said and Shinichi smiled.
“She really worries too much. Always has. Any updates from your various step-siblings?”
“No, but my dad and step-mom are doing alright. From what I’ve heard from them—” A loud crash resounded from the kitchen, followed by the sound of water hitting the tile floor and a fit of giggling from the two in the kitchen. Saguru sighed and Shinichi kissed the palm of his hand.
“Do you think we should go figure out what they’re doing?” Saguru asked, resting his hand on the side of his lover’s face.
“No. They’ll be fine.” Shinichi said, snuggling into Saguru further. The buzz of the television, the leftover, lingering, smell of dinner, the warmth of each other, it was hard not to lose yourself in it, Saguru thought, his eyes drifting shut.
“—OH DEAR! BREAKING NEWS FOR ALL OF YOU KAITOU KID FANS OUT THERE,” The newscaster nearly shouted, “The thief has released a new riddle and here it is…” Saguru’s eyes fluttered open and he could feel Shinichi shift in his lap, as the newscaster read off the riddle and the day the heist would take place.
“Kuroba—“ Hakuba started,
“Kaito!” Shinichi finished. The laughter in the kitchen stopped.
“Yes?” Kaito called.
“Really? A heist on your birthday? Again???” Shinichi sighed. There was a pause, followed by a guilty, “Nooo.”
“Why?” Saguru asked, pinching the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger.
“Why not?” Kaito called.
“Why didn’t we get a heist note?” Shinichi asked.
“It’s on Heiji’s desk.”
“Of course it is.” Heiji groaned.
“And what’s with this riddle?” Shinichi said, brows furrowed, “It makes literally no sense.”
Kaito burst into the living room, hand on his chest like he’d just been mortally insulted.
“Excuse you. It’s poetic. Ingenious, even.” Kaito scoffed, plopping down onto the couch next to Shinichi’s feet.
“Yeah, yeah. Sure you’re not running out of ideas?” Saguru smiled, running his fingers through Shinichi’s hair once again. As Kaito huffed out a speech about how they were all clearly lacking in knowledge of classic European poetry, Saguru closed his eyes and laid his head back on the couch-back.    
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oddyssea · 5 years
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"I don't know how to not overthink. I just feel lost." The words were said very quietly and she wasn't sure that Karter would even hear them.
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HE RAISES a brow of disbelief before grunting with visible frustration on his face as he RUNS A HAND across his own features and rolls his eyes. HE’S NOT a therapist, he’s not exactly the best at dealing with his problems anyway ( partially why he wonders what possesses her to confide in him ). A breath escapes his lips as he pinches the bridge of his nose.
“Work on it then–––I ain’t got all th’answers y’know. Lost, not LOST, who th’fuck knows?”
HE GROANS, head tilting back as he plucks the cigarette from his lips and blows out the deep drag trying reign back in his own BAD behavior before rubbing his forehead with his forefinger & thumb as he lets out a HEAVY sigh. Almost like he’s offloading WEIGHT from his shoulder before speaking again.
“Dunno what yer expectin’ from me. I ain’t a fuckin’ guru at LIFE. Half th’fuckin’ time m’tryin’ t’get PEOPLE t’stop takin’ POT SHOTS on m’fuckin’ life. An’ so fuckin’ what ‘f ya feel lost? Not everyone needs t’have a fuckin’ purpose, christ. Yer divin’ too damn deep an’ S’STRESSIN’ me th’fuck out.”
HE PAUSES
“This–––see this IS why I don’ fuckin’ like people. They push an’ PROD. Everythin’s some BIG ASS problem. Y’WANNA see real problems? Try gettin’ fuckin’ stabbed an’ havin’ t’run three fuckin’ miles in the god damn JUNGLE t’fuckin’ escape with yer life barely in fuckin’ tact. THAT’S a fuckin’ problem. BUT BEIN’ LOST? That’ll fuckin’ pass. SHIT LIKE THAT linger then goes away. S’HOW IT IS.” 
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