#I just wish there was that gentleness afforded to kids yk?

[littlelykan]

I wish I was treated like I was physically little.

I wish I was greeted with a smile and a kind word by adults who didn't know me. I wish my shyness was seen as cute and not 'weird'. I wish my mistakes were corrected gently and forgiven. I wish I was carried to bed as I grew tired and tucked in with a kiss. I wish that when I grew frustrated and cried it was met with "aww, it's OK" and not sneers and laughter and "why are you acting like a baby? Grow up." I wish that when I got overwhelmed it was understood that I needed some quiet rest and I wasn't pushed to keep going.

I know lots of adults didn't give these graces even when I was physically little, but even the little bit that I got made it just that much easier. I'm still so small in such a big world, and it's just gotten rougher as I got bigger.

#sorry for lowkey venting lol #I just wish there was that gentleness afforded to kids yk? #even grown ups deserve it #sfw agere #sfw age regression

[i-am-kind-of-lost]

oh.my.god

that sounds like a major pain. like i knew being lawyer is a pain i understand but thats a different level of hell than i imagined. i wish you enough strength to get thru it.

idk i love taking pictures of people its fun.....its like im capturing peoples emotions for them to remember and its just neat but yeah i dont like being photographed which result in me having like 1 or 2 over used pictures whenever im asked for it.

it was mausam badal raha hai sick thing.......which i decided wasnt enough so i ate an ice cream and walked in the rain and honestly? i still dont regret. like we didnt evolve so much and build immunity and meds to never eat ice cream and walk in the rain, its like why are you all so against of small amount of joy left in life yk.......yes it was irresponsible i realise that sometimes i wonder how did i survive this long but here we are

it was a annual classes test of all the portion covered and honestly i cried during physics paper but surprisingly did well in it but chem took me down it was overall a decent score but mom didnt think so

about the whatsapp thing i feel like i ranted too much so i will minimize it as much as possible-

*clears throat*

it all started with this discussion where they sent a voice note and said numbers in hindi and i didnt understand which i admit is low key wrong on my behalf as i should know and some cousin younger han me said they dont get it and they were like you all english medium kids dont even know numbers in hindi and just generally making a mountain out of a mole hill and all these grown ass uncles criticising the baby and i was like why are you all pressed that your kids know english when you specifically wanted us to speak in english language only......like you were the ones who sent us to an english medium school so why pissed now yk and they are just a kid you all could have been gentle

and they were like when we were young we didnt have all these gadgets and the english medium schools and you all have and should be glad this doesnt answer the earlier thing i said but then do they ever discuss anything properly?

and i was like of course im glad of all the things ive been provided and im deeply thankful but isnt it the point? like you did it for us cuz you didnt have it i dont get your point like.....what do you wanna say? and we have gadgets cuz our dads and moms can afford it and bought it for us. while i acknowledge that it is a priviledge but like you all bought it for us and you cant get angry at us for using it??!

this is getting kind of long so i'll cut it short cuz yk whatsapp tea is never short

so it went to todays gen to tanishq ad to the dabur ad and it was CHAOS ie- them being misogynistic and homophobic

and i mb called out aunties too so 💀💀 idk i was just pissed and yes i rage quit the group cuz screw ya'lls good morning and shubh ratri texts mornings arent even good because i am awake so

anyways i think ive bored you enough but do lmk what you think and YES I WAS SOOO TIRED OF THE RSS CRAP LIKE OH MY FUCKING GOD FOR GOD'S SAKE STOP

also its nice to have you back too :)

~ 🧁

You never bore me.

We never have discussions over the Dabur Ad. We just pretend homosexuality doesn't exist. We do have lots of discourse about the tanishq ad though. The usual, "Ulta kar ke dikaho tab manenge." You know how it is.

I have, to a great degree lost my ability to read in Hindi. At least fluently. I do plan on buying some short story collections soon. I still remember the numbers because bhosdiwala 89 was always a pain in the ass. And yeah, they are just weird. You obsessed over us going to Private English Convent schools. You reminded us three times a week about how much work you did so that we could go to such schools. Ab kyun ro rahe ho.

I have a sinus thing, I get sick very easily. I am just very nazuk in general. But still ice-cream, is ice-cream, so obviously, I am not going to stop eating that.

I was using a photo from 10th class as the Dp on FB, before I deleted the account. I would love to photograph people and things in general but I just can't take a good picture to save my life.

Hope your mom is not too harsh on you, for the marks. Science hai yaar. Nobody does very well.

Have you joined any coaching?

I saw Sooryavanashi. My brain died. Papa's colleagues had organised the thing, it was a small hall. My ears. The movie was so loud. Also the theatre chairs absorb some sound. In that hall. Fuck. The movie sucked. I get that, it's a masala movie blah, blah, blah. But still, be decent at least. Singham was good because it was not trying to shove propaganda down our throats. Also, it had Prakash Raj, who was basically flawless. There are legit scenes in the movie where they just stop the plot to put out Twitter Bhakt rhetoric. Even if you ignore that, the whole plot in general is so dull and uninspired. The action sequences feel and look stupid.

So, overall horrible experience.

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