#I literally cannot speak to people if I even manange to walk up to them

[chaunceydollz]

But anywaysss my new years resolutions for 2024 are

•To master human anatomy (2nd year in a row😭)

•get a scholarship (full ride, stretched but good to hope.)

•do sims renders (ik how to do them but I’m a big procrastinator.)

•Make one god damn real life friend before I graduate🧍🏾‍♂️

#I haven’t had friends since middle school #but I lost them all before I moved we grew apart #you don’t know how many times I was close to killing my self bc of the depression and isolated breakdowns #I haven’t had one those times since September tho :) #I think it’s because of my trauma of how badly bullied I was #that I can’t approach ppl #I literally cannot speak to people if I even manange to walk up to them #all of the friends I did had all happened because THEY approached ME #It’s only my fault for letting old memories effect how I approach and percieve people #i try to use my disability as an excuse but I know it all comes down to how I present and carry myself.. #I’ve lost the will to care about that a long time ago. #vent #vent post #tw sui vent #new years resolution #happy new year #:)