#I was so obsessed with him when I was 15

[kennethbrangh]

JOHN MALKOVICH in The Portrait of a Lady (1996)

#john malkovich #The Portrait of a Lady #jane campion #I was so obsessed with him when I was 15 #and now guess what #i'm back lmao #I've never seen anyone seduce the screen the way he does #fffffff #gifs*

[lavleyart]

So on my birthday there was a blue supermoon :D i was busy with my gf on that day but now here I am and here is my late bday gift to myself lol. Vaati is the man on the moon XD

Fun fact: Did you know that I started posting my art online on my birthday in 2013? So that means I am now posting my art online for 10 years! And guess what my first ever art post was Vaati naturally.

It all comes together so nicely I love it omg.

#vaati #the legend of zelda #vaati the wind mage #legend of zelda vaati #loz vaati #minish cap #i dont think my 15 year old birthday self would have expected me to still go so strong over him ten years later #she sorted her obsession in as teenage crush and though 'thats normal for my age it will go away' lol #but since when am I normal actually lol #vaati fanart #loz fanart #zelda fanart #minish vaati #blue supermoon

[firstroseofspring]

b’elanna vs her mother at similar ages, plus some sketches!

#my art #star trek voyager #my very first deanna…. my original obsession. if i ever read as much about betazoids as i do klingons we’re all in grave danger #also wrt the first image b'elanna is. 12 years old and as such is about to go emo mode but not quite yet. the girly girl thing is a front #sometime in winter she'll chop her hair off without permission #what do we think? human girl look to fit into the image her father has while he's still around or after to try and get him back? #miral is also a little bookish like b'elanna but on different subjects.... likes to keep to herself naturally but is also loudmouthed and #got told she shared her opinion too often a lot in university. didn't stop her though she speaks up when she thinks (knows) she's right #what did she study? don't ask me my answer changes with the weather #botany....linguistics.....military strategy.....chemistry....... uhmmmm religious studies. or even better the klingon system doesn't have #starfleet equivalents and she spent ages 15-22 doing apprenticeships for a certain (or multiple) disciplines #anyway. #kessik 2352 b'elanna has trouble sitting still for photos until she gets a little older so all the pics from before 7 are of her father #physically holding her so that she won't wander OR off guard shots or super blurry. theres more videos of that time than anything

[hooved]

#phantasy star #phantasy star universe #i was obsessed with these things as a teen ever since i saw them hopping around that one shrine lobby #which they're like. mint green in. i dunno why the one you can put in your room is pink but it's cute too #anyway i never got this item back when i played on xbox 360 but i got it earlier (on a private server). after wanting it for like 15 years #i love him he's so cute....

[toxooz]

omg i literally love wheelbitten as a comic and ur art is amazing

random question but how long have u been drawing as an artist and do u have advice.............

thank uuuu and I've been drawin my ass off since I could hold a pencil and I'm 24 (25 next month) now so this shit wasn't overnight by any means lmfao idk the way i did it was have A Thing that you like drawing and just draw the fuck outa it and eventually you'll get better for sure whether it be the desire to get better at drawing said thing makes you do research and study something to become better at it or just literal muscle memory from drawing said thing so much. I had lil spouts of taking time to get better at specific things like anatomy, shading, ect. by studying it but overall i just subconsciously got better by mentally picking up new things everytime i draw and analyzing the world around me. Even recently i got to see that with drawing tactical gear (that ive never really drawn before and never wanted to draw in my life) soley bc i just REALLY fukkin love Ghost and Konig

i went from being terrified and intimidated of drawing tactical gear (even trying to put a gun in front of it as if that was any better lmfao) it used to be vague as hell and my brain would shut down just trying to look at the references(i remember having a ''shit man am i even gunna be able to draw these characters???'' moment of dread the first time i was drawing Konig pffft) to absolutely loving drawing tactical gear and seeing how much more detailed i can make it with every new drawing, so a complete 180 but that's bc im just totally obsessed with the characters and drawing is how i express that sO thats mainly what i mean by just have a thing that you love and want to draw and the rest should follow with time, patience, and practice. I think it's about training your brain and motivation to pick up on details or a certain way something looks in lighting (or lack thereof) bc my brain is probably wired a certain way after art being like a centerpiece of my development to the point to where drawing is just What I Do and at this point if i dont draw for even a few days i start getting vaguely antsy and fidgety it's crazy lmfao SO idk if this is worded like i need it to but yeah art and the act of drawing can be frustrating as hell but it should be enjoyable and rewarding above all else at the end of the day!

#i drew bc the piece of shit im unfortunately biologically related to drew a lot when we were kids so id just copy her #then i drew winged wolves and dragons and the occasional horse for like 7 years then The Axel obsession started #where i drew axel from kindom hearts literally all the time and had 870000 aus for him where i would draw for all of them #when i tell you the obsession for him was catastrophic u best believe but it kept me drawing like a motherfucker until i made my monster oc #which was around the age of 15 is when i started consistently drawing humanoids #OH YEAH i had a whole lion king phase too in 2011 where i would strictly draw lions all the time and my first record of drawing online was #on the lion king fanart archive (which i still visit to look back its like visiting an old janky friend:') ) #but yeah then my heart was stolen by my ocs and all the potential designs i could make them #and thats where i am now aside from the festering COD masked men obsession boiling over in the corner AHA #so basically latch onto an obsession and pick up that damn pencil #even as a kid if i liked anything the immediate connection was trying to draw it #didnt matter how weird to draw or undrawable it was my ass would be in that notebook bc its the only way i know how to express myself lmfao #this is long as fuck but NOW im out peace skskksk

[boxwinebaddie]

once again, this has nothing to do with anything but i had this massive brainworm abt jer starring in a crimson dawn music video where he can reprise his role as Gone But Not ForThotten Shameless Slut Era Jersey and gets to be a super hot, scary, sexc vampire king that seduces nice boys and turns them into his little vampire thralls ;)

in my head the aesthetic is very punk-rock bram stoker dracula x howl's moving castle, with strong romantic goth esqe energy, lots of catholic religious imagery sex-cept its being totally sacralized by cd.

but anyways, back to vampire king jersey, like...excuse me, jers in the dramatic high waisted riding pants and the frilly, lacey, billowy shirt with the big puff sleeves, open just enough to invite temptation but not enough to let it in...completely dripped out in the big, fancy costume jewelry and little raven rings except they're all gold & dainty, with his long, beautiful, luxuriously bouncy ginger hair falling over his shoulders like fire and lightly billowing in the breeze w/ his tunic???

not to mention the scarlet streams of fake blood dripping from his freckled lips as he smirks at you and licks them!!! HELLLOO!!!!!!!

anyways, i could talk about this for hours, but i just want y'all to know that jersey kyle played that role far too convincingly, made extremely intense, heart-racing, sexually charged eye contact with stan like the entire time and i have this very vivid image in my head of them finally getting to Kiss during this one part of the song bc it was scripted...

and its just them like aggressively making out against a huge coffin or an victorian banquet table with an antique candelabra on it and the director keeps yelling "CUT! CUT! CUT!" but they can't hear anything over the sounds they're making in each other's mouths, breathless gasps, soft shudders, desperate hands everywhere, shirts hung off collarbones, makeup smeared, expensive props fallin all over the floor

anyways, they only needed about 35 seconds of film and at the end, they ended up with 8:23 minutes of footage they didn't need...Slay.

-uncle nina, whose brain is just a super gross girl terrarium for down horrendous nasty boy brain worms

p.s. i think the song tagline goes something like

'they say you are what you eat...'

'and i eat boys' ;)

#nsfwish sorry #i'm sorry about this idk why this was living in my brain #BUT LIKE SEXC EMO MUSIC VIDEO HOWLS MOVING CASTLE BRAM STOKER DRACULA X NANA THE ANIME X HEX GIRLS X ROM GOTH VIBES #im obsessed like i just know that kyle looked good #omg i guess stan was the virigin sacrifice in the music video which is sooo funny like makes sense bestie #i feel him and kyle were serving like opposite vibes and kyles was very like white gold and stans was very like red black #anyways hot boys doing hot boy things i suppose #they are dating btw i could not imagine if they were people would die and by people i mean stan and kyle #who legit made out for 15 minutes that was unserious #when are they dropping the directors cut im tryna see somethin...absolute filth if im honest #i just know so much prop stuff got broken like throwing stan into something omg kyles white shirt had fake blood all over it #ravenstans eye makeup was like halfway down his face which was totally flushed w/ fingers hooked in kyles hair...anyways...can u see it #i think the song is a play off being a maneater or something #re: rm!kyles diet of green salad red wine cherry candy #and boys boys boys ;) #IM COOKIN!!! I SWEAR LET ME COOK!!!

[zincbot]

kiruko heavenly delusion is so transgender to me

#heavenly delusion #(points) you are trans #kiruko i am obsessed with her basically. her SCARS?! HELLO #also maru is so funny he talks like such a teenager. 15 year old of all time #their dynamic is really compelling i like how maru calls her sis and dude and stuff. (dub watcher) #also kiruko is so like. she acts so casually with maru and it's clear they've been travelling for a while #and she tries her best to take care of him and protect him #but she still hides behind that wall of 'its just a job'. when maru clearly wants an older sister #but she doesn't even get it. even as she reassures him she won't leave. she just tries to keep things light always and never takes time to #like #examine their dynamic #cause i think if she did that she'd realize that she wants a brother too #(i am one episode in disclaimer) #also when i say transgender i am leaning transmasc but who knows

[raspberryjellybrains]

magnus is that genre of Teenage Boy that has the frame of a lumberjack but the build of a wet spaghetti noodle. given 5 more years and consistent nutrition he would've been a certified Hunk Of Meat™️ but instead he is stuck looking like a particularly poorly made scarecrow for the rest of eternity. tragic.

#MAGNUS doesnt know this but i am worldly and have a psychic link with this Very Real Person That Exists and do know #alex knows this btw and finds it very funny bc it is #see halfborn is the type of teenage boy who looks like hes 30 by the age of 15 canonically which i am obsessed with btw #that guy is usually a dick but is funny to think about and rotate in your brain #can you tell im in high school. #i am friends with someone of magnus' brand of Guy and he looks so scrunkly and scrawny but can squat an adult human #its a little off-putting tbh bc you look at him and go 'sweet little friend!' and he is but he could also break you in half like a saltine #this is the energy im trying to capture when i draw him btw #its very difficult but i have high hopes #im also friends with the girl version of that kind of guy. she eats croutons for fun and could break your bones #but definitely prefers playing anime character pokemon on discord :) #i love people....... #see my only cool physically traits are that i have almost 360° rotation in both legs and can dislocate my jaw hips and shoulders at will #which is cool and all but i want to pick people up which i cant really do bc im weak as shit :/ #thats really off topic but fun #i like rambling in the notes! #its where i live :-) #anyway #magnus chase #mcga #raspberry rambles

[subarashiihibi]

fun news!!! someone online was selling another one of these for a good price so now i am the proud owner of two of these freaks... i cant wait to get him in the mail.<3

#gerngfngngngn i still need the nui from the kuji so bad... #every time someone lists it it goes out of stock so quickly... #there's a listing online for him and the shizuo rn but its like 200 dlollars so... No way lmfaoooo #but back to this nui omfg i was like so obsessed w it when i was 15/16 #i praised the lord when i found someone selling him and the shizuo for a good price #i have a cute christmas outfit for him too... #i still want the smaller strap versiontoo ...

[metagalacticx]

this is random well not really but i love tyler posey so much he deserves the world and i wish him nothing but the best and i hope that he is always surrounded by people who love him and have his best interests at heart <3333

#tyler posey #he’s so fucking precious #personally i do not cape for celebrities beyond aesthetic reasons but fuck he seems like such a lovely person #idk i feel old i remember looking up to him when i was q5 bc he was so weird and openly loving towards others #like watching bfs stuff was always such a blast because he literally cares so much for everyone and no one ever had anything bad to say #about him #weirdos in this fandom esp on twitter have always been vicious and disgusting in their dislike for whatever prejudiced reason but he #hasn’t changed. at all. #he’s still the same guy i looked up to #obviously i’m obsessed with the character scott mccall but posey as a human being just seems so wonderful #lol my tags ugh i meant when i was 15 not q5 #and bts stuff not bfs stuff #you know what ignore my tags whatever #the point is i just want him to be happy i think he deserves it. #this movie is going to make me so mad i can feel it. but also #it’s him so i can’t wait <3

[frobby]

Mental maturity is going from hating Yukio okumura to loving him

#He's just so- ugh #Literally why is he like that #I know he's 15 but I was 15 and I didn't try to kill anyone #I'm like obsessed with the fact that he pulls a gun on rin and then continues as if that never happened #I really did used to hate him when I was like 13 #I would like get mad when ppl would say he has as much trauma as rin too #I literally don't know why #Now he's a certified fave and I love him even tho he's fucking weird and stupid #I still hold true rin is more attractive than he is tho cuz I think he's ugly and boring #yukio okumura #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist

[the-faultofdaedalus]

every day i think about howard and maria’s deaths in the 2004 draft script

#urge to write mcu x 2004 draft script cinematic universe fic #where they both meet eachother and both start discussing the specifics of their parent’s death #and mcu tony is like. yeah they were assassinated when i was 21 #but i thought it was a car crash because my dad was drunk until a couple years ago #when i also saw video footage of it and learned that someone i considered a friend #had not told me that it was an assassination because his friend was the assassin #unwillingly! but still #and then draft script tony is like. ah. marginally less fucked up than my parents then. #and mcu is just. what do you mean less. #draft script: oh my mom died in a boating accident when i was 15 and driving the boat #and my dad never stopped blaming me for her death. and i also blame myself. #mcu: oh yeah that is fucked up. is.. howard still alive then? #draft: up until last year. when he tried to fund and support an invasion of america #in order to drum up more buisness for his company (which i eas not a part of) #including assassinating the president and also trying to kill me multiple times #so. i killed him to stop that after he killed one of my closest friends. #mcu: … what the fuck #anyways i’m still always thinking about potential im2/future stuff after that script #the possibilities…. so juicy #i’m also so obsessed with a tony who FROM THE START is a good dude who isn’t involved in weapons at all #it’s So. draft script tony my beloved.

[itsva1]

Husbands

Husbands that look like they're being interrogated because it's almost 4 am and I spent my entire day painting walls

#Venting!!!!!!!! #im just venting idk im tired i have gym everyday and gym gives me massive anxiety so yayy #im kinda just making up for lost time specifically cuz it was around people im not comfortable witb #my family i mean #i was so sore when i got done i had to move a shit ton of furniture and i hit my head on a dresser #im just watching timtoks to make myself cry because i haven't properly cried in like 6 months and with my fucking life thats unhealthy :D #my cat died on Christmas eve aswell!!! #anyway yeah husbands #they're literally orbs from a childrens video game i am 15 i am a sophomore this is stupid stupid fuckin penguin i hate him #no i dont i love him #DOMT WVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE ENO BITCH HE HAS SUCH A CHOKEHOLD ON ME #THIS IS THE SECOND TIME IN LIKE 2 YEARS IVE BEEN OBSESSED WITH HIM I LITERALLY THINK ABOUT HIM ALL DAY EVERYDAY #i have issues #i just realized i misspelled emo im so tired im not rewriting that im talking bout mk he matches my other intersts more thats why i love him #one of my favorite childhood movies is interview with the vampire ofc i love him #im gonna eat ramen and prepare myself to lie to the nurse tomorrow cuz im not going to gym #i have the biggest urge to just keep thping if only i had this spark in school i hate my brain bro

[vampiiric]

i loved the new spiderverse but miguel is so funny when you think about it. yes hes sad but the whole reason he's an antagonist at all is that he assumes miles is a good person and gets REALLY mad about it. like hes not wrong but he's very angry about it

#he's a well written antihero imo and i hope we see more of him #like i really love how much he's guided by his past mistake and how he wants to protect people from the guilt he feels #but he's guided by that guilt !! and because he can't undo what he feels he did he wants to prevent it in the future #but he knows people are good and spidermen want to help people. thus why he's mad at miles. because miles doesn't know #so he just.... saves someone. #he doesnt know about canon events or timeline stability or anything he just sees people in need of help and someone who can't #help everyone. so he joins in. and he doesnt even think twice. #and one selfish action from miguel- one he thought would have no consequences- caused all of his guilt and his lashing out. #but miles didn't disrupt anything selfishly. sure hes not perfect hes 15 he wants to be independent. he wants a lot. but he's a kid! #as spider-man though- when he's being spider man instead of miles morales #there's not a selfish bone in his body when someone needs help. he saves someone he's never met just because he could. #i subscribe to the theory that the spot is causing the dimensions to break down instead of canon event disrupton #which informs a lot of my thoughts #but miguel seems to me like someone who is genuinely by all metrics a good person #who does what he thinks is right and if given the chance would sacrifice himself to save the universe he saw dissolve #but that doesnt make him right. that makes him someone who wants to fix something unfixable #who knows he can't #so in trying to 'fix' it by preventing it from ever happening again he becomes so obsessed with it it never leaves him #like we only see a bit of this and i'm extrapolating #and everyones interpretations are gonna be different #but like. he's an effective antihero because he is a good person who thinks that to cause overall good you have to do bad things #which is a really interesting mentality! #and he's someone who has allowed himself to become trapped in guilt. and he's lashing out about it. #honestly i want to see him and earth-42 miles interact. i want to see more earth 42 miles tbh. like that's the same miles! #but his circumstances were so different that he had to grow into someone entirely new. #i hope earth-42 miles gets to do good in his dimension and change things for the better #because. and im not a comics fan so feel free to correct me. #something at least movie miles has is so much passion and dedication to a cause. he's creative and smart #and earth-42 miles. i am entirely confident. has those too!! i want to see him flourish. i want to see him be his best self #thanks for coming to my tag ramble

[cinemaocd]

I tried to screencap it but fucking Criterion channel won't let me but in Ken Russell's The Boyfriend, there's a bit where we see the actor's dressing room/mirror set up and one of the actors has a picture of Charles Laughton pinned up. WE STAN.

#this is also why my son tapped out 15 minutes into the film #he was like: you don't have to interact with theater kids every day like I do #and I was like: well I do on tumblr but that's by choice so FAIR ENOUGH #but it's the way that amateurish acting culture was portrayed in that film that sent him running #and explains why my mom and her friends were fucking obsessed with this play when I was a kid #The Boyfriend

[seri-tonin]

I forgot how much joy akaashi brings me I love him so much

#him and bokuto had me in such a grip back when i was really into haikyuu a couple years ago #and rewatching it now its like. yeah i see why 15 year old me was so obsessed with them dkskfks #seri speaks #akaashiposting