#I'M VV NEW TO TUMBLR AND TO WRITING SO I'M SORRY IF IT'S BAD

[tootyfruities]

answering earlier than expected bc of a random burst of energy? couldn’t be me 🤭 nah but i actually feel kinda sad™️ rn and u make me feel better so here i am 🤞but OMGKEJFJWBFHE WHERE DO I EVEN BEGINNNNN

youcore fr bc you’re so smart and cool bae ugh your mind is everything OMGMGMGMM you got me wanting to jump through the screen to gently hold shin but also gently hold you bc KDNSJDDKDN the storyline fits so well and like,,,, suits him if that makes sense???? i’m absolutely HERE for this letter writing arc and im so fuckin excited you have no idea <3 <3 <3 (might inspire to make more playlists too, just for u <3) even despite all this, I can still feel his dorky and soft self and I JUST

there’s this cute comic from @/loweater of toshi using asl w bakugou and eri and if i can find it i’ll tag you :) OH and his dad being his therapist and all the other details about his family wE LOVE TO SEE IT 🗣🗣🗣 (this moreso relates back to the blog which we’re gonna get into- but i remember you writing abt his (3?)pet cats so just a little idea there for u :>)

last thing darling!! please please please don’t feel pressured to reopen that blog or talk to me constantly. getting a little more personal in 3, 2, 1~ for the longest time when u took your hiatus, i felt so bad and guilty bc I thought I was the reason and I took so much of your time and energy and I admit and apologize for being way more emotionally dependent than I should’ve been. things have changed now and im doing a lot better! i love and care for u vv much so pls don’t beat yourself up over it ok <3

wait no sorry THIS is the last thing I swear 😭 i was actually gonna msg u a couple days ago bc i actually had a dream abt the voicemail thing- long story short,,,,, i think i called shin back the next day, we said hello and i unexpectedly (to him anyway) asked him a question abt his new pet fish…??? OK before u think i’m crazy;;; i think it was smth that he had rambled abt in the voicemail and i was asking abt it just to talk and exist freely before getting into the Other Much Needed To Be Discussed Topics.

okay i went like way overboard im sorry 💀 ily forever my darling mwah <3

I NEVER GOT THE NOTIFICATION FOR THIS IM SO SAD :(

UHM 1) i hope you're ok w me answering this publicly w the more personal info shared, if not lemme know and i will, idk delete this post? that being said! between my own terrible unmotivation and personal issues, plus yes maybe a little bit with the emotional dependence, it just felt hard to keep up with the blog. but you were never, ever ever ever, a Big Bad in my life, never. overwhelming sometimes, yeah(BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR IT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW, OUR FLAWS MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP STRONGER). but when i made the decision to close the blog it was not "riri makes things hard :(" it was, "things are hard and i gotta focus on myself :(". i appreciate and abs accept your apology though you are so cool and i am so so happy knowing that you're doing better <3

a bit of an extension on that;; i'm still deciding whether i wanna reopen the blog tbh. i've got a couple wips on there that i meant to finish but never did, plus small storylines i wanted to pursue thru shin's blogs that i can't exactly emulate thru I Am An Author Writing a Thing when it should be This Is A Guy Writing Stuff On His Tumblr Blog. plus publicly posting my writing is so rewarding to me :}

2) PLEASE DO JUMP THRU THE SCREEN and gently hold me n shin - woahoah we would both love that methinks. grrrr. i love you so much riri. no amount of poetic words can convey how much i love and adore you TRULY. you are a light in my life, i am happy and ready to have room in my life for you again :) <3

3) YOU DREAMED ABT IT AJFNNE. shin getting a fish... that would def clash with his, yes, 3 kitty cats. but also a calm pet that doesn't require love and affection? holy crap i shoulda considered it, that'd be way fitting for them,,, if not for the fact that fish are Slimy and shin likes Fluffy. in an alternate world where cats hadn't already stolen their heart, i can easily imagine shin getting into fish and maybe even lizards. he's got the range~

idk if i'm exactly gonna write what was said in the voicemail cos i wanted to leave that up to your interpretation, and tbh i'm GLAD for that cos your interpretation is great. muahaha

ilyilyily going to check out the mecore link now muah <3

#riri tag omg

[tsuk0mii]

Fate’s Choice

pairings: zhongli x gn!reader

cw. angst, character death, blood, and injury

note: Hello everyone! I’m a new writer and a new user to tumblr so i am vv confused, this my very first fic and i’m still practicing on how to improve it! I struggle with my masterlist as of now but I do have a few fics on hold! I hope you like this fic of mine (╥﹏╥)

"Is this... it..?"

You murmur against the Geo Archon's arms, he shook his head repeatedly, tears pricking at his beautiful amber eyes, you'd always been entranced by those antique jewel-like eyes, shining bright at the night sky and gleam slighly everytime you greet him with a smile, not noticing the faint pink decorating his cheeks. You wanted to laugh at the thought but only ended up groaning at the pain.

"I-It's alright y/n... Just focus on me... Please..?" A tear escaped his eyes as you weakly caressed his damp cheek, you never thought for once that even moving your body would be so difficult, you never knew how much it would hurt, "Ugh- I wish I had more time to be with you Zhongli.."

You coughed up a bit of blood by the end of your sentence but still smiled warmly at him with tears in your eyes, Zhongli looked at you with horror and despair swimming in his amber hues. "Please y/n... Don't go." Your eyes start going blurry and you hear your mother calling for you. Ah yes, my mother… I wonder how my sibling is doing... Your eyes feel heavy at this point, you're just too tired to keep them open. 

"I... I p-promise I'll find you..." He sniffled, the fire burning in his radiant amber eyes turning dull, "No matter how many more years, centuries, or decades it'll take, I-I love you.." He whispered the last part, you lay dumbfounded trying to comprehend what he had just said, but nevertheless let it go, too tired to even think about it.

You smile weakly at his promise, knowing he's still too occupied with his duties to look for you in the future, not being able to hear what he meant. "Mhm, I know you w-will." You smiled at him for one last time, the clouds make the sunrise in Liyue look more beautiful than it usually would. The slow rising of the sun shows how the end of your journey starts with another one, oh, how can it be so beautiful. Sunrises always made you feel warm and fuzzy on the inside, positivity surges through you and you almost forget the fact you're not alone. 

You stare at the sky filled with the warm colors of red, orange, and yellow mixed with the nightly colors of blue, violet, and a light touch of peach. Stars were still twinkling disappearing yet again to space. You feel your body start to go numb as you see small particles flowing from your body. Oh, you're fading, I guess this really is it. "Farewell, Zhongli, my best friend..." And as you fade into the abyss, Zhongli clutched your now dissipating body in his arms, sobbing and whispering many things he wanted to do with you when you'd return. Maybe he never was meant to love, at least not in this timeline.

Reblogs are very much appreciated <3

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