#THANKS FOR THE ASK im rotating them in my brain rapidly

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what's one uncomfortable truth lastborn doesn't want to hear from yuri, trahearne, hæma, and ximone respectively?

oh. oh. vexing and haunting him on a friday night saturday afternoon i see

From Yuri:

That he feels torn between Maguuma/the Silverwastes, Ascalon, and Orr for what he considers “home.” The Lastborn isn’t a complete homebody, but he does feel a strong affection for the landscape that accepted him when nobody else would. I think he feels a little bit of. Hmmmm. Competing envy for Yuri’s fondness of Orr and Ascalon, almost in the way that people expect him to be fussy about Yuri and Trahearne.

He would also never admit this because he would Rather Die than lose his sage-loser-from-the-desert status, but the Lastborn doesn’t know a lot of things about the world outside of his own, and he looks to Yuri to make judgements about it because Yuri has both the experience and heart to give everyone he meets a chance. So if Yuri thinks it’s dogshit, then it’s dogshit… But this sets the Lastborn up for failure when Yuri makes snap judgements that end up contradicting the Lastborn’s script of Yuri-as-unconditional-lover. Yuri DOES have a big heart and that’s his greatest strength, but he is also a human being who has been hurt over and over again, and sometimes this doesn’t reflect well on his ability to assess a situation.

From Trahearne:

Already jumped this hurdle, but all of the stuff the Lastborn projected onto him (being the black sheep of the family, being unable to live up to the Pale Tree’s expectations, being tethered to his Wild Hunt / responsibilities as Firstborn / etc. in a way that he resents) turned out to be wrong or more complicated than meets the eye. The Lastborn felt sincerely betrayed when the one dude he thought might understand him was, in fact, a momma’s boy all along. (but ofc they realize they understand each other better than they thought.)

More presently, the Lastborn craves belonging and doesn’t want to be left behind, and this is why the idea that the people around him love him unconditionally is difficult to believe. If he gets down to it, it’s not really unconditional. If he threw it all away and went back to the Nightmare Court tomorrow, Yuri and Trahearne would be having more of a divorced Caithe moment than a Tiachren moment—their love for him is very strong, but not enough to sway them from all the other things they consider good and right. (Or maybe their love for him is even stronger, because they love him too much to enable him—I think he prefers to self-soothe with this, and uses the other pastability as a bludgeoning instrument on himself.)

From Hæma:

Two roads diverge in a yellow wood.

The possibility that he is the reason Hæma joined the Nightmare Court, because of course he would find a way to ruin someone else’s life, especially someone like him, and especially when he knows better now and never wants anyone else to go through what he went through. It’s the guilt and the shame and the over-analyzing your role in the Situation.

The possibility that Hæma would have joined the Nightmare Court whether or not he was involved in it. Arguably more uncomfortable, because this means the things they have in common are specifically the gnarly and ugly parts that Mary Oliver sent him crawling through the desert to get rid of. No good very icky.

From Ximone:

it’s hard to think of zingers like the others, but I think one of them is that the Lastborn is a newcomer to the extended family of the Pact Commander(s). He doesn’t have 2936277342 stories he can tell about serving in the Pact together or attending the peace summit or hopping the rooftops of Ebonhawke as kids. The gang is very tight-knit, and Ximone in particular is often the glue and the rock keeping everyone grounded, so I think the Lastborn feels a push-pull desire to coax these stories out of them because they’re outrageous and fun, but a mild estrangement because all of the most bonkers yonkers and meaningful shit is behind them (by the time they meet the Lastborn anyway—there’s Interesting Times ahead of them.) He was also previously acting as the only guy who is having a certifiably “”“normal””” one between Yuri and Trahearne. Now Ximone is here, and he has to face the mortifying reality that he’s not the party's only rock, or even the most effective rock, or even that having a little bit of ego about being a rock is unhealthy.

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Pitch Pearl  ATUS AU- Part 3

ahahaha. i finally came back to wite the finale. WOOOO. im still sorry about waiting so long oof.

where we last left off, danny had a dream about phantom, in which he tells him about the creation of the natural portals. he leaves danny, saying that he’ll come running back soon enough. when he wakes up, jazz tells him that sam and tucker have gone missing.

danny takes a second to process that information along with the dream and his brain just shuts down. he goes on autopilot, acting like he didn’t hear a word she just said. jazz tries to snap him out of it to get some sort of reaction but when she actually looks him in the eyes, filled with exhaustion, fear, and helplessness, she realizes that he doesn’t need any more things to worry about and goes to tell their parents not to bother him. 

when she leaves, he blankly goes through the motions as he normally would. just like before this all happened. he checks his phone with slight hope that they may have tried to contact him, but after realizing he spent ten minutes just staring at it, he puts it away and doesn’t check it again. the walk to school is nothing but a stream of consciousness and he doesn’t even really feel awake anymore. everyone is just a blur while his brain refuses to process anything around him. 

he gets to class, looks at his friends’ desks, and notices two cleanly carved DP symbols on them. it makes him start giggling a little, then laughing loudly, before he sinks to the ground crying out of frustration and overload.

a town meeting is called in the middle of school. the missing children line up with the new influx of ghost sightings and they want to check to see if any more kids have gone missing. someone points out the danny got taken last and the two missing children were his friends. others bring up the lunchroom incident and start pestering him with questions, seeking answers. danny waits for his family to quiet everything down before explaining everything from his first day in captivity all the way to last night’s dream. many people want to push the blame onto danny for painting a target on their heads and force him to deal with it on his own while others want to use danny as a bargaining tool to save their lives.

the fentons reject every suggestion and say that the most important thing here to do if to protect the children and find a way to defeat the ghosts now that blocking their way into the human realm is no longer an option. they explain that giving danny up might be a trap if phantom was able to kidnap sam and tucker but didn’t head straight for danny. he is told to safe and not try anything.

the GIW are called in to work on locating one of the portals and storming the ghost zone to rescue the missing children. danny is desperate to help and spends most of his time reliving unwanted memories just to give any form of information that might be helpful. after a while they send him away to try getting back to normal life as he needs a form of distraction. 

at lunch, he is cornered by the other teens who ask if he is really just going to sit there and do nothing. danny is hesitant to lead more children into the ghost zone where they could be hurt, but they are determined and at this point, he is willing to risk it. after stealing a bunch of weapons from his parent's old weaponry vault, he finds a natural portal and opens it. they get sucked into it and arrive in the courtyards of phantom’s keep.

the ectoplasm flooding his system is mildly overwhelming but he pushes through it and begins guiding everyone to the dungeons where they would probably be kept. he notices while navigating that strangely everything is the same as it ws before he left, from to the decor to the guard rotations. when they reach the dungeons, sam and tucker aren’t there. it confuses him. he tries to think about where else phantom could have put them and a small voice whispers, ‘check your old wing’. its actually easier to sneak back to his old wing due to all the times he has snuck in and out of it. while the rest of the group aren’t so used to the routes, following him makes it a lot easier. waiting in the common room of the wing are sam and tucker, posed like lifeless dolls and dressed in clothing uncomfortably similar to what danny once wore, though less extravagant. their skin is pale and lifeless and their eyes are glowing

perched on their heads are silvery circlets. danny motions for the rest of the group to stand behind him. sam and tucker slowly turn to look at them and another battle breaks out.

its obvious from how they are fighting that while they wont strike to kill danny, they dont care about sparing the rest. the group slowly works out a system of one half distracting sam while the other go to hold down tucker and remove the circlet. as soon as it comes off, the glow from his eyes fades and he stills like they pushed his power button. with one less person constantly firing at them, its a lot easier to do the same for sam as she can’t fight them all off. dash and kwan take up carrying the limp, unconscious people and they make off with their battle spoils to the portal. 

danny reopens the portal and makes sure everyone gets through, doing a headcount. when he is sure everyone is accounted for and out of the ghost zone. he thanks them and seals it, locking them in the human realm with him on the other side.  

it takes a while for the group to finally tell someone what happened and they start fearing how to explain to the two dead to the world people who still haven’t woken up yet. they finally fess up when jazz drives by and asks where danny is. they silently just show her sam and tucker and watch the emotions flicker rapidly on he face. in the end she settles on heartache and gives a weak smile, telling them that she’s glad they are back but wishes they could have brought her brother back as well. she is more forgiving when they explain that it was his decision and they didnt have time to stop him before it was too late.

back in the ghost zone, danny stares blankly at the sealed portal, wondering if he should just step through now before its too late. just as he reaches out his hand, he gets pulled in a tight embrace as phantom laughs in his ear. 

“What did I tell you, Starlight. You would come running back into my arms soon enough. Let’s go back home. You’ll find I didn’t change anything when you left. We can go right back to how it used to be before. Like you never ran away from me.”

he stays huddled up in his room for most of the time, only coming out when phantom wants him to accompany him on an errand or when he has to attend meetings with phantom. the faces are familiar. he made a few friends during his captivity and while the circumstances are grim, its pleasant to see them again. 

for starters, clockwork was a common face when danny began getting incredibly homesick. phantom had requested danny be allowed to view the present of his ‘loved ones’ lives and he had spent every moment he could watching them throughout the day and making sure they were fine. clockwork also had hilariously awful puns, though they werent allowed to actually say them anymore after phantom got jealous and forbade them from speaking to danny. danny still carried the one-sided conversations and it seemed to cheer clockwork up from the decree. princess dora, now queen dora, was also a good friend of his, often discussing with him the pain of living with overbearing nobility. she had done a double-take when he approached her and sat him down to calmly ask what happened, though he could see the tension laced through her. after recounting she took a long sip of her tea and looked him in the eyes. she told a seemly random story of her exploring her kingdom and hearing a bard singing about how the mighty dragon princess stole the dragon king’s crown and the mighty dragon queen took her dear brother down. the piercing look in her eyes before she moved to a new topic told him more than enough.

the few moments of reprieve they offered was not enough to outdo the lappet treatment of phantom that allowed for no rejection, but it was something and it was all he could ask for.

sam and tucker wake up finally after being in a coma for two days. after scanning the room filled with their classmates, parents, and the fenton family, they quickly realize the only one not there that should be is danny. sam is the first one to speak, immediately yelling at them for trading them for danny and going off about how they need to go back for him as soon as possible. dash defends them by telling her that its not their fault danny closed the portal before any one of them could drag his skinny self sacrificing ass through it. they cant reopen it without him.

sam quiets down after that and tucker takes out asking all the questions he can think of to find a way to fix this. there has to be a way to reopen the portal.

(a cut back scene to danny interacting with phantom. im not good with writing abuse mixed with love very well so go ahead and use your imaginations okay uwu)

sam and tucker also end up secluding themselves and working nonstop on trying to figure out how to save danny. jazz stops by every day to check on them and pass on homework and anything she hears about the ghosts to them. while they start cleaning up the room to take a break and finish schoolwork, sam trips on a piece of paper and is about to fall. only she is caught in mid-air and surrounded by a neon lime green aura, one similar to danny’s though his is a bluish mint. the aura dissipates and she hits the ground with a soft thud but everything stops as tucker and her look at each other in shock. 

“That was you!”

“That was me!”

homework gets pushed aside again for experimentation and documenting. they might be able to reopen the portal after all.

#im so nice to characters #look at my kindness #arent i so nice #i edited this #less typos this time around owo #sorry there is going to be another part. #there is so much #danny phantom au #Danny Phantom #danny fenton #pitch pearl au #pitch pearl #tw: toxic relationship #tw: brain washing #part 3 #part 4 coming soon promise