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Here Comes a Thought: Gabriel x Female Reader.

ANGST AND SPOILERS FOR SEASON 13

Take a moment to think of just

Flexibility, love, and trust

Take a moment to think of just

Flexibility, love, and trust

Finding out that Gabriel wasn't dead, was a bittersweet moment. Knowing that the charasmatic archangel was alive made you happy, but the state he was in? It was nothing short of heart breaking.

Lips sewn shut, the youngest of the archangel had been tortured for years by Asmodeus. It left the shell of a glorious man for the winchesters and you to help.

You had, ages ago, fallen for the charming yet sad archangel. He confided in you once the fear he had for his family. With brothers who always fought and a father who couldn't have cared any less, Gabriel felt his home was anywhere but home.

Your eyes traced the black writing that was scrawled over the walls. Castiel read out the story of the archangel's life. You couldn't help but keep you (E/C) eyes focused on the trembling archangel. He, in turn, watched you with wide frightened eyes.

You frowned, anger for the Prince of Hell bubbling inside your abdomen.

"Gabe, we have to disinfect your wounds. Your lips are going to get infected." You coaxed, slowly holding out a cotton ball.

Gabriel shook his head with a scared moan, covering his head. He continued to scoot away from you.

You, in response, kneeled down, making yourself smaller, still holding out the cotton ball on the tweezers.

"Gabe, sweetie, I'm going to get a little closer." You said, your voice soft as you approached him.

This seemed to be the last straw for the archangel. You scooted just a bit closer and he snapped, easily overpowering you. He oinned you down, breathing ragged as he held the tweezer at your throat, the sharp ends digging into your neck a bit.

"(Y/N)!" Sam yelled, startling the archangel into realization.

"(Y/N)..." Gabriel muttered, letting the tweezers go, and scooting back to his corner.

"Come on (Y/N), give him some space. You can come back and clean him up later. Lets check those punctures out." Sam placed a hand on your shoulder.

You shrugged him off with a shake of your head. "You wouldn't give up on Dean, or Cass. I'm not giving up on Gabe." You sat up, pulling out a new cotton ball.

You soaked it in the cleaning solution before dabbing it on your own neck.

"See, Gabriel it's okay. It's going to sting, but I promise: there's no more hurt." You said, extending a hand towards the man.

The archangel hesitates before taking your hand. You pull another fresh cotton ball out, and begin to gently dab his wounds. Seeing the bruised puncture holes pissed you off even more. Your other hand curled into an angey fist.

"I'm so sorry Gabriel." Your eyebrows furrowed sadly before you placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.

"I'm here, holler if you need anything. I'll be back tomorrow to check your wounds." You stands up and smile at him before exiting the room.

Here comes a thought

That might alarm you

What someone said

And how it harmed you

Something you did

That failed to be charming

Things that you said are

Suddenly swarming and, oh

Gabriel seemed to be easier to help the next couple of days. He seemed to speak and recover quickly.

With an outfit vhange and even a shower, the old Gabriel shined through the horrible scars left by Asmodeus.

"We can't do this without you Gabriel, we need your help!" Sam let out a frustrated sound.

"Well, sorry. I'm not really a team player." Gabriel says, heading towards the exit of the bunker.

"Dude, seriously?! After all this? You're just going to leave?!" Dean nearly growls out.

You wrap your arms around yourself, Cass reading you easily, comes to comfort you.

"I'd love to, really. But I need to get the hell out of," He's cut off by the geabd entrance of the kentucky fried asshole himself-

Asmodeus .

You're tossed against the wall like a ragdoll, suffocating from the hold the Prince has on you and the boys. Your vision begins to dim and you shoot a pleading glance towards your favorite archangel.

Gabriel's heart hurts at the sight of you, and in a moment of bravery, smites Asmodeus. A confident smirk graces his lips as he then flies away, leaving you panting and frustrated.

You're losing sight

You're losing touch

All these little things seem to matter so much

That they confuse you

That I might lose you

Gabriel asking for revenge was probably the least of your worries. You understood revenge, hell, all of Team Free Will understood it.

You just knew it would leave him more empty than he could even imagine.

However: In order to get the grave needed for the spell, you and the boys eagerly agree to help the archangel for his plot of revenge against Loki and his sons.

Loki selling out Gabriel make your skin crawl. It pissed you off to no end, knowing that someone Gabriel trusted betrayed him so quickly.

Storming the hotel was easy, fighting off the horse-son of a god was less than easy. However between you, Sam and Dean, the young man was quickly disposed of.

Watching Dean run off to meet Loki was a turn, something you hadn't expected. Quickly, Gabriel took off, seeing red, wanting to be the last thing Loki saw.

Hearing flesh torn by wood, you knew the mission had been completed. Gabriel had gotten revenge on everyone who wronged him in the past seven years.

Gabriel seemed okay, honestly more than okay on the outside, however you knew, that couldn't have been the whole truth.

Take a moment remind yourself to

Take a moment and find yourself

Take a moment to ask yourself if

This is how we fall apart?

Back at the bunker, Gabriel headed to his guest room. After a quick debrief with the boys, you went after him, knocking on the door.

"Hey good looking, what can I do for you?" Gabriel asked, a smirk crossing his face.

"How are you feeling Gabe? Truly." You asked, sitting on the edge of his bed.

The vulnerable Gabe you helped heal showed again. The scared man you witnessed was back.

The smirk left his face, a frustrated and sad look crossed his features. You summoned him over. He kneeled between your legs, head finding your lap, and he let how he really feel come out.

Choked sobs left his mouth as he clenched your knees.

But it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay

You've got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear

I'm here, I'm here, I'm here

"How could he? I understand, he was grieving Odin, but, it's not like I killed him! I didn't know Lucifer was going to be there!" He sobbed out.

"I never planned for Odin to get killed, and he went behind my back and sold me out! I trusted him, I thought I had a real family!" Gabriel manages to choke out before sobs overtook him again.

Your hands gently carded through his hair, whispering softly to comfort the archangel.

"It was hell. I was in HELL! I prayed to Dad, to Micheal, Raphy, hell, even Luci. No one came. Dad let me sit there for seven years. He left me, like he left all his other creations." Gabriel eventually calms, letting you stroke his hair.

He eventually stands back up, noticing the time he awkwardly lays in his bed and pats the spot next to him. "Will you, stay the night?" He asked, voice soft.

You mod with a small smile, cuddling up next to the archangel.

Here comes a thought

That might alarm me

What someone said

And how it harmed me

Something I did

That failed to be charming

Things that I said are

Suddenly swarming and, oh

Gabriel, despite being a nearly graceless archangel, didn't need to sleep. However, as he got used to earthly customs, the youngest archangel grew quite fond of sleeping.

However, he didn't realize that in the darkness, Asmodeus and Loki would be back.

Tossing and turning, Gabriel relives the worst time in his long, everlasting life.

It starles you away, and you begin shaking the archangel, trying to wake him.

This doesn't end well for you, and at a moments notice, you are pinned to the wall, archangel blade against your stomach in a threatening manor.

"Gabe?" You breathe out, gently placing your hands on his shoulders.

He gasps, pulling back and hwading towards the opposite corner.

"Gabriel please, don't shut me out." You begged, slowly sliding back into the bed and patting the space next to you.

He shakes his head, and you can't help the tiredness that ebbs your body back into dreamland.

I'm losing sight

I'm losing touch

All these little things seem to matter so much

That they confuse me

That I might lose me

Take a moment remind yourself to

Take a moment and find yourself

Take a moment and ask yourself if

This is how we fall apart?

But it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not, but it's not

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay

I've got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear

I'm here, I'm here, I'm here

When you wake, Gabriel is playing with your hair, his face stained by tears.

"Gabriel, what's wrong?" You cup his face, shifting to face the handsome man.

"I nearly killed you, again. Sugar, you've done nothing but help me and all I do is hurt you. I'm so sorry." He says, tracing your face.

"Gabriel, you have trauma. That's not easy. Trust me, I'm here for it all, the good, bad, and even the ugly. Last night, yeah, you could've killed me, but you didn't! You can't beat yourself up about that. I've already forgiven you. Now, you need to forgive yourself." You cuddle close to him again.

The archangel wraps his arms around you, pulling you close. He kisses your forehead softly.

And it was just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay

We can watch, we can watch, we can watch, we can watch them go by

From here, from here, from here

"(Y/N) wouldn't want me to run anymore Sam. I'm tired of running, this is my family." Gabriel says. "I'll buy some time." He smiles at the behemoth of a man.

Sam nods, watching you exit with the others. Gabriel takes out his archangel blade, ready to fight Micheal.

It really wasn't much of a fight, but it definitely bought the remaining survivors more time. He couldn't help think of you as the blade sinks into his flesh.

He feels his soul leave his body, and his last thought rings loudly.

"Thank you (Y/N), I love you."

On the other side of the rift you waited. You watched as more humans came through but not Gabriel. As the rift begins to flicker ans fade you feel yourself tear up. You watch as Sam comes through and the rift closes.

"S-Sam. Where's Gabriel?" You ask, dear lacing your voice.

"(Y/N) I- He-,"Sam shakes his head, furrowing his beows in frustration and sadness.

Your eyes widen and you collapse to your knees, sobs wracking your body. The first time he doesn't run away, he dies.

You cry out to nothing and nobody in particular. You curse out God, and Castiel has to remove you from the center of the bunker.

You mourn the loss of Gabriel, again. However, you know that its for real this time, he won't come back, and you'll never hold him close again.

Cass does his best to comfort you, but you lau in Gabriel's guest bed, reading his Enochian wall scrawls. You endlessly pray, and eventually you know.

He is nothing but a memory anymore.

He's just a thought.

Take a moment to think of just

Flexibility, love, and trust

Take a moment to think of just

Flexibility, love, and trust.

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