#afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

lil yandere Scaramouche headcanon

note: yandere, implied kidnapped reader, Scaramouche feeding reader

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Sometimes Scaramouche only agrees to acquire your specialty favorite foods if he's allowed to feed you bite by bite.

You'll be completely alone at dinner for once--no servants, no Fatui, everyone is threatened to not enter the room for any reason upon pain of death.

He'll have you sit near the corner of the table, so he can sit on the other side--close enough that you're touching and he doesn't have to reach, but adjusted at an angle so he can watch your face the entire time without having to bend awkwardly over the table.

Whatever it is... a rare cut of meat, a special cake you can only get in your home village, some expensive rich dish that takes hours to prepare... he will feed it to you in small bites.

So you can savor the flavor, he says, if you ask about it.

But the way his cheeks go ruddy and he stammers about it makes it clear. It's so that this exquisite experience will last as long as possible for him.

Just don't bite his fingers when he eventually "accidentally" drops the utensils and has to feed you by hand.

#yandere scaramouche #yandere genshin impact #yandere #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Yandere Overhaul first time having sex headcanons

Title: Yandere Overhaul first time having sex headcanons [Yandere Overhaul x Reader]

Synopsis: Headcanons for yandere Overhaul's first time having sex with reader.

Word count: 1000ish

Notes: Kidnapped reader, dubcon, descriptions of sex, reader is afab

Preparing For Your First Time

Your first-ever kiss was impulsive. It was the first truly intimate skin-to-skin (well, lip-to-lip) contact and it took you both by surprise.

But this? This is not impulsive. This has been put onto his schedule, both the flat calendar he keeps on his desk and on his phone. He has, he says, cleared out the afternoon through tomorrow morning. You’re not sure if that’s flattering or not.

The schedule is not the only thing that’s been pre-planned. 

Overhaul gave you a checklist. Brush your hair. Brush your teeth. Shower–three times. Once to rinse yourself off, another to scrub with soap and rinse. And another scrub and rinse, for good measure. 

He’ll be doing the same, he told you, as if that lessened the feeling of shame. When he saw how your hands trembled holding the list he tilted your chin up with a gloved finger. “You’re not… dirty, darling. But one can never be too careful.  You understand, don’t you?” And you do, of course. So you head into the shower and force away nagging thoughts.

There’s a silky white nightgown waiting for you when you step out of the shower. That doesn’t surprise you: it’s how he prefers you dress at night. What does give you pause is the small vial sitting on top of it… a perfume. A scent you used to like from before. He stopped letting you wear scents when you came here. It’s a gift–one that makes you smile from ear to ear. You put a little behind your ear and relish the scent of it.

Continued:

Your First Time Together

He leads you into the most sacred of places: his bedroom. His bed is just as you imagined it. Black sheets, freshly pressed. Standard pillows in cases that you’re sure are antimicrobial. It would kill the mood, so you don’t ask. 

Your stomach starts to do awful flips as soon as he gently directs you to sit on the bed. Is this the right step forward? What if he hates it? What if you hate it? Are you even supposed to want to do this with him? But to answer that last question would undo the protective web you’ve built up around yourself over so long, and you force it away

Overhaul gently pushes your shoulders down so that you’re propped up on his pillows.

“Stop thinking so much.” Gentle, firm. An order, all the same. “You’ll worry yourself into hysterics.” 

Yes, you will. So you smooth over all the worry and guilt and remind yourself that Overhaul, that Kai knows best. Always. 

Yet that knowledge doesn’t stop the oppressive flutter of your stomach when he crawls on the bed and lifts up the hem of your nightgown. He leaves it on you, bunched up around your hips; the soft fabric tickles your thighs.

He takes off his own clothing, however. You watch as he neatly folds them and places them in a laundry bin against the wall marked DIRTY. A bin next to it is marked CLEAN.

When he returns to the bed, you finally get your first sight of his erection, pressed up against his stomach, covered in the thin clear material of a condom. Your heart hammers. It’s happening, isn’t it? 

It’s then that you notice–he hasn’t removed his gloves. “What about…”  You ask, looking at his hands. 

“I need them,” is what he says, with a tone that means it’s not to be questioned. 

Still, you squeak out a “But–” before he crawls onto the bed and gently pushes your legs open wider.

He ignores your utterance.. A smile is on his face. “You’re so sweet, aren’t you? My angel. Now try to relax, it will make this easier. I know it must be… anxiety-inducing.”

There is some small part of you that wants to snap back. To tell him that you’re not all sweetness and nightgowns,, that you’ve had sex, for fuck’s sake, just not like this. Not with him. Not under these circumstances. 

But that isn’t what Overhaul, what Kai wants, and you don’t want to ruin everything. Really, he’s right, isn’t he? You do think too much. It makes things too complicated.

So you lean your head back and go quiet and he takes that as a sign to begin. His gloved finger goes inside you too quickly, and your breath hitches. 

“Relax,” he says. It makes you think, abruptly, of when he takes you into the clinic. The tone he uses when he’s about to stick you with a needle. Relax, relax, relax.

Another finger begins to rub your clit. It’s meticulous and practiced and feels almost clinical. Your breath begins to stutter on cue, you feel yourself getting warm and wet, but it’s like your mind is blank even as the pleasure builds and builds.

You can feel yourself starting to lose control. Your thighs tremble so much you’re worried he might stop, your breath comes out heavy, and sweat begins to bead at the back of your neck.

You orgasm on his gloved fingers and he lets you ride it out, clenching his digit, before he removes it. He pulls off both gloves (he hides his distaste, at least you think so, and it makes your heart flutter) then tosses them into the DIRTY bin, and leans over to retrieve a clean pair from his nightstand.

Then he’s leaning over you and you finally feel the warm, firm press of his cock lining up against your entrance. 

It hurts at first. Uncomfortable with a dash of pain–you feel  too full, too tight. Enough to make tears prick at your eyes. But not for long. He did prepare you, after all, and it’s not long before the uncomfortable tightness gives way to a more pleasurable friction.

You want him to come undone. To look vulnerable. But he doesn’t, despite his thrusts getting faster, despite him pressing his palms against your wrists to keep you in place as he begins to grunt softly above you. 

“Relax,” he tells you, when he catches you staring. “You’re doing so well for your first time, aren’t you, angel?”

You want to correct him, but you know of the few options you have in a moment like this, it would be the worst one. So you nod and bite down a whimper when he thrusts particularly hard.

He’s in control, even now. Like always. It was silly to think you’d see him come undone above you, even like this. 

He finishes inside and kisses you for the first time during the whole evening during his afterglow. He coos at you, gloved fingers holding your chin, praising you for how well you did. 

After he pulls out, he quickly disposes of the condom in the DIRTY bin, along with his gloves. New ones get snapped on. 

He goes to the bathroom and returns with a clean rag and a bin of water, so that he can clean you up. He tells you to roll over on your side, explaining in calm detail what will happen now. “You’ll be sore,” he says, “and it might feel a little funny. Don’t worry about that. It will pass. It won’t be as strange the next time.” 

All you can do is pretend he’s right and listen to your breath hitch as he wipes you clean. 

You stare at the bins pushed up against his wall.  DIRTY, CLEAN. Which one would he put you into, if he tossed you over?

#yandere overhaul #yandere chisaki kai #yandere bnha #yandere mha #yandere #afterwitch headcanons #afterwitch writes

[after-witch]

How some Hunter x Hunter yanderes would react to you liking & asking to order spicy food

notes: yandere, kidnapped readers, food talk, brought to you by me crying while I ate an extremely spicy dinner and reminding myself that I enjoy it

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Feitan: Finds it surprisingly interesting. He would find the whole "enjoying the endorphin rush from pain" bit fascinating and prod you with questions. Probably grabs your tongue at one point to examine it. One of the few times he might be prone to indulging in you wanting takeout of some kind, once you convince him that you're craving a specific spicy dish. You might find some of your regular food (poorly cooked microwave meals and his occasional concoctions) spiked with pepper extracts because he'd find it funny, though.

Phinks: He finds it concerning, initially. Like, babe?? Are you sure you can handle it??? He generally treats you like a weak silly thing, because that's what you are to him, but... if you keep asking, maybe he'll give in. And the more he thinks about it, the more the act of ordering takeout and sitting to eat it while you watch a movie for dinner seems like the type of thing normal couples do, so he finds it nice that you're actively asking for that. But he'll get a little worried if you start crying or panting while you eat. He probably wouldn't let you do it too much. He'd get pissed if you ordered it super hot and it didn't come that way, even if you insist it's not a big deal. Woe to the restaurant that doesn't deliver the spice.

Uvogin: Oh, it's fun for him! He'll absolutely make it a competition between the two of you to see who can eat the spiciest dish. If you manage to win, he'll rub your head affectionately and maybe you get to pick something fun to do that evening, champ that you are.

Chrollo: He can be snobby about it. He wouldn't want you pouring hot sauce on fancy meals (keep this in mind if you want to piss him off deliberately) or things that aren't traditionally spicy. What, you want to dump ghost pepper sauce on the risotto he had brought in from the hotel's 5-star restaurant? Nope. And he'll give you a lesson on why preserving the traditional flavor is essential. But when he's letting you pick the food and it's something that can be spicy traditionally, like a curry dish, he's fine with it. But he especially would be upset if you asked for something spicy but didn't/couldn't finish it, so you'd have to be mindful of how spicy you get things.

#yandere hunter x hunter #yandere feitan #yandere chrollo #yandere phinks #yandere uvogin #yandere headcanons #afterwitch headcanons #nothing disappoints me more than ordering my curry extra hot and not getting extra hot :(

[after-witch]

Yandere Wanderer x Pregnant Reader headcanons

Yandere Wanderer x Pregnant Reader headcanons

Synopsis: What if yandere Wanderer’s darling become pregnant? 

notes: yandere, possessiveness, manipulation, reader becomes pregnant. 

It’s not an ideal situation, is it, to become pregnant while in the possessive company of the Wanderer?

He doesn’t outright kidnap you. That would be too much a display of emotion, too obvious a symptom of his need.

Instead, he keeps you with him through manipulation, taking you on journeys you could not hope to traverse safely alone; you’ll just have to stick by his side, won’t you?

The pregnancy is unplanned. He doesn’t believe it at first. 

But the symptoms begin to appear. You begin to express your concern. You want to find a physician. He waves it off; you’re fine, he can take care of your random bouts of sickness, and you’re just tired because you’re not used to living on the road.

But then you begin to show and it’s impossible to deny any longer. And it’s an awful situation for him. He’s going to be a father? He’s taken on so many roles, but that was never one he anticipated filling. There’s the loss of your undivided attention to consider, as well.

He’s greedy. He can’t help it. He should be greedy, considering his history. If people want to judge him for it, well, they can go right ahead. 

Part of him wonders if you might be persuaded to leave the baby with someone… a child is not fit for the life of a Wanderer and his companion, is it? 

But as the pair of you continue your journey, with you going slower, needing his help more often, asking him to cuddle beside you to keep you warm, he begins to reconsider.

If you were to have his child, there’s no need for precarious journeys meant to keep you at his side. You’d be bound to him, to care for the child; and so that he can care for the both of you.

His acceptance is never verbalized. But one day, while you’re sitting in front of the fire he generously started for your benefit, he’ll reach over and place his hand on  your stomach. And that’s enough to know. 

#yandere wanderer #yandere scaramouche #yandere genshin impact #afterwitch headcanons #yandere

[after-witch]

Yandere Feitan headcanons

Yandere Feitan Headcanons

notes: yandere, kidnapped reader, non-graphic torture mentions

Wants to know absolutely everything about you, down to the last detail. If possible, he will break into your home, steal your personal items, he’d even grab your diaries and read them through, if you write them.

What information he can’t get on his own, he gets from you. What, don’t feel like telling him all your secrets, deepest fears, greatest humiliations? He knows how to get them out of you. He might even view it as a satisfying bonding exercise, to torture it out of you. That way, you get to know him while he gets to know you. What a privilege. You should be grateful, really.

At the same time… who you were before you met him doesn’t matter, unless he wants it to matter. 

Friends, family? Only matter if he can use them as leverage. He has no patience for you asking about them or heaven forbid, asking to see them.

Hobbies, interest? Only matter if he wants you to indulge in them. He has a soft spot for hobbies that you can do quietly and on your own, like reading or drawing, because he can simply sit in the same room as you while you do them.

Even if he looks like he’s not paying attention, he absolutely is; to the way your face scrunches up when you get to a good part in the book, or the way your finger twitches in a certain way while you draw. 

Every detail he can get from you or about you is precious and something he greedily keeps to himself from now on.

It can sometimes pay off, if he’s in a generous mood. Maybe you find a book dropped in your lap--the newest book in a series you read and loved. Or your colored pencils are worn to nubs and one day you open your box to find a new set. 

He wants you to be grateful for these things (because very, very few could ever find themselves on the other end of Feitan’s good graces) but it’s a fine line to walk. If you seem ungrateful, he’s hurt (and pissed); if you’re too grateful, it irritates him, you’re too clingy, you’re too much.

Best learn how to read him as well as he can read you. 

#yandere feitan #yandere hunter x hunter #yandere #yandere headcanons #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Yandere Sephiroth Headcanons [Great Triumphal Arch follow up]

Yandere Sephiroth Headcanons [Great Triumphal Arch follow up]

notes: yandere, reader has unwanted pregnancy; FF7R-verse

He let you go. That was the first blow--that he let you go. They didn’t come rescue you in some big, bold, world-altering mission, guns and blades at the ready. He simply let you go in the right place at the right time, and you stumbled back into the group, dazed and bruised.

It wasn’t like they didn’t make a fuss over you. There were tears and smiles and hugs that made you wince. You were healed up, Aerith’s soft hands and soft smile did as much as they could.

But something in their eyes keeps all of your nerves on edge. It wasn’t anything overt, nothing you could call out bold and square and get to the bottom with no frills and fuss.

It was the way they didn’t quite meet your eyes when they spoke to you; the way that Aerith kept looking at you with a painfully concerned expression; the way that Cloud avoided you most of all.

Finally, the tension snaps and you spit out the question while you’re all sitting inside an abandoned tavern-turned-hideout-for-the-moment. “What did I do? Why are you all acting like this?” 

Everyone looks at each other until Aerith puts a hand on Cloud’s shoulder and approaches you. Tifa moves to stop her, and you almost hope she does--but she steps back, allowing Aerith to crouch in front of you. 

“You’re pregnant,” Aerith says, voice even and calm, even though her eyes betray a sense of worry and fear. You can’t blame her, but it hurts, all the same. 

You say nothing. What could you say? What should you say? 

She stares at you for a moment, until her eyes widen and it’s not until Cloud speaks that you realize why her expression changed. 

“You knew,” he says. “You knew you were pregnant this whole time.”

He turns around and leaves. No one goes after him. 

It’s even worse, after that--the avoidance. The soft words. The glances. The whispers at night that you can only get in snatches--what are they going to do with you? 

As you lie awake on your sleeping bag, his words echo in your head, and you can’t tell if you’re actually hearing them or if they’re just a memory.

“Do you think you can belong to anyone but me now?”

#yandere final fantasy #yandere final fantasy 7 #yandere sephiroth #yandere headcanons #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Do you, perhaps, have any remnants thoughts you'd like to share 👁️👁️

(i never see anyone talk about them I'm so glad there's someone out there that also loves them)

I do! Have a few jumbled thoughts in no particular order because I am in my pajamas and almost on the way to bed:

Woe to anyone who catches the eye of one of the Remnants... because in one way or another, you now belong to all three of them.

Either because all three think they are in love with you, or because one of them does, and the other two now obligingly view you as their "sister" by proxy of their brother's desire to keep you forever.

It is extremely impossible to escape from any of them, because of the aforementioned thought. If all three love you, well, heaven knows there's no way any of them will let you go. But if not, the other two will keep an eye on you, making sure you don't break their brother's heart (and/or trust, depending on which Remnant has taking a liking to you) by trying to run.

Of the three... Loz would probably be the most tolerable, at least in terms of your living situation. Because he's the most naive and almost childish at times. He wouldn't try to manipulate you intentionally, he wouldn't be prone to punishments or any sort of longterm "plans" for you. He just likes you... he thinks you look nice, the way you talk to him is nice, he wants to hold you and keep you. You might get hurt, but it would be mostly unintentional... he plays a little rough sometimes.

Yazoo would be very manipulative--the most psychologically dangerous of the three. Because he thinks three steps ahead, and knows what makes people tick. He knows exactly how to punish, push, pull, etc, you to get you to behave in the way that he wants. He would use physical punishment if necessary, but leans towards psychological... it's more longlasting, in his opinion.

Kadaj would also be manipulative, but in a slightly more childish, almost dangerous way. He's got major complexes related to Sephiroth and Mother and inadequacy, and that would translate to how he interacts with someone he's obsessed with. He would want to feel needed, like you want him. And any inklings that you don't want him are going to set him off.

I used to think Kadaj might kill a darling, but I don't know, I view him in a different way nowadays... not quite as violent, but still dangerous to be around.

#yandere final fantasy #yandere final fantasy 7 #yandere kadaj #yandere yazoo #yandere loz #yandere #afterwitch writes #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Yandere Wolfwood (Trigun) + Alphabet (D, V) headcanons

Yandere Wolfwood + Alphabet (D, V) headcanons

notes: yandere, kidnapping, toxic behavior

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will

He would make you take care of yourself, if you started withdrawing--not eating much or at all, not showering or taking care of yourself. He has a very practical, and condescending, attitude towards it. “You don’t know how lucky you got it.” 

He would lean into pointing out how many people on Gunsmoke have no home, no food, no water. How many people die with sand in their lungs as they desperately try to find shelter and comfort and the basic necessities of survival. You should be happy you have all those things. You should be happy he can give you all those things.

He knows it’s hypocritical. But he views it as you not being cut out for the ruthlessness of the world. And if he’s got to treat you like a little kid, shoving spoons in your mouth or holding you down to scrub you up? Well, then that’s what he’s going to do. 

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

Not many. It would have to be a weakness related to his dealings with others, like the Gung-Ho Guns, Vash, or even Knives himself.

You might be able to wait for a moment when he has to keep you locked up alone while he goes off to deal with them. Because he won’t, as far as he’s able, let them know you exist or knowingly put you in any of their paths. 

He won’t tie you up so you can’t move… you still need to eat, drink water, and go to the bathroom. So he’ll probably lock up the house as best he can. Boarding up the windows, maybe even bricking up the door. 

You would need to be crafty or very strong (or a combination of both) but you might be able to escape in the moments when you’re alone, solely because he doesn’t want to put you in the path of any of these “bigger fish” living on Gunsmoke. 

#yandere trigun #yandere wolfwood #yandere #yandere headcanons #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Yandere Yoimiya headcanons

Yandere Yoimiya headanons

Synopsis: What if yandere Yoimiya fell for a darling with a child? 

notes: yandere, reader has a child, manipulation

You’re new to the area, only staying temporarily while you work a seasonal job created by your employer. But as you moved there in the weeks leading up to the Summer Festival, you almost feel like you’ve known Yoimiya for ages. Everyone sings her praises, and the glimpses you’ve caught of her around town always yield a sunny young woman surrounded by people who can’t help but smile in her presence.

You end up being one of them. It began the day your son lost the grip on his favorite ball, and it went rolling precariously down the street, landing softly against her shoes. She’d picked the ball up, eyed its source--your wide-eyed son--and smiled brightly before handing it back.

How quickly your connection went from “waving to the nice lady who helped your son on the street” to “meeting for lunch and dinner and taking long, but often interrupted, walks in the evening.”

She’s so good with your son, too. She gets down on his level, she knows how to play and have fun. Your son loves her and you… you do, too. She’s so full of energy and sweetness, so willing to lend a hand or offer a smile. 

The days leading up to the festival are bittersweet. You haven’t told her, but your job is meant to end afterwards. You’ll have to leave: you can’t afford to stay here on your salary. 

Finally, one evening, while you’re enjoying tea and watching the glittering stars together as she details the upcoming festival plans, you confess your temporary stay in her life.

She’s sad. Her grinning smile fades. She asks if there’s any way you can stay. You shrug. “Not unless my employer suddenly makes this position permanent.”

She hums and finishes her tea. She kisses you goodbye that night, same as always. 

The next morning, you receive word that your temporary position has been made permanent, on the condition that you stay in the area for the duration of your employment. If you attempt to move without approval, you’ll be fired. 

Yoimiya is overjoyed when you tell her. She offers to put together some celebratory fireworks--or a special party to celebrate your new permanent home.

You don’t need to know that she pulled strings, thanks to her much-beloved status as the Queen of the Summer Festival, to keep you there. 

#yandere yoimiya #yandere genshin impact #yandere headcanons #afterwitch headcanons #yandere

[after-witch]

Hiya! I just wanted to pop in say I love how you portray feitan in all his sadistic glory. I binged hxh for the first time this past week and was wondering what your thoughts on how he would punish or reward his darling?

thank you! Feitan is the worst, I love him.

As far as punishments, I mean, he'll hurt you. Not enough to kill you, not enough to do permanent serious damage (some arthritis from broken fingers years down the line doesn't count as serious, you can handle it).

He is extremely in tune with how much the human body can take, so he is excellent at never going past a line that he doesn't think he can pull you back from in the end. That doesn't mean it won't be a horrible experience, though.

He might also restrict your food intake, or chain you up in uncomfortable positions for extended periods of time.

He probably wouldn't vocalize it, but in his mind, when you're experiencing a punishment you should be contrasting that against his normal behavior. He's so awful, huh? Well, what about now?

As far as rewards... I feel like they're very simple things, usually literal objects, things his darling might want. A new book. A movie they wanted. A piece of cake. A night sitting outside, so you can watch fireflies.

He's also surprisingly prickly about the response to his gifts, so, his darling should be appreciative even if it ends up not being something they like.

Also he likes patting his darling's head. A lil pat pat on your head. As a treat.

#yandere feitan #yandere hunter x hunter #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Yandere L x Reader Headcanons (Flower edition)

Yandere L x Reader Headcanons (Flower edition) 

Synopsis: Yandere L x Reader Headcanons (based on previous reblogged prompt list by @ddarker-dreams!) Commissioned piece.

Word count: 4176

notes: yandere, kidnapped reader, mentions of abuse/potential self-harm/general kidnapping-related scenarios

Hydrangea - How would this yandere react if their darling gave them affection? What is their internal thought process like?

L is incredibly analytical. Everything that you do and say is constantly pulsing through his mind so that he can use it to determine likely outcomes and potential futures. What is the likelihood of you returning his affections under X, Y, Z circumstances? How more likely are you to acclimate to your situation if he allows for certain variables? And so on.

If you were to give him affection, that analytical process will go right into overdrive.

He would ask himself:

Why are you giving me affection?

He knows that there are a lot of possible answers and he considers each one carefully.

Is it because you’re feeling isolated and lonely, and the only presentable solution is to seek affection from the only human being (aside from Watari, sometimes) in your vicinity for the foreseeable future?

Is it because you’re trying to lull him into letting his guard down so that you can execute some escape plan?

Is it because you’re feeling sad about something in particular, such as a reminder about your past, a physical ailment, growing depression, perhaps?

Is it because you’ve grown fond of him, and now that you’re acclimated to your situation, you’re letting yourself consider the possibility of taking your relationship (such as it is) to a higher level?

These are just a few of the scenarios that will run through his mind. He wants to know the what, how, who, where, and why of your behavior.

However… that mental analysis would only come after his inherent primal immediate reaction, which would be tensing up and feeling like his brain has shut down entirely for several seconds as he takes in what’s happening. You’re being affectionate… with him. You’re touching him. You’re so close to him, and you’re not asleep or flinching away. It’s mind-blowing.

Once that initial shock wears off, he finds time to think, and the first thing he will think is: This is fascinating. Your affection creates a warm feeling. Something physiological, no doubt, but there’s a deeper emotional side to it that is surprising to him. You make him feel lighter. You make him feel nice. You make him feel fuzzy.

And then once he has had time to physically mentally and process your affection, it’s time to start thinking about all those little whos and whats and whys and hows.

His reaction will also depend on the type of affection being given.

Is it a small gesture, such as a smile, a kind word (“thank you” spoken without derision) or perhaps brushing against his hand while the pair of you watch a movie on the couch? His reaction will be softer, both internally and externally. Still pleasant, of course, assuming that he finds your behavior is genuine.

Is it something much more significant--a kiss, a hug, an invitation to a make out session? Then his brain will experience that 3-second shut-off before he comes back to his senses and begins running a mental rundown of what you’re doing, why you might be doing it, and what he needs to do in response.

The end result of that analysis affects his thought process significantly.

If he feels that your affection is genuine, you’ll see a surprisingly intimate side of L. You might see a pink tint to his cheeks. He might not say much in response. He might close his eyes and lean in for more, if you’ve kissed him. He might rub his thumb over your cheek or your lips and take in your face, your expression, the soft wisp of your breath on his face. He’ll savor it all and keep it to his memory, just in case you decide it was a mistake and retreat back into your emotional shell in the near future.

If he thinks you’re being genuine, then you might find yourself with rewards. He won’t tell you that they’re rewards--he’s not so base. But you might find after you snuggle up close to him during a movie night on the couch, he’s purchased the next volume in a book series you’re reading and left it on your nightstand. You might find that a few days after you willingly kiss him for the first time, he lets you open the windows and get some fresh air and sunlight; perhaps he’ll even let you sit out on a private balcony for a few minutes.

The caveat: once you start to give him affection willingly, he wants to experience it on a regular basis. He can be greedy, and demanding your affection is no exception to that rule. He might start playing around with different types of affections himself, to see what works and what doesn’t. How do you react when he slips his tongue inside your mouth during a kiss? What if he places his hand on the small of your back, or gently holds your chin in his hands? So many options, so many potential outcomes. All very interesting to him.

BUT.

If he feels that your affection is a ruse meant to help you with some sort of escape plan, well… he’ll still enjoy it on a physical level. There’s no doubt about that. A kiss is a kiss, touch is touch, it’s still a physiological connection between the two of you. But he won’t get that mental softness, the warm satisfaction, and it will bother him.

It doesn’t bother him that you’re trying to escape, he knows enough that it’s a natural enough reaction and can punish it accordingly when you attempt to go ahead with it. But he finds that it doesn’t feel good to receive your affection when it’s given under duplicitous means. It bruises his ego and it’s hurtful. There’s a petty stinging feeling that comes along with it, and he’ll be annoyed at the contrast between the physical pleasure and the emotional crash.

In this case, he decides to teach you a lesson. He won’t tell you that he knows you’re full of shit, no. That would be easy. Instead, he’ll tease you. He’ll want to see if he can push you further, and how far he can push you, before you give up and he gets to work on tormenting you with his words.

Perhaps if you kiss him, trying to get him distracted while you reach for the keys kept in his pocket, he’ll begin to plant exaggerated sloppy kisses on your lips. If you pull away, he’s won. If you won’t, well, he can still grab your wrist just as it sneaks into his pocket and wait for you to pull back in horrified realization of what you got caught doing.

L is a sarcastic bastard, and you’ll get the full brunt of his snark if his ego is bruised and his feelings get hurt. Once you’re caught out, he might say something like, “Ah, I had calculated that you would be willing to use your body in an attempt to escape, but I was sure that you would be above such a base method of deception…” Then look you up and down with a completely judgemental look before continuing: “I guess I was wrong.”

He manages to turn his hurt around on you, if your affection isn’t real.

If it is genuine affection, whether it’s given because you’re so touch-starved that you’re willing to cuddle your kidnapper or because you’re genuinely falling for him under very fucked up circumstances, then you’ll find your living situation a bit more pleasant. You’ll have more to do. Perhaps a bit more freedom, like a bit of fresh air now and then, though they are hardly freedoms when they’re given exclusively with L’s express permission. But you’ll take what you can get.

Primrose - In the yandere’s ideal world, what would their relationship with their darling be like?

L isn’t entirely sure of this. In most cases, he kidnaps his darling because of external factors. You’ll be kidnapped if he’s finishing up a case in the area and he wants to take you with him;  you’ll be kidnapped if he worries that his interest in you might be uncovered, particularly if it involves something serious like the Kira case; and so on. So he kidnaps you after he becomes obsessed, but before he can really decide what he wants with you.

Ideally, he wants you to accept being with him. He knows that much. He wants you to still be  “you,” even though you’re being kept in a secure location with a kidnapper who is probably a complete stranger or at best, an acquaintance you met a handful of times before.

He wants you to be willing to talk with him, not just barbs or pleas to let go, but normal conversations. Deep conversations. Talks about philosophy and culture and morality.

L knows that it will be difficult to preserve your real personality under these unusual circumstances. He’ll do his best, though, and he hopes you will, too.

Snapdragon - What is the darling’s day-to-day life like? Does it depend on how they’ve been acting, or is it always the same?

Your day to day life is probably boring, especially once you move past the initial shock and terror of being kidnapped.

You won’t have much to do while L is working on cases, whether he’s home or not. If he’s working from the location you’ve been taken to, he will want you close by while he works. You can read if you’ve been given books, or draw and write if you’ve earned pens and paper. He might also toss puzzles or crosswords your way, but it can be a bit insufferable because he likes to stare you down if you look like you’re having trouble with them--it’s very patronizing.

If he’s gone, you have a few more options for entertainment. Once you’re behaving acceptably enough--not trying to escape, earning the privilege of roaming the place instead of being tied up--you can watch TV or engage in reading, drawing, etc while he’s gone.

He would only drastically alter your day-to-day life under a few circumstances: if you’re behaving in a violent manner towards him or yourself, if you try to escape, or if say or do something that crosses a certain line (such as threatening to expose his real identity, if you’ve been trusted with it, or just being unpleasant as hell towards him).

In that case, he takes away privileges. No books or things to do. No television. If you try to escape, you’re getting tied up for a long period of time, only let loose to go to the bathroom or so he can move you back to the bedroom at night.  

Hyacinth - How good is this yandere at getting their darling on their side by twisting their words/justifying their actions? If they’re not good at it, why is that?

It depends on how malleable you are and what he’s trying to justify. L is incredibly good at psychological manipulation, but there’s only so much he can do.

He wouldn’t be able to convince most people that he kidnapped them for their own good without engaging in more interrogation-based techniques. Think what he does with Misa, but on a more self-serving scale. Psychological torture designed to make you think he was protecting you on some level.

But he wouldn’t resort to something like that unless it was an extreme circumstance, though; unless you were some wild and totally untameable thing that wouldn’t get psychologically broken down with a more ordinary, quiet kidnapping scenario.

In an ordinary kidnapped scenario, one where you’re shocked but know it’s pointless to try to go feral and fight back, you’ll be consonantly dealing with L’s justifications for his actions--should you keep bringing them up, anyway. You’ll find that you have less and less desire to contradict him on these points, because it’s so tiring to deal with his repeated, calm, thoughtful explanations.

If you complain about never being allowed outside, he’ll run down the dangers associated with being spotted with him; the potential that you’d be kidnapped by someone who didn’t care for you, someone who would hurt you, probably in horrible ways you couldn’t even imagine. And so your complaints start to die down, because you’d rather not be told (again) about the torture methods that someone who kidnapped you in order to get at L would use.

If you complain about him kidnapping you in general, he might ask you to consider your treatment. Are you comfortable? Are you warm? Do you get enough to eat? Does he provide you with things to do? Does he yell at you, or hurt you? And you’re forced to affirm that yes you’re treated well (considering); no he doesn’t hurt you, yes he feeds you, no he doesn’t yell…

It wears on  you after a while. And you’ll find that it’s better to just keep quiet and accept it than challenge him.

Rose - Does this yandere indulge much about themselves to their darling? Does it depend on if their darling were to ask? Or are they secretive and closed off?

He might. If L feels that there is a very low probability that you’re ever going to escape him, then he’s more willing to open up with you. He finds it thrilling. There’s only a handful of people in the world who know so much about them, and now you’re one of them.

He might use it to manipulate you as well. If you lash out at him, he’ll remind you of something he told you about his past, something that made your expression twist in a little sympathy. He can twist at your innate empathy until you’re the one feeling bad for him, even though he’s your literal kidnapper.

Lime blossom - Does the yandere’s feelings for their darling fall more under “love” or lust?

Closer to love. L is not a very sexual being. He has base needs, of course, but he wasn’t attracted to you to the point of obsession, stalking and then kidnapping because he wants to fuck you. If that was the case, he’d buy a sex doll or hire someone for their services.

No, there’s something more to you. He wants to build a deeper connection between the two of you, one that must unfortunately start with your forcible kidnapping. But it’s fine, he will tell himself, because he’s interested in knowing you–knowing everything about you, every little detail that he can explore and analyze and if necessary, exploit in order to build the bridge between you and him. 

Cypress - How does this yandere comfort their upset darling?

Comfort can be difficult for L, because his instinctive reaction is to be snarky and not react to things seriously, and that won’t always be received well. He’s a shit lord, and it shows.

Sometimes the snark might be comforting, in a roundabout way. You might be crying your eyes out because of a realization that you’re never getting out of here and L might quirk his head and ask you if you’re crying because you’re on your period, as it has been--by his calculations--about 4 weeks since your last menstrual cycle. He says all this in a tone so serious that you end up laughing at the sheer ridiculousness and audacity of it all. You’ll never know if he was intentionally trying to get you to laugh or not, and somehow that makes it more absurd and hilarious.

He can be more comforting if you aren’t acting out violently or too harshly. He deals much better with sadness than he does anger, rage, or terror.

For instance, if you’re sad and pouty all morning, eyes brimming with tears, he might put on your favorite movie or make some tea or simply let you be alone for a while. If you’ve been affectionate with him, then he’ll also consider sitting down by you and silently offering his shoulder to cry on. He doesn’t initiate affection much on his own, but if you need to weep into his arms, he’ll be happy to oblige.

He’s also surprisingly good at taking care of you when you’re sick. Perhaps it’s the fact that you’re too weak to do anything but accept his attention, but he’ll stamp down his inherent snark as much as he can. He’ll soothe your forehead with a cold cloth, make sure you’re covered up, get you all the right “sick” foods.

But you’ll have to steel your nerves a bit, because even if he actively tries to avoid such behavior (and he often doesn’t) inevitably he’s going to say something that’s so casually blunt and stinging that your feelings will be hurt.

Chestnut - Would this yandere care about their darling’s past romantic relationships? If not, then why is that?

To an extent. He would only care as far as analyzing your past relationships for information that is useful to him. What type of partners did you seek out? Are you a virgin? How long were you together? Why did you bring up?

In his mind, you’re never leaving him. So there’s no need to really care about your past relationships, is there? Yet if you were to continually bring up a past lover--let’s say you were still dating them when L kidnapped you--then he might casually drop a threat. You might be sitting quietly reading a book and L will ask if you knew how long the prison sentence was for a certain offense. You’ll shrug, say you don’t know, and ask why. And he’ll offer up one of his little smirks and mention that he thought he heard your former lover was being accused of such a thing… he was going to investigate it himself, since you’re so keen on remembering him.

You’ll never say another word about them, after that.

Peony - How shameless is this yandere? Do they care about their public image and or private image, and how does that affect how they treat their darling?

Since the only one who explicitly knows about you is Watari, he doesn’t really need to worry about his public image. Watari doesn’t like what he’s done, but he’s not going to do anything about it, either.

L wouldn’t care about his public image, even if he did need to worry. The man has no shame in regards to his behavior. Now, he’s not going to flaunt you around or anything--for one, it’s a security risk, but more importantly, he wants you isolated and kept with him and only him as much as possible. But if someone other than Watari did find out, let’s say a local detective assigned to the case with him, he’s not going to be worried. L knows that he’s an extremely valuable asset, and that any crimes he commits will be overlooked due to his inherent value. He doesn’t view them as crimes, anyway, not after justifying it all to himself.

He doesn’t feel the need to alter his private image with you, either. He’s himself, and you’re you, and that’s that. If anything, he lets his guard down more around you. It’s psychologically satisfying. It also makes him curious, because he wants to know how you’ll react more than anything.

Amaryllis - Would this yandere ever bend their whims to better suit their darling’s needs, or is their word always law?

His word is law. He’s in charge of you. It’s the natural order of things. He’s smarter and stronger and he may enjoy your companionship, but that doesn’t mean he’s going to let you do whatever you want.

But his boundaries aren’t too numerous, and they aren’t usually something you’ll bounce against, at least once you get used to being kidnapped. However, they do exist, and he doesn’t bend on them.

You can’t leave--that’s a given. Windows and blinds are almost always closed, for privacy’s sake. Don’t scream or try to hurt him, unless you want to be gagged and bound. If he tells you to do something, you do it. Complain about it, if you want--but do it promptly. Especially if his order relates to him moving you to another secure location.

Unless you’re adamant on being difficult, you’ll find it easy to stay within the confines of L’s whims. Make enough comments about the lack of sunlight and you’ll find one of those artificial sun lamps in the apartment. If you want to have a conversation wherein you’re making yet another case for your freedom, go ahead, just do it without screaming or flinging a lamp at his head. And afterwards, because he was patient enough to listen to your complaints, sit down and watch a movie with him, won’t you?

He hopes that he won’t need to reinforce his boundaries very often. He considers himself very sensible, and if you complain about your captivity, he will run down all the things that other kidnappers might do to you… they might actually hurt you, barely feed you, force you into sex. Isn’t he better, by comparison? Doesn’t he take your interests into account? Doesn’t he do what’s best for you, outside of freedom?

Jasmine - How would this yandere use their status/money in their favor?

He absolutely uses his status, connections and finances in order to keep you in an isolated, secure location. Requiring a secure location is part of his job description, and it’s much easier to get one which allows him to keep you as well because of this. It’s also possible to move you from place to place due to his connections and status. You might find yourself in a highly secured apartment for a few months, then moved to some underground bunker for the next case.

His status also gives him confidence that he won’t be faced with pesky things like kidnapping charges, because on the off chance that anyone on his team(s) finds out about you, he’s too valuable an asset to lose. It will be justified and waved away and anyone with continued vocal misgivings might find themselves out of a job and without protection.

Carnation - Does this yandere consider what they’re doing morally “wrong”, and if so, how do they justify their actions to themselves?

No, he wouldn’t consider his actions morally wrong. He knows that they are technically illegal, and that he is technically committing a crime. But since he does not view his actions as immoral, then he is not technically a criminal, either.

 To quote a drabble I did on the subject (with the prompt “L, would you consider yourself a criminal?”) which lays out L’s perspective more fully:

“If we’re taking current laws into consideration, I have--technically speaking--committed crimes. I would argue that committing crimes in the name of furthering some facet or other of justice does not make one a criminal. … Consider the fact that those seeking justice must bend the rules in order to carry it out in some circumstances. Shall we arrest a detective who breaks into a criminal’s home in order to save a victim? Of course not. And so, this extends to me.”

Now, of course, in this drabble L makes sure to cut the reader off before they’re able to ask exactly what justice he is pursuing by holding you captive--but he would likely have several ways to justify kidnapping to himself. And to you, should you be inclined to ask.

One, he did it for your safety. If anyone noticed his interest in you, that makes you a potential target. And since L is brought in for high-level crimes, it makes you a potential target in the sights of someone who would gravely hurt or kill you. It’s much safer for you to be within the confines of a secured location, where no one will ever be the wiser in regards to your connection with him.

Two, he did it for his own well-being, which is necessary for the resolution of crimes around the world. If he isn’t operating at full mental capacity, why then, all of these international criminals may get away with their horrible crimes without fear of being found out by the world’s greatest detective. His kidnapping you is a means to ensure that hundreds, thousands, maybe even millions of people are saved from criminal activity.

Three, he did it for your own good. This particular justification would be tailored towards a darling with any sort of significant issue that causes disruption in their life. L takes that disruption and places himself squarely in the “savior” category. If you are unable to hold down a job, pay the bills, get out of an existing abusive relationship, handle life on your own, then he views it as a simple justification for kidnapping you. He takes care of you--and he takes care of everything. Finances, health, your mental stimulation. He treats you quite well, in his mind, so there’s certainly nothing immoral in his decision to save you from yourself.

#yandere l lawliet #yandere death note #yandere headcanons #yandere #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Hey in some of your overhaul fics, you mention that he has the reader wear dresses that kiiiiiinda resemble nightgowns- i was wondering, do you have any pics of what you imagine the dresses look like? Because everytime i go back to read your works, i imagine something different, lol- sometimes pastel gunne sax dresses, other times victorian inspired pieces with delicate lace, loose bohemian style kaftans, sometimes clothes that remind me of my grandma's doll collection- i know you like to leave your work open to the readers, but since overhaul's strict about every other aspect of his darling's life, do you think he's just as strict when it comes to their clothing style?

For "day wear," I tend to imagine reader being given nap dresses, lounge dresses, anything with lots of flounce to it. Dresses made from soft fabrics, light colors, maybe some light prints (like florals). Dresses that are definitely designed to remind you of your place inside, no shoes, nothing difficult to do. Just read books and engage in light hobbies and relax. 

I do think that vintage Gunne Sax and similar 1970s dresses fit the aesthetic as well, though I would probably imagine those for a “later timeline” Overhaul in my vague fic series, when reader has graduated into a “housewife” type role. 

But for “Reader is stuck in Overhaul’s bunker” situations, I usually imagine dresses like this:

For night time, definitely actual night gowns. Soft, usually if not exclusively white, lace and ruffles. Thin fabric. You might notice that sometimes he picks out ones that are very short... almost indecent, just barely covering your butt. He would deny it or say you had a filthy mind if you said anything, though. 

In general, I think he’d control your clothing pretty much entirely. He picks out your outfits, picks out what’s in the wardrobe in the first place. 

If you were super attached to a particular style or aesthetic, I can see him maybe working your preferences in if you’re being compliant and pleasant, as a reward. But like... in the way that a parent who doesn’t understand a teenager’s hobbies does? Where it’s not your normal clothing, not exactly what you would normally wear, but it’s his conception of it. So if you prefer to wear, say, jeans and t-shirts, he might pick out some casual blouses and leggings. Not quite what you wanted, but he’s got the spirit.

Like my mom, bless her heart, buying me a plain black short sleeve shirt from Target because she knew I bought a bunch of gothy clothes at Hot Topic back in ye olden times of 2004. 

#yandere overhaul #afterwitch headcanons #I wore the fuck out of that shirt though #slapped on a longsleeve fishnet thing under it #bam! punky goth whatever.

[after-witch]

chestnut and snapdragon for sesshomaru <3

Chestnut - Would this yandere care about their darling’s past romantic relationships? If not, then why is that?

As far as he’s concerned, your life before him may as well not exist. If you bring up past relationships, he’ll ignore it or dismiss it. Human relationships and lives mean nothing to him. It’s like you have a clean slate as soon as he decides to take you. Unless you talk about it far too much and in such a way that prickles at his pride. Then he might shut it down, either directly or by making Jaken do the dirty work.

Snapdragon - What is the darling’s day-to-day life like? Does it depend on how they’ve been acting, or is it always the same? 

You’re doing a lot of traveling, and your day-to-day life probably wouldn’t be that different to your life before (assuming you lived in a village)--minus the uh, demon lord, of course. You’d be expected to contribute to finding and cooking food, mending clothes and fabrics, minding Rin if she’s already in the picture or once she enters the picture, setting up and taking down camp for the night. 

Your behavior definitely impacts what your life is like. Stubborn, trying to run away, mouthy and rude? You can always be leashed to A-Un and kept under watch day and night--by Jaken, which is something you’ll learn to avoid--until you behave.  You can always get a smaller ration than everyone else, you can always have your rights and privileges stripped away. So behave--and behave respectfully--and you can start being treated like something other than a misbehaving dog again.

Sesshomaru doesn’t talk much, not even to you. He watches you a lot, especially when you sleep. You’ll never know exactly how he feels about you or why he wants you and why he keeps you. It can be frustrating, to say the least.

#yandere #yandere sesshomaru #yandere sesshoumaru #sesshomaru x reader #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

What do you think Scaramouche would do for darlings b-day? 😩😩😩

My drama-loving self says, in the context of darling being his forced spouse: nothing special, and it would really, really hurt your feelings. You came from a life where birthdays were treasured and celebrated, friends and family alike. People would take the time to gift you something that truly meant something to you, leave you notes, generally lift your spirits on your birthday and make it a day to treasure.

And with Scaramouche, you're left cold. No special greeting in the morning. No small gift or treat or kind word to start your day. No acknowledgement of your birth or anything at all, really, except his normal behavior and your normal routine.

The slow, sinking feeling in your stomach worsens all day as you struggle to keep yourself together, embroidering and managing the servants and seeing to his needs. Until he gets annoyed enough by your increasingly depressed countenance that he demands you tell him what's got you looking so annoying.

So you tell him--it's my birthday.

And the worst part is his response: I know that.

Of course he knows. Do you think he's stupid?? So it's the day you were born, what does that matter?

And you've sworn that you'd never cry in front of him again, but that doesn't stop the sniffling and tripping over your choked words as you try to explain that in your family, people do something special for each other on their birthdays.

And he just... ponders this. For a bit.

He might huff and offer to buy you something then, since you're acting so spoiled.

But this isn't what you want, you're not upset because he didn't get you a gift, you're upset because you were expecting to be... noticed, acknowledged, uplifted on your birthday. But he treated it like any other day.

And Scaramouche is just ??? at this concept. Annoyed. Frustrated. Wanting you to just stop talking about it because he hates having to discuss anything that reminds him of your presence being not-very-willing.

If you've been combative and actively fighting against him, he'll just tell you to stop complaining and ignore the issue entirely and hope it blows over.

If by chance you are attempting to deal with your situation the best way possible, and are generally soft and obedient and even loving with him--to the point that he's begun to reveal tiny parts of himself to you--then he might offer an uncharacteristically quiet discussion with you: explaining, half-mumbled, guarded but revealing more to you than he ever has before, that he has never celebrated such things and did not know it mattered significantly.

And the next morning, you might just wake up to the sight of a beautiful glistening flower, a dessert and a small gift related to personal interests he's allowed you to keep on your nightstand.

Just don't acknowledge it verbally. Kissing him will suffice as a thank you.

#yandere scaramouche #scaramouche x reader #yandere #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Cypress and hydrangea for scaramouche for the ask game thank youu c:

Cypress - How does this yandere comfort their upset darling?

Barely. Horribly. He’s not good with handling outward displays of emotion, especially negative ones, especially if they involve you.

Is he the direct cause of the upset? He will likely justify it in his mind. You wouldn’t have been confined to your rooms, wouldn’t have been zapped, wouldn’t have gotten in trouble if you just listened and behaved as he expected you to do. So he won’t do anything there but let you deal with it on your own.

If he’s not the direct cause, or if you’re simply melancholy, he’ll..... try. But there is this inherent fear in trying to comfort you that you will reject him, so he probably wouldn’t do anything direct like trying to hug or hold you unless he is absolutely certain that you won’t pull away from him in any way.

More often, he will try gestures. Humans like gestures, don’t they? He’s seen people try to make their spouses feel better with things all the time. So he will have a servant give you a tray with your favorite foods. Or you’ll wake up in the morning and see a gift on your table. Or he might relieve you of some duty he knows you hate, like entertaining a pompous asshole. 

He just wants you to get back to normal so he can go back to expecting you to ooh and ahh over him. 

Hydrangea - How would this yandere react if their darling gave them affection? What is their internal thought process like?

Alarm bells, at first. 

Are you doing it to try to get him to lower his guard? Are you pretending because you want something from him?

If he can convince himself that it’s genuine, then... he feels soft. Warm. Vindicated. He was right to keep you, after all. Because you do see the worth in him (even if, perhaps, it took some convincing manipulation and redirection on his end).

#yandere scaramouche #yandere #yandere genshin impact #scaramouche x reader #afterwitch headcanons

[after-witch]

Hey! I was wondering how do you think Michael Myers would act as a yandere?

h m  m ...  

He wouldn’t talk to you. You would never know why he hasn’t killed you. You would only know that he’s taken you and locked you somewhere. It’s probably dark and musty, some abandoned house that anyone with common sense avoids.

If you’re lucky the electricity works and you have running water and potentially some poor soul’s appliances to use. If you’re not, you’ll have to get used to it.

He’s terrifying. I mean, look at him. His mere presence screams “evil.” You’ve probably seen him kill. He probably killed your friends or family or neighbors. Maybe he killed them right in front of you and the clothes you’re wearing are stained with their blood. But he didn’t kill you. You were knocked out and taken away, kept alive, kept near him.

Is he tender? Not in any normal sense of the word. But he doesn’t hurt you, not intentionally. His grip is rough when he drags you around the abandoned house you’re kept in. If you try to run past him he grips your arm or pushes you back. If you stumble and fall, it’s not his doing, technically speaking.

He can get mad and frustrated if you try to run away or if you start screaming or behaving hysterically and that’s when he’s at his most terrifying. When you think he might just take that knife and stab it through your chest. 

Just be good and passive around him, that’s what you learn to do, and he responds accordingly. Eat when he gives you food. Sleep when you drags you to a bed. Don’t try to run away.

If you escape, he’ll find you. It’s in his nature. You won’t be gone for long.

#yandere michael myers #yandere horror #afterwitch headcanons #never thought much about him before so this was fun! ty anon!