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petewentzisblack1312 · 3 years

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okay so since you know more than sarah could u give more info?? because i love learning about pete and his blackness as its literally never talked about ANYWHERE else. like thank god for tumblr tbh. sarah is genuinely the only reason ive ever known anything about him in that way but its always been limited so thats why i sent her the ask. i didnt even know ur blog. sorry for sending to her instead of you!!!

oh its fine!! im pretty new on the scene technically. while sarah and i were in the fob fandom at the same time in 2015 ish, i actually left tumblr completely and recently came back!! but anyway, lets talk about petes melanin (my beloved <3)

theres a pretty pervasive narrative, not just around pete but around any black and especially biracial celebrities that theyre ashamed of their blackness or arent "really" black. theres like. a looooooooooong conversation to be had within the black community about this, but to tldr it, the assumption is if you dont look black, you arent black, which for a lot of reasons isnt exactly the case. with him in particular theres a lot of stuff that contributes to this.

most people do not associate the alternative scene and emo especially with black people, so its easy to overlook a lot if someone isnt SUPER obviously black. pete has other ethnic features, like his nose, and is recognizable visually as black except for his skin color. except thats because hes been artificially lightened in photoshoots due to editing and (ALLEGEDLY AND POSSIBLY) lighter foundations. further, he relaxed his hair, which takes away another ethnic feature of his.

there is another aspect to this, which is that black people tan, noticeably and by several shades. you will not notice it if youre like seeing them continuously throughout the year, but as someone who lives in the caribbean and has spent some time in the states, the difference is stark enough to be noticeable. a lightskinned black person may look MUCH paler in the winter compared to in the summer.

in addition, the wealthier you are, the less time you tend to spend in the sun, so ive noticed that black celebrities tend to get lighter as they gain notoriety just because they have like more resources. the reason people from the caribbean tend to become lighter when we go to the states isnt because of less sun, during the summer thats not at all the case, its because the US is more developed so you dont HAVE to spend as much time in the sun.

besides that, hes like genuinely very loud and proud about being black, but all of those attempts are met with backlash. there was the reaction to his natural hair, the reaction to him with cornrows, and the reaction to his very emotional rant about the murder of george floyd. it happens in fobs music too!! ioh for example draws a lot of influence from choral and hymnal arrangements and soul music, not to mention jay-z and babyface working on the album itself, which led to them being labelled sell outs. they also just generally work with rappers more, with lil wayne on tiffany blews and big sean on srar, both of which also led to them being called sell outs. ab/ap as an album draws influence from rap/trap and mixtape culture in the way it was written (thats why its got so many samples), and subsequently got remixed. remember what happened next? mania draws a lot of influence from calypso and dancehall music and features burna boy singing in yoruba patois. that one led to the featured artist getting harassed en masse and multiple (worse) edits of the song without him on it. i dont like it here 💞.

that last point brings me to the fact that while pete definitely loves hardcore and metal, he also has always loved reggae and dancehall. hes half jamaican, spent time in jamaica as a child and listened to his grandparents records, which were. well. reggae and calypso and a little dancehall. if anyone ASKS him about it, hell talk about it willingly and candidly, theres an entire interview from during the hiatus (which i can no longer find rip) where hes asked about and talks about going natural and spending time in jamaica and listening to reggae, which heavily influenced black cards. he visited jamaica during the hiatus! although its unclear if he visited family since literally every news outlet that mentioned it was like "oh tropical getaway <3" unaware that thats where his folks are from

also heres that interview snippet sarah mentioned! i have the full page, its about the early days which is funny bc its just before futct.

theres also some poetry on sarahs blog that she found years ago thats VERY black. i dont like making it easy to find for nonblack people simply because the first time it was unearthed mostly white people were talking about it and the meaning of it went way over everyone elses head so i try to make sure that if people start talking about it they know going in that its about being black and biracial specifically and so that black fans dont feel the way i did when it first surfaced lol

all of this emphatically points to pete genuinely loving his blackness and not trying to hide it and it being something that majorly shaped his life, but genuinely being unable to talk about it bc of public perception.

sorry for talking your ear off!! if you have any specific qs i almost certainly have answers!!

#dils declares #i just kept going.#i just KEPT. GOING.

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bekahdoesnerdshit · 3 years

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Playlist: Rainivere

Alternate Title: I Lost My Ability To “Feel” Twelve Levels Ago (No I Didn’t)

Are Things Still Burning by Em Harris

I can't imagine life on earth now. And I just want to know is my bedroom still there, is it still standing. Is the tree that I planted still there in the backyard. I want to know are things still burning, still burning.

This song isn’t so much about the lyrics as setting the general tone for the playlist. The dark indie sorta vibe, the heaviness, the rhythmic trombone and drum, the almost lazy way the singer drifts between notes, the slow start that ramps up into the rest of the song, it’s all good shit! Could I tell you what this song is actually about? No! But the vibes. The Vibes!! Pitch perfect for the start of Raini’s playlist.

A Little Wicked by Valerie Broussard

No one calls you honey, when you're sitting on a throne Beware the patient woman, 'cause this much I know No one calls you honey, when you're sitting on a throne

This is the “I’m a bastard! Did you forget?” song! It builds off the heaviness of the last song while adding a twist of “I act like hot shit because I am hot shit” that I just felt like really fucking nailed Raini’s general contempt for anyone who isn’t one of the like ten people she knows and tolerates. Also! It represents (especially hypothetical early level raini’s) drive to and unshakable belief that she would succeed at becoming powerful enough to become a god. No one calls you honey when you’re sitting on a throne, and no one says shit to you when that throne is in the upper planes, bitch!

Deep Green by Marika Hackman

Just because I love your skin Doesn't mean I'll jump in The water's clean and warm and green I'm not allowed to swim I'm scared of getting in

First of all, again, vibes. Is Raini’s playlist 75% vibes? Maybe so. But they’re structural vibes so they have to stay or the whole playlist won’t be up to code, so. Once again, I couldn’t for the life of you tell me what this song is about. But I’m sorta starting to think that may be a problem between me and indie stuff instead of the songs in particular. I love again the laziness in the singer’s voice, as well as the eeriness of the backing vocals and the instruments, and like not to beat a dead horse about it but vibes!! Hello.

Come What May by The Last Bison

Come what may we will always be the same. You and I Shall remain in every way, so will I

You know the first of all at this point (it’s “vibes”) so let’s just skip to the second of all. Is it uhhh. Friendship time? In literally THE most haughty, roundabout way? Maybe so! “Hey I do have an aesthetic to maintain but. I do care about you. Technically.” Like the chorus is literally such an intense declaration of devotion, but it takes a hot minute to get to it and the second verse picks up immediately after it, moving the song quickly along. And I think between that and how intense the claim/music is, it’s the only possible way Raini could tell someone she’s in it for the long haul with them. You know who you are. Keep scrolling.

Don’t Fall in Love by Wake Child

Though I know I can't stay There's a price i may pay Baby don't fall in love while I'm away

Finally!! It’s a fucking BANGER in here boys!! And you know what it’s about. Sometimes you’re a hot and sexy and sexual pirate, and you travel a lot. Sometimes you’re a hot and sexy and sexual wizard/adventurer, and you travel a lot. Sometimes you and said pirate/wizard are dancing around each other in the longest, dumbest, horniest type of courtship imaginable, and sometimes you get deep enough into it where you’re like. Invested. In the other person. But you’re still not far enough into it where you can admit that you’re invested. So you. So you uh. So you? Silently pray that they don’t find somebody they like more than you in between your -admittedly more and more frequent- “accidental” run-ins? Because, boy, you’ll feel foolish if it turns out you’re the only one catching feelings. Best to just keep your mouth shut and hope for the best!

Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Lorde

We will find you Acting on your best behavior Turn your back on mother nature Everybody wants to rule the world

I would like to personally thank that one Legend of Korra amv that was super popular on tumblr like four years ago for putting this song on my radar. Thank you, Korra. As always: point one, vibes. Point two, VIBES for a character’s who ultimate goal at the beginning of her arc was to become powerful enough to become a god. Point three, VIBES again for a party of level 20 demigods who wield unimaginable power and can stand up to and defeat archdevils and fake gods and universe devouring planar systems and win. Listen to like the last minute of this song and tell me you can’t see a montage of the party shredding the not-mystra and the Abeast and the giant radiant eel and like, listen. It’s sexy. I’m not ashamed to admit it: this song Fucks.

I’m Tired, You’re Lonely by Liza Anne

And if I was a softer person I could give you the kindness you are deserving But I'm not And maybe that's just it

Raini doesn’t know how to process or express her emotions again we GET it do we really have to keep doubling down on this 😪 Obviously the answer is yes, we do. This is the “hey we just got back from hell without any memories, and I don’t know how to process the fact that this is obviously upsetting to the tiefling who flew halfway around the world overnight on little more than a vague sending, made out with me in our front hall, then painted our relationship as ‘glorified booty call’ but also seems to know everything about me” song. You know, that one song every playlist has. Because like! Obviously there was some tension and hurt between every party and their significant other when we came back sans memories, but I feel like there was still efforts made by both parties to reach for the other despite this sudden distance, you know? And Raini just, did not do that. And neither did Ecstasy really, and who can blame her? Morgan and I talked about it (I think ahah) and there was like a non-zero chance that they split up over this memory loss thing! They didn’t of course, but this song captures the mid-campaign tension of “...well, shit. I don’t know what our relationship actually is”.

Lover, Don’t Leave by Citizen Shade

I've said that love is just a word The idea seems absurd That one can give more than they take Away from me Woah, and then came you

Okay YES technically this playlist only has two themes and it’s 1) “Raini is a badass level 20 wizard” and 2) “Raini has never processed an emotion in her life”. What do you want from me. Now I know we don’t say the L word on this blog (l*ve, obviously. Not Lesbians) BUT we have to make an exception for this song because a) it’s heartbreaking and b) I mean. Come on. Sometimes you go into your adult life convinced you’re more than enough for yourself and that you don’t need any kind of romantic attachment to slow you down, and then sometimes you meet someone who can not only keep up with you, but makes you maybe want to linger? And then, of course, you do your best to blow it and push them away because you’re you and that’s what you do. And you’re not great at apologizing and, well, we already talked about how close they maybe came to splitting up in game. There’s definitely a universe where that happened.

Boy Who Has Everything by Annika Bennett

I just wish there was something he needs Some beautiful thing I could be To keep him from seeing the worst in me

Hey guys what if we took that “he” and maybe we... made it a “they”?? what might happen then.... Uh oh.......uh oh.....uh oh!!! Although the singer probably intended this song to be about a romantic relationship, in this playlist this song is about Raini looking at her party and going “.....well, fuck. Why am I here?” She’s an asshole! She’s not a pleasant person, and she knows it. And she’s looking at a group of people who really, really seem to have it together re: being a person. And aside from just the fact that they’re all, at the very least, personable, she knows that she owes them more than she knows how to put into words for what she did to them, without their permission. But it’s fine it’s cool she’s definitely just actually this much of an asshole 24/7 it’s not a defense mechanism or anything ahahahah :))

In the End by Marcus Warner

We’re DONE being emo it’s time to circle back to “Raini is a badass do NOT forget it”. This is our instrumental for this playlist! It starts out lowkey, and builds in power and confidence as it goes, and while the main melody never changes the addition of the timpani and the low brass REALLY brings another layer to the song that makes it driving and intense and I Love it. It’s pretty, yes, but there’s also an underlying power and focus that I feel like reflects Raini very very well. And! It’s an incredible song to picture her casting to! Raini standing, feet planted, arms outstretched, hair and robes whipping around her as she casts spell after spells at enemies that are just out of view, the camera starting low and slowly spinning around and coming up until it’s at eye level and she’s staring straight into it-- YES I’m still obsessed with the imagery of this campaign. Keep scrolling. Thank you for reading. I love you.

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