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#and!! i haven't made gifs like this in sooo long or like. really written anything down for my characters either. but i did it for her
mirrorhouse · 7 months
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PRIS GLITTERBELL ✰
the youngest daughter of three, pris' intended role in life was set in stone before she was even born. trained to pickpocket, obfuscate her intentions, and wield a dagger from a young age, at fourteen, she began working for her family as a smuggler. fifteen years later, after a series of betrayals, pris fled the underdark with nothing but the clothes on her back and the coins in her pockets-- only to be snatched up by an illithid ship the moment it seemed like true freedom was finally within her reach.
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serenity-songbird · 9 months
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JUst here to remind to always take care of yourself. eat well, sleep well, take some vitamins, etc. have a good day!
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I just wanna tell you guys how grateful I am for you. I haven't been on Tumblr for quite a while and I finally decided to check on it again.
Reading all of these messages brought happy tears to my eyes.
Not only that but I have 720 followers!?!?!?
What!?!?!?
Where'd you all come from???
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These are literally my reactions!!!
Thank you so much for your support, love, and advice. I'm currently working in the hospital on a Sunday and I was bummed, but reading your messages made my day. I am truly, sincerely grateful. (And I will say that a million times more).
Warning: Sensitive Topics and unloading of emotions.
And I also apologize for such a long hiatus... I'm going to be honest...I haven't been alright.
I feel like I'm falling apart and I'm so anxious to the point when I'm shaking... I try to do my best to get through it, but it is sooo hard. And when I think I'm doing better one day, the next I have a complete meltdown...And it's really discouraging.
I also haven't been eating healthy because I'm in such a sour mood, I don't feel like cooking. I either order fast food or don't eat at all. I started taking prenatal vitamins just so I can get the vital nutrients my body needs.
In order to try and get better, I've turned to God. I've been studying the Bible and going to church. I pray for his help and when my anxiety is really bad, the holy spirit flows through me and gives me peace. Thanks to him, I'm getting through it better.
Now I know religion is a sensitive topic, but please know I'm not trying to flood the pages with Christian propaganda. And regardless of what religion you are, I will not judge you and I still love all of you. Just because we believe in different things, doesn't mean we can't be friends. I just wanted to state a coping mechanism that works for me.
And there is good news too! I've started getting ideas for some of the stories and requests I've seen!!! It's been so long since I've written anything and the fact that I suddenly have ideas means that I'm slowly recovering a bit.
Yay!!! Progress!!!
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I might drop a new chapter of the Hetalia multiverse series today and one request.
Stay tuned!!!
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What Happens at a Lake - Philo Beddoe x Reader
Requested by @starryfallows
(A/N: THIS IS THE LONGEST FIC I HAVE EVER WRITTEN!!! FOUR AND A HALF THOUSAND WORDS!!!!!! I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!
All are by @clinteastwood-blog
Yeah sooo I’m posting it here anyway, even though it’s REALLY long. Sorry I couldn’t put the two black and white set photos, because for SOME REASON, Tumblr is telling me that I’ve reached the ten image limit, when there’s ONLY half of that! Seven with those other two! Ugh! Anyway, this is indeed the longest fic I have ever written, and I am honoured and proud that it’s a Clint fic, requested by someone on Tumblr. I love you all.
Update: @believerindaydreams taught me how to put keep reading :D thank you very much 🙏)
It took three months for Philo's bones to heal and get back to full strength. Since his main job as a car repairman really depended on both his arms having their full strength, and his other job as a lorry driver did require some strength to pull the levers in the vehicle, you had been working for twelve hours everyday at the Palomino, where you were a pianist. It was a relief when Orville returned from his nurse one month in, so you could work for just nine hours. You returned to your usual eight hours only when Philo had fully healed. During those three months, Philo and Clyde remained in the audience for you mr twelve hours everyday anyway, and you gladly let them be there - better to listen to your playing than to staying at home and listen to ma pestering him about his idleness.
It was one evening two months after Philo was back in business. Philo, Orville and you were around the dinner table, having almost finished dining. Clyde was off monkeying around somewhere and ma had finished earlier and gone to another part of the house, where she was likely griping to herself again about something or other.
"You know, we haven't done anything to celebrate," you said, looking around at them.
The boys looked at each other in question, confused as to what you were talking about and surprised at this sudden and random vocalisation. They then turned back to you. "Celebrate...?" Philo trailed off, his voice sweet and adorable.
"Your retirement," you said lanconically.
"Only from brawling! I'm still a lorry driver and car repairman!" he argued, leaning towards you slightly.
"Yeah but still. It calls for some celebration." You were still calm, because you knew that Philo was not trying to pick a fight. This was just how he always was.
"Okay...what did you have in mind?" There. He was as relaxed as if nothing had happened.
"We could go to a lake again. One with a cabin that we can rent for an indefinite period of time."
A smile immediately formed on his face. "That sounds great." He turned his head to look back at Orville.
"Yeah," Orville said, nodding, "yeah, we can do that." Philo faced you again.
"Alright! So, when do you guys wanna leave?" you piped up cheerily.
"Well, you're the one who suggested it. You decide," Philo told you.
"Can we leave tomorrow?" Your eyes darted to and from theirs.
"Oh. Sure," Philo answered.
"Cool with me," Orville agreed. You grinned at them.
When Philo and you were alone in your shared bedroom that night, he backed you up against the wall, his hands on either side of your head, the rest of his body blocking any way of escape, almost pressing against yours, and his face very close to yours. You were hyperventilating, yet you could not avert your eyes and resist staring into those gorgeous green gazers. "That was a very good idea of yours." Oh hell - he was deliberately making his voice deeper and more gravelly, the way he knew you liked it. This was something he did when he wanted to be especially affectionate with you. He did not do it during his three months of healing because you always would be too tired for it.
"I-I thought we could use it," you panted, shaking.
He closed his eyes and rested his forehead against yours, feeling the heat radiating from you. "It's agreed," he breathed, and you could feel his breath on your face. You squeaked and squeezed your eyes shut, turning your head away. He chuckled when you squeaked. "What was that?" You whimpered and shook your head vigorously, indicating that you were not going to answer. He smiled and moved a hand to rest it on your warmed cheek, gently pushing your head to face him. His thumb stroked your eyelids until you opened them. When you did, he leant in and kissed you.
When ma saw the three of you loading the truck the next morning, she, as usual, waddled within hearing range and demanded to know where the four of you were going.  "A lake, ma," Orville sighed over his shoulder as he threw a bag inside.
"A lake?!  What on earth're you goin' ta a lake fo?!"  she hollered.
"A vacation, ma," Orville grumbled out before he got inside the seating area and closed the door before he could hear anymore of ma's nagging. You were holding the back doors open while Philo helped Clyde inside.
"WHAT?!  A VACATION?!  AND LEAVING YOUR OLD MOTHER ALL BY HER LONESOME!!"  And so on.  Philo and you hurried up with shutting the back doors and getting in yourselves.  Philo sped off as soon as he was seated.
"We need a vacation from her," you huffed, relieved, leaning against the window.
"You're telling me," Orville got out as he took off his cap and tiredly rested it on his lap.
"Well at least we're actually away from that now," you comforted him. Philo fiddled with the radio and stopped when he found a station he was happy with.
The ride passed in mutual joy and comfort.  The three of you would occasionally crack jokes, and sometimes Clyde would give his input, especially when he was asked to pass a drink or food item in front.  This lasted for several hours and a few pit stops on the way.
"All right, I think this is the nearest one," Philo said as he drove through some trees.  A little further into them showed that there was a lake stretching in between them, dividing them into two. Philo drove on, and all three of you kept a watch out for a cabin.
There were two, one larger than the other. The larger one was obviously for if there was more than one guest to stay, and so the smaller one was for the lone landlord.  Philo drove up to the guests' cabin and parked.  The three of you got out then let the orangutan out as well.  All four of you walked the rest of the way to the landlord's cabin.  Since Philo was the nearest to it, he knocked on the door.  "Yeah?"  the landlord said when he opened the door.
"We'd uh, like to rent this place for a few days.  Don't know how long.  We'll let you know when we leave.  There are three adults plus," he put a hand on Clyde's shoulder, "an ape."
"Oh..."  he observed Clyde, "well, people are allowed to bring their pets here, so long as they clean up after 'em, and I do have a set fee for pets.  So that's not gonna be a problem.  I'll just come to you and collect rent everyday, so it don't matter how long you stay."
The three of you grinned at each other. "Perfect," Philo informed the landlord. The latter nodded his head politely and closed the door. "Alright!" Philo exclaimed, clasping his hands together, "let's unpack!"  And the three humans proceeded to do so.  Clyde was left outside to climb trees and do his thing.
Soon enough, all the luggage was unpacked and in your respective rooms.  You three were now seated on the couches.  There were three of these which surrounded a coffee table, save for one side which had the television against the wall.  Philo and you were on one couch and Orville was on the one in the centre.  "So, what do you guys wanna do now?"  you asked.
"Is the water clean enough to swim in?"  Philo mused, turning around and looking in the general direction of the lake.
"We can always find out," Orville suggested playfully.
You laughed, closing your eyes.  "I suppose we can just ask the landlord."
It turned out that the water was indeed suitable for swimming. As far as swimwear went, yours was just a t-shirt and shorts. So it was for the boys too, minus the shirt. Since you were the shortest, you waded in first to determine how far out was safe for you. You kept hopping until the water reached just below your chin. The two taller men followed, with Philo going the farthest out and Orville in between you two. Since it was deep enough for you, you let your legs float up so that you were now lying on your back on the water's surface. You let the current carry you out, occasionally moving a limb to change directions. Orville had swum away, which left you a clear path to catch up to Philo, who was also swimming. Once you reached Philo, you moved your legs back down and started treading water. "Hi," you said.
"Hey," he smiled, showing his teeth. He made himself stand and grabbed you, situating your legs around his waist. You put your hands on his shoulders. Smiling at each other, he walked you about.  It was a while of this before he started picking up the pace, hopping, and then pushing you away from him altogether.  You giggled as you bobbed away, treading water to stay near him.  After that, the two of you started swimming properly.
The three of you swam for two hours.  Since Orville was all by his lonesome and not staring at a romantic partner, he was the one to notice that his fingers were wrinkled.   "Alright, we gotta go," he called out, holding up hand, facing the palm towards you two.  All three quickly paddled to shore.   Philo's feet touched the bottom first, then Orville's, then yours.  Clyde was hanging from the tree that you three would pass by on the way out, looking at you all.
"Hi Clyde," Orville said as he passed.
"Hi Clyde," you followed.
"Hi Clyde," Philo finished.
"Oo oo oo," he returned to all three of you at once.
Orville went into the bathroom in his room to shower.  "You wanna go first, or shall I?  Or you wanna go at the same time?"  Philo asked.
"Same time," you smiled.  So the both of you stripped and went into the bathroom in your shared room, impulsively filling up and climbing into the bathtub rather than actually stepping inside the shower.  He sat with his back against the wall, so you sat in between his legs without your back to him.  He wrapped an arm around your waist and rested his chin on your shoulder. "Thanks for being here with me," he murmured, turnings his head and kissing your cheek. He was always additionally affectionate when he was happy and content.
You smiled brightly and brought an arm up to cradle his head, running your hand through his coarse fluffy hair. "I love you."
"I love you too." His other arm joined the one that was already around you. When he felt that you were about to fall asleep - it happened everytime you were relaxed in his embrace - he hurried up with bathing the both of you.
"Nbuh!"  you interjected as your head jerked up, having been shocked to the point of waking.
"Don't sleep in here.  We can have dinner and then sleep," Philo lectured, poking your upper arm once for each sentence he spoke.  You yawned and stretched, and then cleaned yourself.
The both of you got out.  Philo drained the tub while you wrapped a towel around yourself.  You passed another to him.  You broke out into a toothy grin when you saw him vigorously rubbing it through his fluffy hair.  He felt your gaze on him and looked up.  "What?"
"Nothing," you kept grinning, "Your hair is amazing."
"O...kay?"  He just went back to drying his hair.
You laughed softly before saying, "I love your hair."
"Thank you."  You could hear the smile in his voice.
After drying off, you opened the door and headed out.  Philo lay down on the bed and smiled at you, lifting the sheets for you to climb under.  You laughed softly and crawled to him, and you two snuggled.  "You sure we can do this?  Orville and Clyde might be waiting on us for dinner."
"Mmf..." he grumbled.  He begrudgingly reached his long arm to open the closet and pulled out a pair of boxers and then trousers.  He pushed you a little distance away so that he had space to put them on and then threw his feet over the side of the bed onto the floor, the momentum allowing him to spring up. He walked out of the room, and you nestled under the covers and waited.
Orville was at the kitchen counter, preparing dinner. "Oh," he acknowledged with some surprise when he saw Philo walk to him. "I figured you'd be longer, so I got started on dinner. I was gonna call Clyde in when I was done."
"Yeah, I was, but (y/n) reminded me that you might be waitin' on us. So I came out ta check on ya."
"Well you can go on back in there and give her a thank you from me.  You can do whatever with her until dinner's ready."
"You sure you don't need any help?"  Philo offered.
Orville shook his head and said, "Nah.  I can manage."
Philo nodded his head a few times in acknowledgement.  "Thanks," he said before turning around and walking away.
"Sure," Orville returned.
You were lying with your fingers interlaced, your head resting on them as you stared up at the ceiling. Your eyes turned to look at Philo when he appeared in the doorway. "Orville says we can stay here till dinner's ready. He can manage," he said as he walked inside. As he walked, he undid his clothes. You scooted further in, so as soon as he put his clothes on the seat of the chair as he passed he could slide in. You took your place right by his side again.  He had one arm under your waist.  He turned onto his side so that he was a little way on top of you.  He reached around and stroked the side of your head with his other hand.  You smiled softly up at him.  He moved to suspend himself above you on his hands and knees now, his limbs caging you safely. The both of you closed your eyes as he rested his forehead on yours. He pressed his lips forwards slightly, just touching your own and then withdrawing repeatedly, questioning whether he could kiss you. Your breathing became heavier at his teasing, and you put your hands on the back of his head and pushed it down the rest of the way.  At the exact same time, you both closed your eyes and let out heavy exhales through your noses as you kissed.  He lowered his full weight onto you, doing it slowly so that you had time to adjust and support his weight.  "Mmf..."  he let out when you kissed him a bit more aggressively.  You kept at it, eager and needy, and he let himself take it all in.  He withdrew when he needed to breathe, and rested his forehead on yours.  Breaths heavy, chests heaving.  He rolled back to lie down next to you again.  "Was that enough, or do you want more?"  he got out between breaths.
"Mmh..." you exhaled heavily, flipping to lie on your side facing away from him, "Too much for now..."
"Alright." You knew he was grinning at you with his teeth exposed. He scooted closer to you and wrapped his arm around your waist. You sighed and closed your eyes as he buried his nose in your hair.
And it was just...this. This sweet, unbroken peace, that the two of you shared, only interrupted when there was rapping at the door and Orville called, "You uh...are you guys...busy?"
"No, Orville. We'll be there soon," Philo called back, still staying as he was holding you.
"A'right." He walked away.
Philo turned you around and gave you one more peck on the lips, holding the sides of your face. "Come on," he smiled, "Let's go have dinner."  Smiling as well, you gave a nod of your head, and the both of you got out on opposing sides of the bed and got dressed.  Clyde was already sitting next to Orville, and they were eating.  Like everytime, Philo sat next to Clyde, and you sat next to him.  There was a fifth unoccupied chair between Orville and you. Again, the dining was accompanied by light chatter.
After the dishes were done, Philo opened the door to let Clyde out again, but Clyde clung onto his legs.  "Oh...okay," his human acknowledged.  He closed the doors and carried Clyde, seating him on one arm.  Philo joined you on the couch that was in the middle this time. "What do you guys wanna do now?" he asked, looking past Clyde to the two of you.
You shrugged, "Wanna watch a movie?" Clyde immediately jumped off Philo's lap and onto the couch, banging his fists against his chest and going "Ooh ooh ooh!" The three of you threw your heads back with laughter.
"He wants to watch King Kong!" you laughed.
"I was only three years old when that came out," Philo grinned toothily.
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"We- weren't even born yet," you pondered, looking at your lap.
"I'll go get it," Philo said, standing up. You each had brought a selection of movies that might be wanted at any time. King Kong did not conform to this, but there was always a friend to think about. Philo went into the room and came out not long after, holding the casing in his hand. He put the DVD in the reader and let it play. And in the end, it was online Clyde who actually watched the film. The three humans fell asleep early into the film. Philo and you fell asleep, your head on his shoulder and his head on yours, and his arm around your lower back. Orville, who had laid down so that he could prop his head up on the armrest and watch the television, just shifted backwards so that the armrest was comfortably under his neck, and he fell asleep like that, hands resting on his abdomen. Clyde considerately clambered onto the remaining couch to carry out his capers as he happily watched the movie. When it ended, he turned off the television and jumped back onto the third couch to sleep.
The next day saw no less in pleasantness.  After a nice breakfast prepared by Philo, the process of which was carried out while Orville was allowed to sleep in, the three of you took to fishing for lunch and dinner.  Clyde played in the branches above your heads.  The mood was generally lazy and mellow.
And then, it happened. Several fish in, Philo just held up his most recent catch, staring at it. From the corner of his eye, he saw you turn your head to look at him.  Before you could say anything, he swung the fish and slapped you square in the face.
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"WAH!" was your cry as you slipped and fell into the water.
Orville was laughing so hard that no sound was emitted from him.  Philo was just staring down at you, tittering to himself.  He still had a hold on the fish.  Your head broke the surface, along with your spluttering and spitting.  In return, you spewed a steady stream of water at him, standing up so that you could reach his face.  "Hey, wha-" he vocalised, turning his face away and putting his hands out to stop the water from reaching his face, dropping the fish in the process.  You quickly picked up the fish, the poor thing which had died due to shock upon impact, and sent him down.  Orville was wheezing by now.  The two of you played like this for some time, with Orville, and Clyde, who came to join him, laughing away.
Philo had to bear the task of preparing dinner after he showered, because he was the one who was not tired.  You were tired out from playing with him so energetically, and Orville was lying on his bed, making his belly ache worse as he kept on wheezing.  Even as he was showering he had had difficulty breathing.  As for Philo, he was as miraculously tireless as ever.  You did not know how he did it.  He was amazing.  You yourself had taken the precaution of showering instead of bathing this time, so that you did not fall asleep with the warm water submerging you.  After putting on warm clothing, you were facedown on your shared bed, spread eagle with your nose buried in the sheets. Now you could safely doze of. It was justified as well that you were not too deep asleep, for it seemed all too soon when you felt a loving hand on your shoulder shaking you awake.  You got up and followed him to the table.  You ate your food quickly so that you could go back to sleep as soon as possible.  Philo had a loving hand stroking up and down your back the entire time you were within his arm's reach.  When he saw you were almost finished, he murmured from behind a spoonful that you could leave your cutlery as it was and he would take care of it. As he was speaking, you had finished and sprung to your feet, wanting to use your last bit of energy to propel you to the place where you did not need to consciously use energy. But when you heard what he said, you stepped over to him and gave him a long hug, bending down and closing your eyes. He closed his eyes and held you too.  You stood like that for a while, until you gently pushed him to look up at you.  He looked at you with those searching eyes, his gaze gentle and yet held so much power over you.
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But it only lasted for a moment, because you closed your eyes and kissed him. He reciprocated, sweetly and meaningfully. When oxygen was needed, you pulled back and rested your forehead against his, breathing deeply. "Go to sleep, sweetheart," he murmured, stroking your hair. You gave him one last smile and a peck on the nose before moving fully away. You went and brushed your teeth, and then just collapsed on the bed, not caring how you slept. But later on, you found out that Philo had moved you into a more comfortable position, because when you woke up the next morning, you found yourself securely held by him, right by his side like always.
That day itself was also to be one of perfect happiness.  The three of you were fishing again.  It was just the four you and the fish.  Nobody was paying attention to anything that was going on in the world.
An unexpected, yet not unwelcome voice called out, "Room for one more?"
"JACK!"  you exclaimed, dropping your fishing rod and running to him. He was about to say something, but you pounced on him and hugged him. You loved giving hugs, whether it was to Philo, Clyde, Orville, or any other good friend. And Philo encouraged the good sportsmanship.
Jack was laughing as he held onto you.  "Hey.  Didn't know you'd be that excited to see me."
"We missed you when we parted," you confessed, stepping back to look at him, your hands on his shoulders.  You made way for Philo.
"Hey," your boyfriend greeted.  The fighters clasped hands. "What're you doing here?" he asked.
"Am done fighting for a few weeks. Thought I'd look for you. Went to your place, ran into a senile old woman, barely understood that you were at a lake.  Had to go on a bit of a hunt.  But, here I am."
"Yeah...sorry about my mother..." Orville said forlornly.
"Oh, that's all right. I'm just glad to be here," Jack said as he and Orville shook hands.
"So, are you staying?" Philo asked him.
"Only if I'm permitted," he smiled. Before any of you could say anything, a hairy figure dropped down from the branch above Jack and hugged him. Jack held him up as easily as the rest of you did. "Okay. Now you can move in," Philo smiled.
"Great. I'll go get my stuff." He turned on his heel and walked off, presumably to his car.
"You two continue fishing. I'll give him a tour," Philo said, going to pick up his fishing rod and lean it against a tree.
"Okay," you acknowledged.  So Orville and you picked up your fishing rods too, but you actually used them.
After Philo showed Jack his room among other things, they came back out.  It seemed that the fighters had decided on something as they were talking, because they were indeed dressed for fighting.  Philo was wearing a white shirt- not the one that had been torn, and a pair of jeans.  Jack was in his light blue tank top and slacks.  "Thought you said you were retired, Philo!"  you teased.
"Yeah well," he smirked, looking at Jack and flexing his fist which he was already holding up, "nothing like catching up with a noble opponent."
"Thank you," Jack smiled, getting into a boxing stance and holding his fists up in front of him as well. They started bouncing on their feet, bobbing from side to side, and circling each other.
"Just don't break anything," you reminded them.
As always, Philo waited for his opponent to throw the first punch. He did, and that commenced the fighting. They fought without even coming close and accidentally harming Orville and you. You two caught more fish than usual, since Philo was. not fishing, and there was one more person to feed.
There was enough fish to last five people until dinner.  Lunch for five had already been prepared.  And the fighters were still going!  The three other people stood in the doorway and watched.  And finally,  finally, Philo knocked Jack back against a vertical beam supporting the roof of the porch.  They were drenched in sweat, heaving deep breaths.  "You wanna..."  Philo stopped to pant here, "stop here?"
Jack nodded, and caught his breath to give a, "Yeah."  This was how it almost had been six months ago.  The five of you went inside.  Now the once unoccupied chair has a purpose.  The tired gentlemen sank heavily onto the chairs.  Orville and you got to setting the table, and Clyde opened the refrigerator and took out two cans of beer.  He brought them over to Philo and Jack.  "Thanks," Philo said as he took his.  Jack petted his head.
After a slow, refreshing lunch, the five of you were just sprawled out on the couches. "So, you lift engine blocks," Jack spoke, "How'd you get the strength in the first place?"
"Well, I did start out by lifting lighter weights. I do do other strength work from time to time too."
"Like what?"
"Oh, pumping. I have (y/n) or Clyde on my back while I do it. Makes me push myself more."
"I gotta try that," Jack grinned. With that, he dropped down to his hands and toes. "Come on. Get down. And get Clyde or (y/n) on your back."
"Oh, I get my girl," Philo turned his head to grin at you from the floor. "Clyde." He used his head to motion to Jack. You each got on your respective sports man. You carefully lay on Philo's back, putting your hands on his shoulders and situating your toes on his calves. Orville just watched and but his lip, bemused at such a wholesome situation.
Later that night, you went into the kitchen to get yourself something light to eat and drink. Philo followed you. You were against the counter, and turned around only to come face-to chest with him. “Hey,” he said softly, smiling. You greeted him the exact same way. He leant in and kissed you, your arms wrapping around each other. He backed you up against the counter, so that you were halfway sitting on it. He lifted you up and seated you on the counter fully, then stepping forwards and pushing you to him so that your legs wrapped around his waist. You giggled into the kiss, making him do so too.
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kindafooey · 3 years
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I've left tumblr and the GF fandom a while ago (though I'm still hoping to come back to the latter someday, like putting on comfy old clothes) but I think of you and your amazing creative energy sometimes and I just.... :'3 the fics I read by you were a delight and I always took pleasure in reading your posts on tumblr too. I hope life is treating you well and I wish you the best <3 (gosh, even your blog layout hasn't changed and you still have the lovieliest billford craft as pfp, thank you <3)
UHH so I promised to answer this "tomorrow", and today isn't tomorrow, tomorrow was yesterday... (I had a wicked bad migraine attack last night so I actually have a legit reason haha but I still feel bad) BUT ANYWAY HI ANON OMG. This ask made me so freaking happy and I dunno who you are but I hope you're swell! (Well, as swell as anyone can be these days, anyway.)
The reason I postponed answering this until my day off is because this ask actually made me feel things that I wanted to address without the usual afterwork brain fog. What you said about hoping to come back to the GF fandom gave me feelings and thinky thoughts, because... I haven't really been able to define even to myself what my current relationship with my main fandom is after I finished Blood Chains (which was well over half a year ago). Honestly, I... felt a little burnt out? Like, not just with the fic, but with Gravity Falls in general. There were no negative feelings involved, but for a long time, whenever I tried to focus on anything GF-related, my brain just drew a blank. Like, no emotional or cognitive response whatsoever. Like the whole Gravity Falls universe (or multiverse lol) felt oddly foreign to me for a while. Then again, that sort of applied to everything from my other interests to social relations while it lasted, sooo it might've actually been more of a general level depressive phase than a fandom-related thing.
Dunno why I feel the need to ramble about this, but... Well, whatever depressive phase I had is definitely showing signs of passing, and I've been having GF thoughts again - not lots, but some! And it feels good, but at the same time it's like. I'm aware that the fandom isn't really active anymore, like, at all. Well, almost. And I while I do feel the pull to the fandom again and plan to put my focus back on the Blood Chains novelization project as soon as the cover art is finished, and then move on to one of my WIP fics that I never got around starting properly... See, I have these personal pet projects, but it's kinda like wandering a quiet empty hallway and blasting my favorite music through earphones... you know? There's no sense of community anymore. I desperately want to make all my yet-to-be-written fic ideas reality, and I'd prolly get a handful of readers for them too, but... I dunno. I feel like the cliques and fandom subsections were formed and solified long ago and most of them have already faded away, and whatever content I may still create or consume are just separate little stalls in what's now a very desolate marketplace.
That doesn't change the fact that I'm still drawn to the GF fandom and plan to contribute more in the future, you know, for posterity if nothing else. Still, feels weird.
...ANYWAY. I love Gravity Falls and Billford to death and you can bet you won't be seeing my blog carrying any other main theme any time soon. Even if 98% of my content isn't GF-related, well, at least for now. :D
I thank you for this ask, anon, and hope you may one day make your comfy comeback! Maybe we can hang or collab or something when you do. 😁 Even at the risk of jinxing it, ima go ahead and wish you a mad dope 2021!! Have a hug gif to end with and make up for this awfully rambly answer:
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