#and I really will try and write the chapters beforehand 🙏

[nyctoheart]

Okay... I'm definitely not ready to say anything about this elsewhere so what u read here stays here PLEEEAAAAASE 🙏😭 I'll split it into sections so its easier to digest LOL

Okay, I finally admit it aloud:

Reading orion's reply to this post about me having "I turned my hobby into a task"-itis really struck me. I've felt it to be true for about a year now but kept it inside...

When writing my super doc in April, I thought "I can't wait until I never think about Daybreak Town again." And the idea of me restarting all over with KHML if it gets overly-complicated too... ugh

So I think in a year at the earliest, I'm going to try leaving the KH community. I will keep this beloved blog and still play future KH titles, but I want to focus on my real life. I want a career, but I'm 26 and have made no strides towards it at all. I want my driver's license and an onsite job! I don't want my life to revolve around sitting at my computer anymore.

what this means for my projects:

But I can't stop now since I'd let down people I made promises to. I said I would release all of X-position as videos, and I literally just started a new podcast with my friend Hannah like 2 weeks ago... Both projects I said yes to while still thinking about how burnt out on KH I am... What is wrong with me!

the podcast: I double-checked to see that Hannah doesn't follow me here because I really I don't want to hurt her, I love her and don't want to let her down. I want the podcast to continue at least a year before breaking this to her. I counted our topics up to DDD, and that already gives us 50+ topics, plenty for a weekly release. Plus, I do like the idea of helping new KH fans learn without being spoiled, it's why I said yes to begin with!

as for my youtube channel, I'll make an announcement after X-Position is entirely out. I will give my Patreon a heads up beforehand, so they can decide to keep supporting until the end or not, but I will close it entirely when the channel ends. I planned other videos outside of KHUX, but they'll have to be good-ol'-fashion text analyses here.

And as for my webcomic, this hurts too because I LOVED writing it! I want to finish the 7th chapter I started long ago, then release the entire story as text, and then finally release a certain chapter that I was really looking forward to illustrating.

leftover feelings:

It sucks too because my IRL friends are new KH fans, so they're all learning things I've known for years, making jokes I've heard for years. They think I'm still in it for the long haul, one of them just bought all of us matching seasalt icecream charms 😭 How do I break it to them that I want to move on from KH. I feel like a movie where a washed up gunman wants to retire LOL

I have journaled (and sometimes cried lol) about this almost daily for the past 2 weeks, but that comment orion made (with multiple seconding replies!) made me go ".... ok yeah I have to talk about this." It just feels SO cathartic seeing people say aloud what I have been feeling. It gives me the courage to continue until the end and not like... fake my death online LOL AAAAAA—

if this was 2019 I would have thought "yeah I'll just stop, people won't mind that much" because my philosophy was what I did online wasn't THAT important to people (tone I truly say this with: at peace, content, meditative). But ever since 2020, it feels like the internet is so important to people's values and focus, it's scarier to leave things!

#ANYWAAYYYYYY #life was easier when I just made gifs and the most complicated game was DDD LOL

[ipoxcky]

SQUAD 312 AND MONOPOLY HCS

canonically, it would take place at the end of chapter 7 of aurora burning. what if instead of frennet, kal, fin, auri and scar woke up z and ty, and the gang played monopoly?

finian would be praying to the maker each turn. he would always land in the community chest or chance between 3 hotels when he’s broke and he'd be like “maker, i’m not sure what i’ve done to deserve this, BUT THANK YOU🙏🙏🙏”

tyler would be a stickler for the rules. always enforcing them and then reading them verbatim whenever they got violated. he could SENSE whenever you landed on his property and owed him rent. HE WOULD FEEL IT BRO

tyler would almost own an entire color set—but scarlett would buy the last one missing and would refuse to give it to him bc she’s j evil 😭she’d always get what she wanted though because her deals would be perfect

zila would be like almost insane because she’d try to stop herself from calculating the probabilities of any one property being landed on and basically ruining the “game” aspect of it for herself…she would be the banker but even those calculations wouldn’t keep her at bay 😭

kal would be put on a team with aurora, and even after studying the manual for like two hours beforehand he would still whisper to aurora occassionally like “aurora, what is an ‘avenue?’” “i am not the best with syldrathi economics, let alone terran. however i am fond of war strategies. if this auction allows things to get physical, i will get us that property, be’shmai.”

“so, these false credits will allow us to purchase these false properties when it is our turn? we have to roll the ‘dice’ to determine those odds? well, fate can only decide that…that is the objective? i see. this terran game is quite fascinating.” (side note i’m so mad that i didn’t write this down as soon as i thought of it at 2am bc i had the PERFECT kaliis dialogue in my mind like it was so canon bro i’m fuming)

because auri’s from the actual time, she can make up any rules that she wants, so she just gaslights everyone and makes up rules as she goes “well, back in my time, people collected 500$ as they passed go. let’s play it that way. yeah, you could get passes on really bad rent if you strike a deal with the person. if you roll doubles you can roll again, but if you roll three doubles you go to jail.” 

#booklr #ya fiction #aurora's end #aurora rising #aurora burning #headcanons #kaliis idraban gilwraeth #tyler jones #aurora cycle #finian de seel #kaliis gilwraeth

[lalazeewrites]

I'd be so intrigued to learn a little more about your writing process if you are willing to share! I saw on twitter that you don't really edit your fics, and I was just so amazed as I often find it very tricky to get things like tone and pacing right straight off the bat, but you just so consistently knock it out the park!

Do you tend to outline a lot beforehand, and edit at all as you go? Do you ever brainstorm for imagery and word choice? Or are you just able to have things pop into your mind?

I hope you don't mind the question, and I know everyone's process is different! I'm just curious as you are a writer I really look up to, and I often wonder what goes on behind the scenes 😊 I'm finding ways to try to get better at writing myself, and slowly working out a process that doesn't drive me crazy!

Thank you for blessing us with all your works ❤️🙏

Hello, lovely friend! You're welcome to ask me questions any time!

It's true that I don't actively edit my fics! However, I do HEAVILY outline. I am an extremely outline dependent person. With a one shot that's maybe 10-15k, I won't require an outline, because the entire premise is in my head, but anything longer than that receives a very detailed outline.

I don't know how people write longfic without outlines. For me, I need to have the full concept of each chapter or scene, ready and waiting in my head.

My style of editing is to back-read my piece as I'm writing it. If I'm on Day 2 of writing, I'm going to read everything I wrote on Day 1 in order to get back into the writing mindset, and I'll tweak things as I do that. This leads to me not editing AT ALL when I reach the end of the fic. I most often do not even do a final read-through by then because I feel like I've back-read enough times.

In terms of conceptualizing, brain storming, word choices, etc. . .This falls under my outlining. When I start a fic, I'm already thinking 'okay, this is going to be snappy, light-hearted and funny' or 'this is going to be lethargic, dreamy, verbose' or 'this is going to be imagery-heavy', and then I just run with that vibe.

All that being said, my work tends to have plenty of typos or whatever, and part of my dedication to writing for fun is just letting it go. I really try to think of my writing as just some fun thing I'm simply sharing with my friends. I'm not allowing myself to hold my writing to the standard of a novel or allowing myself to introduce stress into my writing environment. I tend to get A LOT stressed within my writing when I'm writing FOR someone because then the pressure exists for it to be 'good', whereas when I'm writing fic for pure fun, I don't give much of a shit if other people think it's 'good' as long as I'm enjoying it lol.

This was probably more than what you wanted or needed to know! But thank you for asking!!! Sending all my love!

#asks