#and because im fat drs always think im lying and im actually eating trigger foods and they dont velieve me when i say

[violentviolette]

I really fucking hate having ibs. like this has genuinely ruined my life and my health in so many ways and its so fucking frustrating

I haven't eaten anything since Friday because I haven't had weed and thats the only thing that gives me an appetite anymore. my stomach doesn't hurt at all but obviously I'm weak and shakey and tired and just all around feel exaughsted because my body has literally no nutrients to keep it going

but then I make myself some soup, which I have to make from scratch so it has none of my trigger foods which takes a lot of effort and energy that i already dont have but i push myself and do it anyway and im not even 3 fucking spoonfuls into this fucking broth and already my intestines are cramping and my kidneys feel like someone donkey kicked them

like im literally gonna fucking cry. i dont eat im exaughsted and feel like shit I do eat im in excruciating pain like wtf!!! am I supposed to do!!!

and im still fucking sober!!!

#jack.speaks #someone come shoot me #pls #ibs #i woke up at 7 fucking pm today #i slept over 12 hours #im just so done and i dont know what to do and none of the drs ive seen have been any fucking help #everyone just wants to give me lists of foods i cant eat and its like well then wtf do i fucking eat????? #and because im fat drs always think im lying and im actually eating trigger foods and they dont velieve me when i say #that i absolutely am not bdcause if i eat a trigger food im in so much pain i cant even stand #and its like if one more fucking dr gives me a diet rec and nothing else im gonna fucking nuke all of Pittsburg #i had a fucking precancerous pollup removed from my fucking intestines this year like im not just fucking sitting #eating fucking ice cream and pizza and garlic!!! #fuck i need to go back to sleep im havinf a fucking meltdown over *soup*