#and how he manged to recreated every single one of tyler hoechlin's mannerisms as derek PERFECTLY

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just had the most awful thought that. what if when derek was turned into his 16yo self and then turned back into his 23(?)yo self he got back memories about his family he'd lost since the fire. like. he'd forgotten how his dad had handed him his lunch that morning and kissed his cheek and messed up his gelled hair. the sound of his little brother's laugh when their mom groomed him in her full shift. how his youngest cousin's first word was 'der'. the way cora followed their older brother around demanding he read her favorite book over and over because he was the only one who could do the voices right. how her twin brother was never far behind. his mom seeing all the kids off in the morning waiting by the front door and scenting them as they passed. every friday his aunt picked them all up from school and took them out for ice cream. or that one time peter signed him out of school early for no reason other than a day trip to the beach. how his younger cousin always hid laura's butterfly clips and snuck them into his pockets so she'd blame him. or the way his dad's hugs felt. the way his youngest sister lit up whenever she saw him. how his grandma always had room in her rocking chair for him and stroked his hair as she taught him a different language. how his grandpa hummed old rock songs in the kitchen. the way his uncle made midnight snacks with him while everyone else was asleep. he'd remembered all the large pack gatherings and holidays and full moon runs but forgotten the little things over time. memories he wants to share with peter who shuts down every time he tries. memories that cora herself doesn't remember. memories he takes when he visits laura's grave, sharing them with his older sister, who will listen but never reply or jump in and finish them, filling in the blanks. memories he tells malia, letting her know family she never knew but lost all the same. memories he hoards to himself when no one can remember with him.

brb sobbing all of this is canon now

#first of all you are such a beautiful writer #so creative and imaginative #second of all #i'm not kidding this is canon now i fully believe this happened #third of all #choosing to believe the peter picking derek up from school and taking him to the beach #is inspired by ian bohen and tyler hoechlin's real life shenanigans #and fourth of all because i have to make everything about sterek #one day derek tells stiles the truth about that day #and stiles takes it in silently #replaying that day in his head #and everything that happened that day seems so different with this new information #when he finally speaks all he says is #do you want to tell me about them someday? #and after he does stiles remembers with him #also while we're talking about young derek #can we just take a minute to appreciate the actor who played him #and how he manged to recreated every single one of tyler hoechlin's mannerisms as derek PERFECTLY #right down to the exact same eyebrow arch #anyway #please enjoy this essay in the tags #i love when you dump hale family feels in my inbox #also i'm sorry i didn't respond last night #i was listening to (wasted) on the moon and soaked on repeat and dancing around my room under my twinkle lights #derek hale #teen wolf #agentmmayy #asks