#and i knew she was looking at me we even made fycking eye contact

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sometimes I wish I could just,,,, delete everything I ever done

#i dont even like venting like this #especially because i know i was in the wrong #and the other person had every right im the world to complain and say that i made them uncomfortable #hell #i thabk them for it #i NEED this kind of criticism to become a better person #like #i apologized #understood where i was wrong #did all tge right actions #(or at least i think #i thoight and thought and thought again about it and im oretty sure i did everything right #i hope i did) #and any normal person would be like #cool beans now i can go on and not make the same mistake #but my brain is like #SIKE #youre gonna cry and feel guilty anout it all fucking day #i cried on the fucking bus #and i knew she was looking at me we even made fycking eye contact #and i even almost failed the twst because of my bullshit brain #amd now i feel guilty for venting because i AM in the wrong and i do not want #a pity part #or to victimize myself #you know? #maybe its just the rain #weather aleays affected me #i hope it goes away soon #my friend has been super nice to me and i wanna be able to be happy abiut it #vent