#and then the next to weeks fucking blow

[catmanbowser]

Someone should blow me up so i dont have to do college anymore..

#do this deadline next week also dont forget abt other 700 works u need to do with the same deadline #KYS....IM SICK NASTY TIRED.... #need to sit down and DRAW for MYSELF... #and finish other things aghhhgghhshsgahahagsggsgghhhhhh #sending threats is a fucking low blow...like really? if you dint pay tuition then fuck you drop out #GOOD. I DONT CARE ANYMORE. #i cant get the pacing right this is going horribly <3

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Trying to cut down on making kms jokes so I’ve come up with a solution: say I’m gonna kill god instead

#alternatives to this include: I will become a god (Bellerophon style except I just won’t die) #I will kill jfk #I will blow up the earth #and I will steal the moon #ignore the Bellerophon ref I’m doing the Greek mythology portion of tests for my Latin convention next week #and that story is the funniest shit to me ngl #my guy killed a lion and said ‘aight bet I’m a god now’ #and then the gods were like ‘fuck you no you’re not’ #anyways. this got off topic fast #madurday night live

[moon9931]

time for another 7 dayz

let's do this!!!!

OH AND ALSO

Tw: Blood and gore (its my first time drawing gore sorry if its bad)

day 15 (oh noe his pie)

day 16 (I don't like sewage stuff so take the cheese man)

day 17 (NOISE WHAT DID YOU GIVE HIM???)

day 18 (I just wanted to draw the wererat that Gustavo turns into in the level)

day 19

day 20 (I'm actually really proud of this one)

day 21

Okay I'm done for the week

#okay #tag time!!!! #yay. #*cracks knuckles* #OW- FUCK- I gotta stop doing that.. #pizza tower #pizzatober #pizzatober2023 #pizzatowertober #peppino spaghetti #Gustavo pt (a lil) #the noise #pizzelle sugary spire #tw: blood #tw: gore #okay this'll be back next week #bye ❤ #*blows kisses just because*

[m0e-ru]

crazy to think there isnt really anybody else that loves mimi as much as me just like me. chair car adventurer nation where are you

#kommento #// monthly gotta step back and realize i am straight up not normal #// crazy how niche obscure communities either get along and share a warrior's bond or you live in the same apartment complex and #// would rather not see each other's faces for the next 5 summers you live with each other #// or that im the crazy researcher neighbor with things blowing up in my apartment every week and i have 7 locks onthe door or something #// while i dont specialize in anything i have to appreciate i can actually do these things #// if i ever get my hands on a resin 3d printer or a working sewing machine or upgrade pc with stronger gpu it's fucking over for all of yo

[prideenvylovehate]

thinking about a fic plot where everything is the same except that Tom and Greg had already met each other before the pilot, nine years ago. Greg was 20 and just about to finish his zoology major and Tom was 35, attempting baby steps towards the corporate world. and of course they have their issues then but they're lighter, more content, free-spirited, so to speak. it was only supposed to be weekend break, somewhere near the sea to chill, but then they meet, and kiss, and they're so astounded they end up spending one whole week together because it's just like a dream. then the harsh reality of the real world starts to call. and maybe there's a misunderstanding, they separate thinking they've been rejected by the other, they lose touch. the next time they see each other again is when greg shows up in logan's party, lost and in the need of a job, to come face to face to a very-much-committed-to-shiv tom, older, wilder, but still beautiful. still tom.

#oh my god their first encounter would be so stressful for both of them #ofc tom'd feel super threatened and neurotic. seeing greg next to the roys would simply send him to the edge #in private greg would try to talk about it and tom'd be like. tell anyone about that week and i'll fucking kill you. i will. #he'd say that it was a mistake... ofc thats his years and years of repression talking #but still he offers greg a job. he still says he'll take care of him #because he had felt something on that week that he never felt anywhere else. because greg had never really left his mind. #so they start working together and try really hard to bury it all. cruises happens #the wedding happens #but when it turns 10 years since that week. it all blows up. their feelings find their way to the surface again. #they kiss and kiss and kiss and it's all still so complicated. but at least they're together again. #tomgreg

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎 #the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover #and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol #i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4 #years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes. #and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd #but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this #i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that #i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck #also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not #give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care #i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess #but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol #i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^ #the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur #here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school #i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional #so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-] #but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her #also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im #dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide #unrelated

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[featsofdaringdo]

the books a million by me is closing (they raised the rent per month by like 11k) so i went a little crazy

#so fucking unfair and so fucking unsurprising #theyve been at that location for like 20 years #28k a month???? the lady checking me out telling me this was nearly in tears i was like man i get it this blows so hard #but the sales tho #ill go again next week to see whats left itll be a ghost town in like 2 weeks #and then i suspect the only thing that ever goes in there again is a spirit halloween

[bugsbenefit]

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#killing myself and everyone else my grandma who we're taking care of was smart enough to go visit someone at the hospital #without putting a mask on #so she gave my mom covid for christmas 😑🎉 #pack it up everybody christmas is canceled #time for my immunocompromised dad and me to hole up in our rooms for the next week and pray to fuck he didn't catch it too #this is funnier if you're european btw because christmas is on the 24th not the 25th. so she literally got covid on christmas. nice #if it didn't cancel the whole holiday for us it'd be funnily impressive she managed to get it on the exact date #bc she tested yesterday and was still negative #also my grandma came over to us today. while still sick. to bring us a pan. and she was surprised we didn't want to talk to her at the door #...wow #anyways. christmas over for me this year #i usually only celebrate with my mom dad and grandparents and none of us are religious at all #but this blows so much christmas to new years is usually the only time everyone has time to see each other :( #anyways time to wait and see if my dad and i will get it too i guess #i rarely do the good old tag vent tumblr staple so lets shake it up for the holidays

[irawhiti]

i need to visit my parents and go foraging out where they live since it's near a quiet beach but that unfortunately requires visiting my parents

#i have Bad nightmares about them at least once a week but i know it'd be alright for like just visiting for a week with my own tent outside #i know it won't be as fucking awful as when i lived with them since nothing can really fester within a week but i'm still like 😬 #i need to visit anyway because like it or not mum is next on my arm and we need to talk about moko stuff #also i genuinely think living in a tent with a blow up mattress for a few days would be a lot more comfortable than what i have right now #since i'd at least have a bed. i miss having a bed. lord lol

[gentaroukisaragi]

Kingohger was made to pander to me specifically perhaps

#i just caught up on the last two eps and oh boy! i actually do love this show a lot #we've got: intense gay relationship between the yellow and the purple based mostly on the fact that a guy killed the yellows parents #we got hot reaper guy who fucking sucks (he was. so very hot) #we got Jeramies big PR nightmare for the bugnarok in ep 29 #we got whatever Jeramie and Gira have going on #WE HAVE GEROUJIM EVERYONE CHEER AND CLAP YOUR HANDS FOR GEROJIM RIGHT THIS FUCKING INSTANT OR I'LL BLOW THIS PLACE UP #i love this show so fucking much ahhh #r u bugking kidding me #for real for real for real #(also while i do kinda fucking hate the mechs in this show i am glad we're finally have a giant battle again next week after what i believe #is a month long dry spell? in fucking super sentai the giant robot show? [after spider-man obv] which is insane but i love characters and i #like plot)

[thedarklyblue]

i want to KICK someone !!!

#.txt #just bein cranky it's not a whole thing but i can and will complain #dislike my asm. he just fucking rubs me the wrong way #hes a big fan of bitching which just makes me anxious i don't see value in it #i don't want to think about how rehearsal sucks and he doesn't want to be here today i want to be excited that it's the last rehearsal #before break #feels like hes doubting me like the guy will not stop asking when i'll set up a prop table #today specifically he keeps snorting. like the gross wet 'i know you have a runny nose but go blow it and be done' #he's not actually that good at his main job like the kid is basically just on book rn #but it takes him a full fifteen seconds to find where he is when people call line #and he still looked at me today and said 'yeah i think i have the harder job rn you're just watching some lines and i'm following all of it' #well Not Well #also fuck you cues are complicated and i have to watch the full script just as much #and hes decided to sit next to me which is fine i guess #except im at the tech table so now he's blocking my way out of the row and i keep having to get up #and hes In The Way and just looks at me and goes 'oh do you want me to get that' #ALSO note on his job 'being harder' hes literally on a pokemon tier list maker half the time #he works in costumes and keeps passive-agressively being like 'huh. why am i the scenic liason when i work in costumes. inconvenient.' #guess what it's because i don't trust you to be costumes liason #she asks a lot and you complain if scenic needs you more than twice a week #he complains when he has nothing to do and he complains when he has something to do and he's one of those #self described leftist communists who literally just complains about how everything sucks and he could do it better #like go off but stop bitching dear god i don't want to be around you #it would be more complicated and i'd have to spend more time here but i think i could run this more smoothly my fucking self #but he's my only asm and i really should have one. #he wants to be a full stage manager and like................ #i want to work on next year's jterm show so bad. i didn't want to be above an asm. but he's applying to stage manage it #and if he's in charge i am literally not doing it #so guess who's applied to be sm bc i have seniority. #so yeah he gets on my nerves

[waywardsalt]

ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it

(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)

i… am not excited for totk?

i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.

botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.

so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?

i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.

the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule

and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to

so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to

i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest

maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw

at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything

i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion

#salty talks #kinda personal? just angsting abt totk and being a lil negative abt it #at this point im not expecting it to blow me away. i no longer have fun playing botw. i do not care for the story or characters #this if anything is to soothe my nerves and is for the sake of my own wellbeing to articulate how i feel about this #it is cool to like. put your feelings into words. this is a lot more eloquent than ‘i miss linebeck’ #it feels kinda selfish to bitch abt a game thats not out yet and complain abt it not seeming enjoyable to me #but it looks like a genuinely good game. but its not for me. and thats what im ruminating on here #like i love linear stories games that limit you and fun little gimmicks and characters with complex arcs and all that #i played a little bit of skyward sword earlier and was finishing up the cistern dungeon and was so delighted to see the main statue lowered #i love the dungeons with gimmicks that flip everything around and force you to really think abour your next move #im excited to reach the water temple in oot again to swim around and tinker with the water level #i cant wait to finish oot and move onto mm and its wonderful gameplay and areas #id love to revisit albw and get back to playing ph (and maybe finishing triforce heroes idk abt that one i just want the linebeck outfit) #i played botw for like ten minutes a few weeks ago and then put it away without a second thought #so. if anyone wanted to know how i feel abt totk. its a bit alienating #i might blacklist every variation of ze/ink tbh. sayonara you weeaboo shits and your bland fucking milquetoast ship thats kinda irritating #i may delete this bc it errs on the side of being too personal but i really just need to write this stuff downh #anyways. going back to writing my thing abt my oc n linebeck hanging out and being gay

[devinwolfi]

happy best blowing him up thursday ever good luck and good night

#blowing him up thursday #unless something else wild happens in the next 7 days ill probably hold off for a week or two #give us all a break from my nonsense #anyways this has been so fucking funny #peace and love on planet earth but especially to my mutuals #and also the two blogs with whom im not mutuals but still have some sense thank god

[kinglypup]

fuck i need to hang out with my friend

#im dying i need attention immediately #but im defo gonna have to wait till next week #which is so sad #every day is going by so fuckinh slow and im spending like all day job searching and stressing about apartments #i just need to blow off some steam and i need to kiss my hot friend and also fuck him and get my dick sucked #im so antsy #mine

[maraeffect]

lowkey have to explain to my dad today that i’m having a leg amputated in less than a month and i’m (::: scared!

#i hope he doesn't take it too badly and respects my decision bc i really don't feel like it's my job to comfort him about MY leg #autumn keeps tellling me that none of that is my job and that if he has burning questions he can google them #and i know she's right but god damn is it hard to set a boundary like that #this whole situation is so complicated and i honestly thought i'd have more time to tell him but. shit kept popping up #i decided this months ago but i just never said anything bc i was afraid of the reaction i'd elicit #so !!! wish me luck yall #also the fact that it's in less than a month (tentatively) is blowing MY mind #like im getting a new cat next wednesday and after like #2.5 weeks he'll have to be settled enough for me to go have surgery out of town for 5 days #that's fucking scary bro #chatter #round 2