#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎

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#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎 #the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover #and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol #i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4 #years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes. #and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd #but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this #i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that #i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck #also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not #give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care #i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess #but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol #i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^ #the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur #here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school #i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional #so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-] #but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her #also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im #dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide #unrelated

[khaleesiofalicante]

Verament ma kontx naf liema lingwa nagħżel għalih, għalhekk nagħżel waħda b'"M" fuqha

Good news, I have a week of vacations!! Yay!! Bad news: I need to clean my whole room bc I need to pain it smh. Anyway, how are you btw? Have you finished all the documents you needed?

I'm kinda scared, but lets go!! Also I will try to keep it short bc it was just a fucking great chapter and I loved every single thing, but we would be here all day if I told you how much I ADORE it 💙

"He wasn’t historically great at talking about things anyway." SAME BRO

FEEL YOU. Honestly why is he so relatable?? The dreams, the ocean, the difficult talks.... I relate to him a lot!!!

YES TO CLEANING THE OCEAN AND GETTING GREAT ARMS😎

ELYASS YAS!!

“If it’s there when I check, I am locking you inside the closet.” “That’s homophobic,” Max pointed out. (my parents ALWAYS say that to me, but I cant tell that joke yet😂)

CLARY IS SUCH A LOVE🥺💙

We'd love to see David in basketball short👀

Simon, Lexi, Jace and David playing>>>

Jace be like: You can take whatever you want, BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT CUDDLING PRIVILEGES

HE. FUCKING. KISSED. HIS. WRIST🥺

Max be like: Mark me down as horny and sad😎

Shopping!! Hell yeah!!! (Also who gave David the right to look so good?? I'm looking respectfully...)

Ok, that boy was weird ngl....

My bby scared of his power🥺

THEY GOT HIM A FUCKING JAGUAR.

“So, they got you a car?” Max grumbled. “Mine are trying to get me to go to therapy.” (Is it the worst idea tho....?)

No one can blame Max.. He must look HOT

Not the child fault, I know but WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Look at him!! He's got anxiety and self-seem issues already!!!

NO HONEY YOU ARE NOT A DEMON YOU ARE PRECIOUS AND WITH A GOOD HEART!!!!!

I love how David gets him💙 Also he is sweet and gentleman and basically owns my heart

BLOOD DOESN'T DEFINE YOU BABY?!!!

"When shit happened, the insecurities and anxieties came rushing up again. And he was back where he started." Ugh, thats the worst. Its so tiring sometimes...

Ok, but ✨ANJALI✨ My smart, funny beautiful love😍😍

They are both in love idiots💙💙

Omg him crying 😭😭and Rafe comforting him in a sec😭😭😭 and Rafe holding him as he cries😭😭

COMUNICATION IS THE SEXIEST BITCH

“People have scary dreams when they are going through a lot. Dreams are manifestations of our deepest fears or desires" I know he is not talking to me, but I feel called out...

“Ours is the history of Lightwood-Banes. We don’t kill. We create. We don’t hurt. We love. Do you hear me?” FUCK YEAH!!! THEM >>>>>>

“Or talk to dad,” Rafael said. “They are our parents. It’s literally what they are there for.” (he is so wise and sexy ngl)

Why do I love that Rafe apologised for calling him demon even tho he is used to it and instead uses other words??? I'm emo🥺🥺

"But the fact that he could if he wanted…It scared him. The potential. The possibility. It terrified him." I mean, it makes sense... But I want to hold him and protect him and jsjdjdhdlakjsj

Love the "only my brother is allowed to try to kill me" 🥺 and Selena

THE CURSE AND THE CRIMINAL. WOW. I'M JUST JDJDJSBDJDB LITERALLY ✨THEM✨

Anjali is su fucking beautiful!!!! Also Rafe is definetly the one that cries the most😂

“You should,” Anjali said then. “There is nothing wrong with it.” “I know,” Max said. “I just…I guess I am not good at it.” (my common sense says Anjali but insecurities says Max🙂)

She is the most efficient person and badass woman😎😎

OMG the are all wasted af😂😂😂

“Which one are you talking about?” “Both,” (Valid)

My inmortal gang 😍😍

Mina is such a badass also😎😎 I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR💙💙

“You saw bapak?” “Yeah. He was the one who got everyone drunk,” (Why am I not surprised?)

Also them>>>>>

"Where you thou dumbeth, there I will dumb.” ok but when can they add this to the parabatai oath?

“Would you like to go on an adventure?” Bapak grinned. “Yes please.” “Do you trust me?” Bapak smiled. “Always.” 💙💙💙💙💙

PERÚ!!!!!

✨Comunication my beloved✨

See?? He is not mad at you!!!

"It hurt me, yes. But it didn’t make me hate you,” bapak said softly. "I don't hate you." “Even now?” Max asked. “Always,” (BRO🥺🥺🥺 I'M SERIOUSLY CRYING)

"Everyone…Everyone looks at you like you are some sort of God. But you are just a person. People fuck up. I know that better than anyone. So, I won’t hold it against you. I promise.” He is so wise and they are beautiful and wholesome<3

The fact that Max DID sell his clothes once and Rafael bought them back is gold😂😂

“When you say you mastered it, do you mean you drove people – and some llamas – insane?” Yeah, pretty much...

Dude seriously I'm crying with this conversation😭 is so damm great

If I was to quote the things I LOVED, I would say EVERYTHING bc SERIOUSLY THOSE TWO!!

"Because you gave me something I never thought I could have. You gave me a family. You scared the shit out of me, Max. I was so scared of you. Never of who you are, but of who you turned me into. A father.”

“But then I got to know you. I fell in love with you slowly, day after day, every day a little bit more, but never any less. But you are right. You don’t make it easy. You don't make it easy to love you, Max. You’ve always been a challenge. But I like a good challenge. I like loving you.”

“So, don’t ever think I will hate you,” the man said seriously. “Because I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to look at you with anything but love.”

“That’s the boy I raised. Whoever is in your dream, that’s not you. That’s not my blueberry” I'M FUCKING DONE WITH THIS CUTENESS🥺😭

"Magic" FUCK YEAH NDJSKSJS

YES THEY WILL ALWAYS HAVE EACH OTHER AND MAGNUS WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT THERE

All the things he remember of David.... I'm love them so much💙💙💙

"But whatever happens, remember that I love you. I will always love you.” IS IT THEIR GOAL TO MAKE ME DIE OF EMOTIONS??? 😭😭🥺💙

The hug!!! holy fuck I'm gonna die!!!

✨Malec✨

"Dad was so...dad sometimes." I love this man so fucking much its not ok!!!

“Don't do that,” dad said. “Talk to me.” (I was gonna say "The only one with braincells in this family" but then I remember that he hide the fact he was dying😂)

“Why does that asshole keep haunting me even after death?” Because he is a bitch (derogatory)

"No one gets to hurt bapak. If the nephilim ever fucking dare to try, I won’t hesitate to set the Clave on fire. I will burn it all down.” as you should babe

My man really say: I'm Magnus Bane stan first, in love dork second and Consul at some point of the list and thats iconic behaviour😌

This man. Alec Lightwood-Bane is taking no one shit if they hurt Magnus

I can only imagine someone in the future telling Max: "This is not what your father would have wanted" if he burns down the Clave for hurting Magnus and him just saying shit like "He was actually the one who gave me green light. And actually left a list of stepts to follow. Did you even knew him???"

“Burn it down, my baby. Burn it all down,” his father smiled. “You have my blessing.” (He really is unhinged and  crazy and I love him so fucking much hdjdjsjsj💙💙 we can really see where Max and Rafe got it from )

"I was thinking, you could, like, buy me a car?” He has no chill istg😂😂

Wait, is it THE seashell???? Omg omg omg

"The hard thing about talking was not the talking itself. It was the fact that someone else was listening." THIS

HE IS FUCKING WRITING ALL THE THINGS HE WANTS TO REMEMBER OF DAVID!! HOW FUCKING BEAUTIFUL IS THAT SHIT??? 🥺💙

"He would keep David inside a book. In between the pages." Thats the most romantic shit ever don't @ me

No but honestly THANK Ragnor for Max’s look👀

Ok, David definetly has a suit thing lmao😂

David walked over to the office door and locked it. “Technically, that’s not necessary.” Oh shit. Oh fuck. (HOLY SHIT I CANT JDHDYDID MY BABY IS WILD AF)

Jsidjdi I cant with them😂😂

No honey David didn't believe Asmodeus for a sec!!! 🥺🥺

Both of them feeling blessed to be loved by the other hdjdkdjsksnsk 

“I keep you there, Max. I keep you inside my heart. You earned the right to be there.” MAVID SUPREMACY FIRST, HUMAN SECOND

✨DAVID BEING SO IN LOVE✨

Yeah, its easier said than done to not listen what people say....

All of the "you are the boy who" is making me cry, no shit 😭💙💙💙💙

“It doesn’t matter how much demon blood you have. Your heart is the purest thing I know.” THIS FUCKING LINE ISTG!!!!!

“Then we will wake up in the morning. And I will tell you all of it all over again.” what can I say beside the fact they own my heart bc they are the purest beings here!???! 💙💙

This was the most relatable and emotional chapter for me tbh. Max is such a complex character and I relate to him on a personal level. love him, I love them. I love you

Goodbye!!  Narawkom il-kapitlu li jmiss!  Qed nibgħat l-aħjar vibes tiegħi għax-xogħol tiegħek💙

Maltese? Interesting decision. Also, Malta is an island, which really suits Max too!!

ALSO.

I love cleaning rooms/houses! Drop the location!!!! Something that makes it super fun for me is a really good playlist. Let me know an aesthetic (or vibe/ship/character/genre) and I will make one for you bebe.

LET ME DO THIS FOR YOU!!!! 💙

Also I had just moved on from Max's chapter (it was a lot) and now I am right back again in the feels (but in a good way no worries)

I'm so glad you find Max relatable because me fucking too 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Enjoy your vacation days or else ;)

#lbaf

[agxntkeen]

so i just wanted to tell you that i'm in love with both james spader and your blog ;) i just finished binge-watching the blacklist and now i'm addicted and i want to watch his movies but i have no idea where to start... any chance you could help me out? cheers ;)

thank you kind anon! 💙 James is very easy to fall in love with so of course I understand you, and my blog is pretty much filled with him so yeah

I haven’t watched all of his movies yet tbh but I’ll give you a rating for the ones I watched so I can make it easier for you to decide. or confuse you more idk. anyway here you go

James Spader movie guide 

essential

secretary (2002)character summary: lawyer, kinky but very loving and caring, obsessed with red sharpiesplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 👀

excellent

2 days in the valley (1996)character summary: cool assassin 😎, v. jealous, does kissy noises, an assholeplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥 there was only one but holy shit 

dream lover (1993)character summary: architect, a sweetheart, hot af, 10/10 would marry and protect with my lifeplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥+

bad influence (1990)character summary: actual cinnamon roll who trusts too easily, nerdy, softe, would protect with my life, a cute™plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥 there was only one unfortunately

wolf (1994)character summary: ambitious and fake af, yet still cute?, but also an asshole, n.b. you might end up with a werewolf kinkplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌 that hair? damnsex scenes: 🔥🔥 there is no sex and yet…

sex, lies & videotape (1989)character summary: precious bby, kinky, would hold for 1000 years, would also protect with my life, a cute™plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥 lots of sex talk but no actual sex unfortunately

avengers: age of ultron (2015)character summary: robot, literally wants to destroy the entire human race, and yet… still funny and cute? outrageousplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌+ look I’m just as perplexed as you aresex scenes: he’s a robot what were you expecting…

great

pretty in pink (1986)character summary: spoiled rich brat, so yep you guessed it: an asshole, well dressed, the kind of guy you slap then make out withplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌sex scenes: none that we get to see 😞

tuff turf (1985)character summary: rebel bby, cinnamon roll, excellent singer/dancer/cyclist/cockroach killer, would protect with my life, bonus: he’s best buddies with RDJplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥

jack’s back (1988)character summary: a doctor(!!), v. cute and sweet, wears hipster shirts and leather jackets, has glasses and earring, would protect with my lifeplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️+gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌/👌👌👌+ (you’ll understand)sex scenes: none. but he’s shirtless

stargate (1994)character summary: archaeologist, has allergies, the prettiest boy in the whole damn universe, likes chocolate, would protect with my life, would also play with his hair for a million yearsplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌 that hair holy shit 😭😭😭sex scenes: none

white palace (1990)character summary: a baby, jewish, a sweetheart, does some v. good faces if you catch my drift 👀plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌+sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥+

the new kids (1985)character summary: leader of the gang™, super blonde, has an accent, a fucking psycho and an asshole, hot afplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️+ gorgeousness: 👌👌👌+++ (definitely not a 3, but also not a 4, you get my problem here?)sex scenes: 🔥🔥 there’s no actual sex and yet…

true colors (1991)character summary: lawyer, professional cutie, also good and pure, excellent skier, James Bond™plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️+ gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥

crash (1996)character summary: a cutie pie but he needs some serious therapy, but 10/10 would still love and protect himplot: ⭐️⭐️ this movie is weird af - proceed at your own risk (then why is it listed as great you ask? wellllll 👇👇👇)gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌 grey sweater + brown leather jacket combo? wow. hair? double wow. orgasm faces? triple wowsex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 !!!

the stickup (2002)character summary: cop(!!!), listens to Buddy Guy, cute and soft, would protect with my life, (also: looks good in a clown mask if you’re into that stuff)plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥

okay

shadow of fear (2004)character summary: lawyer, nice shirts, will ruin your life, an assholeplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: none 😞

the watcher (2000)character summary: fbi agent(!!!), v. sad and broken, would hold for 1000 years and protect with my lifeplot: ⭐️⭐️ gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌+ (eyelashes!!!)sex scenes: none 😔  he doesn’t even get to kiss Keanu Reeves what a shame

storyville (1992)character summary: lawyer who’s running for office, super pretty, doesn’t understand that life is not a photoshoot™, 10/10 would vote for himplot: ⭐️⭐️+gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌+sex scenes: 🔥🔥

alien hunter (2003)character summary: a professor(!!!), cute and fluffy, loved by aliens, 10/10 would cuddleplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️ I love me some aliensgorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: not in the movie

supernova (2000)character summary: pilot and captain, space hero, swole™, hot af, nice buttplot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥

keys to tulsa (1997)character summary: drug dealer, black hair, nice arms and -holy shit- nice thighs, kinda looks like a bad(but super hot) Elvis impersonator, has accent, an asshole but not like. a huge asshole? a small assholeplot: ⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: this is really unfair but 👌👌👌+ sex scenes: no. I mean unless you want to consider his legs as sex. which they are

the pentagon papers (2003)character summary: 60s boy, works at the pentagon, hot af, floof, would protect with my lifeplot: ⭐️⭐️+gorgeousness: 👌👌👌+sex scenes: 🔥

hmm

speaking of sex (2001)character summary: weird af, but also cute, needs to chill, clumsy driver, elevator kinkplot: ⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥

less than zero (1987)character summary: drug dealer/pimp, gay!, but unfortunately, yet not surprisingly, a fucking assholeplot: ⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: sadly none

lincoln (2012)character summary: republican, is always eating/smoking, likes spitting, the best dressed, the actual hero of the movieplot: ⭐️ (but tbf I don’t like period dramas so there’s that)gorgeousness: idk how but 👌👌👌+sex scenes: only in my dreams

driftwood (1997)character summary: a lost and confused sweetheart(or is he?), also a cutie(but is he?), hot af, would protect with my lifeplot: ⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥🔥🔥

i witness (2003)character summary: works for the state department? but looks like a cia agent, a hottie, nice biceps, fluffy hairplot: ⭐️⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌👌sex scenes: 🔥🔥

only if you’re desperate

shorts (2009)character summary: ceo of tech company, practically owns the town, chaotic evil, hot afplot: youtried.jpggorgeousness: 👌👌👌👌👌 unfortunatelysex scenes: plenty but they were all in my head

mannequin (1987)character summary: an idiot and an asshole, professional butt-kisser, well-dressed but needs a new hairstyle. and maybe some new glassesplot: ⭐️gorgeousness: 👌👌 (if he loses that horrid hair gel he goes up to a solid 3.5 I gotta be honest)sex scenes: no

the rachel papers (1989)character summary: rich, wears scarves, v. pretty, not 100% certain but probably an asshole, only in the movie for a total of like 10 minutesplot: ⭐️+gorgeousness: 👌👌👌sex scenes: not really

family secrets (1984)character summary: at first you think he’s an asshole but then it turns out he’s not, excellent fashion sense, has a pick-up truckplot: ⭐️ tho honestly I only watched the parts with him so I really can’t saygorgeousness: 👌👌👌sex scenes: not really

#sex scene rating only applies to scenes he's in and not the whole movie #other characters' sexy times are disregarded #all emoji ratings are out of 5 of course #anyway hope this helps you out anon #and sorry for taking so long to reply to this #long post #asks #anon #james spader