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#andbi cant think of where i was going with these tags
kawaiianimeredhead
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So many things feel like they're hanging on ny the thinnest of threads and I am so exhausted by it
#work time is reflect upon life things time and it means
#i end up feeling awful for approx 3 hours a morning
#i really have never been an 'everything is awful and Will Stay awful' person
#i absolutly believe in better happier futures and tomorrows at least on a personal level
#idk about like globally or in the US we lookin kinda bad in those areas
#but also i could not tell you what actually will get better
#like yeah i think theres a time i wont feel depressed and mildly suicidal and will be happy
#but i have no idea when that will actually happen or what is going to change
#because i dont have enougg faith in anything to really use that as like motivation and or a targetting system if that makes sense
#so im just like yeah sure itll get better hut its sucks right now and im miserable
#andbi cant think of where i was going with these tags
#dont mind me
#im so so tired
#every time my therapist talks about how good everythings been going and soundding i feel like im lying lmao
#to a degree i guess im lying hy ommision but somethings judt dont come up
#related to earlier tags i so genuinely cant see futures like once i got out of high school any kind of planning and thinking ahout future
#stopped at like a month ahead
#because too many things change and i know that so the idea of planning or dreaming or thinking ahout any kind of future
#involving people in a personal or just passing by way just can not be imagine
#it iust dead stops and it goes no where
#there has been only abfew exceptions and even that gets really fuzzy when various things happen
#like everything and everyone changes far too much for me to judt he like 'yeah one day its still gonna be all the same people and things'
#and if anything this past year reenforces that and double down on that
#like i cant even think to hard on my dog heing in my future or it makes me cry because i know she cant be because shes already almost 10
#life is fucking miserable and it will and can get better but i could not tell you shit about what thatd look like and who will be there
#and thats been very much a viewpointvive had for YEARS even if i didnt know it that well in words
#i think its one of the reason i can not wrap my head around marriage really like for other people i think ita cute andbi love seeing wedding
#but i can not picture myself married and havent been able to since i was in like middle school
#any time the talk of marriage comes up i can not related and have not related
#tag rambles
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