#anyway this is just something fun since I'm playing with the character XDD

[slashingdisneypasta]

Big Bad x AFAB!Princess!Reader || Drabble

Plot: This lives in an AU where you live in a basic fairytale where you're saved from wolves by a prince and you're aware of this happening over... and over... and over again. Theirs not a whole lotta context, just wolf/princess love and smut (: Haha XD

Warnings: SMUT, wolfman/princess smut!, monster fucker/furry shit (I consider this guy half wolf, half man- considering how he runs on his two hind legs whereas Granny runs on all fours), knotting, one use of 'bitch', dirty talk, cumming inside, and loss virginity.

Tagging: - No one yet! But do let me know if you want to be tagged for wolf stuff XD

His eyes on you are heavy and boiling hot, that beautiful red dress for the ball that you picked out suddenly the most endangered species in the kingdom. You had never felt him look at you quite this hard before, no one period had look at you like this before. Certainly not the prince your fairytale seems hellbent on you ending up with all neat and tidy-like. All you had shared with him before were sweet kisses and waist touches even on your many wedding nights- and that was nice. Yes, it had been nice. Edward was sweet, and you were good friends.

But this, though, being looked at like a meal, was completely something else. This is what you expected it to feel like when Edward first saved you; red, hot, heat that made you clench and feel like you were burning from the inside. It didn't, and you thought it must have been something they talked about in stories but didn't really exist... until this moment.

"Sweetheart... that is a nice dress, I gotta say."

With a little giggle, your heart beating hard in your chest, you spread out the skirt a bit; looking down. "You think so?"

"Red... was the right choice. You look good enough to eat~ " The ever-present growl in his voice seemed even thicker now, even rougher, sending a rush straight through you.

"... I'd- I'd like to see you try."

You don't know what possessed you to say something like that but by the sharp, gnarled grin on Big Bad's maw you can tell that you said just the right words.

Just a moment passes of him looking at you with that devilish grin before he reaches over, takes a handful of your skirt and tugs you to him. His maw is much closer to you now, leaning in towards your ear and growling directly into it. It sends a shiver up your spine, every patch of your skin on edge. "... I can do that for you, sweetheart~ "

His large clawed hand trails over your body from sternum to groin- as if he were gutting you, without actually hurting you. You know he must have done the exact same thing on a lot of less-fortunate's and it thrills you. Taking a risk, you trickle your fingertips up his strong arms, his eyes following your hesitant little hands with an amused smirk, until you get to his broad, furry shoulders. Slowly and carefully raising onto your tip toes you give the big bad wolf, your villain, a gentle kiss on the tip of his snout.

"Aghhhh you trynta drive a wolf insane, little princess?... thats a dangerous game ya know?... You could get real hurt... "

"You've never actually hurt me before, B,.. " He's abducted you and he's kept you, threatened you and teased you,... but never, in the years and years that you've done this thing with him - this whole fairytale routine, - has he actually hurt you.

"No?... huh, I guess I haven't." He doesn't attempt to explain why he hasn't, he just smirks at you.

"... what do you wanna do to me?"

... Big Bad's grin slowly grows and his clawed hands suddenly clutch your hips, tugging you against him and thick stomach, now. You let out a yelp that makes his ears perk up.

"You wanna see? I can show ya."

Taking a deep breath, and thinking about the script you've known your whole life - you get abducted by the wolves, you get kept by the wolves, you get saved from them and never look back, - and you nod. "I do." You're tired of that script. It never felt quite right.

"Oh sweetheart we are gonna have some fun... this has been comin' for a long time, dontcha think?... Now be a good little bitch and pull up that pretty dress for me."

Face hot, you take a deep breath and bite on your bottom lip as you think about it for just a second more before being obedient and doing what your villain just asked- no, told you to. Meanwhile Big Bad sticks his snout in your neck and your hair and takes a deep sniff; his eyes rolling backwards into his skull as the smell goes straight to his head like a drug. He lets out an awfully moving groan. "B- "

"Aghhhh Y/N- you don't know how long its been since I had a princess~ " He speaks directly into your ear and it makes you feel helpless- but not to him. To your own damn needs.

Before you can do anything though, Big Bad goes and sits himself down heavily on the ground and, looking up at you, pats his lap. You quickly get down with him, setting yourself eagerly on top of him. Your skirts, picked out for a ball that he is certainly not invited to, billowing out around you both like a crimson pool. Eagerly he digs down between you both and into his ragged old pants, held together by a piece of rope, and pulls right out his... um... man-part.

And- you've never seen one of them before! Certainly not one that's half man, half wolf. You're wide eyed, blinking at it getting pumped and wondering how that horrifying thing is supposed to fit. He notices your quiet shock-horror and uses his free hand to lift your chin up; Your adorable round eyed look connecting with the devious look on his mug. "... that's huge."

"Heh. Well, its gonna get bigger sweetcheeks."

"What!?- "

"Shh, promise, sweetheart, I got this. Just relax, and uh... heh, tell me if I claw at you a too hard, yeah? Like I toldya, its been a while... "

Swallowing nervously, you touch your fingers to the tip of it; the slit. The head is a bulbous thing, feeling wet and hot and firm. The touch makes your over-sensitive wolf growl again, the sound a frustrated melody from deep in his chest and makes your eyes shoot up to his face again. You open your mouth to ask if that's okay- when he flings your hand away from him and suddenly uses his own hand (Paw?) to shove his tip against your slick slit.

"Drivin' me effin crazy- Now, listen to me here doll, I got something important ta say." Big Bad holds up a finger and taps your nose with it then, making you pay attention to him. Which is hard, with his heavy knot resting on your clit. Your lips are parted and you already feel dumb, listening to him. "I'll be careful with ya the first few strokes... but after that I wont be able ta control myself... basic instinct, and all that~ You got that?"

"... yeah."

"Good~ Now c'mere."

~

True to his word, he pushes past your limits slow the first few times... gritting his teeth and watching his full length disappear into your sweet heat; Deep eyes flickering up to your face to check how you're going with it- but it wasn't long until this huge wolf-man was pounding your pussy like a man absolutely starved. Ravenous.

Feral.

"Bet your prince never had you like this," He growls, thrusting roughly into your cunt and slamming all the way to the hilt. "Bet he never even touched you."

All the humour you've come to know Big Bad for is gone, leaving behind just a wolf. A possessive wolf in desperate need to make you hit mate and mark you in every possible way so no one else even looks at you ever again. His claws are leaving scrapes on your soft hips, his teeth leave wounds on your neck that he soothes with his tongue, his sweat leaves a scent you wont be able to shake for the ball later. "He'll never touch you."

You're holding a hand tight over your mouth to keep from screaming, the pleasure of having your hole stretched and pummeled all too much for you. The knot on his cock stretches you all the way inside and every thrust delivers a perfect stroke to your swollen clit. Your hips roll desperately against his.

"Sweetheart you are the sweetest fucking thing I've ever been in. Perfect. Fucking- aghhhh. I'm gonna make you drip my cum for days."

"Ah- "

"Next time you come ta the cottage... you'll be able to scream as loud as you want. I don't care what anyone thinks, listenin' in. They're gonna think I'm fucken eating you whole with how loud I'll train ya to be for me. I wanna hear those squeals~" He licks your throat where he made you bleed with his teeth, groaning at the taste of your blood, and your hips actually stutter.

He starts to beat your cunt even harder, pounding into you with all the pent-up sexuality of a man who's been lusting for years, drawing you to a mind blowing feeling better then cake. Something hot explodes inside you, which feels good too as you come down from the amazing feeling and your heartbeat continues to beat fast- but you're finally able to take in some deep breaths. Begin to calm down again.

Big Bad does the same thing, breathing heavily and smirking at your cute exhausted form on his lap- still with his cock buried inside you. He cant see it over his generous tummy, but he can feel you throbbing on him.

"Heh... you know sweetheart?.. this is my new favourite dress a'yours."

Giving a tired laugh, you run a hand through your hair. "So, u-uh... what now?"

"Well, its gonna take a while for my thing to relax enough fa you to release me~ Heheh. So ya stuck with me for a few more minutes."

A smile warms to your face at that news, squeezing the knot inside you and making the smirk flicker from his face momentarily. "... good." You always loved your time spent with him better then your happy ending, anyway. It can wait.

#i stayed up way too late writing thisssssssssssssss! 😅😅 #oh well XD #anyway this is just something fun since I'm playing with the character XDD #Big Bad Wolf x Reader #Big Bad x Reader #Happily N'Ever After x Reader #Drabble #Smut #Wolf #Big Bad x Reader Drabble #Big Bad Wolf x Reader Drabble

[fujimen]

Hi. Józef. Hand him over 🤲🏼

(Tell us anything about him! Is he from an original story of yours? What is his role? His age? Anything you want!) ☺️

Ok ok so, first off - his name was originally Yuji but it evolved into Józef (Yuzew actually, but calling him Józef doesn't give an eyestrain to people not used to it) due to my messy handwriting - the way I wrote it it looked like Yuzi which sounds similar to Józio which is a diminutive to Józef. My cousin and sister made fun of that and it sticked.

He's from my original """"story"""" if you can call it that - its literally a sandbox for my OCs to play in with a cringe-ass-not-even-trying-to-be-something-more plot. I've created him when I was like 10-11 years old and originally he was supposed to be a son of Tenten and Neji XDD basically that story was supposed to be a Naruto spin-off kind of shit (now it really has nothing in common with it). But anyways. He's the apple of my eye and that kinda goes with being the mainest of main characters. The main cast consists of my 4 OCs and he's the muscle of the group, due to his superpower being the Power Of A Beat Down™. Because he's actually a demon. Yeah. Look, I told you its cringe. I thought a lot about giving him an element-based superpower but none of that didn't really suit him. So swift and merciless beatdown it is (or as I call it in polish - 'moc wpierdolu').

His age...... lmao back when I was younger I was like "yeah... he's 17. Thats such a mature age" but now that I'm older I just can't do it to him, you know. So I've changed his age to above 20, I don't really have an exact number.

He doesn't have a half of his left ear because I really wanted and NEEDED to humble him. That story is with me since 3rd or 4th grade, his character evolved from a courteous smart boy to an evil little shit that was so full of himself, showing off constantly. So I grew up and did what I had to do - gave him a cool permanent bodypart loss (if you can call an ear that. I blew it off) that I really like to accentuate whenever I draw him and I've also reworked his character so it doesn't change with the gust of wind and is more or less consistent (he's still edgy tho, I can't take that away from him). Gave him love for tomatos while I'm a tomato hater, peak character design right there

What else.. he can lie without batting an eye and he immediately goes beet red when flustered in any degree. He has a constantly judging, looking-right-through-you stare. And a stick up his ass. Awkward as hell. Swears like a sailor too (I thought I gave him a normal or slightly above average amount of profanities in his speech pattern but my friend told me 'he's so vulgar haha' and they were actually so right. That man won't hesitate to swear when he really doesn't need to). He's ugly but I still draw him like a sexyman or some shit. Thick and bushy brows, massive widows peak, permanent dark bags under his eyes, long and strong slavic nose (at least in my head, my artstyle can't really do justice to everything I imagine). Bored&fed up grimace on his face at all times. Literally an edgy red&black coded OC. He's tall as hell, like ~190cm and has a light muscular build.

Thank you so much for giving me an opportunity to infodump about him 🥹

As an endnote here's a quick drawing of how he changed during the years

#you're the real MVP.. thank you sooooo much for asking 💚 #ask

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

A fun fact I find hilarious is that you apparently were going to have a second option at what to carve on Louis' piano but the writers thought it was too inappropriate and quickly axed it, the rumors being it would have been a dick. Imagine if Clem could carve that and it would just result in Louis leaving XDD I understand why they axed that, talk about an asshole thing to do (which also makes me wonder if Louis was going to leave if she did that, what would she have potentially done with Violet to make *her* leave?) Good thing they decided it wasn't necessary to *always* give Clementine an "asshole" response, lol.

ugghhhh not the dick sksksks

yeah, I know about that one, too. The disrespect in carving a dick into Louis' piano, I can't.... Like, imagine that you're having this moment together. Louis planned this little prank on you with tuning the piano to break some tension, he's so happy that you decided to spend time with him. He trusts you and is comfortable enough to want to carve your initials into his piano, something that is a source of comfort for him so this is a huge deal, and you just....... carve a dick.

I firmly believe that if Clem pulled that shit and then was like "btw I like-like you," he would've down right rejected her and for good reason! You just proved that you're no different than the others who carved "you suck at playing!" onto the side and who knows what else has been done to it over the years when Louis wasn't around!

I'm glad they tossed that out. No one who picked to go with Louis would pick that anyway, unless you didn't like him... but if you didn't like him, then you probably didn't pick to go with him anyway soooo.... what's the point? Other than to do an asshole Clem run? I dunno.

That scene is one of the best in the entire game so it hurts my brain to think of it being ruined by such a thing hahaha. It's also so important to Louis' character and the development of his relationship with Clementine, romantic or not. I've said it before, and I'll never stop saying it, but Louis gives off the illusion that he's so open since he's so friendly but really, he's so closed off that this is the first time he willfully pulls down his walls to let Clementine in.

The only times he comes close to doing this is accidental. When you're in the woods and help him take care of the walker, he gives you insight into how he thinks and gets just a bit too close... but that was a small moment and he catches himself. It's like a switch is flipped- "ha ha I'll take care of our friend here, go over there with Aasim goodbye." then he turns his back to you and that's it. End of conversation.

Then there's the archery scene where he apologizes to Clem about voting them out, which I give a lot of credit to him for. It's rare for someone to apologize to Clem for hurting her to begin with, and if they do, they usually just turn around and repeat the same hurtful behavior. Louis doesn't do that, he's genuine and wants to be better and he proves that.

Also, might I add that he's having some trust issues at this point? His best friend for the past 8+ years? turns out, he's lied to him for the past year about the twins and was lying right to his face during the confrontation when trying to manipulate him into believing Clementine murdered Brody... and Marlon can even tell him that yeah, he's pathetic but Louis was the only one who couldn't see that.... which it's heartbreaking to watch Louis' reaction to that.

On top of that, he trusted and defended Clementine and now Marlon is dead.... so the fact that he's able to forgive her and AJ for that as well as apologize for his mistakes and want to see where their relationship goes and is willing to open up to her? romantic or not? It's a HUGE deal.

which is why drawing a dick on his piano is terrible

#asks #twdg louis #twdg clementine #twdg clouis #twdg marlon

[masterhandss]

Hi~

I'm curious about what you think a Hamefura-GBF crossover would look like ^^

OP YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU HAVE AWAKENED IN ME WITH THIS QUESTION AJSHGJAHSGD

As a fan of both I've always created different ideas in my mind of what a GBF-Hamefura collab would be like!! I'm not really creative enough to be able to drop some fan-made collab name ideas or a full premise for the collab's plot, just some random tidbits of fun ideas I thought of.

// warning: very minor spoilers for the novels/fortune lover 2

For how Katarina and the gang gets into the world of Granblue Fantasy, I think it would be really cool if it combines something like the Shadowverse collab where they are just thrown into the world without much explanation (maybe playing it out like another Book of Desires-type thing where Katarina stumbles upon a magic tool that sends them all there) and the Love Live Muse collab where it's kinda just a dream. Not that I want Katarina to dream the entire thing, I just find it really funny how in the Manga Bonus SS, Katarina immediately figures out that she's in a dream and just plays along, which would make her nonchalance about being thrown into another world funny and make sense (for her at least). Maybe in the end it could be revealed to be a dream all along, like the Love Live and most recent Deresute collab.

For the plot itself, I'm not really good at coming up up anything new, all I can think of is making something similar to existing collabs and events qwq. It would really funny if the primal beast behind everything is one who is gluttonous, and Katarina beats them in a competition of iron stomachs (like the Priconne collab and Eating Bonanza Summer event). Or have the event story end with Katarina confronting and talking down a humanoid primal beast and charming him into surrender post-battle, something similar to how she won over Raphael (imagine how funny it would be for Keith to smack his head and sigh, as Katarina continues to charm more people, and a primal beast at that XDD).

Maybe even something like the Code Geass collab where at the same time Katarina and the gang end up in the Sky Realm, the crew is on a quest to find a criminal who is stirring trouble in an island, and that criminal had a striking resemblance to Katarina (or an FL2!Katarina). Like that other Katarina is just an illusion created by a primal beast in order to hide his identity, not really basing the image on anyone specific but just creating someone based on the perfect image of a scheming villainess lmao (and being surprised after finding out that the very girl does exist). Cue confusion from the crew and the harem, while Katarina feels both pride and fear over being called the spitting image of a villainess hgfjhsdgf.

You can even make the plot something like the GBF SideM collab + Hamefura Pirates, where the situation they are in is actually from a Fortune Lover x GBF collab (that Katarina dreams Acchan playing/was mentioned to her once in passing) that somehow (???) has ties to Katarina's fate in FL2.

And please, I would love a quick scene of everyone dining with the crew, and everyone comments on Katarina and Lyria's black hole of a stomach XDD

It would kinda be cool if Katarina had a moment where she uses Phalanx, since VOD showed us that there are shield-type spells in hamefura (canonicity is debatable though) but I guess since Nico already did that in the Love Live collab that'd be copying/too similar haha).

For the event rewards, Katarina would join your party after Chapter2 of course :DD By then she would have met the crew. The other playable characters depends on who you ask to be honest. I don't want to sound mean or anything to the fans of the girls, but when I first encountered the question, my mind immediately went the NinSwitch otome game and how all the boys are the capturable characters. Since HameFura clearly favors the Katarina + the boys in the marketing, I thought realistically that if there was a collab, the playable characters would be them. That would be 5 playable characters though, which might be a lot so I guess a good alternative is a Playable Katarina, Geordo, Keith and maybe Maria too. Combining the three girls into a single unit wouldn't be likely, I think it's more realistic to assume they would be the event summon instead (or at least have a cameo in Katarina's victory animation)

(LOOK I EVEN MADE SOME QUICK EDITS/MOCKUPS, DO YOU SEE HOW EXCITED I AM ABOUT THIS QUESTION HGJHSDGF)

Katarina would be a Dark SSR (sorry if that's considered as a spoilers to anyone qwq) whose attacks also inflict a partial earth damage. She would be an attack-type character with a sabre and axe specialty (axe because hoe haha). I just can't imagine her being an Earth Character unless Keith isn't playable, because then I guess she could just inflict partial dark damage via casted debuffs in order to reference FL2. She's probably mostly has attack skills that either gives buffs or increases her charge bar. Katarina would get a 5 star uncap in the next event rerun :P

Geordo would be a Fire SSR with a sabre specialty. He's be an attack-type character who specializes in Attack/Support. Spoilers to the light novels kinda, but I imagine Geordo to have a special third skill that gives him lots of buffs but either debuffs him & kills him eventually (like Dark Jeanne) or sacrifices his HP (like Fire Yuisis) as a reference to Volume 8, where he's a bit unhinged when he's angry and will use his fire magic lethally to anyone who harms his friends.

Keith would be an Earth SSR with a sabre and staff specialty. He would be Special character, acting as a Support/Debuffer. I imagine that he could have his own personal buff called "Earth Dolls" that get consumed each turn, and having a lot would increase the damage of his charge attack. I know the picture says katana instead of staff, I'm just too lazy to edit it again :'))

Alan would be a Water SSR with a sabre and gun specialty (why gun? he uses a gun in the hamefura fantasy au so :DD). He'd be a balanced-type character who is an Attacker/Defender. I imagine he'd be like SSR Romeo, who is good for defense but is preferably used to deal some damage (or at least that's how I use him lmao).

Nicol would be a Wind SSR with a sabre and bow specialty (bow because wind element :DD). He would be a defense-type character who specializes in Defense/Support. Either lands some good debuffs (Def Down, Debuff Success Boosted, Blind, Gravity and CHARM OF COURSE) or has Substitute Ally. Most likely the prior. I know that sounds like he should be a special-type character instead so I'm suggesting he should have a skill with Shield and Immune in a single package.

I imagine the girls to be an event summon together (in my hypothetical scenario where the boys are the playable characters) where they give random buffs (like 3-6 buffs depending on the lvl and uncap). I imagine that they would have a special Call Effect with Katarina, giving her more buffs or a special buff meant just for her :DD

In the event that Maria is a playable character, she would be a Light SSR who has a staff specialty. She would be a Heal-type character who specializes in Support. Her skills could have stuff like a heal that activates for a few turns, light def-down and a def-up to name a few.

The event SSR weapon would be a "Doom Flag" of course! It blends perfectly with the dozen other flag-looking spear weapons in the game XDD

My ideas for the SR weapon would either the "Doom Avoidance Strategy Book" which would be a Dark Melee weapon, or a smaller "Bad End Doom Flag" which would be a Fire Dagger (haha get it, because Geordo Bad End :)).

Hahaha that's all I can really think of when it comes to a collab. If you want me to talk about a Hamefura RPG AU, but with GBF classes/races then I can make a whole other post for that sjkfhdsk i've always wanted to draw/imagine the hamefura characters wearing job classes & magic from GBF!

Imagine Mary wearing the Dancer/Masquerade class outfit, Maria in the Doctor class, Alan in the Elysian class, Nicol in the Cavalier/Robin Hood class, Geordo in the Glorybringer class, Keith in the Relic Buster class (as a reference for him being a black knight in the manga bonus ss), Sophia in the Warlock/Asparas class, and Katarina in the Chrysaor/Lumberjack class!!

If anyone would like to add with more collab ideas, I would love to hear it!!!!

Anyways, thank you for the ask :DD

#mh ask #hamefura #my next life as a villainess #bakarina #destruction flag otome #hamehura #I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH THIS AHSGDJSAHD #please read this I MADE FAKE GBF SCREENSHOTS AND EVERYTHING Gjashgd #katarina claes #geordo stuart #keith claes #alan stuart #nicol ascart #maria campbell #mary hunt #sophia ascart

[iamanartichoke]

Oh man.. I went to see endgame again and I want to like Thor in this movie I really do and am worried I'm a bad person for not but like, the tone feels all over the place with him, like the tragedy undercuts the humour but then the humour disrespects the tragedy. I can't get my head around this creative decision. What do you think?

First of all, you’re not a bad person for not liking Thor in this film. The negative reaction to how Thor is portrayed is pretty widespread, especially on Tumblr, and a lot of people share your opinion that his character was handled poorly. 

I ... *sighs* Here’s the thing. My immediate/general reaction was something like being stunned and second-hand embarrassed for Thor and really upset at the portrayal, because it really, really does feel like the narrative is framing Thor’s very real PTSD as a joke. Playing it up for laughs when there’s nothing funny about that level of loss and grief. 

I felt it was disrespectful, that it undermined not only Thor but those of us who suffer from mental illness and have unhealthy coping mechanisms. I felt like depression was being made fun of, like trauma was being made fun of, like weight gain/generally showing how far a person can sink into depression where they can’t take care of themselves was being made fun of. Furthermore, I have been especially furious that despite his trauma, Thor didn’t mention Loki even once, even when acknowledging literally everything else he’s lost besides Loki (family, Asgard, Jane). 

But. 

Everyone knows, because I have been obsessing about it for days, that I’ve discovered some really, really good during/post-Endgame Thor fic. Fic that manages to strike the balance between what we saw on-screen and what’s going on in Thor’s head. I have found fic that somehow manages to reconcile the two, showing how deep Thor’s trauma runs while still being consistent to what was portrayed on-screen. 

And in finding myself not only empathizing with Fic!Thor, but also feeling very protective of him and generally loving toward him, it also made me admit to myself that, when I watched Endgame, it was like two days before the release and I was watching a really shitty cam rip, where I missed 75% of what was really happening, due to poor sound and visual quality. 

So, tonight, I went back and rewatched it. Not in the theatre but I found a better cam version on Putlocker, with much better sound and video. I tried to be open-minded. And I had no idea how much I missed, when it came to Thor’s microexpressions and mannerisms and even what he was saying half the time. Watching it in better quality along with having the fics in my head has kind of ... brought me to an understanding of it, I think? In a way that I’m no longer furious about it, because I can sort of get behind the creative decision to show Thor just completely deteriorating and becoming something like an entirely different person than what he’s been before. Because mental illness and trauma do do that to a person. And I do think that it was a bold, but not necessarily a wrong, decision to go the opposite way in portraying the illness than what is usually shown in media. Usually, in films and tv, traumatized, depressed people are portrayed as stoic, and usually really thin, and scowly and brooding.

Thor in Endgame as a concept is taking that expectation and subverting it and showing the other end of the spectrum: that sometimes you are smiling and joking even though it’s an act, that you’re laughing on the outside while a weight is pressing down on you on the inside, that drinking to excess can cause weight gain, that eating as a coping mechanism can cause weight gain, that not caring about life can mean not caring about yourself and you don’t necessarily notice that it’s been a week since you washed your hair and two years since you cut it and what does it matter anyway, because you’re not going anywhere or doing anything or trying to impress anybody, you’re just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to make it through day by day until the universe finally decides to take pity on you and you die. 

And I get that, because I’ve been there, because a lot of people have been there, because it’s a very real, uncomfortable, visceral portrayal of someone who has just completely broken down - mentally, physically, emotionally. 

That all said - I understand the intention better now than I did before, but I do think that it fell flat. Instead of really delving into these things, the narrative played it like we were supposed to laugh at Thor. Not a single person, except for Bruce, asked Thor if he was okay. No one acknowledged that Thor might not be up for this mission. No one acknowledged that even if the snap was reversed, Thor will still have lost everything and he doesn’t get anything back. 

Thor is very visibly breaking down, and the others just roll with it. Worse, they make fun of him, what with the way they look at him and the way they act toward him and Rhodey’s stupid “cheeze whiz” joke. The narrative supports this view, especially with camera shots that emphasize Thor’s weight and general disheveled appearance. And the version I watched today was still filmed in a theatre, so I was able to hear all the places where the audience just laughed, even when Thor was obviously in pain and obviously needed sympathy rather than mockery. It smacks of fat shaming and general mental health shaming. And that’s not okay. 

I feel ... more generous toward Chris Hemsworth’s performance than I did before. On a second, closer viewing, I do think that his facial expressions and his delivery of his lines did show someone who was in deep pain, especially when it came to Thanos specifically (his change in demeanor when Bruce says his name, the way he begs to wear the gauntlet and “do something right,” the way he approaches Thanos in the final battle, among other moments). 

I also think, though, that Chris may have gotten too into the comedic aspect of it, too, and that probably contributed to Thor in general being played for laughs. Because Chris likes to laugh, and have fun, and screw around, and he’s said so himself. I think if Chris had a better understanding of mental illness than I assume he does, he might have been more willing to delve further into the emotional side and relied less on the comedic side. And if Chris wasn’t so anti-Loki, then I think we would have had a lot more acknowledgement of how much Loki’s death has contributed to Thor’s grief and mental state. 

Idk. It could have been better. The fics are better. But at the same time, I do get it now more than I did before. I’m not really crediting the Russos with that, bc they’re trash, but I do give Chris Hemsworth and his acting more credit than I did. And honestly, I give the fic writers credit bc reading them forced me to consider my point of view and whether or not I was looking at Thor too critically due to my general hatred of everything the Russos touch. 

So, yeah. Overall, it’s ... a complicated thing. I don’t think I’ll ever be okay with it, but I’m not so anti it either, anymore. If that makes sense. 

I didn’t mean to write you a dissertation, Anon, so I’m sorry for the length. This has actually been on my mind for several days, though, so I kind of hopped on this ask and took it as an opportunity to write all of this out. I hope it makes sense. I hope people can understand where I’m coming from. And even if you can’t, please don’t @ me, I’m very tired. 

Anyway. Yeah. So that’s what I think. I hope this somewhat answered the question. XDD 

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[crystu-cii]

Of course!! 💕💞💕💕💕💞💞

What a MOOD XDD OKAY I FEEL YOU ON THAT ONE SHOT THING TBH- LIKE IF YOU TAKE TOO LONG TO GET TO THE GOOD SHIT ILL JUST GET BORED YALL--

wHEeze okay mood-- I actually went in my backyard with a mask on today(not intentionally, my sister sprayed febreeze and I'm sensitive to fragrances soo-- but the entire time I was like "wtf I'm telling crys about this later" XDD

XDD YEAHHH-- XDDD oms MA'AM GO GET SOME SLEEP WH..... TAKE A NAP MISS......

XD also baby jail- puts a laundry basket over him- there now I'm safe-- dangg never had a pet?? I recommend a dog(specifically shelties/sheltie mixes!! They're beautiful and playful!! And the type of dog I've had all my life :3) I.. ban?? Like ban ban??? Wh????

I am! XDD I'd (at least probably) say something if I wasn't-- of course!!!! 💞💕💞💕💞💞💕

Me too!! I miss hanging out with them :/ but so many live super far sooo :,D OH DEAR-- yeah nonononoooo-- Do Not-- YEAH better safe than sorry nO--

I CAN TELL YOU THAT THE PUMPKIN AND CHERRY PIES WERE DELICIOUS, HAVEN'T HAD THE BIBLE YET- AH YES PHONE WERE EATING A BIBLE HOW COULD I THINK IT'S CALLED A COBBLER-- XDD WH- HOW DARE SHE INSULT PUMPKIN PIES LIKE THAT-- /HJ it sounds fairly weird but hey if it's good than cool!! XDD

BUT tREEeEeeE!!!!! DO YOU NOT ENJOY DRESSING UP??? WHAT ABOUT THE CANDY SALES DIRECTLY AFTER???? WH-- AAAAAAAH HOW COULD Y'ALL-- XDD

Yeahh, I decided not to take any more creative classes in school anymore anyways--they don't suit me at all-- OH DANG-- YALL REALLY OUT HERE PISSING OFF THE CHOIR TEACHER??? DAMNNN-- XDDD YESSS-- awwwwhh :( oh well, on steam you can mood games sooo-- if you haven't asked for it, I recommend the portal games 👀 they're SO GOOD and I'll simp for both Glados and Wheatley, don't test me (unless you're Glados or Wheatley) /hj BUT THEY'RE SUCH WELL-MADE CHARACTERS-- BUT VALVE CAN'T COUNT TO THREE SOOOO-- (but there is a cool portal 2 mod coming out in April 2021(plus another from the past I think!) that looks incredibly promising!!!) and oooooohh I actually haven't seen much about it 👀 but from what I have seen it looks fun!!!!

opens calendar app-- can I just say it's so rare to meet people born in the early months-- like January and February, especially SO EARLY in the months of just unheard of XD I have a singular other friend born in January, on the 21st-- and I knew a girl who was born February but like I don't really like her or know her well so she doesn't count--

lEGITTT LIKE- im OUTTA HERE- xDDD

and omgg XDD im lowkey sensitive to fragrances to- when its too much and all- like i would only spray myself with perfume ome to three times while my mom is here doing like tWENTY SPRAYS AND IM LIKE "hEYo BRO I CANT B R E A T H E" /nm- its wild XDD

AND LEGITTT My mOm NEEEDS SLEPPP- quarantine has ruined her so hard- its ironic- I M supposed to be the rebelious one- XDD

WHWHWHEEZE B AB Y JA I L- XDD and yeahh- well my brother has an aussie dog (the one i said their name was also astro xD) but sometimes im just like- "yeah- thats my dog too-" i even mentioned it on a introduce yourself assignment for school xD and omg i dont know my dog types but i searched up what sheltie dogs look like and OMGG???💞 YESS A FLUFFY DOG I always dream of having a dog soo fluffyy- but i expect that it would be a pain to clean up the fur all the time XDD and well i MeAANn- not really ban but like- whenever i speak about pets at all to my mom- it would go like- me: we cant even have ONE pet? | mom: no | me: how about a fish?? | mom: wELL ***-BRINGS UP EMBARRASING ACTION I DID AS A TODDLER-*** ) so i just assume thats her way of saying- no fish. XDD

and phew thats good! the least thing i'd want is make you uncomfortable in any way ;w;; 💞💞 gosh- even hanging out with friends is like russian roulette- XDD before covid and all i would always go to Larie's house every single weekend because my mom would always go there every weekend to play mahjong (its a little gambling game) and i would just be like "YEAH IM COMIN TOO-" - like OMG- literally friend's moms being friends with your mom is just the definition of LIFE GOALS- and it would be so fun every time i go there too- my mom would play with them till midnight or literally up to 3 am- so me and larie would just do the most wackiest stuff- along with eating loads of snacks and watching random shows or anime XDD ahh its only months ago since it stopped but it already feels nostalgic xD

awh NoW I WANNA TRY PIEEEESS- AND ABHAHAHAHA "HAVENT TRIED THE BIBLE"- I GOT SO CONFUSED WHEN I FIRST READ THAT XDD phone: its the BIBLE | astro: its a cobbler— | PHONE: YOU QUESTION THE WORDS OF THE MIGHTY JIMMY? ) XDDDD

and LEGITTT- WHENEVER we ask them "hey what you gonna dress up this halloween" thEY woULd JusT Be Like "huh halloween whats that--" XDDD but they end up trying to celebrate it with us at the very least- xD anD YEAP WELCOME TO WHEN its the time of the year where the month names start ending with "ber" aka CHRISTMAS CHAOS TIME- /hj xDDD

mann for my school we had to choose between three music electives- band, orchestra, choir- i chose orchestra and it was AWESOME- until it was my last year and THE FUCKING ORCHESTRA TEACHER QU IT (it was reasonable actually- she had a sickness) and the cLASS JUST TURNED TO SHITITITHKAHTLQJF I HATED IT it came from my favorite class to the WORST in an InSTANT im SOBBING- but even the whole school is just utter bull- during that same year- i had six classes(a teacher for each) and guess what- THREE OF THOSE TEACHERS LEFT- LIKE EXCUSE YOU?? my 2020 was already RUINED before even COVID CAME like WTHHH- so yeah it was crazy- at that point we were all in despair and the school became more ghetto than it was before(everyone would keep saying "wErE In The GheTtO RATTATATAAA" every time we reach school grounds- its funny cause its true- XDD) yeah its crazzyy

and Oh YEHAH the mods are sickk- mods make my dont starve together gameplay so much better xDD and ooh i have seen portal before but i never actually played em- i think i was watching the walkthrough of both games just to try to learn what the game was about- but in the end- i forgot everything from what the heck our objectives of the game was other than to solve mind blowing puzzles- XDD but cAN i JUST SAY THE SONGS ABSOLUTELT BOPPED THO? THE ENDING SONGS STILL ALIVE AND WANT YOU GONE GOT ME LIKE in TEARS to how good they were- like i jammed to them for a long ass while xDDD and ohhh i never seen any portal mods before! i didnt even know portal mods were a thing but that sounds SICKKK

and omg xD and wth- now that you mention it- like- SAMEE?? real life wise- the birthdays are scrambbled up- but lately on tumblr almost everyone has their birthdays around the the "ber" times and this has now made me realize it- like omg- XDD

#the rambles of crystu