#but idk!!! i now find it Odd

[hwiyoungies]

much love but this is why idols shouldn't say the time they were born lmao

#i know he prob said it knowing something like this was gonna happen #but idk!!! i now find it Odd #like before when i got into kpop i would eat this up like yeah tell me what's up with this dude #and maybe it's that now i'm too sensitive but this feels so invasive #love joking around when it comes to astrology and being like yeah he's like that because he's an aries #but this in depth thing about a stranger that didn't ask for his chart to be read #idk!! the few times i've had my chart read it's been very personal #and i guess it depends for everyone and maybe he doesn't care anymore #but the overanalyzing is a lot. like one thing is to joke and then dismiss it #another one is well. this #b.txt

[moeblob]

Today.............. has genuinely. Been. A Day.

Have some OC doodles I started yesterday before tragedy struck and are like the bare minimum effort for today to finish. Since the two princes were originally not /in canon/ for another plot but rather made for a mafia AU as cousins to one of the main characters for the base plot. I was like. Huh let's give them a happier life. So here they're just princes and instead of the police department/detectives that most of the main cast is in base plot, those are the royal guards around the twins' castle.

#my characters #the funny thing is that the princes are like......... made for an au of another plot #and here they are in another au of the plot #so like yeehaw everyone i love my ocs and i love putting them in situations #also idk what its worth but hey happy pride atticus is trans im proud of him #it has zero relevance to the plot but its important to me that hes trans #he also is like.... an absolute bundle of friendliness which is a huge contrast to the twins cousin #who is extremely stoic for the most part and finds it hard to feel emotions and thinks #everyone feels the same way all the time like him - WHICH IS DEPRESSED BY THE WAY #but he learns that ah nope thats just him and oh hes better by the power of love #and he doesnt actually get it ?? like in canon or mafia or as a prince hes just like #huh i like this guy and he makes me want to smile which is really odd im gonna stay by him if i can #and doesnt even realize right away hes fallen in love #atticus and caspian however are very aware of their emotions and are v happy to see their cousin feel things #and are constantly there to tease him but support him and help him and theyre all good boys #ill shut up in the tags now bc the tags are taking me as long to type as the art took to doodle

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

#this post brought to you by: me #i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses #i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP #like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready #anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT #and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk #and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message #even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL #AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!! #i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year #i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17? #ive had a good well paying job since i was 18. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job #which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind #so theres no point staying here. #i might never have this kind of job security again. #but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something #on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now #on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT #but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to #richard started yelling and swearing el oh el #might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible? #but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option #the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going #idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks #this is why i want to get out of here #also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about #not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey! #if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!

[hella1975]

me and my (also bi) flatmate were talking about date guy last week and out of nowhere she goes 'if you get a boyfriend im gonna be so annoyed we haven't even done anything gay together yet' and like i laughed it off but i keep remembering it bc we dont have a flirty friendship AT ALL like even in the moment it came WAY out of left field and im just here like hold on was gay shit ON THE TABLE??? NO ONE TOLD ME

#furious #you know that tiktok audio that's like 'i am not trying to seduce you... would you like me to seduce you?' #and it started off as a smirky flirty thing but the gays and neurodivergents #latched onto their own interpretation where it's more like #'wait.... did you WANT me to seduce you?' #i feel like that rn #like me and her have a very hateful relationship LMAO the only time we're ever nice to each other is when we're drunk #which is so funny bc she is actually one of my favourite people and she's told me im one of hers #so we go from sober and 'i literally despise you i cant wait to live without you next year' #to drunk and 'DONT GO TO AMERICA FOR YOUR PLACEMENT DONT LEAVE ME HERE' lmaooo #so being NICE is odd for us let alone being FLIRTY #like she said it and even when i didnt even consider the repurcussions i was like 'idk how to respond to that' #bc i have a hundred mean responses ready and waiting for her but NOTHING to respond to that with #like i literally said 'as if you'd be my type' but it just didn't hit as well bc she was being NICE/SUGGESTIVE #UGH IDK #like i dont fancy her like that btw and i dont think she likes me like that either it's v much platonic #but bisexuals will be bisexuals i v much think it's part of bisexual culture now to just hook up with any other bisexual you find #hella goes to uni

[majimassqueaktoy]

Honestly the funniest thing about Haruka's idol story line in y5 (and dont any of you come at me with the You're Lessening Mirei's Evil Heinous Actions shit, I know she was the antagonist, blah blah) is the fact that as far as traineeships go Haruka's.... wasn't all that unusual- Living on your own away from your parents? Par the course. Having older figures be unduly harsh about your talent/looks? Also par the course. Insane schedules? Creepy fans? Yep. In fact Haruka is older than a lot of people are when they start traineeships nowadays... Like that aspect of the game could have been played up for even more dramatic value than it was.

#Like in real life right now theres kids who have moved /countries/ to become idols #At as young as /12 years old/ #and some of them dont see their families for years like Haruka's whole situation is less wild than a bunch of real people #god i got a random kpop video of a 17 yr old boy [who is already in a debuted group????] #and he was surprised with seeing his mum AFTER 3 AND A HALF YEARS ??? #like he hadnt seen her in person since he was 13 and now hes 17 and...... How is that legal #Also that video fucked me up bc he wasnt even like happy he looked confused and shy and awkward like God send that boy home rn #all the therapy hes gonna need.... Anyway suffice to say #Having Haruka's storyline esp when you consider the people writing the games are in the JP entertainment industry was pretty interesting #Like they clearly have feelings and critiques and I liked that they tried to do something with that #Also one of the girls in y6 was a former idol who had her career ruined bc she dared to be seen #smoking with a male idol when she was 20 or so and got fired because of it- so i mean at least rgg gave her some work idk #this post is just a stream of consciousness rambling about how i find the idol industry interesting and odd #Some aspects of it i think are clever but other aspects are so HMMMMMM #20-30 years from now maybe even sooner i feel like theres gonna be some INTERESTING tell-alls

[needylittlegirl]

can it stop being cold outside i’d like to go talk to the moon

#i had like 500 different thoughts at once and now my brain feels like mashed potatoes #nothing too good or too bad just a lot of thoughts at once #idk all i know is that i’d like to be held and touched and loved #do you ever feel like #like youre gonna dissolve if you dont get at least a hug asap??? #i feel like im gonna dissolve and nobody will ever be able to find me #like if im not physically acknowledged?? soon im going to just disappear #its an odd feeling #i think touch really grounds me and when i go too long without it i just start to feel Weird and off #idk im fine though #if it wasnt cold and wet outside i’d be telling all of this to the moon #when i was little i’d sneak onto the roof and talk to the moon #its weird to think about that cause i know i was like 7 when i’d go on the roof #and i know i talk to the moon when im lonely or feel like nobody will get what i have to say #so is that why i started doing it? when i was 7 years old was i worried that whatever i was feeling was too alien for everyone else to get?? #im fine and can deal with it Now cause im older but it makes me so sad to think about how lonely i was when i was That little #ANYWAYS #stopping this train of thought before it leaves the station ✋ 🛑 #tbd

[magentagalaxies]

guess who got an idea for another comedy essay (it's me. i do not have time to write essays other than my current school work rn but oh my goddd my brain is stilly in comedy analysis mode)

#this essay in particular would be about the common themes explored in kids in the hall vs i think you should leave #bc of course we can compare and contrast their comedy style and technique (which would definitely be part of the essay) #but one thing i always find interesting with sketch shows is how even tho most sketch shows don't intentionally have a central theme/topic #comedians and comedy troupes do have themes they gravitate towards consciously or unconsciously #not gonna spoil the essay bc if i start listing what these themes are for the two shows i will just fall into writing the whole essay now #but the crux of it is how kith never did commercial parodies and never parodied specific things in the pop culture and politics of the time #and was much more about human behaviour #vs ITYSL does have infomercials and commercial parodies etc. but it wasn't until today that i noticed they do something very odd with them #that actually does kind of carry through the KITH ethos that's a byproduct of *not* doing commercials #and more closely resembles the KITH view than it does the more mainstream SNL view #idk this might not make sense i'm being vague on purpose bc if i write the essay now my work will not get done

[sonippep-hohu]

Speaking of Sugary Spire, I was chatting with my girlfriend about the old lore of it? Like, Im sure most ppl know the lore was Peppino and Noise swapping places specifically because of an Incident and they get amnesia and go crazy. (A general summary--) And I admitted to her that like... I don't like that lore? hdfhf It's for fun and for goofs, not meant to be that deep. But like, there's so many aus lately where "person gets concussed and gets amnesia" or somethin and it's boring to me. Amnesia aus are boring to me-- and I also mentioned to her that I think Pizzano and Pizzelle are so separated from Peppino and Noise - as their own characters - for them to be specified to "used to be them but they just snapped one day." Does that make any sense? Like it's an au, I don't expect that they USED to be the OG Peppino and Noise - they're new people! they're SWAPPED places because that's just what their universe is like! That's how it works in my mind, anyway... Pizzelle and Pizzano are more unique now.

#not to mention I always got the random vibe that pizzelle getting amnesia as noise and then also being teased as a transfemme is odd? #im sure they didnt mean to imply somethings so wrong with noise that noise is trans now - that's entirely just me grasping a bit!! #but I always felt like that was weird #like specifically the hype of 'PIZZELLE AND PIZZANO ARE JUST THEM BUT CRAAAZIERRRR HAAA' and then Pizzelle being trans-- didnt mesh well-- #IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN #I just don't like the lore of Sugary Spire and I hear theyre updating it but Im unaware of what the lore for them is now #and I still see ppl making content as if the og lore is still true (which is fine if they find ways to enjoy it) #but like yeaaa I think Pizzelle and Pizzano are seperated from that #there's too many aus where 'Peppino beats someone up and they get amnesia' /lh /aff

[jojolimons]

yoooooo the shiny sinistea i caught is an antique sinistea

#limon talks #and i found another regular antique sinistea right next to it too #idk about odds but that was some pretty good luck #...now i gotta find a second shiny sinistea so i can keep this one as is

[supercantaloupe]

found out tonight i'm like the only person in my gc who took calc over stats in high school...earth shattering revelation

#of the people who when to american high school anyway idk about anyone outside the us... #stats didn't make sense in my brain...i couldn't keep track of any of the operations :( #but i used to be genuinely good at calc i liked it #i was in honors precalc in 10th grade i got a 5 on the ap ab exam in 11th and then took bc calc in 12th instead of ap stats #and now i can barely do. ANY math i haven't been in a class since then. sob #idk why finding out basically everyone else i know took stats over calc or prefers it generally is so. idk. emphatic to me #odd man out once again i suppose... #sasha speaks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Hi, do you have any general tips for getting into grad school lol?

I'm trying to get into a clinical psych phD program which I know is very different from what you're doing but hey, I'll take any advice youd like to share ! Also love your art :-)!

I'll just explain how i got to this point and hope theres something worth taking from that.

For me, I did my Masters 1st bc I hadn't done in the lab work until my last year of undergrad and I wasn't sure how I would handle working on a big project and I had a general idea of what I wanted to study but it was still kinda blurry. So, I thought ok 2 years on a project that seems ok, then 4+ on something I really wanna do based on what i learned from my masters. I found my Masters advisor through a string of talking to different people about my interests, reading her papers, and asking if she happened to be looking for students. I sort of stumbled into a good situation on a bit of luck

For my PhD I had a very narrow focus for what I was looking for in terms of research, so there were only like 5 ppl doing exactly what I wanted in english speaking countries. I found them all through reading a bunch of papers, stalking their lab websites and then emailing them like: Hey! I found u through reading X paper, ur research is so cool! Here is how it fits with my interests and here is what I've done that qualifies me to work with you (in as few words as I could manage). Are you accepting students into your lab? And then if they reply that they are: would u be willing to talk with me?

During meetings the questions I always ask (aside from questions abt their research) are: what's your lab space like? How hands on are you as an adviser? What do you like about what you do/what compelled you to take on X research? And then it's also good to ask about their other students (what research they're doing and if you could email them to ask if they like this adviser as a boss/whats it like at the school).

Honestly, I feel like the best advice I could give is treat an interview like it goes both ways. You don't want a boss that sucks so grill them a bit to try to figure out what they're like as a person. And it helps to let a little passion shine thru ✨️

Hope that helps? And good luck!!!

#its a lot easier to get in once you have your masters too bc it demonstrates u can handle grad school #like id get emails back like: oh ur work fits well with my research! and im like: uh yea thats y i emailed u??? #but my interests r extremely niche and a bit odd so i guess i kinda come blazing thru like a rogue planet #idk im maybe a bit weird but ive got a lotta passion for what i wanna do when im not drowning #and hopefully that comes thru in interviews even when im rambling around my answers #aha now im procrastinating prepping for those interviews 😅 #anyway hope this helps a bit! #mostly for me its finding ppl with the background thst will enable me to do what i want and then trying to fugure out what kind of person #they r and if that fits with how i work #unrelated #lmao literally 2 ppl i got on calls with were like algae??? most ppl try to hide their interest in algae #and im like great its been 2min and uve already called me a freak lmao

[fishingmaster69]

kindof losing my mind bc uhhhh. how am i supposed to like. afford to live.

#i am going to whisper in the tags bc i feel odd about YELLING my bs into the void #i do not have a job yet largely due to physical and mental disabilities #but when i DO start searching for one its like. 90% of online job listings out there are ghost listings #basically none of them hire disabled people and i have disabilities that REQUIRE accommodations #my job search is significantly narrower bc of my disabilities theres a ton of shit i just straight up cannot do #and they all pay about 1 ball of lint & two quarters. #i live in california which thankfully is (relatively) safe for me to transition #but its also. California. which is. Expensive. to live in. #and i have medications i NEED to be a functioning person monthly #on top of taking T at some point #so like ummmmm. chat am i fucked!!!!!!!!! #i could leave california but where do i even go thatd be safe for me AND affordable #its just so hard to get motivated to be independent right now when like. im 18 years old and i can barely walk anymore #im grieving my physical ability at 18 years old #i should be doing that at 70 #and everything costs So Much theres no fucking shot i find anywhere in california i could afford IF i can even FIND a fucking JOB I CAN DO #unless i wanna live with my mom forever (who is constantly wearing on my mental health and i DESPERATELY need some distance from) #or live in a literal closet for $2000 a month #what if i have to sacrifice my meds to pay rent i literally am not a functioning human without them so i 100% could not work while off them #idk shit looks so fucking bleak for everyone right now but being disabled makes it a hell of a lot worse #i used to be excited about being independent now i just kindof dread it. or it seems more like a pipe dream #i dont wanna live with my mom til im 25 yall #and transitioning is expensive. and my mom is not going to cover my medical bills lmfaoooo #and idk whats going on with my physical ability so im probably going to have to pay for more doctors appointments #and tests and TESTS AND TESTS #for possibly years #til they figure out what the fuck's wrong #just not excited to live in poverty bc i am a young person in america and basically every young person in america is living in poverty atm #and also not excited to live in a world where i walk with a cane at 18 #zep.txt

[bingobongobonko]

methinks i should make a ramble jar and start putting money in it bc. i lost like two hours of time rambling about something and now im in the aftermath like. dude..

#sigh. i do this every time #im not mad just disappointed #i am a little bit insecure about it but this too will pass #i guess it seems like a good thing to be passionate abt what you like but yk #two hrs..? #kinda just wish i were normal #yk #30 mins at most #it just sucks. i feel odd and weird #i dont mind the lost time persay #just kind of perception of me ig #i swear i have more interests than just the one #its just i really care about this one thing right now and i need to say it but also its kinda like mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn #talk about the weather! #idk! #i dont find it charmin about myself i find it insufferable #this too will pass.. #im just being negative. and i cant exactly control it #once i start talking its gonna take shoving to get me to stop #and no one did #so maybe that means they dont mind or maybe they were being polite #idk but i shouldnt ruminate on it #if ppl found me annoying they'd stop talking to me right #i cant assume anything

[roboromantic]

Lego Fortnite is Extremely buggy but I think they patched out my favorite one, where if you angled your camera just right while swimming it'd make everything look like it was underwater

#they did Something and now it refuses to show the controls with Playstation buttons and it's really throwing me off #so I dug up this xbox controller we have for some reason and idk if it's better or worse #bc like. now the buttons are correct but the left joystick and dpad have swapped positions and it's Weird #I think they did increase the odds for some of the stuff I needed to find in chests though so that's great #Chal plays Fortnite

[rindomness]

okay so having reviewed... most? of the spamton sweepstakes lore stuff since i missed most of it cause i was busy at the time ive concluded that some people need to remember that deltarune ch 1 was released as a .exe file called “survey program” downloaded off of an objectively kind of sketchy site after a series of cryptic tweets and no other fanfare or warning. so idk why im seeing people surprised hed release important lore information through some weird arg-adjacent-slash-auction event. this is pretty standard par for the course toby fox behavior actually

#im catching up from the weekend #cause i was either sleeping or doing homework p much the whole time #thanks to quill showing me some of the actual pages i didnt get to see them i still dont 100% know how to get to them #if theyre still up? idk what the situation is there #im half asleep so this probably. doesnt make much sense #but like. at this point. if you are surprised/shocked by toby fox doing weird shit with deltarune meta #where have you been the last four years #i found out about deltarune bc my ex kept showing me the tweets and then a very frantic text the night it dropped #for the first hour of gameplay i wasnt sure what the fuck was happening and that any minute now it would just stop and be revealed as some #odd ruse #only to discover it would qualify as a wholeass game even w/o the promise of a ch 2 #for free legally just there on the internet for all to find #i was not completely sure it was not going to be a virus until i got a thumbsup from my ex cause my antivirus flagged it #like would have missed this w/o that text #anyway im going to sleep now but like #man. every time toby does something theres going to be some group of people baffled #BAFFLED that he would reveal information in this fashion

[marnz]

oh, what’s that? you’re willing to work 11 hour days? cool, let me know how that shortens your lifespan!

#crimes new Roman #they asked me to work 11 hour days for the next 4 months and I said no #and while I’m worried they’ll take me off this project I’m also not sure I want to be on it if it makes me feel this bad #I regard my job as my side gig and my writing/creative life as my main gig #but I can’t do it if my job is making me so stressed out and exhausted now can i #that’s what we do not discuss when we talk about overtime and stress #it ricochets through the rest of your life #anyway it’s weird bc I live and work in this world of ambition but I repeatedly find myself at odds with it #my ambitions lay outside of the office. I want a happy life! #idk #currently