#dont misunderstand me thats a valid reaction

[yellow-yarrow]

people are commenting “ough im so sad now and im having an existential crisis” on that d.e. post i made with quotes like “in dark times should the stars also go out?” and maybe it’s just that i’m eastern european and had depression for 10+ years but actually that’s a pretty positive post? trying and hoping for the best even when it seems impossible? thats all i have left lol. lmao.

#dont misunderstand me thats a valid reaction #its just funny. those quotes literally kept me alive after the last hu/ng/arian election #an easter european's positivity is an amerians negativity loll

[dateamonster]

I gotta thank you for watching The Love Witch because my girlfriend and I agreed 100% with your opinions and Elaine definitely does it just for the views and the online controversy. We only made it halfway through the movie but oh boy it really feels like the movie doesn't know what it wants to be and really went for style over substance

nah nah u misunderstand me i really liked it! like theres a lot of emphasis on aesthetic and i think its funny how thats the element i always see being celebrated totally out of context but i was surprised by how much it had going on.

like idk maybe this is just how i interpret but i thought it was like an interesting critique of that particular brand of girl powery white witch spiritualism through this character who wants so desperately to be loved and validated that she completely deludes herself and does horrible harm in the process. i make fun but i dont think elaine would provoke that much of a reaction from me if i didnt know like exactly the kind of real world woman she represents.

also i def admire the commitment to style going so far as to make the movie look like it was shot in the time it was set in. its all really impressive.

#ask #the love witch

[kitsoa]

Just thinking about the Roxas Prologue...

I know the KH2 prologue has been complimented to death, but they way they portray Roxas's sense of isolation in the midst of a mundane and happy youth setting is so perfect. Namely, the train scene with the crystals.

 Like... a kid feeling left out because he’s not able to join in this contrived little moment with his friends is extremely basic and simple. Everyone’s had that happen. Super relatable, and it stirs up a petty kind of schoolyard pity for the boy. The kind of, ‘oh that’s sad but it will pass, it’s not that big a deal’ kind of thing that we’d tell our kids to pick themselves up from.

But for Roxas it’s piled up into this longer standing narrative of isolation from his friends. He loses the crystal because it’s stolen by some guy his friends can’t even see. Before that there’s a misunderstanding and a broken promise because strange interlopers hold him up. Roxas falls from the clock tower and no one seems to remember. His reality is falling apart and he feels completely alone. 

There is zero dialogue in this scene. And had Roxas had his crystal and partook in this childish display, it would have been an endearing testament to their unspoken bonds to each other. Instead we have a mundane scene corrupted by the supernatural. A boy feeling left out in a simple way, to represent a greater chasm. 

This is echoed later in the day with the 6th Wonder of Twilight Town.

In this case Roxas is participating in the enjoyable mundane activity while his friends are the ones left out. What’s striking personally for me is how energized and enthused by the wonder Roxas is. He animatedly explains what he thinks everyone else is seeing and starts questioning the wonder, engaging with his friends as he so wants and as he assumes they would. Almost like he’s compensating for not being able to join in before. He even bounds ahead, determined to investigate until... he almost falls onto the tracks.

This is one of the most unsettling parts of the prologue... because from his friend’s perspective Roxas is displaying some extremely concerning behavior. I mean, we know they probably don’t think he’s lying after the whole hanging with Seifer deal so these wild claims are all the more troubling. And then, clearly hallucinating, his friend straight up walks onto the tracks. The fall would have hurt him of course, but it’s the arrival of the real train that kind of seals the moment for me. Roxas could have been killed. 

Hayner says “You’ll get hurt.” and I love the delivery of the line because there’s this trepidation in it. Like Hayner and by extension the rest of the ensemble are grappling with an extremely heavy subject that they are positively clueless how to handle. Roxas then has his most overtly ‘crazy’ moment, insisting and trying to pull the validation and corroboration from his friends who are unable to give him what he wants. I like how this frustrates Hayner, shown in how he forces the situation to move on and angrily dismisses Roxas’s further curiosity. It’s such a reasonable reaction and I can sympathize with the levels of maddening concern Hayner then wants to be free of. 

And while Roxas was engrossed in the mystery of the abnormalities happening to him, he still allowed himself to feel the sadness of getting left out. Drifting behind the group, not paying attention to their conversations or remembering its even summer vacation. Even so, I don’t think it registered to him how troubling this final day was to his friends. He probably had time to reflect after the simulation ended but, data hearts or real, he put his friends through emotional strife and that guilt must make him feel horrible. 

#kingdom hearts #someone help i am feeling so many things from this prologue and ive seen it far too many times #bless the seasalt trio reunion destine for kh3 but i think this trios reunion/meeting will be the most emotional

[kookingtae]

(1/2) Jordan I hope you aren't too sad about this :( we don't even know if it is a hickey. It's understandable to feel sad, hurt, jealous and what ever else but of course he is a 19 year old young man in the entertainment industry who is sought after by many men and women. It's normal for them to date or have relationships with people. There are millions of people who want to be with them it's unrealistic to think they will never date or haven't dated already.

(2/2) Eli from U-Kiss was married and had a child and nobody knew. Onew from Shinee said he was in a relationship 2-3 years ago. They keep their relationships a secret to not hurt fans and because of privacy. The best thing is to just live through fan fiction and try not to be too attached because it isn’t healthy. I know you’ll find someone who you love just as much as Jungkook and maybe more

Anonymous said: I know i should feel really happy if kook’s getting laid but i just cant… it hurts me. I dont know. I might get a lot of hate bc of this but lol this is how i feel. I just want to let it all out. -unicorn anon

Anonymous said: Jordan, i know how you feel. That prev anon wasn’t too nice, we all understand that we cant have them. Its just that it’s shocking at first (even if it is a hickey or not) bc we are indeed madly in love with them. But, we’ll get through the sadness and be happy for them because that’s what it really means to love a person, right? So we’re all in this together 💜

Anonymous said: To the previous anon, why do you have to be so harsh? As if we dont know the fact that he’ll never be with any of us. Are we not allowed to express our feelings? You dont have to rub it all over our faces, no one is claiming that Kookie is ours.

i know :// i wasnt really upset with kookie so much as i was upset with myself for allowing my feelings to be so strong and to have fallen so deeply in love with someone i’ll never be with. as I’ve said before, whatever makes him happy makes me happy. it just hurts to think about the person youre in love with being with someone else. thats a natural human reaction, is it not?? the only difference is that i dont know him irl. but that doesnt make my feelings any less valid??? but just to clarify since ppl seem to be misunderstanding, im NOT trying to control him or own him or have a say over who he can and cant be with. im just simply expressing my unrequited love ;;

#ask #anon

[gothhabiba]

aliceopal replied to your post “aliceopal replied to your post “that trend of a bunch of people…”

Thank you for this reply, I really appreciate it. The validity thing comes from my own experience of continuously doubting my own experience in a destructive way. For me, when I make a post, receiving that makes me immediately feel better. However it’s just like a typical case of me not being in check of my own autism+adhd-II and letting myself fall for the impulse of replying before I’ve double checked with someone else if this is a socially okay/not intrusive thing to write. Which clearly was needed for this. I know I write using a lot of words which makes everything I type a million times more annoying as well and as a non verbal I honestly haven’t yet found a way to be fewer worded. This is def such a screw up and it’s clearly deeper than just my disabilities. If it were just my disabilities then it wouldn’t have happened in a way that was “white person taking up space that doesn’t belong to them” but just regular me talking too much and being unhelpful/misunderstanding the intentions of something. Which - thank you so much for taking your time to explain how - it wasn’t. Like when I autstically project my experience+ fail to control the expression of that onto another white person I’m not necessarily doing harm. I misunderstood the difference of wanting to seem ungrateful and being it, and I misunderstood completely what you were expressing. I need to work harder on empathizing and understanding what is clear enough to you and the other readers as to not having to have it typed out in the post. Like I need to really focus on doing that before I reply, more than in any other interaction because I really do respect you and I really don’t want to drain your energy that I know is scarce in such an idiotic way especially thinking I’m following social protocol like a fool. I’m so sorry for all of this text. My help-person doesn’t work on weekends and I really wanted to express that I have read what you took your time to write. Would it be more comfortable for you if I tried to keep my interactions to an absolute minimum, reading to observe/take in only? (Clearly best would be for me to not be such a White but I dont want that learning to be at your or anyone else’s expense. maybe standard protocol: “it makes one happy to receive replies and interaction” is incorrect in this context bc it’s based on: dealing with interaction even bad such=less lonely but I can’t just assume thats your goal jfc

Im an idiot and typing this out I realized so many things I have misunderstood to such a vast degree with all of my interactions with you fuck I really wish I didn’t just do this in YOUR replies which is the fucking problem in the first place g-d I’m so fricken sorry I.. fuck. Bringing this entire interaction to my occ.thp. (she is v good at privilege and power structures) because I shouldn’t have sent you these replies either.

sweetheart I wasn’t gonna respond to this but honestly at this point–not only did you blame neurodivergency throughout this entire thing, but then you also determined to show this conversation & my personal, emotional responses to it to a third party without my permission (which is uncomfortable because this entire thing started with a failure to respect me in the first place, and also for several personal reasons involving past trauma with this kind of thing)–and now you’re reblogging all of my personal, emotional reactions to this (and a good deal of other thing involving race) because? why?

#will someone please explain to me what is going on here #aliceopal #replies