#even though we were toxic and awful just I’ve never felt that overwhelming infatuation/immediate love for someone

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Every fucking queer love story I consume completely ruins me

#FUCK #probably bc I never imagined to be able to experience actual queer love stories in media bc growing up it was always a joke #but jfc even the tiniest queer plot #doesn’t matter if it’s happy or sad or boring or anything #it reduces me to a crying mess for weeks #most recently it’s tlou obviously #the last of us #bill and frank #but like San junipero on black mirror did it #or the haunting of bly manor #or… others but I’m drunk and crying rn I can’t handle it #lgbt #lgbtq #queer #tlou #fuck man even listening to abba and assigning my own gay story to a song makes me sob like a baby #or like maybe bc my first ever relationship was with a girl when I was 17 and I thought we were going to get married #and she was the love of my life before I even really knew what love was or what the queer experience is like I was just so overcome by love #and I WISH I could feel that way about someone again lmao #even though we were toxic and awful just I’ve never felt that overwhelming infatuation/immediate love for someone