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#gallons of salt in the big fat gaping wound. insane.
piplupod
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me when i realize that pretty much everything in my life has actually only gotten worse since i graduated highschool, and all the times i was told things would get better were absolutely false !!!!!!
#i am going fucking insane. this is so stupid
#i had a social life. i had friends. i had a job i could keep up with outside of school. i had a solid routine and schedule.
#i had insurance. i didnt have to worry about money. i didnt have to buy groceries. i didnt have to cook every day.
#i had enjoyable group activities. i had ppl telling me i was doing a good job. i had AUTHORITY FIGURES telling me i was doing a good job!!!!
#i had a place to go to be away from home every weekday!! i had hope for the future still to some extent (not a lot but more than i do now)!
#I DONT HAVE ANYYYY OF THAT NOW. I do have friends but not in-person!!! zero social life except hospital out-patient bullshit!!!
#anyways the highschool is doing one of my fav musicals that i came THIS CLOSE to doing my grad year
#but the vote was indecisive so they did some bullshit that nobody was happy with lmfao
#i fucking petitioned hard. lobbied HARD. to get us to do that musical. i worked so hard to get everyone on board
#but everyone was just waffling about it. and then we ended up w smth that nobody was happy with
#AND NOW THIS YEAR. THEYRE DOING THAT FUCKING MUSICAL. THAT HURTS. LIKE A LOT. A LOT A LOT.
#like to the point where i have now genuinely cried after hearing that theyre doing it
#that was my one fucking chance in highschool to be part of a musical i actually cared about and enjoyed and i lost it
#i had watched my brothers be in these fun musicals when they were in school but for my three years I got NOTHINGGG
#it hurts so fucking bad. i had been looking forward to that ever since we moved to this town. and then i got fucking nothing.
#and now that im out of there and realizing how my life is absolutely fucked and i have to kill myself then they finally do it.
#gallons of salt in the big fat gaping wound. insane.
#genuinely feeling kind of shocked. how the hell do things line up so perfectly to hurt me this badly so often fjfkfl
#maybe im just fucking pathetic and overly emotional idk victim complex or smth awful
#i just kind of want to be done like right now. but i have to wait at least a month before i call it quits so i dont wreck this time of year
#for my family for the rest of their lives lmfao
#my siblings and dad dont deserve that. my mother probably does but whatever
#im tired!!! im fucking exhausted!!! this sucks so incredibly badly!!!
#suicide tw
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