#he's very fun to draw sooo more to come oops

[omppupiiras]

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#tommy cash #i was debating whether i should post my tommimes on mah blog but then i remembered i do indeed have a tag for non kä drawings #he's very fun to draw sooo more to come oops #the way into my heart=baguettes #misc doodles

[iihappydaysii]

these cute boys and their poor communication skills god help us all

alright, strap in my pals, because I’ve just rewatched the infamous john makes a move on jamie in ardsmuir and it all goes to shit scene and I have a lot of fucking thoughts. (this is focused on the show btw, i haven’t read this part of the books).

ok so it’s been three months since they’ve decided to be all friendly. and it breaks my heart to see because, there’s this easy happiness here and it’s so obvious how well they get along and enjoy each other’s company — and Grey helping Murtagh obviously endeared him to Jamie a bit.

Also, let’s just acknowledge Jamie saying “why you cunning wee bastard” when John does a good chess move and how it’s sooo mother forking hot. i can’t even tell ye. and grey is so proud of himself. (also my heart is always so full when I see John wearing Hector’s ring).

(pretty much the overarching theme of this is going to be that I totally get why john gets the wrong idea from jamie, especially given how subtle things had to be at the time. it doesn’t /not/ remind me of how john and percy will eventually dance around their feelings without saying anything. it’s like a quiet, sad art. unfortunately, my sweet, sweet boy gets it wrong here.)

Anyway, it hurts my soul that they both wanted to die after culloden, like their lives were both changed that day and now Grey is going to talk about a “particular friend” kill me. “he inspired me” stab me. oops and him talking about that deleted scene of Hal dragging Grey away from Hector’s dead body. (idk why i’m sometimes calling him john and sometimes grey, don’t ask questions)

“He was embarrassed you see” this is where it all gets wild to me. there’s no way NO waY Jamie doesn’t realize what Grey is saying. You see it in Jamie’s face. Realization but it’s not like he’s upset or anything—and what John shares here leads him to talk about Claire—to trust John with her name—so obviously he’s drawing a connection between the two things.

All I’m saying is that right then is when Jamie knows that Grey is gay, or whatever concept he could have of it at the time. (i think jamie’s reaction here is a big part of why john gets the wrong signal), he’s not upset by it.

Jamie’s whole speech about “caring for those we cannot help” is such foreshadowing of John’s relationship with Jamie but carry on. Oh and, emptiness but no great burden seems to be important— I’ll come back to that in a moment.

“I’ve been meaning to thank you for some time, major” Thanking John and calling him major, sign me the fuck up, but i’ve always loved this moment. it’s jamie expressing his like a trust for the man—and again, this is where their wires start getting even more crossed.

(I love John’s face when he realizes it was Claire he saved not an actual english woman in danger, poor guy)

I don’t think Jamie is meaning to flirt here at ALL, but i totally get why John starts to think he is. There are some serious signals. Lots of eye contact, leaning in, playful banter, just he sound of jamie’s voice here etc. all following John’s obvious confession that he was interested in men. on top of that, jamie is complementing him. talking about what a good man he is.

now is the moment when it all goes to shit and it’s interesting that john says “I see”. it’s not the most appropriate response to Jamie’s “I’ve thought of that now and again since I’ve lost her”. It’s just such an interesting reaction from John here. What does he think he’s seeing? That Jamie needs someone the way he needs someone. I said I’d talk about the whole “emptiness but no great burden” thing and I think, in part, that’s what this is about—like maybe John is thinking “we both need something to care about to fill that emptiness.”

In general though it’s an interesting thing because it’s such a risk to do what John does here. He has got to think touching Jamie’s hand will be well received or it would be very stupid to do it. This is something that, in order to survive, John would have to normally be good at doing. He would have to be good at understanding who is interested in him and who is not. Even if he’s emboldened by the fact that no one would believe Jamie, he’s still clearly upset by the reaction (he cries) and knows the consequence of losing someone he’s befriended as well as losing his go-between at the prison.

So, John says “I see” then slowly reaches out for Jamie’s hand. Jamie doesn’t pull away. John says, “I am sorry for your loss”. At this point, John’s hand is still. We see Jamie’s face for a moment and he’s still smiling. Whatever it means, I think John sees that as well as Jamie not moving. But then John’s eyes cast downward to their hands. And then (I die) because he (does the thing that kills me) rubs his thumb on Jamie’s hand and gives him that look (a look I would fight armies to have cast in my direction). It’s a question. It’s obvious, John has been here before and he’s actually certain enough in the reaction he’s going to get (and boy is the sweet snuggle bear man wrong).

This is the point where Jamie seems to start freaking out. I dinna ken lmao what Jamie is thinking up to this point. (since we don’t know i’m going to go with what I want to be happening— he was flirting with john because it was fun and safe and he likes the man and when it actually goes this way, he freaks out.) But seriously, it could run the gambit between what I just wrote, that he’s just like eww he’s being gay in my general direction, or (and very, very possibly) it’s just the reminder of Captain Randall, like a trigger. John and BlackJack technically have the same name, they’re wearing similar clothes, it happened when Jamie was Randall’s prisoner. There are a lot of things in this moment that could trigger Jamie and it really, really sucks because John has no idea and is such a good man and would never, ever hurt someone.

See… and Sam’s choice to make Jamie’s lip tremble when he says “take your hand off me”. There’s fear there. It’s not disgust or anger, truly. He’s scared, looks like he’s going to cry and my poor heart is a broken pile of garbage dirt. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE JOHN DOES CRY.

I can’t believe I wrote like 1000 words of my dumb thoughts on this scene, but seriously, it’s such a pivotal moment and so expertly played by Sam and David. There’s so much feeling and care and loss. So much yet unknown about the other, that things are misinterpreted and people get hurt and panic. and just ughhhhhhh

i need to discuss everyone’s thoughts on this scene in great detail

#lord john grey #john x jamie #outlander nonsense #just talking about the show dammit

[edengarden]

Hey pls could I get a regular matchup for bnha!<3 I'd prefer a guy but if you think any female fits better then I can be down w/ that too ;))

Getting the basics out of the way: Aries, ENFJ 2w3, Hufflepuff, Chaotic Good

I'm 5'7 with quite a big chest but a lack of ass lmao and I've got bleach blonde hair with bangs that falls just in-between shoulder and chest length. Brown eyes with long lashes (honestly still confused why they're so long now bcuz I deadass cut them off like three years ago bcuz I thought they looked too feminine?? Jokes on past me I'm Extremely stereotypicaly feminine now😽) and a dorky smile that I try to hide in pics but that just ends up with me looking like I have resting bitch face💔

I'm extremely extroverted, bubbly and kind to others with a somewhat hidden vulgar sense of humour that rly contrasts the "cute fluffy animals in sunflower fields and neverending love" vibe that I give off irl. I take on a motherly protective role with my friends (we will pretend that wasn't just bcuz trauma made me mature early luv that 4 me) and am always there to offer advice or just cute pictures/facts to take their mind off their worries!

Despite being very extroverted and people-oriented some people that don't know me may think I'm a lil shy because of my anxiety and tendancy to overthink EVERYTHING. Around my friends I try and hide my real feelings behind a super happy mask so that others can feel the joy I give off and I don't feel like a burden🏃🏃 I can also be incredibly judgemental in my head and if I know I'm right about something I will fight to the death till others acknowledge that I'm actually right.

My current biggest hobby is cooking/baking and I always make dinner every Sunday without fail (shout out 2 my roast dinners they are elite if I do say so myself😌) along with some sweet treats. I also enjoy creating cosplays because it combines my love of sewing, makeup and acting because I can completely embody my character and not have to worry about being judged because it's not Me being judged it's the character I'm portraying.

I can honestly vibe to any music but I prefer cheesy pop songs and jazz music along with assorted classical music that I listen to every night to help me sleep (I say that but some of them fr have me trying to stay awake just so I can listen to the whole song rip)

When it comes to people I tend to gravitate towards introverts because I can always make them ramble their heart out and I adore listening it's honestly my hidden talent both romantically and platonically they've said that they feel I'm trustworthy and easy to talk to (SUCH high praise like 60% of my past friends were the bookworms that Never Spoke and one of my besties now talks to me more than most of her family after only knowing eachother 2months)

Ummm fun fact abt myself I used to be obsessed with the idea of being a spy when I was a child so I wrote my entire diary in code and to this very day I can't uncode a single thing I wrote💀

Have a wonderful day I hope this is enough haha💗

I WANNA MATCH YOU UP SOOO BAD WITH MONOMA SO I’LL HECKING DO IT

Listenlistenlisten you give off strong Kendou vibes, But Better. And I mean better suited for Monoma. He’s a lot to handle, but you can definitely do it. I think your friendly demeanour and naturally approachable self is VERY convenient for him, even if he won’t say it out loud for a while.

At first you can bet he’s not THAT interested; you’re just another person, and a bubbly one at that. But then he sees how your sense of humour completely derails from your persona and his heart goes “and I oop-“

Jkjk I honestly think it takes Monoma a while to fall, but it’s an irreversible process. Like you keep his boasting and insulting in check?? When he aims it towards you, you just aim it back at him with the same silver tongue he has?? Battle of the Wits. Everyone KNOWS it’s flirting but he doesn’t. You don’t. It’s actually sort of funny.

The fact that you can befriend literally anyone? He’s Shooketh, it’s something he’s not able to do (for very good reasons), but he admires it. He totally hid his admiration through “maniacal plans” of having you befriend people from 1-A and become a spy on the inside. You did not agree to his plans and still went on to befriend Koda lmao you really said “fuck yo plans”.

And my GOD YOUR ARGUMENTATIVE SIDE. He loves it so much, he loves to trigger it, he loves to argue with you, and it’s even better because he’s a bit,, dumb dumb so he 100% thinks he’s right but you KNOW he’s wrong but he thinks he knows he’s right and the arguments go on forever and wow I guess you’re moronsexual now?? This is oddly endearing to me what the heck.

It takes so long for this boy to realize his feelings, and even longer to confess, but through it all he remains the same towards you. The only exception is after you two become a thing and he gets comfortable with you, you might be able to draw out some insecurities from him. Please help him with those he needs help

Songs!!

- Wake Up In The Sky, Gucci Maine, Bruno Mars & Kodak Black

- That’s Life, Frank Sinatra

- Fame, David Bowie (if this doesn’t give you a Monoma vibe NOTHING will-)

- Fashion, David Bowie

#mha #bnha #mha matchup #bnha matchup #monoma neito

[riskeith]

hi babe ! its snowing so much here today i’ve been cold all day :( but i got some chai latte and made snow angels so i’m feeling a bit better,.. <3

i wish there was a way to trade objects or send them away!! ik it would spiral into hacking, scamming and would probably defeat the purpose of the game by making it much easier but still :( it would be nice to help out friends with some objects.. :(

actually the most annoying thing about mobile is the camera. it sometimes glitches especially during battle and i find myself stuck facing a mountain bc the camera. so i see why people might complain. also sadly NO :( i wish!! i have an old laptop i thought of using but idk if it can handle it. i think i wanna try it out though. do you use a laptop or pc?

that’s true. i wish we could like... unable easy mode and just chill LMAO hsjshdhdk. but combat does get more fun the more you progress, i’ve started to really enjoy it. now i get why you started to like dragonspine.... i think.... i’m still iffy about that place... 🤔 fuck the cold.

dude. they’re sooo good. i love how they just.. angrily reassure each other constantly. kageyama’s just ARGH *literally smacks sense into hinata’s head* and hinata’s just EEE *takes the compliments and spikes like a mf*

i actually didn’t know much about voltron when i first started watching. i only knew about shiro because an acquaintance had posted about his gay announcement but i never checked it out. i actually got into it in a funny way... i was on yt one day and i saw a video titled ‘are keith and lance gay?’ and i was like who the fuck are keith and lance? then because i’m such a gay person myself i decided to check it out and i saw keith and was like... wow that’s a cute boy... then i saw their dynamic and said WOAH. and well... i just started watching and got hooked and i thought everything was neat and fun so i watched up until season 3 without engaging in any fan activities so i had no idea what people were saying...,, then i did and i was greeted with the shit storm. and the rest is history. but i can imagine it must’ve been so fun... the excitement of not knowing where the story will go and getting new content and being in the fandom while it was alive despite everything.... ahhh how did you find out about the show?

dude YEAH!!! do you feel like university affects the way you handle your fandoms? we talked a bit about hobbies and stuff but what about fandoms?

(MAKES A SECOND REROLL ACCOUNT JUST FOR THIS.... 🥺 omgggg imagine how cute that would be wait omg i’m actually like ahhhh.. we could go on dates at liyue... or watch the sunset at cape oath.... or have picnics at any mountain top... 😳 YEAH PLS that would be so nice... help is anyway nice to have and you’re such a op now you’d just murder the villains in a second... 😳 oo. although i checked earlier and my server is in america for some reason? i really hope they do the cross-server thing life would be SO good. i’d ask you on a date in a heartbeat. 😳 which characters would we use on this co-op date?)

KOSMO!!! BEST PART OF VOLTRON???? kosmo... come back to us please.. please. ok maybe second best part after keith in the bom suit..... god keith in purple just sits so right <3333 sooo right <3333 I VOTE FOR KEITH BECAUSE HE’S HALF-GALRA SO I GUESS THAT MAKES HIM THE FUTURE *LOVE-SICK SMILE* yeah... hahaha fucking fools. ‘rewrite where lance was looking for keith to confess to him bc they were going back to space’ CRIESSSSSSSSSSSS... CLUNAAAA... 🥺👉🏽👈🏽 hi.. 🥺 now i’m just gonna think about this all night and clutch my heart. thank you for that. btw how would you feel about a voltron movie ?

(i love how our topics just jump from genshin to voltron to genshin to voltron again lmao)

lots of kisses from your m.a. <3333

(okay this ended up being very long bc i combined your second ask too and talked a lot so i hope it’s okay i put it under a read more fkdsjhfks)

omg snow!!! is it all pretty and fluffy 🥺🥺 also ‘chai latte’ and ‘snow angels’ in the same sentence when you said you were cold made me fhfksfjs but i’m happy you’re feeling better! muwah 🥰

yeah same!! i said that to my brother when i first started playing i was like ‘i wish you could trade characters’ and he just gave me a deadpan look and was like.. why would they allow that FHDSFKHD sigh but it would be fun!

ah yikes no! sometimes the camera fucks up even on pc so I can’t imagine what it’s like on mobile in the pivotal moments fhdkfjsd. and i use a laptop! i don’t have a pc ahaha. ahhh i hope you somehow manage to find a laptop/pc to try it out thoo

AHAHAH come on m.a. give dragonspine another shot 🤪🤪 but yeah the challenge is fun sometimes! tho i tried to do a domain like 3 times today and kept failing so... it’s also not fun. (i also tried to find some vids about how to build my characters and got overwhelemd fkhsdfks i feel like i’m going about it all in the wrong way ahhhhhhhhhhhh)

FSHDFKJSDHFKSDHJF THAT DESCRIPTION OF KAGEHINA YES 💯💯💯💯 the accuracy omg.. they’re such chaotic idiots i love them!!!!

!!! what a story that is ahah omg it’s like fate... icb you got that vid recommended to you lolol iconic... and i found out about it from my dash!! someone reblogged a screenshot and i was like “legend of korra?” FHSKFJHSKF so basically i thought it was a korra comic or something bc the art style was so similar fhskdfjd. and then i went searching and gave it a shot! and fell down the rabbit hole..

ooo wdym by handle my fandoms? i do know that last year when uni got overwhelming i locked my twitter and made a priv to vent and just. didn’t really go on social media if that’s what you meant FHSKJSDHKF but yeahhhhhhh uni fkn sucks. sucks out all the motivation i have for anything... i type so many words for lectures that i don’t have the energy to write fic :// FJKDSHKSDHFKSHF don’t meant to get so negative but yeahh lol. hbu?

(all those options got my heart going doki doki 😩 who needs real life dating when you can date in the gorgeous atmosphere that is genshin? AHAH. and oh? america??? maybe they just did that as default hm. as for which characters.... i don’t know that we have any that make up the popular ships fhdskjfj (xingqiu/chongyun, zhongli/childe, beidou/ningguang).. tho i see xiao/aether and xiao/venti on the rise so when the time comes ... AHAH you can be the venti to my xiao <3 LOL)

!!!!!!!!! okay i’ll list that down as the fic idea.. but no promises once again sdjfhksdf but i’m also very 👀👀👀 at the concept so! will def keep it in the back burner. 

hm. i honestly don’t know if i would even pay any attention to it hfksdhfjds like voltron left such a sour taste in my mouth i don’t even know that i could consume any canon content ever again. but it’ll also depend on what the plot would be? lol. would you be okay with it?

(lmaooo we be balancing many convos at once look at us 🤪)

ALSO!!! i’m watching spirited away rn and omg. i love haku sm. i love no face too!!! (at least in the beginning when he (?????) was helping sen <33) all the characters are really good as well tho and ofc the art and music!! i really wanna draw something for it now...... and it makes me very excited to watch howl’s moving castle!!

‘I saw the person my younger self had been enraptured by. I saw someone who took my breath away. And when I blinked, I saw the present you. A soul which, slowly but surely, I’d started to fall in love with.’

UMMMMMMMM CLUNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! explain yourself right now.........., what is this goddamn beauty you hide ? why is that so beautiful..,,, i take it the last klance fic is a multiverse fic???? literally everything good in one????? i saw hints of royal au as well? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you do us so good i literally love you sm just reading those small snippets just Ahhhhhh..... i love them they sound amazing i just wanna exist in them yk... 😭😭😭😭😭😭

FHDSKJFHDSFKJ IF YOU THINK THAT IS GOOD JUST WAIT UNTIL YOU READ THE LAST SECTION!!!!!!!!! but at the same time i’m surprised by myself too... me @ past me you ain’t bad! shdfkds I legit have no recollection or writing the snippet you sent but i’m glad you like it 😩😩 and thank you for being so kind always ilysm too 😭❣💓💖💫💞💘❣💖

oh and to answer your question (oops almost forgot) yes it’s a multiverse fic!! that’s why i thought it’d be good for the last one ehehe. just shoved in everything i loved and made klance in love in them!!

hope you’re treating yourself!! loveeeeeee your c.r. <3

#since it's under a read more.. it can be like those 'open for a surprise' things HAHAH #marriage anon #wowclunaanswers #long post

[jolienjoyswriting]

Mortem In Contumeliam FFVI, Ch. VIII

Chapter 8 of "Mortem In Contumeliam Final Fantasy VI," a Final Fantasy VI fan fiction story.

*inhale, exhale*  Okay.  So.  This chapter is was a… let's call it… "point of contention" with one of the people I shared it with?  As in, they were so absolutely, positively furious with me for what I was doing to a certain character, I actually ended up re-writing this chapter not once, but twice!  I even revised it more before I got something I was completely satisfied with.  But, to be fair?  The original way I presented this chapter kind of flew in the face of everything… sooo, yeah.  It was definitely for the best. Incidentally, I was so taken aback, I accidentally erased the first version of the chapter. (Well, saved over.)  Oops…

Word count: 5,486 – Character count: 31,412 Originally written: July 21st, 2019 Mostly-rewritten on: July 23rd, 2019 Significantly revised on: July 24th, 2019 Further revised on: July 30th, 2019

As the parties go their separate ways, one team ends up further divided… in more ways than one.

Final Fantasy VI, Wedge, Biggs, and related characters, scenarios, and properties created by Square Soft, Inc. and © Square Enix Co, Ltd. Significant contributions and feedback provided by Tessa and Anonymous D

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    “We’re nearing Greater Triangle Island.”

    A day had passed since the ship left Alburg.  As promised, it had moved across the sea with great speed, making the trip relative short.  By that night, the ship was coming to the southern point of the island.  However, before it made landfall, General Christophe suggested that they turn in for the night.  It wasn’t until the morning that followed that the group prepared to head out.

    “I hope you’re all well-rested,” Leo said, that morning, “we have a long day ahead.”     Wedge stretched and yawned while Biggs and Celes simply nodded, the ladder glancing over at Lock and Tina before looking back at the general.     “We’ll split into two groups,” he continued.  “Celes, Biggs, Wedge, and I will scout the western part of the continent, so Tina?  You go with Lock and Shadow.”     “O-okay,” the blond girl said with a little motion of her head.     “As mentioned, we’ll be traveling on-foot so we don’t draw any unnecessary attention.”     Wedge frowned.  He was looking forward to piloting his power armor, more.     “If you’re able to find any signs of the Eidolons, contact me at once.”     “Um…”  The half-Eidolon gave a blink.  “H… how?”     “Vector has been working on something helpful,” Biggs told her.  “Wedge?”     The other soldier cleared his throat, then he held up what looked like a normal satchel.     “Inside this handbag,” he explained, “is a smaller version of the radios we have in our Magitek Armor!  You guys’ll have this one–”     Wedge walked over, smiling as he gave it to Tina.  As she put it over her right shoulder, he returned to the other members of his group.     “– and, General Celes has another one!”     The other blond lady uncomfortably squirmed.  She was, indeed, wearing a similar sort of “radio bag” over her own shoulder.

    “Well, I believe we’re all ready to head out.”     General Christophe adjusted the blade on his belt.     “The village of Samasa lay to the northeast.  It may be a good idea to go there and ask if anyone has seen anything unusual.”     “What, you mean like magical, flying creatures zipping through the air?” Wedge teased.     “Exactly.”     He had to blink, then.  The general didn’t get the joke…     “Tina.”     “Uh– y-yes?” she responded with a start.     The general offered a friendly smile as be told her, “We can continue yesterday’s conversation after we’re done, here.”     She shyly looked away… which just made Wedge give the general a suspicious look.     “Unless there is anything else to discuss… let’s get a move on.”     With that, Leo headed off the ship, followed closely by Wedge, the two of them heading toward the forest to the north.

    “Well…”     All eyes turned to Lock as he spoke up.     “Guess we’d better head out, too.  Tina, Shadow.”     “Ah– right!” Tina called, following Lock as he headed toward the gangplank.  Shadow followed shortly behind, moving from his position near the engines.     “L… Lock, wait.”     The trio stopped just short of land, but only Tina looked back at the source of the voice.     “Um…  I…”     Celes shifted on her feet.  For some reason… she couldn’t look directly at the man she’d called to.  A second later…     “Let’s go.”     Lock gestured for the others in his group to follow as he stepped off the ship, seemingly eager to get away from General Chere.

    Biggs, who had stayed behind to wait for his partner, tilted his head.  He noticed that the lady-general looked like she was either going to cry or wanted to run away.  He also noticed that the other young woman, Tina, had hesitated and given her a soft, sympathetic look before catching up to Lock and Shadow before they got too far ahead.  Once they were gone…     “We should catch up to General Christophe.  Move out!”     Celes stepped with determination, moving off the ship and seeming not to caring if the enlisted man followed.  He was quick to tail her, of course – not just because he was her commanding officer… but, because he was curious about her situation.

    “General Chere,” he called after they’d been walking for a short while.     “What?” was the quick response he got.     “If you don’t mind my asking–”     “I do.”     “– what was that… ‘situation…’ back there?  With Lock?”     “That… is nothing to concern yourself with,” she dismissively said.     “Mm.  My apologies for prying, in that case.  I was simply curious.”     “You know what General Christophe says about curiosity and cats, soldier…”     He tilted his head.  “I’m… afraid that I don’t?”     Celes stopped, then turned around, wearing an impatient look.     “‘Curiosity killed the cat,’” she quoted.  “Do you know what that means?”     “That…”  He thought about it for a moment before saying, “I have no idea.”     “It means that…  It means, uh…”     When the general suddenly realized that she didn’t know, either…     “It means stop poking your nose into your superior’s personal matters!”     “If you say so, Ma’am.”     She huffed before turning back around and continuing forward.  Not long after, the soldier spoke, again.

    “How long have you known General Christophe?” he asked.     “For… most of my life, I think?” she replied.     “Do you two work together, a lot?”     “Not generally…  But, the Emperor requested that his two remaining generals work together on this mission.”     “Why do you think that is?” Biggs curiously inquired.     “Well… bringing peace between humanity and the Eidolons is a very important task.  I imagine that Emperor Gestahl wanted the people he trusted the most to head this task… though, why he ordered the rest of you soldiers to come along is beyond me.”     “We’re good company?” he suggested, clearly joking.     “Sure.”

    The two traveled in silence for a bit longer, Celes following a freshly-cut path through the foliage with Biggs following behind her.  When she paused to examine some unusual markings, the soldier decided to try and get to know her, more.

    “General?”     “Yes?” she responded, sounding a little more friendly than before.     “May I ask you about your time with the Returners?”     “I…”  She thought about shooting him down… only to say, “I guess?”     “I was just wondering… why did you join with their ranks?”     “I don’t… really know…”  She sighed.  “The Empire obviously didn’t care whether I lived or died, then, so… I guess I didn’t feel like I had anything to lose.”     “I see.”  He paused before asking, “What made you come back to the Empire?”     When she didn’t respond, Biggs got the idea that he’d hit a sensitive topic.     “I’m sorry,” he apologized.  “I’m terrible at small-talk.  I tend to just say whatever comes to mind.  Wedge can certainly vouch for that much.”     “It’s… it’s okay.”

    Celes pushed forward with Biggs following behind.  They hadn’t made much more progress when all-of-a-sudden…     “‘Biggs,’ was it?”     The soldier perked.  “Yes, Ma’am?”     “The Emperor was right.”     She turned her head back, offering a small smile.     “You are good company.”     “A-ah… um…”  He flustered a little  “Thank you, Ma’am.”

    There was a momentary paused before she asked, “Are you and Wedge friends?”     “Um… yes.”  He hesitated before telling her, “He’s my best friend, actually.”     “It must be nice… having a best friend.”     “That depends on your definition of ‘nice,’ I suppose.”     “What do you mean?”  The general sounded genuinely interested.     “I’m not sure if you pay much attention to the personnel, Ma’am… but, Wedge is something of a trouble-maker.  And, more-often-than-not… he ends up dragging me along for whatever wild ride he has cooked up.”     “I’m afraid that I don’t, but…”  She offered another smile.  “It sounds like life with Wedge is never boring, at least.”     Biggs gave a huff.  “Oh, don’t even get me started, Ma’am!  He’s so… reckless!  Sometimes, I wonder if he even thinks ahead before he acts!”     “Sounds like someone I know…” she mused.     “Is that so?”     The woman gave a blink… then, she went quiet, again.     “If you don’t want to talk about them…”     “It’s… it’s Lock,” she confessed with a huff of her own.     “Oh.  Yes.  Just from the brief interactions I’ve had with him, I certainly get the impression he’s a ‘shoot first, act questions later’ sort of man.  And, considering what he did on our way to Alburg…”     “What did he do on the way to Alburg?” she repeated as a question.     “Nothing much…  He simply caused my Magitek Powered Armor – my brand new, personal Magitek Powered Armor, issued to me by the Emperor, himself – to overheat and seize up by throwing it into overdrive.”     “Okay… that definitely sounds like something he would do…”     When he heard her start to laugh… Biggs couldn’t help but join in.

    “How I ever let him convince me to make the poor machine sprint the complete distance from Vector to Alburg is beyond me… but, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t… kind of fun.”     “Lock certainly does know how to have a good time…” she chuckled.     “Are… you two friends?”     Once again, Celes went silent.     “I… apologize, again, for prying,” the soldier said after a moment.  “This is clearly not a topic you wish to discuss, so–”     “I don’t get it!” she suddenly exclaimed with frustration.  “That idiot was desperate to talk to me when we set out!  Now?  He won’t even give me more than a passing glance!  He could, at least, hear what I have to say before condemning me!  What’s his problem, anyway?!”     She paused for a short while before continuing.

    “I know I haven’t been a good friend…  I know he feels betrayed because of my actions at the Magitek Laboratory…  Showing up at Vector, with General Christophe, probably didn’t help…  But, damn it!  I’m a loyal general of the Gestahlian Empire!  I may not agree with everything my emperor and his men do… and, yes, some of my actions have been… unfavorable… but, who says that I can’t help both the Empire that raised me… and, my friends in the Returners…?  We’re working toward the same goal, now… it only makes sense…”     The general sighed…     “Oh, I don’t know…  Am I overthinking things?  Am I reading too much into how cold Lock was being?  Or, have I completely misunderstood everything… like always?”

    Biggs was genuinely surprised by how much General Chere had told him.  That was quite a lot of personal information!  He even considered saying a-word-or-two, himself… he wasn’t anything he had to say was worth saying.  So, he simply stayed quiet.

    “It was nice seeing Tina and Lock, again…” Celes said after a few more moments of silence.  “Are you familiar with the King of Figaro?”     “I’ve never met him,” Biggs responded, “but I’ve heard he’s… something of a womanizer?  A-apologies if those are unsubstantiated rumors.  I just–”     “Actually…”  The woman smiled.  “I’ve heard things of a similar nature.  But, he had never attempted to flirt with me.  Tina, on the other hand…”     She quietly chuckled.     “What about the man who looks like him?” the soldier asked.  “The one who looks like he could single-handedly derail a train?”     “Macías?”  She hummed.  “That would be the king’s brother.  He’s… a little rough around the edges, but a kind and sweet man.”     “That reminds me…  The retainer from Doma…”  He paused before asking, “Is he as unstable as people say?”     “Kaien?”  She laughed.  “Hardly!  I dare say that he is the most polite of the Returners!  However… the rumors of his rampage?  Those are… quite true.  We… no, Kefka… he…”     She went silent, then, losing interest in the topic of Kefka and what he did.

    “Listen…” Celes quietly started, sometime later.  “I�� greatly appreciate your patience and interest in what I’ve been through.  I’ve had a lot on my mind, lately, and you’re the first person that’s… really offered to listen.  Things have become so complicated, lately…  Emperor Gestahl seemed so desperate to control the world, and his search for the Eidolons had led so many to their deaths… though, the Returners aren’t without their unsavory deeds, as well.  I guess… no one in this war is truly innocent.  But, I’m glad that the Empire has called it off.  Between you and me?  He was becoming a bit obsessive…”     “General Chere?”     She happily smiled to the Magitek soldier as they walked along.  He’d been such a good listener and it had been pretty liberating to just open up to him with her problems, talk about her friends, and the like.  She felt like she could tall to him about anything…     “The Empire does not look kindly upon treason.”     Until she heard him say that.

    Celes stopped walking, spinning on her heel to face the soldier behind her.     “I… I’m sorry?” she asked him, her face showing genuine confusion.     “I said–” Biggs started to repeat.     “N-no, I heard what you said…  I just… don’t understand why you said it, is all.  I’m not a traitor…  At least…”  She went quiet as she said, “I don’t feel like I am…”     “General… if I may be so bold,” he started…  “During our conversation, just now, I have heard you fondly speak of those who have done nothing but tear down the very people you are supposed to be serving.  We’ve heard that you actively fought against General Palazzo’s forces at Narshe and allowed the Returners to invade Vector and help dismantle the Magitek Laboratory.  If that is your idea of ‘fun,’ then you may need to reevaluate your position in the Imperial Army.”

    Celes was completely caught off-guard.  She didn’t understand why that soldier was suddenly making such insinuations.  Yes, she had fought the Empire, but…     “You’ve… you’ve got the situation all wrong, Biggs!  I didn’t mean to… I-I mean, I–”     “Has the Empire not been good to you, General Chere?” he asked with concern.  “Did the Empire not keep you off the streets and out of the gutters of Vector?  Did they not bless you with the gift of magic?  Have you betrayed us?”     She gave a befuddled blink.  “N… no…?”     “Your actions say otherwise, General.  You have caused dissension among the ranks, have been responsible for irreparable damage to the Empire, and–”     “Enough!!”

    Celes angrily glared at the soldier-in-orange.  Her pulse had heightened, her eyes had gotten glassy, and she felt herself trembling…  She couldn’t believe what she was hearing!     “Why are you saying these things, Biggs?!  Where’s this coming from…?”     “You’ve always been a favorite of the Emperor…” he told her as he crossed his arms.  “I don’t understand why.  What makes you any different than any other soldier, General?  What makes you so special that the Emperor just… lets you back in… with full rank… after you betrayed his trust…?  After you betrayed our trust…?”     “I… I don’t know!”     She closed her eyes, shaking her head and giving a slight whimper.  When she opened up to the soldier, she wasn’t expecting an inquisition…  All she wanted to do was run away from the situation… pretend it never happened… but, it was clear that Biggs wouldn’t allow that.

    “They should have thrown away the key to your cell…” he told her as he walked forward.  “You traitorous wench…  Where do your loyalties lie?!”     “With the Empire!” she cried as she hugged herself.     “Liar!  You’ve been questioning this man’s army ever since your mission to Maranda!”     “But… but, I’m a loyal general…!”     “You should have listened to General Christophe, that day.  ‘Ours is not to ask.’”     “But, I… I…”     She paused… then, her eyes shot open.  Slowly, she looked up at Biggs…     “What… did you just say?”     “I said, ‘you should have… listened…’”     Biggs’ words slowed as a look of worried realization coming over him.     “Wait…  What… do you think I said?”

    “How did you know… what the general told me?” Celes asked with suspicion.     “It… was…  I…”     “Yes… yes, I brought General Christophe to a private room to discuss things after my mission to Maranda,” she said to the soldier.  “He did tell me that ‘ours is not to question,’ when it comes to the Empire.  He also promised to keep our conversation in strict confidence…”     The soldier uncomfortably squirmed.     “I assumed he had lied, considering my subsequent jailing… but, no.  I know him too well – he’s a man of great honor and would never have said a word.  So, if he didn’t… then, who… I wonder… did?  Soldier?”     Her eyes narrowed.     “Can you, perhaps, tell me where you heard those words?”     “I… heard them from… from…”     “From who…?” she asked, stepping toward the soldier who was stepping away from her.     “I… um…”     “It was you, wasn’t it?”     “Take a deep breath, Celes, and–”     “It was you who put me through that hell!” she shouted, drawing her sword.  “Do you have any idea what you’ve put me through?!”

    The soldier pressed back against a nearby tree, giving a hard swallow.     “General Chere!!” he cried.  “Get a hold of yourself!  You’re acting irrationally!!”     “I thought the Empire had betrayed me!” she shouted as took the sword in both hands.  “I thought they threw me away!  My entire view on everything had turned upside-down!  And, why?!  All because one soldier thought I was asking too many questions – questions which were never meant to be heard aloud?!”     Biggs gritted his teeth.  The general looked ready to kill him… which gave him an idea.

    “Y… yes, fine, I admit it.  I was the one who reported you to the Empire!” he tensely confessed.  “And, I’m sure the Empire will be interested in hearing what you had to say, today!”     Again, her eyes widened.  “What…?”     “Who knows…  Once the Emperor learns where your loyalties lie… I, myself, may make the rank of general.  And, then… I’ll bring an end to Returns, myself!”  He grinned as he added… “Starting with that smartmouthed man in the bandanna…”     And, telling her that…     “Graaaaah…!!”     Proved to be a fatal mistake, on his part.

    Celes had to take a second to clear her eyes and catch her breath.  When she was finally able to see, again, she looked over… only to bring both hands over her mouth with a gasp.  Her sword… which she had been holding during her black-out… was sticking out of the soldier’s chest and, from what she could tell… was pinning him to the tree, behind.

    “B-Biggs!  W-wait, I– I didn’t mean to–!”     She paused, her eyes filling with tears as she realized what she’d done.     “H-hold still, I’ll… w-what…?”  Celes whimpered.  “Why… are you… laughing…?”     Despite his injury… he was, indeed, chuckling… at her.

    “I had a feeling” he panted, “that would get to you… hrrkh–!”     He coughed up some blood.  She had hit something vital…     “You… that’s not– you baited me!!” the general shouted, suddenly growing angry.  She shook her head, then.  “N-no, what– what am I saying?!  You need help!!”     “There you go, again…” he huffed.  “Never accepting responsibility for your actions…”     “What?  Wait, th-that’s… that’s not true!  I–!”     “When you were placed in chains and relocated to South Figaro…” he started, taking a step forward and sliding along the blade with a disturbing slurp, “the soldiers who hauled you away reported your claimed of ‘I didn’t mean to…’ that it was all just a ‘misunderstanding…’”     “It… it was…”  She took another step forward.  “Gods… Biggs, please… hold still, okay?”     As she reached for the sword… he batted her hand away, clearly not interested.

    “When you rejoined the Empire,” he continued, “you claimed that you ‘made a mistake…’ that you ‘weren’t responsible’ for the actions of the Returners destroying the Laboratory…”     “I…”  She gave a hard swallow.  “I wasn’t…  I never meant for them to–”     “And, now… here– gack!”  He paused, wobbling on the rune sword’s hilt as he coughed, again.  “You claim that you ‘didn’t mean to’ run me through… yet, you allowed yourself… haa… to be manipulated and driven into a blind rage by my words, alone…”     “I– I’m sorry, Biggs…  You just– you have no idea what I’ve been through!  And– and, when I realized you were the one who started this all… especially after I thought… I thought…”     “What?  That we were becoming ‘friends?’  ‘Bosom buddies,’ as they say?”  He chuckled before spitting up a bit more blood and gasping.  “We could never be friends, you and I…  We come from two very different places…”     “J-just because I’m a general and you’re a soldier doesn’t mean–”     “Idiot…  I never wanted to be your friend,” he told her.  “I was just buttering you up and lowering your defenses to get information about the Returners for my master!  But, you couldn’t even give me anything worth sharing!”     “Your… ‘master?’”     “Hm.”  He frowned.  “I’ve said too much, again…  No matter, it will be over, soon…”

    Celes fidgeted, wearing a scowl.  Despite all his horrible words and betrayal of her trust, not to mention his most recent comments… she wanted to heal him.     “Biggs… please… let me help you…” she whispered, her face riddled with guilt.  “We… we can figure this out, later.  Just–”     “You don’t get it, do you, Celes?”  He flashed a nasty grin her way.  “I hate you.  I think you’re a spoiled, coddled, privileged piece of… haa… of gutter trash.  And, that’s why… you’re going to stand there… hkkh… and watch me die.”     “That… that doesn’t make any se–”     “And, when Wedge finds out what you did?  Well… heh heh… heh…  Hnnn…”     Celes saw Biggs fall forward, yanking the sword from the tree’s hold.  A spray of red struck her face on his way down, but she didn’t notice.  She wasn’t sure what to do… but, after snapping out of her daze, she rolled him over, removed the sword with a wince, and desperately started chain-casting healing spells on him!  Unfortunately… it was too late.

    The hateful soldier had given his life… just to make his hated enemy suffer even more. –––––

    “Hey, General Leo!  Wait up!”

    Far north of ship’s landing, General Leo Christophe was scouting around, cautious of nearby creatures and trying not to make too much noise.  When he heard his companion, the Magitek Soldier named Wedge, shout out…     “Shhh…!” he hissed back.     “Oh, uh… sorry!”     Wedge lowered his voice as he ran to meet Leo.     “So, hey, I was wondering…”     “Wait.”  Leo paused…  “Did you hear that?”     “Hear wha–”     Before Wedge could finish his thought, a huge creature appeared from out of the woods and set upon them!

    “Oh, my gods!” The soldier half-shrieked as he drew his sword.  “What is that thing…?!  Did it escape from the Magitek Lab or something?!”     He stared at the beast: a strange, dangerous creature with the body of a bear, the heads of a gryphon, goat, lion, and wyvern, wings of a dragon, and a snake for a tail.     “It’s a chimera,” General Christophe told him as he also got into a defensive stance.     “‘Chimera…?’  Isn’t that that new thing that they take pictures with…?”     “This is hardly the time for levity, soldier!”     “For what…?  I don’t–”     Just as he tried to explain his confusion, the beast leaped right at him!     “Wedge!”     However…     “Groagh…!”     It lay dead before him, not a minute later.

    General Leo stood up, putting his sword back into its scabbard.     “W… Wedge?”     The soldier was panting, frozen-in-place with his own blade drawn back-and-to-the-left.  His face was covered a fresh spray of red liquid and, even with the helmet covering his eyes… he looked noticeably freaked out.     “You alright, son…?” the general asked as he walked toward the soldier.     “Nooo?!” Wedge said in an excited, confused voice.  “I just killed a freaking ‘camera?!’”     “‘Chimera,’ and you certainly did.  Well done.”     Leo smiled, patting him on the back.  Almost immediately… Wedge fell over backward, dropping his sword and continuing to pant.     “Do you need a minute?”     “Please?!”     At that, even the general’s usual, stoic composure broke and he gave a light chuckle.

    “So, that was your first time using a blade on another living creature?  Hmm… I see…”     After a moment’s respite – mostly so Wedge would stop hyperventilating – the two army men pushed onward, making their way through the dense forest of the unfamiliar land.  Leo seemed just fine with what had happened.  Wedge, though…

    “I-I’m used to training… used to sparring, and stuff… b-but, any time I ever fought something like that…”     “It was from behind the control panel of a Magitek Powered Anti-Personnel Armor.”     “Y… yeah…”  He gave a nod.  “I… that– that was new…”     “How did it feel?”     “What?”     Wedge gave a blink as he cleaned the helmet in his hands.  Leo was giving him a curious… almost inquisitive sort of look.

    “How did it feel to defend yourself by your own means?” he clarified.     “Scary!” the soldier had no problem admitting.     “And, how did it feel to push through the fear and emerge victoriously?”     Wedge hesitated… before he asked, “Can I be honest?”     “Certainly.”     He sighed… then, he told Leo, “I didn’t like it.”     “Is that so?” the general asked as he cut through some unruly brush to clear a path.     “I’ve… that thing scared me.  For a split-second, I thought I was gonna bite it!  Then, before I knew it…”     He brought his helmet up, looking at it.     “It was over.  That chimera thing was dead… a-and, I wasn’t.”     “I see.”     “But, the thing of it is…”  Wedge slid his helmet back over his head.  “For some reason… I feel kind of… bad?”     “Do you, now?” the general asked without looking his way.     “That fear I felt…  Is that how others feel whenever we roll up in Magitek Armor?  That surge of adrenalin… is that what happens when people try and fight us?  Is me, fighting that chimera, how it is for people to fight us in our Armor…?”     Leo stopped walking.  Slowly, he turned around.  Rather than wear his usual, stony expression, though… Wedge was surprised to see that he was smiling!

    “Now, you know what it feels like to be the underdog, my friend; to not know whether you’re going to live or die…  To be confronted with insurmountable odds and to genuinely fight for your life…  That’s how it feels.  Now, you know how it feels to be someone looking down the barrel of a magic-powered energy weapon, metaphorically speaking.”     “W-well… I don’t like it!!” Wedge shouted.     “And, what do you intend to do about it?” Leo asked as he turned back to the path ahead.     “I… I don’t know…”

    Eventually, the two made their way out of the forest and into a clearing.  Laying ahead of them, to the north, was a smaller range of mountains while directly to the east was a larger, taller set of rocky hills.  There were also a few shrub-like trees and plants in the area, and a few random creatures – which looked like a mix of a lion and an armadillo – roaming around… though, they didn’t seem terribly hostile.     “Ah!  I– I finally caught up with you!”     A familiar voice suddenly called from behind.  The two turned to see General Chere escaping the thickets.  She looked surprised to see them – though, she also seemed relieved.

    “Glad you could join us, Celes,” General Christophe said in a joke that almost sounded like he was teasing.     “G-glad to be here, Leo,” was her reply as she gave a sort of smile.     “Where’s Biggs?” Wedge asked not a moment later.  “Wasn’t he with you?”     “He… um…”  Her half-hearted smile faded as she told him, “He won’t be joining us…”     “Oh, yeah?  That’s kind’a strange, for him…”     “Perhaps, he had a change of heart?”     Wedge wasn’t sure, but he could swear he saw Celes wince as Leo made that suggestion.

    “In… any case,” Celes said after a moment, “have you found those Eidolons that we’re supposed to be looking for?”     “Not yet.” was the other general’s response.  “We were just about to investigate that area over there.”     “Then, I’ll head to the mountains!” she suddenly suggested.  “They may be in a cave, somewhere…  Call if you find anything!”     “But, you have the radi– a-alright, ‘bye!”     Wedge gave a confused blink as Celes pulled away, heading toward the rocky hills ahead.

    “Well!  That was random!”  He laughed before asking, “I wonder what her hurry was?”     “She recently met with combat…” Leo said, his composure returning to neutrality.  “Or… combat met with her.”     “What does that have to do with her zipping off?”  Wedge thought about it… then, he asked, “Wait.  Has she never–”     “She had the right idea,” the general said, cutting him off.  “We should move on.”     He gave another blink as Leo headed north.  Not long after, he caught up and followed.

    “So, hey, Leo– er, General, Sir…”     “It’s just the two of us, soldier.”  Leo offered a light smile as he suggested, “You can call me ‘Leo’ if you feel that comfortable with me.”     “Er, uh… th-thanks!”  The soldier laughed.  “Anyway, I was wondering…  When we were leaving the ship, you said something about a… conversation, with Tina?  Uh, what was that about, if you don’t mind my asking?”     “That… is a personal matter, son.”     “Ah– o-oh yeah…?”  He hesitated before asking… “How ‘personal…?’”     “It’s nothing like that, Wedge,” he heard the general say, correctly guessing what he was thinking.  “Tina is just going through an unusual time of her life.”     “Heh.  Aren’t we all?”     “Tina has had a hard life,” Leo continued.  “Being born with the ability to use magic, the Emperor saw her as the perfect weapon… but, as you may know, she had little interest in combat, so General Palazzo had the idea to fit her with that mind-control device and turn her into a destructive object loyal to only the Empire.  She’s still recovering from that traumatic experience…”     Wedge winced, guilt hitting him hard.

    “Since gaining her freedom, she has, time-and-again, become the sole element of make-or-break situations.  The Returners saw her as little more than the key to winning the war.  Now?  She’s the only one who can settle this situation with the Eidolons.  Considering that all of this happened in the scope of a month after regaining control of her mind and body… you can imagine that this is taking a toll on her.”     “L-look, I already told her I was sorry, and she said–”     “Despite all that…” Leo said, cutting him off, “she’s slowly coming into her own.  The girl is still somewhat susceptible to one’s influence, in one way or another… but, I imagine that one day… she’ll be a strong, independent woman, ready to live her own life the way she wants.  That day… may even be today, if everything goes well.”     “And, if it doesn’t…?” Wedge cautiously asked.     “I can’t imagine it will come to that.”  The general smiled.  “By simply being… she is proof that Eidolons and humans can peacefully co-exist.  I just hope that the Eidolons are willing to let us try and make up for our many years of misdeeds.”     “So, you don’t think what the Empire’s been doing is exactly ‘heroic,’ either?”     Leo didn’t answer right away.  When he did… his answer made Wedge frown.

    “What I think is of little consequence, either way.  Emperor Gestahl will do what he pleases and if anyone opposes him… soldiers, like us, will be there to put an end to it.  But, we wouldn’t be a part of the most powerful military force in the world if we didn’t feel that what he was doing was the correct path, in life.  Would we?”     “Uh… well…”

    Wedge hesitated to answer.  That was something he’d been thinking about for a while – at least as long as he’d known Tina.  It was kind of funny, to him…  Tina was supposed to be the key to fixing everything… and, just interacting with her had given him pause to his own actions.  He wasn’t really sure he wanted to keep fighting for a cause he couldn’t fully back… but, he was too scared to say anything to anyone.  The two people he had talked to seemed to feel like the Empire had been doing the right thing, all along… so, if they felt that way… if even his best friend felt that way… then, how could the way he was feeling be anything but wrong?

    “I’m… a loyal soldier of the Gestahlian Empire,” the soldier told the general after a long period of thought.  “I do what my superiors tell me, and they do what their superiors tell them.  It’s this chain-of-command that… that…”     He had to stop and sigh.  He’d lost his steam…     “Never mind,” he suddenly told Leo.  “Forget I brought it up.  A-and… please, don’t tell the emperor about this.  I don’t wanna end up like General Celes…”     “You really don’t,” Leo idly mused.

    After their conversation, Wedge felt even more like he was in the wrong, somehow.  Ultimately, he decided the best thing to do was to stop talking, entirely, and simply follow his leader without a word.

    After all… if he didn’t have an opinion, he couldn’t possibly be wrong.  Right?

#fan fiction #Final Fantasy VI #Mortem in Contumeliam #commercial characters #Leo Christophe #Magitek Soldier #Wedge #Biggs #Celes Chere #Lock Cole #Locke Cole #Tina Branford #Terra Branford #Shadow #fantasy #drama

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EPISODE 3 - “BLESS RANDOM.ORG” - BIANCA

Paul tried it.............. he really did huh!!! Its funny how even though I helped 0% in the challenge I still stayed. I've got the Deadly Viper Assassination Squad with me and that's all I need. As long as I have those numbers, I feel great. If we end up losing again.. bye bye Mattie! 

honestly at this point of the game my alliance is intact and hopefully we make it to merge or in a good place if there's a swap but im not worried whatsoever

Well, I stuck with Misty and Bianca, and Mattie is going to draw the flag, I think.  So this will be exciting, i'm perfectly okay with handing over the reigns to someone else during this challenge, hopefully it will earn us our first win! 

Alright, so the vote actually went as planned. Tanner went home unanimously while voting for Alex. This is great because it means that if I'm on a tribe with snakes that they have yet to embrace those negative tendencies. https://i.makeagif.com/media/11-11-2015/cVGFpC.gif Also, after getting voted out Tanner got online to message me (and everyone else according to the hosts) the word "fake". I'm just... https://img.memesuper.com/3bc6766bbe76cc8447a30d21e851df82_1000-images-about-gifs-on-gif-meme-guy-blinking_624-352.gif 

Tanner literally said nothing to me yesterday except what's up? I even gave him a response which I count as a chance for him to respond, no? Like... if you don't say anything to me during the day then: 1. How are we supposed to strategize if the vote is going to fall any differently 2. How are we supposed to vote for the same person - at all 3. Why would I want to play with you - that makes for a very unreliable alliance http://rs207.pbsrc.com/albums/bb263/slimkid_buckeye/animations/bang-head_zps471ffe0c.gif~c200

Also, our immunity challenge is flag making. Which... I'm a shady ho and I'm gonna say, works better as a reward challenge. Given the amount of people who claim not to be creative in this community making a challenge dictate safety based solely on creativity is a "no" from me. http://68.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb4x3nlrJh1rt2432.gif 

Our challenge is fun though because it's kind of "themed" based on the sorting hat's opinions of us. And the sorting hat decided our tribe was full of the goody-goodies or is it goody-two-shoes? I don't even know, honestly. Anyway.. so I was thinking angels because when I think good I just... think of heavenly bodies? I dunno https://m.popkey.co/a7fc03/e09Oo.gif 

And then Alex, gem that I adore suggest superheroes! And I'm on board completely. These super powered people and all the good they do for the world are perfect. Also, potential for something really cute. Now, if I were an artist this would be absolutely perfect... but I'm not. And Alex already made something so that's neat. I think I'm gonna see what I can do to make it more high quality or something (maybe change it around a bit) since it looks a little pixelated, but yay!  It's adorable. http://cdn.smosh.com/sites/default/files/legacy.images/smosh-pit/122010/Batmanlovescookies.gif

I actually... lowkey hope we lose this challenge LOL "When bitches vote for me, bitches go home" Sound familiar Mattie? And just THINK how iconic it would be if Bianca, Gabby, and I were the sole members of Panamint and slayed the tribe swap

I'm still doing nothing this week and that makes me happy, i hope they don't need me, disconnecting for awhile is nice, i wish i could do it with my main account. 

https://youtu.be/hOcOVfi2l8E

I honestly don't know what I expected out of this experience, but it wasn't this. When I played Divergent, the cast was about 70-80% active throughout an entire day. But this time, it's only active about 25% of the day. The only two people who even say or do anything are Giruga and Dianna, the two people I dislike the most. I have to work from ground up with building relationships with these people because I haven't been present to do that from the start, and I'm worried that my window of opportunity has closed up already. I wanna get the two of them into a chat where we can stick together as the active people of the game (so far). If I have it my way, we can vote off William or whatever his name is. Even though Layla and Kat are more useless than he is, I think he's trying to be deceptive about everything (saying he's NEVER played orgs before, or how he has NO idea how to make alliances) while most people just conceal their personal lives. I find it difficult to socialize too and I have shared these laments with Dianna in the past because we both know it's difficult to engage in proper conversation with others without unintentionally giving ourselves away. I hate that. And also, this game is helping me finally go over the bridge for ORGs. I truly think this will be my final experience, and so far I don't have hopes that it'll be a good one. I'm at a crossroads with these games and my personal life, because I can only take one path, no turning back. I want to say that at the end of this, I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to be happy again. I don't know if I'm here for the right reasons, but let's just try to make it right.

I'm actually... very happy with the flag I made. Imagine if I win this challenge for our tribe after not being here for the last 2? Come on redemption arc!

I wish I knew what was happening. I've gone days without being able to get on Skype bc of the toilet incident. It wouldn't surprise me if they just vote me out lmao

https://youtu.be/33GLERbsEqY

Going to tribal sucks but hopefully the outcome favors my game. 

WHEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I won for our tribe.... and now I'm gonna get them to send me to the devils hole so I can search out some idols bicth yes!

Alex? Barely know him but an Icon! My time at the Devils Hole was short. I found nothing, but my main goal was to find new potential alliances if we swap. As I said.. It was short so idk if I was allthat successful. 

Tribe swap has occurred...

This is so ICONIC!! I got Bianca to pick Alex.. who I'm good with from Devils Hole I got Alex to pick ME I got to pick Gabby.. my ally from my tribe I got HER to pick Giruga who seems like I could get him on my side I LOVE BEING A MASTERMIND!

We swapped last night while I was away which is fine I'm still with Jenny. We've got work to do since everyone else comes from the same tribe but that's ok bc I found an idol! My first ever idol in my org career oh boy. I'm not telling anyone yet bc idk if I really trust Jenny or Alex completely yet, we'll see 

I'm really nervous about tribal if we go or we lose bc if we win Giruga could go home but if we win there's a chance the other 3 might have an idol

https://youtu.be/BPBgQ1QBXWU

So Giruga and I were talking He seems pretty cool and someone I could work with. He's the only one from his old tribe on this tribe so I think I could easily swoop him up. I am worried about the other 4 on our tribe noticing that us 3 Panamint members are close. I wanna work with Alex but I'm worried about his bonds with the other Zabrinskie members. Sooo yeah I'm just trying to make a deal with Giruga rn and hopefully if we go to tribal I'm in majority and my edit stays good! (I'm hoping CP4.... Last episode I better have gotten a positive edit and the one before that I probably got a negative one when Paul went home)

so i was late to the merge party... oops. i like the newbies on my tribe and i also like that now we're at one world, i can get to know everyone now! 

So one world, huh? That's a thing. Interesting to finally meet all these people and see what their like. I need to start making alliances, otherwise I'm screwed.

I...  Giruga and I are flirting by sending dog memes to one another I'm----   anyway, maybe this means that we can swing him over to our side to dominate the vote. ;) 

A fucking tribe swap, and one world. Imagine that. At least now I can start getting a feel for everyone that wasn't originally on Panamint. I've been talking to Dianna a bit because I remember going to DH with her, but sadly she isn't on my tribe so I can't really align myself with her. The bright side is that my alliance with Misty and Gabby (queens!) is all on the same tribe as me. If we can pull in another member of our tribe we could have the numbers to control votes if we ever have to go to tribal. Bless random.org for making me a captain <3 <3 <3

Dianna HAS to be either Dom, Nick or Nic.  Or Ashley but I'm betting it's Dom.  Dianna and I worked close together in Festive BB, and then it was revealed that she was a catfish played by Ashley >.>.  I don't think Ashley would play her again but Dianna's handwriting looks a lot like Dom's now and Dianna, then Ashley and I were a duo until she cut me at final 3 after winning the final HOH!   but I've played two games with Dom, hosted him once and he's hosted me once, I KNOW HIS TYPING STYLE AND the putting 'ME' after everything anywhere, that has to be him and I'm taking notes.  

So we lost.. it sucks. However it gives me more air time so? I love a good bright side! Anyway, of course Gabby/Bianca and I start talking. Apparantly Alex/Kai are pulling her into an alliance. Alex is cancelled. I mean.. how dare he not include me. But anyway. Adelaide may not have spoken to me yet but... Kai, I've got my eyes on you. For now I'm gonna work on Giruga wish me luck!

my alliance didnt want to throw this, but I did. so I performed poorly. I submitted a score of about 3000, which isn't great by any means. If my tribe loses, I'll claim that my second submission (of about 5000) was not scored and I'll make a very public argument over it. of course, the hosts cannot do anything, and effectively send my tribe to tribal council :) then, I'll flip on the old titus bitches and send one of them home (PROBABLY Kat because I don't like the game she plays) I want to go the distance with William and Dianna and Giruga, but Kat is way too unknown for me to ever trust her enough to keep her around. I'll start talking to the three other people on the tribe and hopefully get them to turn their sights from the bigger threats of Will and Dianna. For my strategy, Will and Dianna will be the perfect shields to take into another swap but also the merge. They've got numbers swarming them and I want to minimize our status as threats by having five of our original tribe members going into a merge, and I know that I'll be deceiving them bad, but I hope they don't hold a grudge. Although I'm turning over a new leaf as a player by truly wanting to stay loyal to big threats, I'm still playing the same, old, jaiden way

At this point I don't even have to try at challenges bc I'm always on the winning team *giggles*

Giruga just told me he wants to work with me and the other neutrals Which is the best news I could've heard right now!!!!! I trust him a lot and him plus us three makes four. Tbh I don't really care who goes home between Kai or Adelaide or Alex at this point. I'm just excited to have numbers 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXtP_vOxDzA

IT ONLY TOOK LIKE 800 TIMES AT THE DEVILS HOLE BUT I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING GAME CHANGING. I have the ruby idol, which could automatically makes a rocks situation if I feel festive enough for it. Hopefully I won't be in a position to use it for a while since I now have an alliance with Misty/Gabby/Giruga in addition to my alliance with Misty and Gabby. I feel good about having majority on the tribe, but I'm trying to stay close to Dianna since she's on the other tribe. I think I'm gonna give her my glow stone when I'm done with it, so that way I can prove that I trust her. I just hope I'm not making a huge mistake.

Aaaa whatwhat isit haopening?!?!!?

I can't make a video right now, but in the event that I get voted out tonight I just wanted to say a few things. So far I've aligned myself with the Neutral tribe and I'm really hoping I'm not being screwed over... because I seriously want to work with them, especially if it means down the line I can flip the game on old Titus. Please just let me survive my first actual tribal!!!!

Help I am being held hostage and the only way to get my freedom is if I make a confessional.

I AM PROB GOING HOME I AM NEVER ON

EP 3 EDGIC

#confessionals #buriedinsand