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hallelujah-lockandload · 3 years

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Spin the Bottle

Another Ray x Reader! i think i kept the reader pretty neutral if not a little feminine but mostly neutral.

Uhh rated T? making out

There was some party happening tonight, which doesn’t surprise me at all, and the boys begged me to join them. The party is no surprise because the boys just dropped their second album a few months back and between the concerts and interviews, they get invited to parties left and right. This one, I was told, is going to be a lot smaller. More intimate aka probably like back in the basement days where it's just the boys and a few other people. But you can never be sure so I’m going to dress hot anyway, maybe try and get my crush's attention but also fail and get other people's attention. It will be fine.

I got dressed in a dark red glittery tank shirt that showed off my chest nicely and paired it with some black skinny jeans and vans. I look nice but practical because I have a feeling that I could get thrown up on if Bert is there and I don’t want my nice shoes getting vomited on. No one wants that. Besides looking hot and trying to get my crush’s attention, I should probably make sure my boys don’t get too drunk either. Gerard has been having problems lately, and Mikey but Gerard’s just a bit worse. Frank is Frank and he does what he always does but knows when to stop. And Ray…. Well Ray’s a really good guy but he knows how to have fun. Plus if he’s drunk tonight then I might get the balls to confess to him or try and hit on him. I’m not really sure which is more likely, but if I get tipsy I know I’ll probably try to do something.

I grab a ride to the house party with Frank, who makes sure to compliment me on my top. I roll my eyes but tell him thanks and that he looks like he’s ready to get laid. Frank just laughs because at this point he's only really horny for one lady but they aren’t together yet. Which essentially means free reign of making out with people till she says yes, or he ya know actually asks her out seriously.

Reaching the house Frank immediately ditches me in favor of looking for his future wife as he likes to call her. I of course decide to grab a drink to get the night started and try to find people I know. After an adventure to the kitchen to obtain some alcohol, I wander around the main floor of the house for a while looking for anyone I know. I spot Gerard but he literally has his tongue down Berts throat so I elect to pretend that I did not see that and walk outside to clear my head and check out the fancy pool.

Soon as I’m done with my first drink I grab another and head back inside to look for Ray. Am I feeling confident to try anything yet? No. Am I going to end up cuddling into him being tipsy like usual? Probably. I tossed back the rest of my drink and headed down stairs so see the basement. It reminds me of Gerards just nicer.

“Hey y/n! Come play spin the bottle with us!” Frank yelled at me from one of the chairs by the couch.

Walking over I saw that Mikey and Ray sat at the couch and some girls were sitting near them or on the floor, and some boys that I didn’t recognize either. “Why?” I asked as I stood next to Frank.

“Cause it's just kissing? I don’t know, just come on. Spin like one time and then you can go back to mingling or whatever the fuck you were doing before,”Frank sassed.

I rolled my eyes, “Fine but if I don’t like who it lands on I’m not kissing them.” I gave Frank a sarcastic look meaning I’m not kissing him for shit.

“Okay okay, just spin.”

I reached down to the empty beer bottle on the table and spun it hard. We all watched as it went round and round and began to slow down. As the bottle came slowly spinning to an end it landed on Mikey. Before I could even say anything Mikey reached out and turned it so it was facing Ray.

“Mikey!” I whined pretending to be hurt.

“You weren’t going to kiss me anyway,” Mikey said leaning back against the couch. His face telling everyone he was impressed with his own quick thinking.

I looked to Ray and he seemed as shocked as I was by Mikey’s move, his cheeks red with embarrassment like mine. Welp. I’m tipsy enough to know this is a bad idea but also tipsy enough to know without the alcohol I will never make a move on Ray. I sigh through my nose and make my way over to Ray on the couch.

“Y/n, you don’t actually have to,” Ray started as I approached him.

I put a finger up signalling his silence and took a seat sideways in his lap. This causes Frank to wolf whistle at me, but I elect to ignore it in favor of finally kissing Ray for once. I turn my body slightly to face him better and reach up with a hand to hold his face. It’s now or never. I tilt my head up and press my lips against his. I can hear a few whistles and woots behind us but I try to only focus on Ray in front of me. His lips are warm against mine and his hand is warm on my thigh. I pull away after a second, spin the bottle is just for one kiss after all, and stay there centimeters away from his lips with my eyes closed. Savouring the feeling of Ray against me.

Then Ray presses his lips against mine, pushing against me and wrapping his other arm around my waist. One of my hands grips into his shirt while my other hand slides up his face and into his wavy hair. It’s a needy kiss, with tight gripes and presses and force. The need for air causes me to pull back from him, hollering and whistles erupt behind and next to us. I look into Ray’s eyes, there was embarrassment at the yelling but also passion. Maybe he feels the same way.

I lean forward and whisper in his ear, “Meet me upstairs.” Before pulling out of his embrace. “Well that was fun,” I said to the group. “Enjoy your game.” I walked away heading towards the hallway to sneak up the stairs without the boys noticing.

I lean against the wall next to the stairs out of sight so no one would question why I was up here. I look down realizing I just kissed Ray and then asked to meet him in private. God that sounds like such a booty call and not just a ‘hey can we talk’. Ughhhhh. I lean my head back against the wall and close my eyes willing the blush and embarrassment to go away. I stay like that for a while, wondering if Ray is even going to come up when I hear someone clear their throat. I open my eyes and turn my head to the sound to see Ray standing a few steps down from the top looking at me.

“Uh, hey.” I say quietly.

“Hey.” Ray walks up the last few steps before stopping in front of me.

The tension is thick and it's unclear who moved first but our lips are pressed together feverishly with grabby hands pulling the other closer. My back is pressed roughly against the wall as he kisses down my neck and back to my lips. My hands tangle in his hair and shirt pulling him as close to me as physically possible and it still isn’t close enough. His hands are at my waist pulling me to him while he bites my lip. I tighten my grip in his hair as I lean forward smashing my lips back against his. I don’t even bother stopping the small moan coming from my throat as Ray grabs my ass with one hand and tightens his grip on my hip with the other, pulling my waist against his hips. It’s easy to tell Ray’s as turned on as I am. I lean forward into him making him take a step back, letting me free off the wall. Ray’s hand leaves my ass for a moment before I hear a door opening next to me and Ray’s coming back to rest on my other hip.

Ray pulls away for a moment to pull me with him into some random bedroom before pushing the door closed and pinning me against it with his hands and his hips. I grab the front of his shirt and pull him down to me, our lips crashing together. It was a bit clumsy with teeth slightly clinking from the urgency of getting our lips back together. It felt like I was drowning in his kiss but that I needed it to live. Ray’s hands slide under my shirt but stay at my hips for a moment, as if waiting for me to tell him to stop, before sliding up to my waist. My skin tingles at the touch and I can’t help but press forward into him. I slide my hands up his shirt and over his pecs before sliding them into his hair. Ray slides a hand across the small of my back bringing me slightly off the wall and arching into him. My hand tightens in his hair which makes him moan lowly as we deepen the kiss.

I pull away, “Wait, wait. I need to say something first.” I can feel my cheeks are set aflame not just from what I’m about to say.

“Oh, uh okay.” He nods, taking his hands out from under my shirt and resting them on my hips.

“I like you. Like. Like like you.”

“I like you too.”

“Wait really?”

“Yeah really. Please go out with me. I think I would die if this was just a hook up.” He chuckled awkwardly at the end, rubbing the back of his neck with one hand, while the other stayed at my waist.

“Yes. God yes. I want to go out with you.” I grabbed his shirt and pulled him down for another kiss.

Ray pulled away for a moment. “Good.” He smiled and leaned back down kissing me, pressing me back against the door.

#Ray #ray toro #ray toro x reader #mcr fanfiction #my chemical romance #mcr

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perculesspleen · 4 years

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First impressions and things I love about Gerard Way's album Hesitant Alien

Okay, so I listened to the first 5 soon before I started typing this, but the rest are being listened to as I type this. Also, I know nothing about music, so my attempts at explaining the parts I love might be weird. (I say the words cool and great a lot because I apparently know a total of 4 adjectives)

The Bureau

First Impression: a rockin' bop, great start to the album

- This is a song I would listen to while getting dressed and ready to kill someone and look really hot while doing it, which is a great way to start an album.

- I can feel the strong beat and the rhythm in the words and it just makes it feel so much more forceful and I love that

- The "everybody's getting on" and then he yells "and so am I!" is just great

- I just love the contrast between the verse and the chorus with the chorus having much more melody, but still being pretty shouty

- The telephone noise or whatever it is at the end? Great

Action Cat

First Impression: It sounds like a post-break up song, but I still like it a lot!

- I'm always a sucker for intros that are just one guitar

- "don't ask a lot and you won't lose a lot" nice

- I like the way the words 'sleep', 'break', and 'make' are like, wavy?

- the emotion in "say I miss you too"? Beautiful.

- I love how it fades and you think it's the end of the song and then he goes "Hey!" and it starts back up with the "do you miss me?"

No Shows

First Impression: Honestly, the name made me think of the type of sock when I first read it. I was bopping my head while listening to this without realizing! It makes me want to dance and sing along, even though I don't know the words yet

- the 'Ooh's at the beginning are really pretty

- I love how certain words just show up a bunch, like 'treble' and 'metal', I find it kinda poetic, I guess

- after the third verse when he stops singing and there's the key change or whatever it is? Transcendent.

- I just love the guitar solo and the drums right after it

- Also, the distortion on his voice right after that? Amazing. I love it.

- the line "It's not love if it's just fucking" makes me laugh every time, for some reason. I just have to smile, I don't know why I find it so funny

- And after that when the guitar makes the screeching noise, I don't know what that's called, but I love it when guitar players do that

- Right before the singing starts again at the end he does this "a a a a ah oh oh!" kind of thing and he does it a couple more times and it's very fun to hear

- I can't tell what he's saying in the background at the end, but I like how it sounds with everything

Brother

First Impression: Okay, so I heard this for the first time a week or two ago, but my first reaction to hearing it was to start crying. It gives me this feeling of yearning and melancholy and I was listening to it on repeat for days when I first heard it.

- This song is super emotional, and I can't listen to it and sing along without crying

- Lyrics are the main thing I focus on first in a song, and I relate to and connect with the lyrics in this song so much

- I like the voices in the background at the beginning. I don't know why, but I just like when music does stuff like that.

- I really relate to "Cause I'm awake / all night long" and "I won't sleep tonight / as long as I still / hear the drums of the city rain" and lines like that because of my insomnia

- You can just hear the emotion in his voice and it kills me

- The chorus is just so beautiful

- "Does anyone have the guts to shut me up?" is another relatable and emotional line to me. There's just so many lyrics in this song that mean a lot to me.

- "there's a chance we can walk away / so hold on tight / because I won't / wait too long" just gives me hope but also explains how I want to get out of here, soon

- "Can you take me home?" just, emotional, and aaaa

- the instruments right after the "when we leave alone" are so pretty

- the whole "like strangers laugh" part at the end is so beautiful to me

- the way it changes from 'sleep' to 'breathe' in the very last lines is just, wow, there goes what was left of my heart

Millions

First Impressions: Really fun and happy sounding, I would dance around the kitchen to this. I heard this and immediately had to put it on loop and listen to it 5 more times.

- Okay, but some of the lyrics are actually really sad?

- This song has me dancing and smiling but I'm also crying about the lyrics

- "AAaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaahh" Need I say more?

- "You can use my friends" vs the "you can't touch my brother and you can't keep my friends" in Honey, This Mirror is a cool parallel

- the little shout right after "a million reasons but I need a million more"

- ^ that's a good line, btw, I like it

- "you believe in love, I believe in faith" vs the "they don't believe in God, we don't believe in luck" from Destroya is really cute because it feels like progress or improvement or something

- Mikey yelling "It was really me!" and then Gerard yelling "It was really you!" makes me smile so much. Like, I smile so huge it almost hurts and I can't help it, it's just such a cute part and I love it so so much and could go on about it for hours, I just, aaaaaa

- the chorus has me dancing, it's just so pretty and fun but also kinda sad

- this one is my favorite so far

Zero Zero

First Impression: funky and awesome!! Super cool! I don't know how to explain this one but I really like it

- Dude, this intro is wack (in a good way!)

- It does the screechy guitar thing I love!

- I'm a sucker for singing with distortion, it's just got such a cool sound

- the guitar during the second verse? Absolutely awesome.

- the line "give me social disease and give me teenage razors" is just, wow,

- and how he sings it like "RAY-zersss"

- it changes from "you are zero" to "I am zero" at the end and, Woah

- the "oh oh oh" in the back ground during that is really cool, too

Juarez

First Impressions: It's really weird at some parts and I'm a fan of that. Most of my friends don't really like my music and would definitely hate this one, but I really like it!

- there's some weird noise 3 seconds in that I can't explain but it's fun!

- I didn't know what to expect for singing, but this surprised me, I really like how his voice sounds in this

- "sing death to the crown, man" is a cool line

- the part right after that sounds really alien-like, it's pretty sweet

- I just really love the singing/shouting in this one

- the ending is super cool, too

Drugstore Perfume

First Impression: a lot softer and calmer than the other songs, it's more of a sway than a head bop. It's really pretty

- some of the songs, like Zero Zero and Juarez feel like they're rushing, but this one is calm and takes its time. I could fall asleep to this

- a tambourine? Effervescent.

- "her dreams don't show in color" is a really pretty line

- the words to this really tell a story and I love that

- the whole "gone today" part just takes my breath away

- I really love the drums in this with the bass drum at the end

- the ending is really neat

How It's Going To Be

First Impressions: It sounds hopeful and also kinda like something I would hear in a musical. I get the feeling that when I pay close attention to the lyrics it'll be sad, but the rest of it sounds hopeful

- the little drum thing after "smoke rings fit the crime"

- "I'll keep the souvenir inside, it's just better in my mind" is such a pretty but sad line

- I was right, this song is actually sad when I look at the lyrics

- "someone who hates to see me go" Oh, I'm crying now?

- "you said we'd all be dead by twenty-five" really hits me because I really can't see me living past that and I've already said that I want to die before I'm thirty

- "We're just bored you're still alive" there are so many good lyrics in this, I'm gonna be listening to this a lot to really focus in on all of them

- the ending is so pretty

Maya the Psychic

First Impression: I've heard of this song but haven't actually heard it before! It's really fun and pretty, another one I would jump around the kitchen singing. Also, it makes me think of my friend @mayograce

- I just really like this!

- the two drumbeats right before the chorus

- this one seems to tell a story, too, which I always love

- the bridge? So cool and so pretty?

- "I know you've had choices to make / but I'm with you / you're never facing them alone today" is so nice and I just love these lines so much

- the ending is really cool and sounds kind of like there's whispering, which really fits with the rest of the song

Television All The Time

First Impression: It feels different from his other songs in the beginning and then comes back to sounding like his other calmer songs. It has a really nice chorus

- I like the way he sings "who you are"

- like I said, the intro sounds kinda different, but then after the first stanza the guitar joins and his voice sounds slightly distorted and it's a cool effect

- the pause before he says 'today'

- his voice is kinda swoop-y, I can't think of the right word, but it's relaxing and I love how it sounds

- the way "cuz I think I'm sick of it now" sounds is awesome

- it just sort of trails off at the end, but I love songs that end leaving you wanting more

Don't Try

First Impression: I had a feeling this one would make me cry, and I was right. He sounds a lot like he did in MCR. Like, most of his solo stuff feels a lot different than MCR did, but this one is really feeling similar, to me.

- This start? Amazing. It kinda spooked me at first, but I'm liking it

- The lyrics are really cool

- "I think you're beautiful too" is when I first realized this song will make me cry

- "Come down, give up, cause it's alright" is when I started crying. It's really comforting. Being told that giving up is alright isn't heard often. This line makes me think of Fake Your Death ("I choose defeat, I walk away") which is another song I love

- "cause you always look mad when you're dreaming" really hits me for the 2 ways I can interpret this line. The first is how when I space out (and dream about getting away) I focus and it makes me look mad. The other is that I look mad because I hate where I'm at and that I have to wait to go out and chase my goals.

- his voice has so much emotion in it, it's amazing

- "I'm kind of miserable, too" is another line I love. It's great when someone you look up to (and obsess over sometimes, lol) understands what things are like. It makes you feel less alone.

- the entire chorus is just so pretty and makes me so emotional

- the ending is super pretty, too

PINKISH

First Impression: Woah. I don't really have any other words, but I really like this one, it's a good finale for an album.

- the first few seconds sound like a thunderstorm when you're inside

- I love the sudden yelling, I really like loud music like that

- and then the next part with the "Now I could have been" sounds so pretty, and the guitar is doing almost the same thing as his voice and then there's the background vocals and I really love it

- it shifts back and forth between the sorta screamo and the sorta clearer, more lyrical part again and it's so cool

- and then gets even clearer and calmer and more melodic it sounds like something I could fall asleep to? Beauty

- then the loud guitar comes back in until the end and it's just great

- definitely a good ending to the album

I loved this album so so much! I'm probably going to listen to it on repeat for the next few days...

My favorite song is a tie between Millions and Don't Try

But yeah, that's my view on the whole album!

#gerard way #hesitant alien

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