#i am..... fuckèd. :|

[sad--tree]

impulsively ordered a new pair of boots bc i saw shoefreaks had a pair of demonias on clearance sale in my size (!) and like. do i need another pair of platform boots? absolutely not and these weren't even on my wishlist but fuckit they're cool and at the moment i need every tiny shred of Something Good To Look Forward To after wrestling with my godforsaken java assignment for hours and getting absolutely fucking nowhere. the Death And Doom And Perpetual Academic and Professional and Personal Failure Spiral is real folks and if some 5" platform heels are what puts the brakes on said spiral in2 the Bottomless Pit of Despair well then so be it

#honestly the clearance markoff is only 35% but when reg price is over $200 that shit makes a difference #thank GOD for shoefreaks........ free domestic shipping..... in CANADA 😭 #anyways theyre the demonia camel-300 #probably gonna wear em to tge a7x concert this month assuming they get here on time #might wear my white pleaser boots 2 the grandson concert tho bc why not right? gotta wear em sometime #hnngngnnnng too stressed 2 sleep knowing my java assignment is a verified shitshow and i just str8 up dont know how 2 fix it. at all #i am..... fuckèd. :| #theres nothing i can do about so i may as well sleep! bc its almost 3 am! but the stress! AHHHHHHH #kill me #gonna bus 1.5 hours 2 campus tmrw. demo my assignment aka display the stunning variety of 5xx errors i get in lieu of actual functionality #while trying to not combust from the shame of Being A FailureTM then turn around bus 1.5 hours back home #and . god and adhd willing. start working on my next java lab. bc its due sunday. and i haven't even looked at it #and lord knows i Can Not ask for an extension after the trashfire that has been this last assignment. #i hate college #no 1 even THINK the word python at me idek what im gonna do abt that but ots not due til the 23rd #i feel cautiously tentatively flinchingly optimistic that i might be able 2 figure it out. but only bc i havent worked on it for over a week

[ieatwormsandtheytasteverygood]

HELP I ACCIDENTALLY LOGGED INTO THE WRONG ACCOJNT. turns out it was my art blog. uh.

I accidentally lost out on a commission lol

#–George #please help my brain fog #i am so very fuckèd #me when i am brocken in the head

[chthonicillness]

all the quick serve restaurants and coffee shops and etc got rid of their plastic straws and replaced them with stupid little paper ones that don’t hold up for three sips and at the same time swapped out their perfectly serviceable cardboard cups for plastic ones. all the grocery stores stopped using plastic bags and now if i forget to bring my reusables i am simply Fuckèd but also all the wax paper in all the bakery sections has been replaced with shitty little sheets of plastic. what kind of stupid fucking game are we playing here

#i’m going to kill you all i’m going to kill you all so bad

[shellcollector]

Les Mis Groupwatch presents: 

The Wind That Shakes The Barley

I have.... fuckèd up, my pals. My comrades. My fellow humans. I promised @vapaus-ystavyys-tasaarvo​ I would do a post about this midweek and I did not do a post about this because I am a total screwup who could not in fact organise a pissup in a brewery. But ANYWAY some people are coming regardless and! this is still happening later today. We’re watching The Wind That Shakes The Barley, which is about Irish independence fighters. Wow, that’s a really informative summary of the film. I’m blowing this one out of the gate. I’m hitting home runs here. It’s a good film. I am not a good groupwatch organiser or human. I’m going to let the director, Ken Loach, summarise the main themes in a quote I totally didn’t just steal from Wikipedia in a rush:

Every time a colony wants independence, the questions on the agenda are: a) how do you get the imperialists out, and b) what kind of society do you build? There are usually the bourgeois nationalists who say, 'Let's just change the flag and keep everything as it was.' Then there are the revolutionaries who say, 'Let's change the property laws.' It's always a critical moment.

I’ve been arguing that we should watch this for some time, but now seemed like a Good Moment because it will give a pretty good intro for those people who want to understand what the fuck is going on with British Politics rn and who the DUP are and why people are freaking out about the idea of them having a casting vote. It’s also a sensitive exploration of the difficulties involved in trying to create the new society you so desperately want. This is an upsetting but also Important film. Also the waistcoats are fucking sweet as. Look at the above picture. That’s some great hashtag transmasc aesthetic right there. 

Please join us to watch this film that I am not Marketing well. 

The essential stuff:

The date and time is Saturday June 24th at 4pm GMT WHICH IS 5PM UK TIME, AND ALSO TODAY. Daylight savings happened so note that the start time is in GMT and is different to the usual winter time. Please check what this is in your timezone if you’re not sure!

The film is just over 2 hours long and we will break in the middle

It is in English and we will have English captions/subtitles.

The meeting “place” is the group watch Slack team (Team Shoujo Cosette)

Contact me if you want to join in! Don’t contact vapaus, vapaus has enough nonsense to deal with without trying to hastily add people because I made the post too late. 

Group Watch FAQ is here if you have more questions (or you can just ask)

And as usual: EVERYBODY IS WELCOME!

#followers blacklist this tag if you're not interested in my scheduling problems #where I live #les miserables #les mis

[medisinals]

What's the amulet 's definition of sentience like? Would it count dolphins and whales like some scientists do?

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        Ahaha I am glad you asked that. I have spent A WHILE wondering about dolphin blood, and the conclusion I’ve come to is… complicated.

        The amulet is not perfectly predictable; it has a sort of will of its own, which makes these decisions as situations come up. And its criteria for these decisions is based on what it considers to be the worth of the payment.

        While we’re understanding the amulet as its own entity, I’d like to stress that it’s fucking evil. Blackwell is evil, but his evil was situational; the amulet’s evil is inherent. This is relevant because it affects the decisions that the amulet makes about worth. The worth of the blood that Blackwell offers to the amulet is determined in part by how much the blood’s owner is worth to Blackwell. 

        Which means it’s determined in part by how connected he is to the person/creature he takes the blood from. With any other human, there’s a connection of species, so any human’s blood will be accepted. The blood of someone Blackwell truly cares about would be a more powerful fuel than the blood of a stranger*, but a human stranger’s blood will still work. 

*Blackwell has no idea about this part, becauseboth a) there have not been many people that he’s truly cared about, and b) of the people he has truly cared about, he’s never attempted to bleed them for the amulet. Because, you know, he cared about them.

        With any creature that clearly operates on the same level of sentience as a human, that level of sentience serves as a connection between them, and their blood will be accepted as a human’s would. Where the level of sentience is a gray area- dolphins, whales, rats, corvids, probably some magical creatures- the amulet makes the call based on Blackwell’s personal emotional connection to the specific creature that gave the blood. Again, Blackwell doesn’t know this because he’s never tried, but some rando dolphin’s blood would have no effect on the amulet. However, if he’d befriended a dolphin (purely hypothetical, please don’t think that Dr. Tullis Blackwell is the kind of person who goes around befriending dolphins) and then took his dolphin friend’s blood (again, purely hypothetical), the amulet would accept it.

        Which is… fuckèd up, really, but hey, that’s evil enchanted amulets for you.

#Anonymous #the carriage held but just ourselves– | THE AMULET #and finish knowing– then– | ABOUT #//i do think it's important to stress the bit that there have still been SOME people whose wellbeing tullis valued over his own #//i haven't done any real writeups about angelo yet so y'all won't know who i'm talking about but let me say this #//a DROP of angelo's blood could have kept the amulet going for MONTHS #//but tullis never found out about that and he never wanted to

[sad--tree]

whats up every1 just finished midnight mass w/ my mum and i am very Fuckèd UP abt it

#i liked it but also. man. what in the goddamn #oof