#i could technically say a lot more but when im asked to infodump my thoughts turn into incoherent screaming

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

I hope this is okay? I also acknowledge I'm pretty unhealthy, but I'm working on myself.I try to appeal to people. I've dealt with regret about decisions I've made under somebody's influence, such as going along with a trip despite being exhausted. I acknowledge the demands that are set on me in any situation and try to perform to them. I'm an artist, and I modify my style based on what I think will be judged best. I don't aim to show off my skills, I aim to succeed in competitions. (1/6)

I'm bad under pressure and sensitive, but I don't like feeling my feelings. I can easily identify them, but I feel awkward expressing them. I would rather explain them or try to find a solution to them, such as relying on habits that make me feel good. I've gotten into meditation and mindfulness to help. I'm dumb with solid facts if I don't have more than necessary amount of context. You could tell me trivia and I will immediately forget it. (2/6)

I was shit at math and physics in school because while I technically understood what everything meant, I didn't process it and I couldn't use it in practice. My brain generalizes information a lot to make it malleable for further use. A friend of mine likes infodumping on me, and while I humor them, I find it pointless because I don't know what to do with that information. I'm also bad at multi-tasking and strategy games, I miss simple details. (3/6)

I am strongly affected by humiliation, and subconsciously seek control in my environment. If I can't get it, I'll escape by daydreaming or ruminating. I can unfortunately get a bit out of touch with reality. I want things strongly, but I don't realize this. Caught in the momentum, I can be manipulative. Stuff like subtly peppering in things I want as being generally positive until the other person comes around. (4/6)

Im constantly comparing myself to the people around me. It took me years and years to make peace with the fact there will always be someone better than me. I don't assume control without asking, as I don't like bullies, but I like being in leadership positions. If the opportunity arises, I only take the lead if nobody else does. I have a lot of anxiety. I'm not conflict averse, however, and match the energy I perceive. My brain seeks patterns, so that can lead to grudges and suspicion. (5/6)

I kinda feel good fighting on the behalf of other people. I don't mesh with people easily in a casual setting because I'm the guy who takes everything "that deep" when it isn't to others. I think I might be ENFP cp6, but ive looked into various other types. Thoughts? (6/6)

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Hi anon,

So here’s the thing: you acknowledge you’re unhealthy, and you’re working on it, and that’s good, but because almost everything in here is you saying what you’re not good at, or your negative traits, it’s really hard to type anything from it. So much of it is what you’re not that it’s hard to get a picture of what you are like, so typology in general might be something that is best left on the back burner for a while, to revisit when you have a more neutral or positive perspective on yourself.

To go through what there is: focusing on what the demand is for and always trying to be that person or fill that need sounds potentially like 2, potentially like 3, particularly since it seems you do this both for people and to win. I would look at those and see if either strikes you as more likely.

The difficulty with academic areas without practical applications but also bad with facts and details is a case where those things rule out both sensing and intuition, so that’s an area where figuring out which you are better at and focusing on what skills you have would be helpful in typing. I will say that if you are not good at multitasking, you are probably not an ENFP - high Ne users often excel at multitasking where most people do not. You mention looking for patterns a lot as well which is more likely either Ni or Si in a high position. I’d look at Ni because you mention taking things too deep, since that is something of a hallmark.

Another thing you mention is disliking experiencing your emotions and not always being in touch with what you actually want, which is another point strongly against ENFP and high Fi, but depending on context could be either Fe or a thinking function. Given the potential for high Ni, I would look at Fe and Te; this may also help narrow down your enneatype (TJs are almost never 2s, though FJs can be 3s). The thing you mention as manipulation though...doesn’t sound like it, or if it’s manipulative it’s some very low-level, most people do this sometimes stuff. It would be worth looking into what happens if the other person never comes around and what you do in that case.

#mbti #enneagram #Anonymous

[autisticpika]

@circusbabys HOLEY MOLEY okay here i go!!!!! thabk u my sweet friend.. also lets hope tumblr doesnt mess up the spacing since im on mobile xD A- i have a few autie friends!!! most of them are on here (like u thwompus!!!) but otherwise i dont have many autistic friends irl. i have a friend at the b&g club but we are very different and i had 2 friends from my old school but we dont rlly talk anymore. if i do have any more autie friends irl, theyre undiagnosed i guess ? B- i love visual stimming so much!!! i have a blog dedicated to just visual stimmy videos @pokemonyello (shameless self promo lol) also i love tactile stimming even though my skin picking makes it restricting to tactile stim much. i also totally dig chewing on things from food to.. not food. i wish i had a chew necklace that i could wear in public :P i have one but its big and meant for babies so.. needless to say i dont wear it much C- i kkkkind of answered this in the last one? but more specifically i like stims like rocking when i can, rubbing silky textures like my lanyard/baby blanket (i like smooth textures like the silicone charm on my lanyard i have to stop myself from chewing on it haha) and i love rubbing my fingers together i was literally just doing it while i was trying to think of another example lol!! D. when i was rlly young just barely before i was introduced to pokemon i was really fixated on animals, specifically like insects (like satoshi tajiri!!) and dinosaurs! i looooved dinosaurs and owned lots of books on them. i also really loved steve irwin the crocodile hunter i sent a letter to him when i was 5ish :3 and of course pokemon came around eventually lol! E. four fun facts!!! hmm heck. im bad at this, i can usually come up with facts depending on random context better,, 1. did u know that the Official pokemon mascot was almost clefairy? they eventually decided pikachu was more gender neutral i gues (u kno... bc clefairy is Pink... thas for gorls only everyone knows) 2. did u know pokemon stadium in the us was actually technically the intended expansion to japanese pokemon stadium? it was meant for the nintendo 64 disc drive as an upgrade to the original game but the disc drive did not do well so they just sold it as pokemon stadium (1) in the us as a separate game. 3. super smash brothers for the 64 actually started out as just a plain ole fighting game! the liscensed characters came into the picture later because the makers thought it would make the game more appealing to have it star characters like mario, link, pikachu, and captain falcon. 4. (this one i just learned a couple days ago!) in super monkey ball 2, in the name selection before you start story mode, there is every letter in the alphabet except for lower case w! you can type a capital w but no lower case. also some levels have background things removed to compensate for space, like how the fish is removed in the level "URL" and the vegetables in the soup are gone from... the level with the multiple wormholes and the tilty small paths? i forgot the name of that level :'3 also in one of the levels one of the background assets is randomly yellow, even though that part isnt yellow anywhere else. i forgot which level this one was too haha. F. im a mixture of being loud and quiet! around people i dont know im usually quiet and avoid talking/interacting with people but if youre someone im comfortable with its hard to get me to even stop talking and i can get accidentally pretty loud xD G. usually avoider? i think? if im alone at home i seek sensory input but i avoid unexpected/uncontrolled noise or overwhelming feeling textures a lot H. lots!!!! i love big sweaters, shirts, pants, stuff like that! sometimes stuff like skinny jeans or leggings is okay but not too tight. same with shirts. i end up feeling really uncomfortable in tight clothes I. honestly i dont get many autistic related accomodations from people since im not diagnosed and im not out to most people.. but sometimes my mom will give me apples in my lunch but when she does she peel s the skins off of the slices because she knows i cant stand the texture of the skins. she is so kind :) J. https://youtu.be/rUEVjLvO6FA this video of me when i was about 11? very much me very much an autie child... if u watch it u can tell i clearly havent changed much hahaha K. usually my fav sensory outfit is about what im wearing now, except im wearing not as comfortable tightish pants also my shirt isnt as comfortable but i wore it bc its a pokemon shirt... so thats good. but my hoodie rn is a Good L. when i was little i always kinda thought they looked like hamster paws but i didnt really call them that? i used to do that with my hands bc my friend did it too but my mom stopped me lol. now i like raptor hands and kitty hands thats rlly good M. i always loved imitating animal noises, especially cats! i love meowing at my cat back when she does it :P also this isnt Animal mannerisms, but my mom said i used to try to make facial expressions and talk like i was a cartoon character which is still kinda how i see myslef haha! also i used to pretend i was pikachu even if i was just alone also one day i only talked to my mom in pikachu speak (pika pika!) N. i used to love mac and cheese but Only the kraft kind with the skinny noodles, i would not eat any other shape of noodles haha. also i went through a phase where i wouldnt eat anything with melted cheddar on it (which is weird bc now i love cheese) also one of my favorite foods in the whole world when i was in 1st grade were these little mexican chocolate cake treats they had jelly in them and my friend roberto used to give me them at lunch i wanted them all the time!! i tried looking up the name of them i found buba lubas and they were rlly similar but i dont think it was exactly those O. now i dont rlly? have "same foods" mostly because im less picky now and i will eat most things... but i think anything with dairy is kind of a comforting constant, like if we have rice and curry or soup or smth i always put sour cream/greek yogurt/ranch in it otherwise it feels like a chore to eat lmao? P. already answered!! Q. time for my own question!!! for my autie followers: did u guys ever have stuffed animals/toys you really loved or love now? u should share abt ur favorite toy in the replies!! infodumping is fun, feel free to tell me abt ur favorite pal as much as u want my dudes thank u thwomp for the ask!!! i spent so much time answering this it was a lot of fun :3

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