#i gained like..... god 50lbs doing that with him ? and it stuck? as a kid i was obsessed with weighing myself. any time i gained weight itd

[darksouls2yuri]

idk sometimes I would simply like to fall asleep

#txt #i have a lot of feelings abt eating and my mom because i was underweight most of my life up until recently. #as a little kid i would always hover around maybe 30lbs and my mom would say im just small boned. like what does that mean. #and i wasnt in school or seeing a doctor so its not like anyone outside of my family was seeing me for long enough #from middle school to high school age i was floating around 80-95 most of the time. i wld cramp all the time and was so tired #i didnt start gaining weight until i was 17 and i started working for my dad. he took me on roadtrips and we ate out constantly #i gained like..... god 50lbs doing that with him ? and it stuck? as a kid i was obsessed with weighing myself. any time i gained weight itd #always go away fast. i could never keep up any consistent gained weight. #my mom loves to call me fat and lazy and unhealthy now that i have a healthy weight and its awful i hate her i hate her #shes overweight and always struggled with being overweight. she is literally almost 200lbs overweight. and she projects all of that onto me #idk #um #vent